I'm going to bed, so let me vent this. I want you guys to know a lot about my problem.
I'm 23 and in high school i weighed about 185 at one point and lost weight quick. So, when i was 18 i got to about 165 and dropped to 155 and have stayed there since until i started working out and running. Now, i'm down to 144 but still feel fat. I have that fat look in my stomach still, where it looks pudgy. When i sit bent over a lot, my skin will roll a little bit making me feel disgusting. It feels like that won't go away. It makes me not want to go to the beach, which is why i want those abs. Since i have a short torso and big ribs, i look weird in my opinion. I hate my look...Although, because i have broad shoulders and a thin looking stomach (through clothes) i pull a lot of chicks...The thing is, i really don't have the body it appears i have...My arms are small, but not disgusting small. (You can judge by my weight)
The thing is, the more i do what i'm doing, i'm losing weight. I am losing body fat, but not in the right area. I lose it in my face, legs, arms, and that makes me start to look too skinny...WTF? I can't focus on one part of the body...
I'm thinking about saying screw it and just getting bigger. Then, i will never have the abs i have wanted. Being bigger at one point in my life has determined me to try and get something i thought i would never have. Still, no success...Which is why i think i just don't have the genetics, but anyone should be able to get their arms and chest bigger...
Also, i will be working a lot this semester for my new job and going full time to school. I won't be able to attend a gym, so i do all workouts at home. I run around the block for cardio. I have free weights and a bench and i figure doing pushups and advanced sit ups is enough for getting the simple cut look i want...I just think i need to lose this fat...Maybe it's not fat, but skin? I think i'm screwed...
Maybe i should just get bigger, but then i need to eat more i would think....I don't know, i need some advice. I feel great when i workout, but i really want a good change in my body. Bigger arms and chest, or really lean and cut. I'm closer to being cut, so i think that makes more sense, but it seems to be going no where...I'm not like your typical 144lb person it seems like...That would be because i was overweight at one point...



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