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Posted by: Jill

Quote:

Originally posted by hikerchick

I am definitely an all or nothing person. So, for me giving up sugar was a must. If I allow myself a little of it I want ALL of it. I'm like Jodies husband, I have to finish something off so it's not there to cheat with the next day. Where this thinking started I don't know.

I can totally relate to that Hiker. Great post

Posted by: Stacey

Awesome Post Hiker! I am like you when it comes to maintaining the weight I'm at..but I want to lose JUST 5lbs. It just won't come off.

HI JSTAR

Posted by: jstar

Hello lovely ladies!
I am sneaking on again :shh:

I didn't have time to post my pics but I will as soon as I get a chance (and figure out how to do it). They have been taken and I don't think they are too bad but I want to get into contest shape. I may do a May 15th show if I feel ready, we'll see. I will let everyone here comment and tell me when the time comes. I love my digital camera!

I will post my diet from yesterday too but that will have to wait b/c I don't have it here in front of me. I did 1 hr of cardio on the elliptical and it felt great. It took a lot for me to force myself to do it but I did it. I am on day 2 no caffeine - just water - wooohooo. The headache today is FAR duller than yesterday. I was SO tired last night I went to bed at 9:30 which is VERY earlier for me. No doubt it was the withdrawals making me loopy and tired all day.

Hiker - you are SO sweet. I loved your post hun and I will ck out your journal and PM you this weekend.

gotta go- ooops!

Posted by: JLB001

Posted by: jstar

Hi Jodie! How goes it? I can't play on IM too much with this new job

crap my headache is back

Posted by: atherjen

more water missy!! that will help the headaches. try getting some naturally decafinated herbal teas. I sweeten mine with stevia. they are a blessing!! and realy help with cravings for me(and caffiene).

a show May 15th!! wayhhoo!!!

cant wait to see those pics hunniebuns!

Posted by: jstar

I'm on my 3rd liter AJ. I was fine all day but I think staring at this PC screen all day isn't helping either!

Yep - maybe!!! I am going to order a suit soon. Red panne velevet. What do you think of this style? #232 and #233 http://www.bodytecfitness.com/2PcDecorated.html

I might get top style #222 or one with push up pads. I need em!

Posted by: atherjen

I would need more than push up pads.. Id need a wholelota PADDING!

ohhh I really love that red one!!! its soooooo cute!!

Posted by: greekblondechic

that suit is adorable! cant wait for pics!

its funny how you plan on competing, then decide its not right for u right now, then when you RELAX some, you decide you probably can do it after all!

I think thats a lesson to us all (me especially), being uptight gets us nowhere but unhappy

*takes notes.. *do not be uptight*

Posted by: jstar

@ Jen. I have nothing to "push up" either....at least after I am dieted down

I think the red top might work the best w/my build. I also like that it shows the upper pecs of better and my come in nice, I don't want to block them out ya know?

Greek - I do get uptight about all this stuff but I find I do just fine taking it day by day instead of planning everthing down to the last minute detail. I know I can compete again, I will not give up until I get to my goal. I don't care if I fail (binge) a million times, I just get right back to it and give it another try. I don't let myself get discouraged because I look to others for inspiration. I see other girls I know compete and do well and it makes me feel like a baby for not pushing myself enough to reach my goal...I see others on this board going for their goals too and that inspires me so much.

Posted by: jstar

3/30 Meals

M1
1 cup Fiber One
1 scoop US
1/3 cup blueberries
1 ew
335 63C 33P 4F

M2
5 oz chicken deli
salad
200 5C 35P 4F

M3
2 scoops US
1/2 ew
apple
350 29C 41P 8F

M4
3 ff cheese
3 oz turkey
1/2 cup lf cottage cheese
1 cup Fiber One
390 62C 52P 3F

1275 159C 161P 19F

Cardio: 1 hr elliptical

Posted by: atherjen

did you have a busy day missy? only 4 meals.. cals are perdy low too.. (need some fat!)

1hr on the elliptical rollercoaster!!

I walk right off that thing!! I dont know how you do it!

Posted by: jstar

Jen I just ordered the red suit

Yesterday I was getting over my binge so yeah not much food there. Plus with it being the first day of the new job I couldn't really take a break to eat more than once. (I did today though!)

Tonight I wanted to do weights & cardio and did nothing!! My commute home was RE - DICULOUS! I am going to see if I can switch my hrs to 8-4 or maybe 7-3. I need to get my workouts in dammit.

Oh well with this headache I wouldn't have been able to lift much anyways.

Oh, I am TRYING to get my pics downloaded or uploaded or whatever but I can't figure it out

Posted by: hikerchick

Quote:

Originally posted by jstar
I'm on my 3rd liter AJ. I was fine all day but I think staring at this PC screen all day isn't helping either!

Yep - maybe!!! I am going to order a suit soon. Red panne velevet. What do you think of this style? #232 and #233 http://www.bodytecfitness.com/2PcDecorated.html

I might get top style #222 or one with push up pads. I need em!

oooooohhh!! sexy sexy!!

I love the red suit, it's definitely my favorite. I would need a truck load of push up pads!

Posted by: atherjen

HAPP Y BIRTHDAY

Posted by: BabsieGirl

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted by: Stacey

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope you have a WONDERFUL DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted by: Jill

Have a super b-day sweets!! BTW, I am mad at you-I bought "all bran", and cant stop eating it. I tried it with Steves skim milk and it was like heaven!!! The bad side is that eating so much has made me REAL sick-Geeze I've been binging on bran!

needless to say, I threw the remainder of the box into the garbage!

Thats how I control myself

Posted by: jstar

Thanks Everybody :HUGS:

I am sorry Jill. Did you get the one with Xtra fiber? The box I get only comes in a small size (yet Fiber One comes in a regular size box). Oh boy don't overeat it - with that much fiber things get uncomfortable (speaking from experience).

You guys, its POURING here and it's supposed to rain til Monday when it might actually change over to snow. Well at least we spring ahead this weekend. Is it just me or does it seem like we have been waiting to turn the clocks ahead forever this year?

Posted by: Jill

Any plans for your b-day???? Do they involve cake

Posted by: jstar

Oh yeah I am going out to eat this weekend with my boyfriend. He is taking me to Chili's (my fave) for my b-day. I like them because they have a healthy menu and you can get veggies and grilled chicken..mmm. Then my mom is getting me a gift cert so I can buy new sneakers. I have had the same ones for I guess 3-4 years now. My friend is coming out with me on Monday after work so I can get my new sneakers. Any recommendations?

Posted by: jstar

Quote:

Originally posted by Jill
Any plans for your b-day???? Do they involve cake

Ugh. My mom always buys a cake and I never eat it.

It's like a tradition. Well the cake is really for my dad and brothers ha ha. I might freeze a piece and eat it after my competition or when I reach my goal.

I should post of pic of my cake

so you guys can enjoy it too!

errr - as soon as I figure out how to do that!

Posted by: Stacey

oh yum I love Chilis healthy menu!!!!

I like my Nike's

And I have heard New Balance are awesome

omg girl I go through like 3 sneakers a year~ Or more!!!!

Have a wonderful birthday!!!!

Posted by: atherjen

freeze your cake?

thats hilarious! dont let it get freezer burnt!!

I dont think we have Chilis here? we suck.. .

I love Adidas and Nike.. but New Balance are awesome too!! but you pretty much have to get the $$$ ones to get any good ones in that brand!

Posted by: jstar

frozen cake is yummy

I have trouble finding shoes/sneakers that fit that is why I don't buy too many. Some brands are too narrow because I have wide feet. The ones I have now are Avia.

My friend was saying you can go to nike.com and create a custom pair of sneakers for yourself. I think they are called Nike Shocks(?)

Posted by: Jill

I like new balance-the come in various widths!! Thats what Ive bought over the last few years!

Posted by: atherjen

and they are soooooooo comfyyy... well the ones that are 150$ + are.

Posted by: aggies1ut

WTF, 3-4 year old sneakers? I run 4x a week for a total of around 30 miles. You are supposed to get new sneakers every 6 months, or every 500 miles. It doesn't matter if they still look good. After 6 months, the cushioning wears down. Also, I know quite a bit about selecting the right shoe for you foot, but my advice tends to be more runner specific.

Posted by: aggies1ut

Also, rather than being concerned with a specific brand, try on a variety of shoes. Everyone's foot is different and what model shoe or what brand of shoe that works for one, may not work for another.

Posted by: jstar

Yeah like I said I have had a hard time finding ones that fit right. Still I know my sneaks are beyond old

Posted by: jstar

3/31

Meals:
M1
1 cup Fiber One
1 scoop protein
1/2 cp ew
1/3 cp blueberries
335 63C 33P 4F

M2
5 oz turkey
2 ff cheese
salad
260 9C 45P 4F

M3
2 sc protein
apple
320 29C 34P 8F

M4
1 cup oats
3/4 scoop protein
1/2 cp eggwhites
440 58C 38P 9F

M5
3 oz ground turkey 99%FF
2 ff cheese
1 slice turkey
ketchup
1.25 cups Fiber One
360 63C 45P 1F

1715 222C 195P 26F

No workout

Posted by: Stacey

hope your having a wonderful birthday!!!!

Posted by: jstar

awww thanks Stacey, I am!

I am trying to get my pics up here. I successfully loaded my pics from my camera to Kodak EasyShare. It is so cool how you can brighten the photos or get "red eye" out. This is a fun toy

Posted by: atherjen

meals look great today Star! and no bday cake? dedicated golly!

but your right May15th comes fast!

pics! yay! cant wait!! I wish I had a fun toy like that to play with!

Posted by: greekblondechic

I have wide feet, Adidas fit me better than New Balance

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How can you go so long w/ the same shoes? As soon as mine "die" I absolutely need new ones because my feet and ankles start hurting because they need support

Posted by: jstar

Well yesterday was going fine until last night:

I hadn't heard from my boyfriend all day. He never called to wish me a happy birthday so finally I called him at 9pm last night. Basically he broke up with me over the phone. I am a wreck today. I was totally blindsided by this. We hadn't even been arguing at all and to my knowledge everything was great with us. We were looking at condos and talking marriage; now he doesn't want any part of it. I can't make sense of anything right now, I can't believe this is happening, and the way he did it too. Ha, at first I thought it was an April Fool's joke but he was serious. He didn't want to tell me the reason why he wanted to do this; I kept asking and begging him to tell me because after 4.5 yrs down the drain I think the least he could do was give me a reason. I sort of got something outta him: he thinks I am not independent enough! I gather that he thinks this because my mom and I have a close relationship, and yes, I do admit that she still does some things for me because I live at home, not because I ask her to. I have lived on my own before at school (before I met HIM) and did all my own laundry, bills, worked, cleaned, cooked, and pulled an A- average. Yeah, I am trying to move out and become more independent, but the only reason I haven't is due to money. There are MANY people my age, in their late 20's and early 30's still living at home in Mass. because it is damn expensive not too! Anyways...getting back to the subject....I think he got rubbed the wrong way by my mom and now he wants to back out. You see I am the one with the down payment so the condo was to be in my name only. His father has a lot of dough but is stingy and wants him to wait til he dies to inherit it so basically it is up to me if I want a wedding, a place to live, it is my money that has to pay for it! I was actually fine with this because he will inherit some $ and a house with no mortgage so I figured I wouldn't have a ton of worries about money later in life. My now ex was fine with this too (with his name not being on the condo). Then he brought it up a few weeks ago that he wanted me to put his name on the condo too, because his dad won't help us out unless his name is on the condo. I thought it over and said no. My 1st inclination was to say yes because that is just the type of person I am. I trust(ed) him. But I knew it would be wise to say no for now. If we got married it would be 1/2 his anyways after 5 years. My mom found out about this and told me don't do it (she is just trying to protect me) and I stupidly told him my mom said it wasn't a good idea for his name to be on it. Ever since then he started withdrawing from me and not showing any affection whatsoever. He didn't even call me - I had to call him! He was like "I wasn't going to call, I thought you'd figure it out." F-in a-hole!!! I am here at work and cannot concentrate for the life of me.

Posted by: Stacey

OMG!!! Sweetie I am SOOO Sorry!! That is horrible!! I can't believe he wasn't even going to call you and tell you. Thats so rude! Geeez I'm shocked too--thought you guys were doing great just like you did.
That's insane! I'm sure he is totally regretting breaking up with you already

I am here for you if you need to talk!!!

Posted by: jstar

Thanks hun

He said he still loves me but that he is not happy. I just think some guys don't want a future, it is a shame. Plus he led me to believe it the whole time...I feel like I can never trust anyone again.

Posted by: Stacey

Ugggg I'm soo sorrrry girl!!!

I hear ya.. I feel like my husband doesn't want to have a baby with me!!

He's being a complete A-Hole about it all.

We don't need men I swear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All they do is HURT Us!!!

Posted by: jstar

Amen to that!

Stacey - I thought he was all for the baby? Did he change his mind or just start acting weird?

Ya know they say women are impossible to figure out but crap men are WAY WORSE!!!!

Posted by: Stacey

HELL YA.. MEN ARE WAYYY WORSE

I thought he was ready also!!

Guess He really wasn't. I don't know??!!! I Know he was happy when my pregnancy test came back negative last week. So that should have been my first Clue.

Posted by: atherjen

Ahhh Star I am SOOO sorry to hear that hun!! thats terrible!!! I hope your doing ok!!

men make life ruff. gosh-that it totally shocking and downright rude and disrespectful of him to not even call or give an explanation! MEN!!

hang in there hunny! I truly hope that things can be sorted out, and if you need to talk Im here!

Posted by: Dale Mabry

Way too much estrogen going on in here.

I would appreciate a retraction of that blanket statement towards all men.

Anyway, it really sucks that you had to go through that Jstar, especially on your B-day. It amazes me how people handle situations in such a juvenile manner. I cannot believe the way he did this stuff, just unbelievable. From what you said I would bet he thinks your mom pulls all the strings. In general, I would say this is a bad thing, but it would have been really dumb to put his name on that lease so in that respect your mom was right. I think the total irony in this story is that his dad was pulling the strings on his side so it seems he was doing the exact thing that set him off. I guess it is better you find out now rather than later when you have kids and such. If you are meant to be he will be back.

Oh, and Stacey, that sucks on your story too. You and your hubby have alot to talk about. I see it all the time, women come in to my work and you can tell the husbands want nothing to do with the pregnancy and it seems like such a hassle to them. In the end they generally come around though.

In both your and Jstar's case, it seems the guy has no idea what he wants. I would guess that you are in a relationship with someone your own age. I read somewhere that we guys mature later than women, maybe that's it.

Posted by: jstar

Hi Dale

That was such a great post! I am happy to get the opinion of a guy. I definitely don't think "all men are jerks." I am just feeling a little heartbroken right now

You are so right-on about him not knowing what he wants. I think he has some fears, like my mom interfering (which she doesn't - she isn't one of those controlling moms). I also think he fears that if he moves in a condo without his name on it too that he will have nowhere to go if things don't go according to plan. You see he is on section 8 and once he moves out and moves in with me he loses his voucher and has to go back on a LONG list. It may take years for him to get picked again. It would be a risk for both of us but I would think if he cared he would want to be with me. I just don't get it.

Stacey - having a baby is a big shock, a big change I mean. Maybe he needs some more time to get used to the idea(?) You did say before that he was getting excited about it, so he kinda seems to have mixed feelings and maybe some fears about how things will change once the baby comes. I am just assuming, but I think this type of reaction is common for first time dads. He will be there for you, so will we.

Posted by: jstar

Alright, enough relationship pity talk....here is my diet from yesterday:

4/1 - no cake

M1
3/4 cup oats
3/4 scoop protein
1/2 cup ew
375 44C 35.5P 7.5F

M2
1/2 cup oats
salad
5 oz turkey
260 13.5C 48P 3F

M3
1 scoop protein
1/2 cup lf cottage cheese
200 11C 30P 5F

M4
2 oz cooked ground turkey 99% FF
ketchup, onions
85 7.5C 12P .5F

M5
1 cup oats
1 scoop protein
1 TBL PB
1/2 cup ew
575 61C 46P 18F

M6
2 multigrain slices bread
260 46C 8P 4F

1755 183C 179.5P 38F

no workout again.

M3 & M4 were close, like one hour apart.

M6...woke up in the middle of the night, couldn't sleep

Posted by: Dale Mabry

How is he in section 8 housing if his father is rich?

Also, from what I have seen these days, it seems that folks seem to get in a relationship and expect their significant other to remove themselves from their past life. It really is weird if ya ask me. I see it happening to all of my friends and I feel bad. Even when we try to include the spouses they want nothing to do with it. I could never imagine having my life without my friends and family, and I am not even that close to my family.

Posted by: jstar

4/2
Meals
M1
1/2 cup oats
1/2 cup ew
1 scoop protein
330 32C 37P 7F

M2
salad, 1 TBL ff Italian
4.5 oz cooked ground turkey 99% FF
175 8C 32P 1.3F

M3
Pure Protein Bar
170 16C 21P 4F

M4
1 slice multigrain bread
2 ff cheese
190 27C 14P 1F

M5
1/2 cup oats
1 TBL PB
245 29C 9P 11F

M6
2 scoops protein
1/5 cup ew
1 cup grapes
360 39C 37P 8F

M7
2 slices mg bread
260 46C 8P 4F

1730 197.5C 158P 36.3F

Workout = Chest, Back and Abs
1 hr ellipitical

Posted by: JLB001

Men are only good for their penis and lifting heavy objects....

Jstar...I am sorry to hear about the things that are going on. I wish you the best in it all.

Posted by: jstar

Quote:

Originally posted by Dale Mabry
How is he in section 8 housing if his father is rich?

Also, from what I have seen these days, it seems that folks seem to get in a relationship and expect their significant other to remove themselves from their past life. It really is weird if ya ask me. I see it happening to all of my friends and I feel bad. Even when we try to include the spouses they want nothing to do with it. I could never imagine having my life without my friends and family, and I am not even that close to my family.

His dad is really cheap, he thinks he should wait til he passes away before he gives his son any money...some people who have money are weird like that. My ex has bipolar disorder, aka manic depression. He only works part time and gets a check from the gov, which is not much. He really is a great guy and always treated me well. I think he is fearful of how things "may" turn out. Well, life is full of risks but if you never take any you end up depriving yourself of what could have been. I am keeping an open mind and trying to convince myself that everything happens for a reason. That everything that happens to me only makes me a better person. I am trying REALLY hard.

Posted by: jstar

Quote:

Originally posted by JLB001
Men are only good for their penis and lifting heavy objects....

Jstar...I am sorry to hear about the things that are going on. I wish you the best in it all.

thanks Jodie

Posted by: sara

Quote:

Originally posted by jstar
4/2
Meals
M1
1/2 cup oats
1/2 cup ew
1 scoop protein
330 32C 37P 7F

Hey jstar- meals look yummy

Just wondering, where did the 7 F came from?

Posted by: JLB001

Jstar...find one that will treat you like you are #1. Craig's parents raised him the right way. He will put other people's needs before his. And does everything he can to be sure I am happy. It's something I take for granted at times, which I shouldn't do. He's the best.

Posted by: jstar

Quote:

Originally posted by sara
Hey jstar- meals look yummy

Just wondering, where did the 7 F came from?

3g = 1/2 cup oats
4g = 1 scoop Ultra Size protein

US & oats = YUMMY

Posted by: jstar

Quote:

Originally posted by JLB001
Jstar...find one that will treat you like you are #1. Craig's parents raised him the right way. He will put other people's needs before his. And does everything he can to be sure I am happy. It's something I take for granted at times, which I shouldn't do. He's the best.

Does he have a brother

I can tell he is a good one

Posted by: greekblondechic

Honey I am sooo sorry that your ex did that, it was a really F*$%* up thing to do! I think Dale is right, that mainly he's scared of your mom controlling you.. many men fear their mother-in-laws!! I do not know if his bi-polar disorder was a factor in what he did, altho it may very well be. I hope he is seeking psych help and/or medication because it is a difficult thing to live with I can imagine.

Stacey, I think maybe your hubby is afraid because of money and also, a lot of husbands feel neglected when they have a baby because the mothers focus is almost 100% on the baby.

And as for me, I will never date a guy my age.. I feel like a babysitter if i do!!

Posted by: jstar

Greekie -

He is on meds and has a therapist and doctor..lots of support. I mean he said he ran his situation with me by his therapist and friends and they all agreed that he was right. They didn't tell him to break up with me but he did that on his own. I know it's all due to irrational fears on his part, but if he isn't happy I don't think there is much I can do to change that. If he needs time to straighten out his thoughts then I guess I should let him do that. I have not called him and I am trying hard to preoccupy myself so that I won't. Weird but at times like this I usually revert to my bingeing behaviors but this time I don't feel compelled to do so. It won't change things or make me feel any better so why bother, right?

Posted by: JLB001

No brother Jstar, Craig is an only child. Spoiled rotten, but a good one.

I think as pretty as you are on the inside and out, you'll have no problem finding a good one.

Posted by: greekblondechic

No, it wont make you feel any better, just worse.. which leaves us to wonder why we ever do it anyway?

Posted by: jstar

Thanks Jodie. I know you are very deserving of a wonderful guy like Craig. I am deserving too - I just have to be more selective and find me a good one

I am really lonely now, kinda don't know what to do with myself.

***Note to self : DO NOT CALL HIM****

Guys, pls don't let me call him

Posted by: jstar

Greekie yeah I don't know why we do it either, its just a temporary fix. I don't have the urge to eat now, but I have the urge to shop...grrrr should I be fat or broke?

Posted by: JLB001

Hang in there Girlie. It'll take time for those urges to pass.

Go to the gym instead of shopping. You will have to eat soemthing, just make good choices in what you eat, even when you don't feel like eatting. Being depressed over a guy can be a vicious cycle.

Posted by: greekblondechic

I'd rather be broke than fat.

*note to self.. start shopping more often as self-therapy*

Posted by: jstar

Quote:

Originally posted by greekblondechic
I'd rather be broke than fat.

*note to self.. start shopping more often as self-therapy*

NOOOOOO greekie don't do it. I am not broke because I live at home and save, save, save. I always buy things on sale too.l I have tons of clothes and I have jeans and stuff in a smaller size as a goal to fit into....its a waste. Another temporary fix. Last night I was in the gym from 8-930. I was the only one doing freaking cardio in the cardio area at 9 pm! What a loser

but what the hell else am I gonna do? I can't binge - I will gain weight and be more depressed, I can't shop - I will spend $ and I really shouldn't, I am not gonna go out drinking ...I really feel messed up like I don't know what to do with myself though! Ugh! None of my friends are around today. I told one of my friends about the breakup and she is calling me now to make sure I haven't called HIM. I was supposed to go out with her tonight but she has to go to something else so she can't....Tomorrow I think I am going to the Sunday posing session to practice walking in my heels. They have them every Sunday 12-2 and its a good chance to meet all the girls and get out of the house. They all want me to do the April 24th show and think I am ready...lol. Well see.

Posted by: greekblondechic

you should go to the posing session! it might help u decide if u wanna do it or not!

and dont call him!!!!

i feel u on u dont know what to do to make urself feel better.. but for me right now i dont got any bills to pay...

Posted by: jstar

Well I didn't call him

Last night I went out to coffee with my best friend and told her everything. She was awesome and gave me a little pep talk, it made me feel a lot better. Then I dropped her off and went to a couple places by myself looking for sneakers. I am obsessed with trying to find a white and pink pair. I couldn't really find any that fit me right. Asics are the best fit for me but I might wait for them to go on sale cuz they are expensive. Oh well. I bought an outfit for the gym though. Actually, something new to wear to the posing session today.

I am about to get on the elliptical machine in the cellar to get in some cardio before the posing session. When I get back I am going to the gym for legs and possibly more cardio (well see how I feel about that!)

Jodie - great advice. This is what I did on Friday night. I had a long, hard workout and it actually destressed me alot more than shopping or eating. I must remember this!

Are you listening Greekie?

Ah, men. Why would I ever let anyone bring me down like this? I feel like I am going through a lot of soul searching right now. This is good for me, even though it is painful. He was really my first real relationship. We started dating when I was 23, straight outta college so maybe I never really had a real chance to figure out who I am....He is 8.5 yrs older than me and has been in a few relationships so I guess I wasn't as prepared for things ending like this. For so long I thought this was the one, this is it, but now my life is turned upside down, it's weird. All I know is I have got to take care of me and be a little selfish now...do what I want to do and focus on making ME happy.

Posted by: JLB001

Jstar..they bring us down because we are human. Just think if we were a black widow spider.,,,we would just eat them after sex.

Posted by: atherjen

Jodie that is hilarious!!

Star- thats the attitude hun, do whats best for YOU.. and thats not selfish... it is your life! and you need to be happy too!!

Im so glad that your friend was able to cheer you up and be there for support too. always helps I know.
so have you dediced for sure on that comp next month??

I have white and pink sneakers! dont wear them too too much. but then again cant wear them in the winter outside!

ohhhhh and did you get the pics figured out yet hunniebuns?

Posted by: Jill

Hey J-star, Ive been keeping up with your situation, just havent had time to post.

Keep your head up high-IMO-men can deff be imature, pricks, dicks, etc...but we all know that already. Be strong girl, you can get through this, and not turning to food, I am so friggin proud of ya!!! And if you slip, oh well, dont beat yourself up. I believe in you.

Take things one day at a time. Keep those spirits up sunshine! I find, the best stress reliever for me, is doing cardio! BONUS!

Oh, I saw nike pink and white runners the other day, REAL cute! Almost bought em, but I had just bought 2 new pairs a few days before, I held myself back!

Posted by: JLB001

I'm sorry...that thought popped in my head when I was writing it. Think I saw it on the discovery channel.

Posted by: gwcaton

Quote:

Originally posted by JLB001
Jstar..they bring us down because we are human. Just think if we were a black widow spider.,,,we would just eat them after sex.

can a guy visit here ?

Posted by: aggies1ut

Too many people buy sneakers because they think they are "cute," and they aren't right for the activity they want to do or aren't right for their feet. For workout shoes, it's about fit, not style. Just keep that in mind when choosing a pair.

Posted by: jstar

Hey everyone

Jodie....omg I am laughing so hard right now

PS - I think you are scaring off the men from visting my journal

Sorry guys I am just feeling the "girl power" thing right now, no offense

Ohhh Jen - yeah I saw those sneaks you are talking about. Nikes usually don't fit me well, I tried on the pink/white Nikes and they wern't really wide enough. I don't have a clue about downloading the pictures. I have Kodak EasyShare. Easy my ass!....I think I need to download it to a blank CD first (which I need to buy). If anyone is familiar with this type of camera pls let me know. I didn't see how to download to the hard drive in the handbook so I don't think you can do it that way.

Jill - Nice to see ya here again

You are RIGHT ON about the cardio, and throwing some heavy weight around helps to when you are frustrated or mad

Hi gwcaton

Don't be afraid, we don't bite like the black widows

Aggies1ut - Jeesh I have made that mistake before

I am real picky on new sneakers because they have to be comfy so I can do my workouts.

Posted by: jstar

4/3

Meals
M1
3/4 cup oats
1 scoop protein
1/2 cup ew
405 45C 39.5P 8.5F

M2
2 slices multigrain bread
1 ff cheese
290 48C 13P 4F

M3
2 slices multigrain bread
2 ff cheese
320 50C 18P 4F

M4
3/4 cup oats
1 scoop protein
1/2 cup eggwhites
405 45C 39.5P 8.5F

M5
lemon yogurt
1/2 oz almonds
2 slices white bread
1 ff cheese
1 TBL bran
*pizza crust*
520 85C 27P 10F

M6
**2 bulkie rolls

360 62C 16P 6F

2300 335C 152.5P 41F

No workout

Poor food choices, I know. Too much bread

I will be an angel tomorrow though

Posted by: jstar

4/4

M1
2 scoops protein
240 10C 34P 8F

45 min elliptical

M2
mini soy pita
3/4 cup veggies
4.25 oz cooked ground turkey 99% FF
1 ff cheese

TBC...

Posted by: JLB001

A kodak easyshare ls443? does it have the dock station with it?

Posted by: jstar

4/4 Stuff:

I just got back from the posing session and all I can say is wow, I feel like a million bucks

I got a ton of positive feedback from the coaches (Cathy & Linda) and I am now really confident about doing the show on the 24th. They both said I don't seem nervous at all anymore when I walk on stage and hit my poses. That suprised me because I haven't put on my heels in 6 months....but it comes right back like riding a bike I guess. I kinda have a "who gives a shit attitude" so I guess that comes across as confidence on the stage

I wore short shorts and a tank top so they could see my physique and tell me their opinion if I could be ready in time and I was like "yeah but I need to lose more lbs don't I?" and they both shook their heads and called me crazy. They gave us a lot of great advice and tips too, I am glad I went. I always learn something new everytime I go. I also come back with a surge of confidence, they are such an invaluable resource, I could never be so confident without all the support I get there.

Oh with my diet:
I am gonna clean it up way more, esp. cutting back on sodium. Not sodium depletion, just the excess sodium because I have a lot in my diet right now and I am holding water.
*Bread = as of this moment on, no more. I crave it too much and it does bloat me somewhat.
*Dairy = I am almost out of ff cheese and lf cottage cheese. I will use up what I have left then cut it out (too much sodium).
*Fruit = It doesn't make a huge dif if I cut it out or not. I will limit it to just the berries in the AM with my Fiber One.
*Sodium laden products = No more ff dressings, condiments, splenda...it's gone as of right now!
*Diet Soda = at 2 weeks out it will be gone.
*Deli Turkey = crap my mom just bought me 1.5 lbs of it. That will last maybe a week so after that is gone, no more.
*Protein powders = Linda says try to eliminate them totally and rely on real food. I will give it a shot.

I am going to cook a bunch of meals tonight so I can grab them from the fridge and go straight to work. I don't have time to prepare things in the morning, which is why I rely on protein powder a lot

Oh yeah - they also said there is a huge report this month in Consumer Reports about supplements. We are getting a copy next week of the report but everyone should check it out. They said even the ephedra free products are dangerous and can cause kidney problems and all kinds of other problems. Also most of the "fat burner" supps are a waste of money and are actually harmful too. I don't use any, but I know alot of people here do so beware

When I get my copy I will post up more info on this stuff!

Well I am going to get my sneakers and look for an outfit for the "themed sportswear" round. You have to dress up like an athlete, such as a baseball player, basketball, cheerleader, tennis player, whatever. I have to figure out something for that round.

Next week's session is Saturday so I might try to spray tan myself this week so I can "see" myself better!

I'm feeling pretty good today, pretty motivated

Hope everyone is having a great weekend. Too bad it's almost over~!

Posted by: jstar

Quote:

Originally posted by JLB001
A kodak easyshare ls443? does it have the dock station with it?

I didn't get a dock station Jodie and it didn't come with one. Its a Kodak CX6330.
I have the Easyshare CD and downloaded my pics from my camera to the "easyshare" album but how can I link it up to my journal? I tried emailing pictures to myself but it doesn't work?

Posted by: JLB001

let me go look and see if I can figure it out. I think I have that program.

Posted by: JLB001

how are you saving the photos? as a jpeg?

Posted by: atherjen

WAHOOO sounds like things are going awesome Star!! your attitude has really taken a huge turn for the best!!!

ou can TOTALLY do this show and it sounds like you coachs are beind you all the way! go for it hun! you have the drive in your right now, might as well make that "who gives a shit" motto a whirl!!

Posted by: gwcaton

Quote:

Hi gwcaton Don't be afraid, we don't bite like the black widows

Thanks, I was kinda leary about coming in

Posted by: greekblondechic

omg thats awesome news jstar!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted by: jstar

Thanks everyone

I do feel more "driven" - or like I have some unspent energy just dying to get out!

Jodie - I hooked up the UB (I think that is what you call it) cable from my camera to the PC, it downloaded my pics to easyshare. I don't think they are in jpeg, that may be the problem. If you can figure out how to get my pics from easyshare to my hard drive or to my journal, please let me know. Thanks babe

Posted by: jstar

4/4 - Again

M1
2 scoops protein
240 10C 34P 8F

45 min elliptical

M2
4.25 oz cooked ground turkey 99% ff
1 ff cheese
1 mini soy pita
3/4 cup veggies
345 35C 47P 2F

M3
1 ff cheese
2 oz turkey
90 2C 18P 1F

M4
3 cups Fiber One**I kept going back for more!
1/4 cup blueberries
1/2 cup eggwhites
465 158C 27P 6F

M5
1.25 cups Fiber One (yeah more)
1/2 cup eggwhites
205 60C 20P 1.5F

1345 266C 146P 18.5F
Fiber = 119G

Posted by: jstar

4/5 Stuff:

The deadline for my application is 4/10. Oops! I have to get on the ball I am cutting it close!

I am going to the gym tonight to do a full body workout and cardio. I am so excited it will be light out when I leave the gym, woo hoo!

I am not sleeping good at all. The past few nights I have just been laying there in bed til 3-4 am. I just keep thinking about "him" and trying hard not to!

Posted by: Jill

My dig camera was messed too. If I took pics, then hooked up the cameral with the usb cable, the pics would upload as jpegs fine. BUT, if my memory card is in the camera (hold like 50X more pics), it will not upload the pics. I never did figure it out. I just bought a new printer, with a slot that you put the memory card in, screw the camera!

Posted by: jstar

Mine won't let me save them as jpegs...weird. It will let you email them so I emailed one to myself and got an error message. That was 2 days ago and then today the pic arrived in my yahoo mail. Weird, huh? Oh, it's a picture of my cat - let's see if I can post it here...brb

Posted by: jstar

forget it!

Posted by: Jill

That pic stuff gets really annoying eh?

Hey, hows the water drinking going???

Posted by: jstar

4/5
Meals:

M1
1 cup Fiber One
1 scoop protein
1/2 cup blueberries
1/2 cup ew

M2
4.25 oz turkey
salad
1/2 cup oats

M3
4 oz turkey
salad
1/2 cup oats

M4 POST
2 scoops protein
1/4 cup oats
1/4 cup ew

M5
2 cups Fiber One

Workout -
I wish I did cardio buttt... I didn't:

BB Squats
DB Lunges
DB 1 leg DL (form sucked!)
Seated Cable Rows
DB Incline BP
Wide PD (only one set)
DB Laterals
DB Presses
Incline DB Bicep Curls
Tricep Rope Pulldowns
Ball crunches

Posted by: naturaltan

good luck with the comp J! Sounds like you're ready to take some hardware home.

When you email a pic, when extension does it have?

Posted by: Paynne

Don't know if this will help or hurt. If I'm being too confusing just ignore this post

Connect the camera to the computer with the USB cable.

If you're using windows XP click on start->My Computer, or "explorer" if using another flavor of windows. Double click on "C:". Make a new folder , whatever you want to name it, to hold the pix.

Open another "My Computer" or "explorer" window. You should see a "removeable drive" icon, that's the camera. Go in there, and somewhere you should see the pix. Hightlight them and hold the "control" and "c" buttons at the same time.

Go to the "My Computer" or "explorer" window where you made the new directory. Hit the "control" and "v" buttons at the same time.

At least now you know where the pix are on your puter and what they are called. Uploading them from there should be easier.

If I was confusing just ignore me and I'll go away

Posted by: jstar

I am sooo busy at work today!

Jill -

I'm back on the caffeine! I had to it was too much for me & after jerk-o dumped me, well, it was the wrong time to give it up. I will HAVE to drink more water and ditch the caff. though in another week or so for depletion anyways but I am enjoying myself till then!

NT - Thanks!

when you say take some hardware home are you talking about me stealing a computer or me taking home a trophy?

Paynne - Wow thanks, I will give this a shot when I get home! Thank you soooo much, and no you could never be a pain!

Posted by: Stacey

ohhh wow I need to catch up in here!! SORRY I haven't been in here..its been pretty crazy at work!!!!

Hope your doing okay honey!!

Posted by: atherjen

would you hurry up and get some pics working!! Im dying here!

lol jk hun!! GUESS WHAT daddy bought a digi cam yestarday!

cant wait til I move home now!!!! wahoo

Posted by: jstar

Hey Stacey - I am busy too!! At least the day goes by faster! How was your interview???? :fingerscrossed:

Jen - I like to keep people in suspense

Posted by: naturaltan

hardware ... taking home a trophy of course.

I'm a dad, I can't go around condoning stealing.

I have a hard enough time explaining to our daughter why mommy downloads music without paying for it.

Posted by: jstar

Macros from 4/5 since I can't edit that post:

M1 335 63C 33P 4F
M2 308 32C 34.4P 5F
M3 308 32C 34.4P 5F
M4 345 23.5C 44P 9.5F
M5 120 48C 4P 2F

1416 198.5C 149.8P 25.5F

Meals for 4/6:

M1
1.3 cups Fiber One
1/2 cup ew
1/2 cup blueberries
276 80.4C 20.2P 2F

M2
4 oz turkey
salad
1/2 cup oats
308 32C 34.4P 5F

M3
same as M2
308 32C 34.4P 5F

M4
*not really a meal*
1 TBL PB
95 2C 4P 8F

M5
1/2 oz almonds
1 scoop protein
1 cup Fiber One
325 55C 23P 14F

M5
2 cups Fiber One
1 scoop protein
1/3 cup blueberries
1 slice MG bread
475 131C 13P 6F

then I had:
4 slices multigrain bread
1 ff cheese
1 mini soy pita
650 109C 31P 8F

2437 441.4C 160P 48F

I was starving last night, probably because I have had low cals the past few days. I guess my appetite is coming back. I will be "cleaner" tomorrow and do 1hr cardio!!!! I was gonna do my cardio last night but I had errands and lost track of time.

Posted by: greekblondechic

I think its good that you ate when you felt like you needed to! The body doesn't have that hunger signal for nothin!

Posted by: aggies1ut

Wowie, 2 cups of Fiber One. No probs with your bowels I'm guessing.

Posted by: ncgirl21

I LOVE fiber one, but................ does your stomach not start hurting if you've eaten a lot of it? I could easily eat 1 + cups a day, but I try not to because I thought too much fiber was bad for you- any thoughts on that?

Your doing great sweetie, I can't wait to see your pictures!!

Posted by: JLB001

Jstar...are you getting excited???

Did you ever pick a suit fabric sample???

Posted by: Stacey

Wow Girl-- I'm catching up on your journal.. and I feel like I'm reading about a new person. I love how driven you are and focused. You are going to kickass on stage. You do have the right additude. When is the show??

Your doing Great girl!!!!

Oh my interview went okay--thanks for asking! Still searching for a job though

Posted by: jstar

Hi all!

Work is CRAZY...I will have to update you all later on that! I apologize for being MIA but I can't really play here while I am at work, only once in a while. I will def. catch up this weekend!

Fiber One - yep I luv it! My tummy doesn't bother me eating that much of it. ncgirl - too much fiber isn't bad for you but you are right if you eat too much of it you can get bloated and uncomfortable. Since I am used to eating lots of it, it doesn't bother me that much. Yrs ago I remember I started eating a lot of fiber - oat bran - and this happened to me!

Jodie - Yep I decided on the red velvet panne. Its sort of a rosy shade let me put up the link:www.bodytecfitness.com
the girl in the red 2 piece - that is exactly what I ordered. I hope it comes in time! Should be here next week. Talk about cutting it close, huh?

Hey Stacey - the show is 4/24. I still have to come up with a theme for the sportswear round. I am thinking of doing a lifeguard costume but I need to find a lifeguard tee that doesn't totally cover me up.

Yes I am getting excited! This weekend I promise I will try once again to post these stupid pics. I haven't had a chance yet but hopefully Payne's instructions will do the trick!

Greeky - yep I was hungry that day and ending up eating less the day after. I think we would all benefit if we just ate what we wanted in the amounts we wanted; your body will want more some days and less on others. As long as the food is clean, or mostly clean, it should work out. My pants are getting looser on me. wooo hoooo

My friends are taking me out this weekend to part-ay! They are so great; they know I need to let off some steam and forget about all the crap that has been going on in my life.

Posted by: atherjen

thelife guard idea sounds cool!! i like!!

that suit is sexxyyy!

Have a great weekend with your friends!

Posted by: jstar

Hey Jen!

I think the lifeguard idea is pretty original. Plus I can wear flip flops and not freaking high heels in that round!

Posted by: atherjen

I would DIE in heels!! Id Never be able to do figure! :ekk:

how have you been today?? busy busy?
any plans for the long weekend?

Posted by: JLB001

Cute suit! It will look great on you!

Posted by: jstar

I just hope it gets here in time and that it fits!

Jen - you get used to the heels, I can't wear platforms at all, mine are 5 inch spikes

with much needed ankle straps! (I never ever ever wear heels either)

Posted by: jstar

busy at work, yeah.

I WISH I had a long weekend! I wish I was at Fenway right now for opening day :sigh:

Tonight I am going to the gym after work for cardio and then will go out looking for the lifeguard get-up! I will need to update my journal later tonight and catch up on everyone elses!

Tomorrow I am meeting with a real estate agent at 9. I don't know why - or even if I am looking for a place anymore right now.
12-2 I have posing practice. And later that night - girlz night out! I wanna dance soo bad. I haven't been in forever!

Sunday - Its Easter, everything is closed, so nothing much doing on Sunday, except of course, another workout.

Posted by: Fitgirl70

OH my gosh Jstar, that is an awesome suit girl....you're gonna look hot!

I love the lifeguard idea -- how cute. I"m gonna remember that place when I get ready to order my suit in the fall.

Posted by: jstar

Happy Easter Everyone

Update:

Diet - I keep track of my diet in a notebook so I don't always log it on here (although I am suppose to). So the past few days diet was going good, until last night. I caved and had mucho bread and 4 granola bars. I slept 12 hrs last night!!! I am mad at myself but todays a new day, and I do have more control than before, so I am glad about that.

Workouts:
I 've been doing total body workouts and hour-long cardio sessions this week, probably 4.

Personal Life - Miserable. Missing the jerk. I have had 2 dreams that we got back together...

Last night my friend I was supposed to go out with bailed on me and another friend who was going out invited me along. I didn't want to go but I got all dressed up and did my hair and makeup then I called her and said I wasn't going. It sucks because I would be the only one not drinking, not just because of the upcoming show, but I don't drink anyways. I also didn't want to drive out there by myself, plus it was like 10 before she was "ready" and its probably like another 45 min drive to get to this place so I declined. I probably should've went tho then I wouldn't have binged. Man I look like shit today.

About the contest:
My application has been sent in and I decided to split a hotel room with another girl who is going. It won't be bad, like $50 each. Actually $33 because I think its 3 of us. My suit should be on its way this week, I HOPE!
Lets see, I am all set for tanning products and makeup. I may get some press on nails and a hair clip. I am going to attempt to use big hot rollers to get some big, bouncy curls in my hair.
For my lifeguard costume I am wearing navy blue booty shorts and a bright orangy-red tankini top. I ironed on white letters to the front "GUARD" and then I went over the letters with silver sparkly fabric glue. It looks pretty cool. I really need to put a cross on there I think. I found a bright orange whistle to wear around my neck, and I will get a small white towel to carry and wear sunglasses on my head. For shoes, Cathy suggested getting Sketchers with a chunky heel. To cut costs I am going to try to find something similar at Payless or Walmart this week. Linda suggested I put a line of white sunblock on my nose like the lifeguards do, I don't want to but she knows what the judges want so I will do it. Next Sat is the dress rehearsal where we come as if this was the real show.

Posing Sessions: I went again yesterday and Linda says my lower body looked leaner than the week before

That was of course til I binged last night

I really need to practice the T walk like a million more times.

2 weeks out - PLANS:

Well I am not in the greatest shape but I am sure I feel worse right now because of last night, before that my mood was more positive. I am holding so much water it is ridiculous! Starting today I am going to drink tons of water and eat only low sodium/no sodium foods. To keep things simple I divised a list of foods I can have this week:
oats
sweet potato
salad greens
99% lean ground turkey
turkey cutlets
chicken breast
natural duiretics:
kale
asparagus
broccoli

60 min cardio everyday this week
2-3 total body workouts

Final week:
Sun, Mon, Tues....deplete
eat NO carbs
low sodium
drink TONs of water
total body weight training everyday...try to drain every last ounce of glycogen out of your muscles
cardio - 60 min

Wed, Thurs, Fri....load
bring back carbs
still low sodium
no training or cardio
the water intake goes down everyday
start tanning...I am going to do 1-2 coats of spray on tan and then Dream Tan over that.

Fri - Competitors meeting in CT @ 6 pm
We get our numbers and go over the opening number. Check into my hotel and get everything ready for the big day.

Posted by: jstar

Sun 4/10 - EASTER

Woke up at noon! All the supermarkets are closed and I have no sodium free protein in the house! I had the protein powder with my oats...130mg per scoop. Do you think its ok for me to have this as my protein for today? I will go shopping tomorrow for chicken and turkey.

60 min elliptical

M1
3/4 cup oats
1 scoop protein
345 45.5C 24.5P 7F

Posted by: JLB001

Chickie! Don't stress the low sodium proteins. Just use what you have until tomorrow. You should be fine, just keep your water intake high to combat the sodium If you have chicken, you can always boil it, which I hate, taste like

to me.

Your gonna do awesome! Can't wait to see your Lifeguard outfit! PICS!!! now!

I ordered my suit some the place you did. But got plain ones. Got small bottoms, damn thing better fit. LOL I measured my purple suit before ordering and placed that on the order form. PLease let me know if the quality of yours is good when you get it.

Posted by: jstar

Hey girl!

Oh, yeah let me try to dl those pics again...

Thanks for the advice, I will definitely let you know about the quality. I am due to get my suit on Tuesday. What color did you get? The lady there says the suits fit try to size. I ordered a med which is supposed to fit 8-10, I'll let you know if it does. I was too scared to get the smalls. Hopefully by my next show in August I will be a small!

Oh - about the chicken: do I really have to boil it you think? I really hate chicken without any condiments so I will most likely eat the xtra lean ground turkey and turkey cutlets...what is your opinion?

Posted by: atherjen

ughh boiled chicken!!

I LOVE the Lifeguard suit!! soo creative!!!

when do we get pics?!?!?!?! PLZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

sounds like you have everything together!! you must be getting excited!! and dont let one night of a lil mess up get you down. SMILE for me girl!

todays a new day and so isnt tomarrow. all that water retention will go away! no worries! Your gonna kick butt!!
60mins cardio?

have a blast with that! hehe

you know, I dont drink either and it makes it soooooooo hard with all my friends going out.

Happy Easter girl!!

Posted by: JLB001

I didn't boil mine the lasttime. Just tastes like cardboard to me. Just be sure you get fresh chicken, not frozen (they add sodium stuff to the frozen). Get the stuff that is not injected with that solution.

You could use a skillet and Mrs. Dash to season. Shouldn't have sodium in the Mrs. Dash.

I did opposite of you the last time I did a show. I had to add salts to my foods up until Wed. then cut it out. When we did cut it, I continued to use my pam and cook my meats in a skillet with Mrs. Dash. (steak does not taste the same with Mrs. Dash). What conidments will you be using?

Posted by: greekblondechic

I'm w jodie and jenjen I wanna see pics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted by: jstar

Hi Jen -

I tried Payne's suggestion but it didn't work. Easyshare doesn't allow you to take pics from it and save em to your hard drive. I will have to go to Walmart and ask them to give me prints and burn me a CD. Then I can save it to my hard drive and paste it in here. Ya know I think I will just delete these pics and take new ones of me in my suit and in the sportswear - later this week. I promise I will post them up, thank you for your patience everyone!

Jodie - I will use Mrs Dash garlic and xtra spicy...thanks for the tips, I can get fresh turkey breast cutlets and ground turkey, no problem. The only reason I am cutting sodium now is because I never paid attention to the sodium before because when I do it leaves me with nothing to eat. Not to mention I have been drinking hardly any water and lots of diet soda. I think I NEED to cut back now. I can see it in my clothes, holding lots of water around the middle~

Oooh, I never knew they injected the frozen stuff. Yuck!

Posted by: JLB001

Oh...don't talk about diet sodas. I've been having way too many of those too. My new addiction is diet sprite. and sugarless kool aid

Posted by: atherjen

back away from the diet pops ladies!!!

Ok Star I can wait! just for you!!!

sounds complicated to get em on your computer! what a rip!! the new ones will be better anyways in your new suit!!!

Posted by: Paynne

Quote:

Originally posted by jstar

I tried Payne's suggestion but it didn't work.

Oh well. It's the puter geek in me that gets frustrated when others can't get stuff to work.

Posted by: jstar

It's not your fault Paynne, it's this stupid Kodak Easyshare. I think they set it up that way so you HAVE to go to the photomart and pay for a CD to burn, I don't have a burner so

what can I do?

Yesterday's Meals:

All I ate was protein powder and oats cuz I needed to go shopping and I had nothing else that qualified as "low sodium"

M1
3/4 cup oats
1 scoop protein

M2, M3, M4:
1/2 cup oats
1 scoop protein

1155 141.5C 90.5P 29.5F

plus tons of water and crystal light OJ

60 min elliptical

Today:
Far less bloated; I think by the end of the week I will be alright with the bloating. I went to the supermarket on my lunch break and picked up some extra lean ground turkey, fresh asparagus and sweet potatoes. The cashier overcharged me for the ground turkey and then when I pointed it out to him he had to take it off my total so I got it for free!!! Yippeeeee!!!!

Later on I will do more cardio and probably some lower body before that and abs.

Tommorow there is another posing session which I really should go to but I don't know yet if I will~ I'd rather do my workout instead and then pose by myself so I can concentrate w/o all the distractions.

Posted by: atherjen

free turkey!!

Nice guy!!

my goodness-I think I would have died yestarday eating just oats and whey! lol need to bump that food up today chickie!

Posted by: Jill

All that whey sould have made me sick!

I have a weak tummy!

Oh ya, I got free turkey breast, but it was from Granny's bird yesterday! She just insisted I take leftovers-I took atleast 10oz of turkey breast!

Posted by: Stacey

Hey girl!! I like the lifeguard Idea..-- I Bet that looks SOOO AWESOME!! Very Creative!

I'm Getting sooo excited for you!!

Your going to do great!!!

Sounds like you have everything together! keep up the great work girl!!!

Posted by: jstar

Nice new Avi AJ!

I luv oats and whey

My diet is going to be incredibly boring the next couple weeks just warning ya....

Hey Stace! Thanks girl

I am excited and getting antsy...still no suit. It should come today, we'll see!

Posted by: ncgirl21

Your gonna rock hun!!

How many competitions have you done?

Posted by: atherjen

Thanks girl! needed something after Easter.
were you mixing the oats and whey together???

boring? nanh as long as you like what you eat it dont matter to anyone else.

Posted by: JLB001

Jstar...I think we have very similar boring diets.

Posted by: jstar

Thanks ncgirl! I have only done one - last Oct. This will be #2 and hopefully I will do a couple more this year. It is really awesome, trying to improve yourself each and everytime, trying to see just how much harder you can push yourself. I love it!

Jen - Yup I mix em together! I never get tired of that meal either

What's your favorite meal?

Jodie - I should've done this a while ago, it keeps things simple when you have SO much other junk to worry about!

***I guess I am not going to posing tonight. Hey it saves me $20 plus I have to get my workout in and COOK AGAIN! I have no place to practice in my heels except my cellar. (Unless I go to the mall or supermarket in them!....Hey I need a nice tile floor to practice on.

Posted by: Jill

I mix my protein and oaties together too!

Posted by: JLB001

I like my diets simple! I don't like having alot to choose from. I ahte when its all over and I can have whatever, makes me have to think what to have for lunch..ya know, pizza, chick-fil-a, wendy's.......

Go to the mall in those shoes.....LOL j/k

Posted by: Jill

I was thinking the same thing about the shoes Jodie!

Posted by: JLB001

Jstar....just don't wear a short short skirt and a itty bitty top if you go to the mall with them.

Posted by: jstar

too funny Jodie! Can you imagine???
I think I might try the raquetball court at my gym since no one is hardly ever in there.

My seamstress just emailed me about my suit. Its being shipping priority tomorrow so I should have it by Saturday. One week out - yikes!

Posted by: Stacey

Oh my that would be a funny Site!!!

I wish I could go to your show Jstar- I know your gonna rock the house!!!

Posted by: ncgirl21

How do you do one leg SL DL?

Posted by: atherjen

go practice strutting in the mall! I like that idea!!

you just neveer know......

how are you feeling StaryStar?? excited? nervous??? Im EXCITED for you!!!

Andrea- you balance your other leg on a bench behind you for the 1leg SL deads. their a good twist to the regular

Posted by: greekblondechic

If you wear jeans hardly anyone will know you're wearin hooker heels!!!!

Posted by: jstar

bawww Greeky! Good idea! They might look at me weird if I keep doing my bitch walk and striking poses

Who cares though right?

One leg DL ---oh boy no wonder I can do no more than like 5 at a time! I wasn't using anything to balance the other leg. Hmm I might try that. One of the fitness girls showed me this exercise and it requires a lot of balance (which I have little of).

She puts one leg slightly in front and as she bends forward at the waist she raises the back leg straight out. If you can't get the form down to start try doing them keeping the back leg down or raising it up slightly. As you gain more and more balance you can raise your back leg higher and higher. (I hope that makes sense!)

Yes Jen I am excited. I really feel in the right frame of mind over the past few weeks. After this comp I am gonna concentrate on gaining LBM and maintaining low bodyfat...I DO NOT plan to binge or "bulk" (same thing to me

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Posted by: jstar

Meals and Workouts - Update:

4/12 MON

M1
3/4 cup oats
1 scoop protein
345 45.5C 24.5P 8.5F

M2
1/2 cup oats
1 scoop protein
270 32C 22P 7F

M3
1/2 cup oats
1 scoop protein
270 32C 22P 7F

M4
4 oz sweet potato
3 oz cooked ground turkey xtra lean
3 asparagus sticks (1st time eating this)
264 31.5C 32P 1F

M5
4 oz sweet potato
4 oz cooked ground turkey xtra lean
asparagus
264 31.5C 32P 1F

M6
1 TBL PB
95 2C 4P 8F

1508 174.5C 136.5P 32.5F

1 hr elliptical

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4/13 TUES

M1
3/4 cup oats
1 scoop protein
345 45.5C 24.5P 8.5F

M2
6 oz sweet potato
4 oz cooked ground turkey xtra lean
290 36C 34P 1F

M3
1/2 cup oats
1 scoop protein
270 32C 22P 7F

M4
4 oz deli turkey

2 cups Fiber One
390 96C 41P 6F

M5
2 cups Fiber One
240 96C 8P 4F

1535 305.5C 129.5P 26.5F

Rest Day

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Comments:

I am definitely getting leaner

although I wish I was at the point I am at now at 6 weeks out

I am happy with myself for being strong, and I feel more confident than last fall. I guess that is because I know what to expect and I could care less about how I place. I know that I am on the right path and that by the fall, my physique will be more muscular, leaner and overall better. I know this because I am dedicated to making it happen and no one can stop me

Posted by: atherjen

LOVE your attitude woman! on fire!!!

soo glad to hear your leaning right down!! cant wait for the comp for you!! and pics!!

did u go practice strutting n posing somewhere?

Posted by: jstar

No I didn't practice but I will tonight!

Yeah getting dumped does wonders for your attitude! I guess I took all the hurt and anger I have inside of me and decided to put it to good use

How are you Jen Jen?

Oh, I totally forgot my old co-workers planned a dinner tonight. I had thought they postponed it because one of them wasn't able to make it but noooooo! I really don't want to go, ya know, I need to get to the gym plus I can't eat anything so I am just gonna not reply to their emails. I feel so badabout lying

Posted by: Stacey

LOVE The additude girl!!!! You Rock!!!

Jstar--just make it up to them later!! (Your Coworkers)

I owe mine a LOT of lunches & happy hours b/c I never go with them. LoL

Omg that single led SLDL sounds like I would Fall on my bootie..LMAO!! I'm trying it tonight..hmmm? Or Maybe now in the bathroom..haha

Posted by: jstar

4/14 WED

M1
3/4 cup oats
1 scoop protein

M2
1/2 cup oats
1 scoop protein

M3
1/2 cup oats
1 scoop protein

*forgot to cook

M4
2.5 cups Fiber One
1/2 cup ew

*everytime I am hungry I eat this stuff now and it fills me right up!

Workout:
Total Body:3 sets of 12 for each
Bench Press
Heavy Lunges
Bent DB Rows
DB SLDL
Shoulder Press
DB Shoulder Presses

A few sets of:
Upright Rows
DB Curls
Rope Pressdowns
Crunches

45 elliptical

10 min walking in my heels in the raquetball court!
Jeez I wish I wasn't so self conscious, the echo in that room is so loud and being in there with my heels on I sounded like a horse

I will go back Friday night for more - when it is quiet and no one is around!

M5
1.5 cups Fiber One
1 slice ff cheese
1/2 serv almonds
1 oz cooked ground turkey xtra lean

M6
1/4 cup oats
1/4 scoop protein

came out to about 1700 cals...will post the exact breakdown later. I am at work and don't have my notebook in front of me.

Posted by: ncgirl21

Your doing great sweetie!!

Can't wait to see those pictures

!

You love that fiber one don't you?

When I eat too much my belly sticks out like I'm pregnant, I guess I just need to up it slowly. I'm having some with my protein shake after my workout at lunch though!!

How tall are the heels you walking in?

Posted by: jstar

I do luv Fiber One! But I think I will chill with all the fiber until after my show - don't want to risk bloating!...NC - just work up to that amount of fiber. Shoot Fiber One has 14g of fiber per .5 cups!

The heels are 5 inches. The hardest part is when you have to walk from one corner of the stage to the other but you have to face yourself towards the judges as you do it...I look like I am drunk, all stumbling when I do that!

Posted by: jstar

Oh I luv your avi BTW!

Posted by: JLB001

Fiber will also help ya lean out a lil too. But not sure if the cereal has the same effect as the kind ya mix with water.

Did your suit make it yet??

Posted by: Jill

What do you eat your turkey with? How do you cook it?

BTW you are doing awesome chickie!!!!

Keep it up!

Posted by: atherjen

dang u sure like ur Fiber 1 and oats

your workouts and everything look super! I cant wait for you!!!

Posted by: jstar

No suit yet Jodie...should be here Sat!

Thanks everyone!!!

Jillie - I eat ground turkey plain or w/Mrs Dash. If I was allowed I'd have ketchup though

Posted by: jstar

I am not competing next weekend. Shit happens...look for a new journal by me reallly soon!

Posted by: JLB001

I hope your ok?????

Posted by: jstar

Hey Jodie - yeah I am okay!

I have just been in a major slump the past few days. Getting over the jerk is proving to be VERY difficult. Needless to say I reverted back to old behaviors and binged myself silly the past few days. There is just no possible way I can get up there on stage with this frame of mind plus I feel like I look like crap. This sucks.

I don't intend to sit here and wallow in my pity anymore. Starting tomorrow I will start a new journal and get right back on track.

I got my suit today and I love it, its actually comfy

I would say the quality is there Jodie...but I don't know if I like the huge rhinestones they put on it. The fabric seems kinda thick but I think the cut and style will flatter me best when I get into contest shape.

I weighed myself today for the hell of it. I am at 141.5 and tanita says 27% (I know that % means shit though). My waist was at 29.5 and hips at 39.5! Ugh. I will do my official measurements tomorrow and take pics and finally post em. At least I can take them in my suit and watch myself get leaner as the weeks go on.

Right now I am just trying to figure out the right diet and training plan to get on and focus on the the next few weeks. I really want to lean down for the summer and get a head start on my physique for August (next comp). I just got back from the mall with my friend and it's so hard..with so many cute clothes out there and me being single again I just wanna look good again ya know? I am lucky if I do fit in a 9.

I am thinking about trying this program starting tomorrow:
http://www.bodymusclejournal.com/vol05/fitfigures.html

Posted by: JLB001

Following a Beverly plan is usually a solid one with good results!

Take the time you need to figure things out for yourself! Being single has lots of doors that can be opened and endless possibilites! Use it to your advantage!

They didn't put little stones on the suit? Mine all have 30ss swaroski stones. I have a place that you can order those from along with the backs if you want to change them out. Did they glue them on? Or are they through the back of the fabric with prongs holding them in place?

damn it Chickie!!! You should have called me! I wanted to eat bad stuff too!

Posted by: atherjen

ah girl I am so sorry to hear that things havent been going well. Take all the time that you need to get everything back in line for yourself- theres soo much time for you to compete and different comps-tons of time!

gotta take care of #1 <-YOU first!

emotionally and phyiscally. Although Im sure that you look great! Dont forget that were always here for you! If you ever need to talk let me know! I have a couple funny looking ears!

save that suit though hun- something to motivate you even more and wear when you are ready.

that plan sounds like a good one-something to follow that would maybe help keep you focused!
Cheer up sunshine!

Posted by: jstar

Thanks Jodie and Jen!

The rhinestones are through the fabric with prongs. I don't think little crystals would stick on with glue Jodie. I have plenty of time though to tweak that suit and spruce it up some. It needs something on the back of the bottoms.

F- I am just an ANGRY fire-breathing bitch lately!!! I have so much pent up anger at wasting 4.5 yrs of my life with him thinking about future plans....just to have it all blow up in my face. But you girls are right, I need to look out for myself now and take care of me. I need to raise my standards and find someone who will love and appreciate me unconditionally. This is ridiculous!

Ok - so that Bev plan looks ok to you guys? I want to follow the training and cardio but that diet...I dunno. I might die on that plan! I need to drop about 5-10 lbs of pure fat. I was thinking of tweaking it one of the following ways:

Option A: Follow the plan as laid out for 2-3 weeks to drop some quick lbs and water weight...then throw in periodic cheats a la Jodie-style.

Option B: Follow the workouts and cardio as laid out and come up with a better diet...or add food (carbs) to the one they have in the article.

Any thoughts?

Posted by: JLB001

Quote:

Originally posted by jstar
Thanks Jodie and Jen!

The rhinestones are through the fabric with prongs. I don't think little crystals would stick on with glue Jodie. I have plenty of time though to tweak that suit and spruce it up some. It needs something on the back of the bottoms. Some suit makers use glue to glue the stones on, wasn't sure if she did as well.

Option A: Follow the plan as laid out for 2-3 weeks to drop some quick lbs and water weight...then throw in periodic cheats a la Jodie-style. Augh!!! Don't do cheats like me. I was bad just now. I had about 6 snickerdoodles! Augh!! Not a good day. Had to bake them, threw 3/4 of the batch away, made 9 cookies total.

Option B: Follow the workouts and cardio as laid out and come up with a better diet...or add food (carbs) to the one they have in the article.<---Sounds like a better idea.

Any thoughts?

Posted by: greekblondechic

Aww, sorry you are not feeling so great sweetie but just focus on making yourself feel good and don't worry!

Posted by: jstar

thanks greekie

I will start a new journal tomorrow...

I just found some old precomp stuff from last year when I went to see Linda before the comp (at 9 weeks out). She had me on a calorie cycle of 1730,1830,1930 and 40/40/20 split. My cardio was 5x30 with 2-3 HIT sessions. I increased it to 45 minutes at 1 month out. Weights were total body 3 times a week with 12-15 reps per set. I may just do this again....or blend the Bev workout to this diet. I will post up what I decide tomorrow. I am going food shopping in the morning.

Posted by: JLB001

mmm.....food.

Posted by: jstar

are you hungry Jodie?

I will throw in a box of donuts in my cart just for you

Posted by: atherjen

I like option B too!

that cycle that your Trainer had you on last year doesnt sound too bad.. and it worked to eh?
is it something you are able to stick with? a 40/40/20 split seems very reasonable?!

Posted by: jstar

Yes Jen, it wasn't hard to stick with at all because she let me eat any clean foods I wanted, as long as it added up to the right # of calories and macros.

I am off to the supermarket. When I get back I will post up my new journal and stats.

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