Victoria
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Hi guys. I know Im not around much, but Im a loyal IM member, and I really trust your opinions. This may come across as weird, but I really need to talk to people. And it cant be anyone I really "know".
I know this is a bodybuilding site, but I also know you guys will give some sound advice.
Im in a rut with my boyfriend of three years. We live together and when we first got together, we had fallen so hard for each other, that we had slowly created our own little relationship where we hardly spend it with anyone at all but each other. Our friends see us as such an ideal couple, never have problems, everything is perfect. But our friends no longer know the real "us" of who we have really become. So I cant talk to them.
Im so paranoid when it comes to love, and distrustful (from past relationships) and I cant help but think that sometimes he is too good to be true. Truly. Like he is the most "ideal" boyfriend, in the sense that he is always considerate, chivalrous, expresses his feelings, breaks down and cries when we fight really bad, and shows his love for me in everything he does.
My trust issues come from within. I feel like he cant be that perfect. I feel like there is somewhere inside him that is a "guy" (sorry fellas) and will always want to be with other women, and always wonder what he's missing out on. When his work sends him on business overnight, I think - wow, what a great opportunity to cheat on me. And then I envision it, and I get angry. My heart hurts and I just dont want to deal with a relationship. period.
He (of course) gets very tired of reassuring me sometimes and I have to swawllow my fears and get a grip, but my paranoia is becoming unbearable. He is going away on business for a weekend meeting. (who the hell does that?) and all I can think is, a weekend meeting? Who would schedule a wweekend meeting? What a perfect excuse if he was doing something behind my back.
The problem is, Im depressed. because I feel like If I have nothing to worry about, Im self-distructing myself. And if I do have something to worry about, I want to know about it now. (Even though he always says I have nothing to worry about).
Im beginning to feel like even though we are soulmates, I will be happier alone. Does anyone ever feel like this? Ever? And how the hell do you reassure yourself when this is your own battle within?
Any advice would truly do me wonders right now. ( thanks.
-V
I know this is a bodybuilding site, but I also know you guys will give some sound advice.
Im in a rut with my boyfriend of three years. We live together and when we first got together, we had fallen so hard for each other, that we had slowly created our own little relationship where we hardly spend it with anyone at all but each other. Our friends see us as such an ideal couple, never have problems, everything is perfect. But our friends no longer know the real "us" of who we have really become. So I cant talk to them.
Im so paranoid when it comes to love, and distrustful (from past relationships) and I cant help but think that sometimes he is too good to be true. Truly. Like he is the most "ideal" boyfriend, in the sense that he is always considerate, chivalrous, expresses his feelings, breaks down and cries when we fight really bad, and shows his love for me in everything he does.
My trust issues come from within. I feel like he cant be that perfect. I feel like there is somewhere inside him that is a "guy" (sorry fellas) and will always want to be with other women, and always wonder what he's missing out on. When his work sends him on business overnight, I think - wow, what a great opportunity to cheat on me. And then I envision it, and I get angry. My heart hurts and I just dont want to deal with a relationship. period.
He (of course) gets very tired of reassuring me sometimes and I have to swawllow my fears and get a grip, but my paranoia is becoming unbearable. He is going away on business for a weekend meeting. (who the hell does that?) and all I can think is, a weekend meeting? Who would schedule a wweekend meeting? What a perfect excuse if he was doing something behind my back.
The problem is, Im depressed. because I feel like If I have nothing to worry about, Im self-distructing myself. And if I do have something to worry about, I want to know about it now. (Even though he always says I have nothing to worry about).
Im beginning to feel like even though we are soulmates, I will be happier alone. Does anyone ever feel like this? Ever? And how the hell do you reassure yourself when this is your own battle within?
Any advice would truly do me wonders right now. ( thanks.
-V