I've been wasting my time.

I really love lifting weights. I really do. I can't think of any other thing I'd rather be doing. Of course, I started lifting weights for all the wrong reasons and I made a great deal of beginner mistakes, and I still make some, but when it comes down to it I can't think of anything I'd rather be doing. When I'm lifting I really go off into my own world most of the time. I think people at the gym probably think I'm really antisocial but it's not really the truth. I'm actually a very social person, but when I'm lifting I tend to zone out, and that's all that matters. Forget the chicken. Forget the brown rice. Forget the protein shakes. Forget the supplements. Forget cars. Forget girls. Forget work. Forget school. It's nothing but the weights and in that moment theirs nothing between us but air and opportunity. I don't care how big you are or how much respect I have for you I'm going to do everything in my power to work harder than you, and that's just the way I am in the gym. I was off schedule this week because I was on vacation, so I went into the gym later than usual. For some reason I got a bunch of really bad vibes just for being there from some people like I didn't belong there. I really don't know why, but that's just the way I felt about it. Then something on new years made me realize I had been wasting so much of my time with some many people. I ended up slow dancing with this girl I've known a long time. We're just really good friends and there's nothing more to it, but I realized how she was such a great friend and that I'd do anything for her. I realized how much time I've wasted trying to get to know people who didn't really want to bother getting to know me this year. I realized that even though my hard work was paying off I wanted to work harder. This coming year I want to put more effort into the things that matter and the people that matter and not waste my time with those that never really cared any longer. I've learned a lot of lessons this past year, and I feel like I've just laid the groundwork for what's yet to come. When I walk out of the gym you may not like me, but chances are you will respect me. Like me or not I know why I’m there, who I am and where I’m going. And the bottom line is that I’ve only just begun.