Hi everyone!!!!
Im sure a lot o people know me in here, a few that I have had bad experiences with and a few that were cool with me. OK, so here is my huge problem that Bugs me and hurts my heart even more........ I have a girlfriend which i have been going to with for 2 years some months now (as some of you know from my other thread ). We have been thru a lot together and learned a lot from one another and shanged so much over the time we have been together. I love her sooo much, we were two totaly different people when we met but we both picked something up from one another, we had our bad times and our good times, but this time it seems like it is not going to be a happy ending , couple of months ago verything was fine we got along together and were hanging out together all the time and being intimate like real love birds as usua, it was acctually so good that i thgought of buying her a "promise ring" for christmas but before that i made a thread and talked to you guys about if she is the "right one for me". Well this is going to sound weird to you guys, but, ever since the next day i posted that thread alllllllllllllllllllll went down hill for my relationship with the love of my life. We started fighting and she was more jelous than ever, it got so intence at times that i just borke up with her once (for like 5 minutes and then we got back together, dont laugh its not funny). I got soooooo stressed about the subject if she was the one girl for me that i only say the bad things about her and didnt concentrate of the good things that keep our relationship alive. We would be just fine one minute and the other minute she got on my nerves so much by saying something stupid and we were right at it, it also happenes so much that we both dont even care about what the other persons says and we just both say wahtever. One night everything is so good and we think we got things all back together again and the next morning the same shit happenes again. I went cliff climbing the other day with my best friend, (we didnt even plan it we just came across that thing in a mall) and we decited to go and do it, when my girlfriend calls me on my cell phone and i tell her what i was doing, when i told her what i was doing she got soooo pissed and said that "why dont you ever go do that with me" and hung up the phone, (she was at work at that time yeah, go figure. She also gets mad when i go test drive cars with my buddy's, and says again, why dont you go do that with me (even thoguth she doesnt like it when i drive like an "idiot" . (isnt that wha you do on a test drive) ??? , i also get soooooo stressed up and scared of when and if we get married that she will turn into a bitch like her stupid bitch mom, im just sooo stressed , one minute i think it would be better to get away from her but then the other minute when i realize how it would be without her i take everything back. I know in my heart that im madly in love with her but it just doesnt want to comme outside. Its hard to expalin to explain how i feel but lately i even start bitching at her over the smalest smalest smalest things, and i cant even talk to her normaly any more without me being iritaded or bitchy. There is sooo many thing to write more, but you all probobly stoped reading by now, i feel really sad and i have the breakup feeling in my stomach and i truly feel like crying, i know we need to make things better but i cant help it im still bitchy when i talk to her and iritated.I dont know what to do anymore, that whole feeling has gone out of my system and i dont know what the problem here is, i dont know how to explain how i feel anymore, ( she also says that i like bodybuilding more than i like her and that i work harder at bodybuilding than at our relationship, ) i just think thats total bullshit, i dont know anymore honestly.............................................................. pleas ehelp me people i feel really sad...................
Im sure a lot o people know me in here, a few that I have had bad experiences with and a few that were cool with me. OK, so here is my huge problem that Bugs me and hurts my heart even more........ I have a girlfriend which i have been going to with for 2 years some months now (as some of you know from my other thread ). We have been thru a lot together and learned a lot from one another and shanged so much over the time we have been together. I love her sooo much, we were two totaly different people when we met but we both picked something up from one another, we had our bad times and our good times, but this time it seems like it is not going to be a happy ending , couple of months ago verything was fine we got along together and were hanging out together all the time and being intimate like real love birds as usua, it was acctually so good that i thgought of buying her a "promise ring" for christmas but before that i made a thread and talked to you guys about if she is the "right one for me". Well this is going to sound weird to you guys, but, ever since the next day i posted that thread alllllllllllllllllllll went down hill for my relationship with the love of my life. We started fighting and she was more jelous than ever, it got so intence at times that i just borke up with her once (for like 5 minutes and then we got back together, dont laugh its not funny). I got soooooo stressed about the subject if she was the one girl for me that i only say the bad things about her and didnt concentrate of the good things that keep our relationship alive. We would be just fine one minute and the other minute she got on my nerves so much by saying something stupid and we were right at it, it also happenes so much that we both dont even care about what the other persons says and we just both say wahtever. One night everything is so good and we think we got things all back together again and the next morning the same shit happenes again. I went cliff climbing the other day with my best friend, (we didnt even plan it we just came across that thing in a mall) and we decited to go and do it, when my girlfriend calls me on my cell phone and i tell her what i was doing, when i told her what i was doing she got soooo pissed and said that "why dont you ever go do that with me" and hung up the phone, (she was at work at that time yeah, go figure. She also gets mad when i go test drive cars with my buddy's, and says again, why dont you go do that with me (even thoguth she doesnt like it when i drive like an "idiot" . (isnt that wha you do on a test drive) ??? , i also get soooooo stressed up and scared of when and if we get married that she will turn into a bitch like her stupid bitch mom, im just sooo stressed , one minute i think it would be better to get away from her but then the other minute when i realize how it would be without her i take everything back. I know in my heart that im madly in love with her but it just doesnt want to comme outside. Its hard to expalin to explain how i feel but lately i even start bitching at her over the smalest smalest smalest things, and i cant even talk to her normaly any more without me being iritaded or bitchy. There is sooo many thing to write more, but you all probobly stoped reading by now, i feel really sad and i have the breakup feeling in my stomach and i truly feel like crying, i know we need to make things better but i cant help it im still bitchy when i talk to her and iritated.I dont know what to do anymore, that whole feeling has gone out of my system and i dont know what the problem here is, i dont know how to explain how i feel anymore, ( she also says that i like bodybuilding more than i like her and that i work harder at bodybuilding than at our relationship, ) i just think thats total bullshit, i dont know anymore honestly.............................................................. pleas ehelp me people i feel really sad...................