Read the stickies. More specifically the First Cycle and PCT stickie. Sounds like you didn't do a PCT and lost most of your gains. You should get most of your answers by reading the stickies.

Greetings,
Let me begin by giving some background. 34, male, 4-5 cycles under my belt beginning back in college (98-01) with the latest being Aug-Sept. I have never joined a forum or sought outside help, I just did my own research and chose my anabolics based upon that.
Up until this year, I only used Deca by itself, this year I used Sustanon 300 alone. I was suprised at the strength and size increase, but unfortunately lost most of the size while maintaining a good bit of the strength. The reason I chose Sustanon was my last cycle of Deca was junk (got it from a friend of a friend). Whether it be just a crappy batch or my body not responding, I chose to go with the Sus. Now that I am wanting to put some size back on, I am lost about what to go with. My goal is to hover around 200 lbs, currently 190. I had good size and was able to maintain most of my reaction/quickness for JKD/Kali while on the Sustanon, it was just extremely sore 2nd and 3rd day post inject.
My question is two fold, first, Is there a substance alone or in combo that will allow me to hit 200-205 while on it THEN stay at 200 when off of it? Second, I currently posses an OTC Turinabol, I was looking for a dry compound and this is what the guy suggested at a local store here. Should I try and stack something with the Turinabol for my desired results?
Sorry if choppy or long winded, wasn't sure how to best explain my current situation. Any and all info./suggestions are greatly appreciated

Read the stickies. More specifically the First Cycle and PCT stickie. Sounds like you didn't do a PCT and lost most of your gains. You should get most of your answers by reading the stickies.
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It's really hard to keep it all, even with the best pct you lose some. The better your pct the less weight you lose. But if you want to stay at 200, it depending on how much you weight now try to hit 210 do a proper pct and most likely you can stay between 200-205 when off. Although this will be harder if you currently weight less than 180 currently. Try to use substances that don't retain a lot of water, as this is what boosts you gains but also what makes them go away faster. If you're not aiming at getting huge fast try some dryer steroids. Like Tbol, Winny, Primo, EQ, either one always with test. Prop preferably. As rippy said, read the stickies first.

thanks gents, headed to the stickies!
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