Re: Becoming a FREAK

**JCBourne** · 11-08-2011, 10:47 PM

Wow, Heavy's thread got me thinking and here's my own story.

I'm very serious about becoming a freak. I grew up as a kid who was skinny and picked on. When I was 12 I was taught by my grandpa who was professional boxing coach. He taught me how to box and how to stick up for myself. His one rule, don't throw a punch unless you need to and never pick on someone else. I agreed. As time went by, kid's would pick on me and I would whoop the shit out of them. Each time I was picked on, I would throw down and whoop the shit out of the next guy. Didn't matter the size, they didn't know how to fight and I did. Slowly, these punk kids got the idea, mess with me and I will fight.

Once and awhile I would get these dumb ass people trying to start shit for no reason, and I figured it was because I was a skinny, tall guy. Finally at 21 I decided "FUCK IT" time to go and get on it. Slowly learned how to diet better, train correctly and learned about what steroids I would use in the future.

When I hit my mid 20's was when I got real serious. Fuck this same routine, same diet, slow gains, asking for knowledge from dumb people I'm going to do this for real and get rolling.

I hit the gym like it's the last time I'm ever going to workout. Doctors tell me you shouldn't be working out you have back injuries from a car accident... I laugh inside saying "fuck you, you don't know what it's like to be called skinny and picked on".

405 on squat is feeling heavy today, I'm just not feeling it, damn I do not want to be here... Look around the room at all the skinny, dumb ass people, switch the song and tell myself "don't be a pussy, you got this" and hit the weights.

Getting dizzy now, wow about to throw up. Good your pushing yourself keep it up, feel that sweat dripping off your face and your shirt soaked? That's being a man and not a pussy like the rest of these guys.

No excuses, the cards are stacked against me in more then one way, hell I shouldn't even be lifting the way I do. But I do because it makes me feel good and not feel like the average Joe.

Friends go out and eat junk food while i'm eating the same shit I do every other day just to stay lean and continue to lose body fat. Don't have time to cook? I make time. I continue to find ways to grow and become bigger.

I'm by no means a huge guy like some of the guys on this forum (heavy), but the way I walk and hold myself (as i'm told) I'm not a small guy. I'm on my way to becoming a freak. I don't walk around like a bad-ass or think I'm some cool guy, I walk around like I know what's up and that if you mess with me you will be delt the card of fate of picking on someone. That card of fate will be whooping the shit out of you, I really don't walk around the way I do because I mean to, its because its who I have become.

Time to get real serious and i've cut more fat, look more lean and have vains popping out like never before. "Wow man your getting big", "Been working out?", "What's your secret, steroids?"

Fuck you. A fat fuck, dumb ass kid could take steroids and gain barely anything, my secret is years i've put into research on diet, training and then even more hours busting my ass 110% in the gym and eating stuff I hate. This isn't a hobby this is a way of life. Steroids are just a small part of it, the temptations to eat shitty meals all day for a day sound so great but I will not do it. Man that candy looks good, nope don't touch it.

I'll hit the weights till I can't walk or pass out. I leave the gym weekly feeling dizzy and like shit from pushing my body so hard, I can barely walk sometimes from the training but it isn't going to stop me.

Please come fuck with me now, oh wait, scared cause I'm not a small bitch boy anymore? Going to run your mouth behind my back in hopes I don't find out? Don't worry, you aren't worth my time anymore your just a jealous chump who saw me blast past you over the years and you think the only thing i've done is "steroids"

Pain in weakness leaving the body, so bring it on pain. I deal with you 27/4 you aren't going to bring me down.

**meow** · 11-09-2011, 01:09 AM

Good stuff!

**Mkpaint** · 11-09-2011, 03:32 AM

I've got similar condition was fat kid and adult now I'm down and not fat anymore, but still have fat kid mentality. I will never be that again and will be big on day. Freak probably isn't in my future but who knows as this addiction to the gym continues to grow. Hell never thought I could have abs at all. Now I am starting to see that once I drop another 10-20 I might have some. I'm 5'8" so big for me will be 210-230 at a decent bf level. It has became an obsession!

**Culler** · 11-09-2011, 06:57 AM

Another awesome post! Thanks for the sharing this bro, huge motivation! I can't wait for 9:00 so I can go do the same thing!! Meanwhile, I'll go eat these discusting oats & greek yogurt (I bought the wrong flavour, it's gross, but I'll eat it anyways!).
Not get back to the gym!!

**GMO** · 11-09-2011, 07:17 AM

Originally Posted by GymRat4Life

I'll hit the weights till I can't walk or pass out. I leave the gym weekly feeling dizzy and like shit from pushing my body so hard, I can barely walk sometimes from the training but it isn't going to stop me.

^^^That's it right there. That's what separates the men from the boys...the freaks from the average joes. Good post brother.

**nick52** · 11-09-2011, 07:29 AM

great stuff heavy, gymrat, i read that post, in high school i was 97lbs, there wasnt a contact sport i could join.i was so shy i avoided being rejected by the girls! so in reading that post i found exactly where i am right now faced with the reality that this is the life i choose. i also thought use steroids get big, well after hanging around i realize diet, diet, diet eat big get big,its not easy and yes it hurts and life isnt as exciting but im not 97lbs any more although im still a newb ive learned from the guys who came before me, you guys,thanks fellows! for keeping it real, im 52 and still love the pump!!!!

**TriumphTt600** · 11-09-2011, 09:15 AM

Good post!!!!!!!!

**BigBird** · 11-09-2011, 09:38 AM

Weighed 101 my freshman year in HS. There was only one avenue in sports that would prove useful to me throughout the remainder of my life: wrestling. Wrestled from 6th - 12th grade. Loved it, hard work required indeed. Always - ALWAYS have gained upper hand - thanks to skills acquired through wrestling - when grappling with bigger stronger friends and when getting into fights throughout college. Many times the opponent at some frat party would be the drunk burly loudmouth cocksucking tough guy-type. Ha. They never stood a chance b/c they didn't have a fucking clue how to use their body. I showed them quick, fast and in a hurry, that they fucked with the wrong bull. Lightning-fast left cross followed by ground n pound and he didn't know his own name when I got up off him. Total domination. The so-called "bully" would never even make eye contact with me again. lol. Ahhhh, how I love to reminisce. I was always laid back and easy going but for some reason (still unknown to me), assholes always loved to fuck with me. Maybe b/c I used to "look" like an easy opponent? Now, I have achieved the kind of physique which acts as a deterrent to would-be "tough" macho but low self-esteem guys.

**J.thom** · 11-09-2011, 09:56 AM

sounds like you got some emotional issues bro. You lift weights because you got picked on? hmmmm to each of their own I guess.

**Jt123** · 11-09-2011, 10:31 AM

great post gymrat! keep it up

**KILLEROFSAINTS** · 11-09-2011, 10:45 AM

lol at the sad desperate copycat thread

**longworthb** · 11-09-2011, 10:51 AM

I see no problem lifting for self esteem issues. if u see something wrong with yourself and you have the ambition to change it then more power to you. good post. I wasnt tiny but I was skinny. 165 at 6ft is where I started. I still see myself as the skinny kid buy I feel a lot better about myself. confidence.is.key

**JCBourne** · 11-09-2011, 11:18 AM

Originally Posted by KILLEROFSAINTS

lol at the sad desperate copycat thread

Its not a copy, in fact its more of my story of what really got me into the gym. Heavys thread inspired me to make this thread. I got a ton of respect for heavy and he motivates me (as well as do others) on this forum to continue to grow, push and succeed.

For the others, ill write up more later. Crazy day, so short post. Get at it bros, hit the gym like theres no tomorrow.

**JCBourne** · 11-09-2011, 04:54 PM

Originally Posted by J.thom

sounds like you got some emotional issues bro. You lift weights because you got picked on? hmmmm to each of their own I guess.

Nah man. I'm a up-beat guy who loves life and all the little perks it throws at me. I like a challenge, this is one of my biggest challenges ever. Becoming the beast I want to become.

**J.thom** · 11-09-2011, 05:02 PM

Originally Posted by GymRat4Life

Nah man. I'm a up-beat guy who loves life and all the little perks it throws at me. I like a challenge, this is one of my biggest challenges ever. Becoming the beast I want to become.

Yeah, I agree with you on that you should lift for yourself and no one else.

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