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I feel like you've all forgotten about me 
My stress levels are on an all time high and it doesn't feel good 
It's pretty ironic that I'm taking all these classes on how to improve peoples health when I'm not taking care of my own stress, which is doing terrible things to me. My mom suffers from Burn out syndrome and I don't want to go down that lane. She's been working on healing for 6 years and can still not go back to work. If I don't learn how to deal with this now I will be in trouble.
Well, stress is bad And I have lots of it. I want to learn how to deal with it or I won't reach my number one goal in life: to be happy and live up to my potential.
I'm having great workouts (in fact I'm so sore right now that typing sucks), both cardio and weights. I'm on a no sugar kick up until Thanksgiving, no nuts, peanutbutter or bad carbs either. 21 more days 
It's been hard over Halloween and stuff when my roomates filled the whole apartment with candy 
My stress levels needs to be improved.
I missed you!!!! I'm glad your back 
I'm in a health science major, health promotion, it's very interesting 
I know I can beat this stress thing. I'm already improving. The thing is, everyone says that I DO speak perfect english.. I even notice when other people make grammar mistakes 
People tell me I don't have a tad bit of an accent and will hardly believe that I'm not american. BUT, inside of me, I guess I tell myself that I'm inferior. I haven't taken the background classes the others have so maybe I don't know some things, BUT I have a background and a perspective that the others don't. Which is an asset to the class. In my health communication class (with the crazy teacher) I actually had a presentation about the swedish health care system and I did a great job. I was calm, spoke perfect english and gave information that the others were very interested in and asked lots of questions. So I KNOW that I can do this, I have the ability. I just need to stop being afraid, because I don't have to be Thank you for your words sweety and thank you for letting me vent
No seriously though girlie, dont be so hard on yourself. I see those 'perfectionist' traits coming out.....I know them all too well.
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Originally Posted by greekblondechic
In a tough economy, the ability to understand other cultures and bring a fresh perspective to the table is priceless!
You probably speak better English than I do! And who cares about accents.. they're cool anyway! I have a Jersey accent |
Yep, definately need to deal with things differently! It's a good thing I don't use food to cope with stress anymore, this would be a FAT year if I did I have done relaxation exercies before and it really does help, I need to incorporate them more frequently Thanks for the encouragement I really don't have a swedish accent, which people get very dissapointed by I guess I've been watching too much american tv 
But I can fake a swedish accent I actually spoke lots in my health communication class today, I just got back
The first month in school was soooooo hard 
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Originally Posted by Jenny
Cow, there might be more pics later on
I really don't have a swedish accent, which people get very dissapointed by I guess I've been watching too much american tv But I can fake a swedish accent |
I've been expecting this package from my mom in Sweden for about 2 months now, but since she got the address wrong it took a LOOOONG ass time. Well, I got it today and it was loaded with goodies Yep, candy too, my favority salty licorice and chocolate and what not So yeah, I made an exeption Great, my first day back to journaling and I have a cheat It's all okay though, I'm not in contest prep or anything, it's all about balance I'm actually not looking for loosing weight right now, I feel I look pretty good I have my 4-pack abs showing and all my clothes are pretty loose. It's winter, don't wanna get too little isolation right? The positive thing about the sweets was that it really didn't taste all that good It was just.. too sweet But of course I still ate it because I've been longing for cheats the last two weeks Now I remember that I don't need it. So maybe this will keep me from having an all Thanksgiving break feast It just happens to be my birthday weekend that weekend too, my 21st birthday 
Justin has the salty candy downstairs now so I won't eat anymore of it
Didnt Today I had sf jello and that was too sweet, weird.
I don't have a hangover The swedish candy is gone, I fed my roomates and Justin with it (except my roomates thought the salty licorice was NASTY ) and threw the rest away. I think this cheat was a good thing, because I've been this craving little girlie. I mean literally I've been dreeeeaming about food and just wanting wanting wanting it for two weeks. Seeing my roomies eat all the chocolate that has been everywhere in the apartment (still is!) and Halloween stuff everywhere has been HARD. Now that I had my candy I feel like "ugh, I don't need that stuff, give me some real food". So, I'm over it And I don't need a super 4 day binge over thanksgiving Just a lot of sweetpotatoes I'm now looking forward to all the time I'll be able to spend with Justin and not worry about school (except finals are the week after 
). I think this is one of the few times after a cheat when I haven't been overwhelmed by guilt. I did have a little bit of bad feelings at first, but then I realised that I don't need to 
Bad foods are not an issue anymore, I've got the cravings taken care of I'm ready to rock and roll! These multiple choice thingies are so much easier than the exams we get in Sweden though so I think I'll be fine I've been getting As on all the exams in that class so far and I really haven't studied much, it's probably my easiest class Because it encourages me to sit down and write long ass posts like this and get all the clutter out of my mind, which is good for my stress levels. If you don't like reading it, don't come here 
Still see the abbies and muscles just look full and pumped Guess I loaded that glycogen huh?
You should post em Jilly style
I have a little white board on the back of my door. Each morning I write the day and what I need to do. If I do it all I get a star 10 stars and I'll treat myself to something, but not something edible I know, dorky, but I think it's fun It's black and REALLLY salty. Not like the regular black ones you can find in allsorts licorice here 
It's super super salty
How's life treating you today ?
ooooh, Swedish Stress Nut? That's funny My ECA is starting to kick in so I'm just about ready to go for a run Actually I'm pretty jittery, so it should be a good run
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Originally Posted by Jenny
S.S.N??
ooooh, Swedish Stress Nut? That's funny I'm doing pretty good this morning, thanks for asking My ECA is starting to kick in so I'm just about ready to go for a run Actually I'm pretty jittery, so it should be a good run How are you this morning? |
If there are any experts on Environmental Health or asbestos out there, please PM me 
Hit the trails again instead of treadmill. WOW! I'm beat, 40 mins of running FAST and sprinting hills. I need some FOOOD!! I actually think my bod needs some sugar or other fast carbs right now cause that was a nutty run.. BREAKFAST!!
Make sure you eat some carbs at breakfast, your body needs them! 
I don't jog, I run It feels so great because I really have my speed up there, I think I'm in better cardiovascular shape than ever before, I love it I was still soooo tired afterwards though, I totally kicked my own butt
oh well, 2+ hours of working out will make up for it 40 mins with speed and sprints up hills, plus about 5 min walking for cool down
Hi Jenny, welcome back.
She will be flying down here to Phoenix to visit me and we will be running the Rock N Roll Marathon. She is a marathon runner and I am not. I started training 1.5 months ago but there is no way I will keep up with her and probably will never finish it. I don't know how I get talked into such things 
I like shorter faster runs I did a half marathon last year and that was a lot of fun, but twice the distance would be hell I want to run one before I die though
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Originally Posted by Jodi
Hi Jenny, welcome back.Speaking of running, my sister and I are doing a marathon together this January She will be flying down here to Phoenix to visit me and we will be running the Rock N Roll Marathon. She is a marathon runner and I am not. I started training 1.5 months ago but there is no way I will keep up with her and probably will never finish it. I don't know how I get talked into such things Today, I'm hitting my next level of 9 miles, OMG I have such a way to go. |
Good to see you in here! You'll finish it, I know it You're just not the kind of girl that gives up
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Originally Posted by Jodi
Hi Jenny, welcome back.Speaking of running, my sister and I are doing a marathon together this January She will be flying down here to Phoenix to visit me and we will be running the Rock N Roll Marathon. She is a marathon runner and I am not. I started training 1.5 months ago but there is no way I will keep up with her and probably will never finish it. I don't know how I get talked into such things Today, I'm hitting my next level of 9 miles, OMG I have such a way to go. |
Why you are just turning into a regular cardio queen. The Rock 'N Roll in Phoenix should be fun, with lots of live music. The Rock 'N Roll in San Diego was pretty cool, even though I only watched. I will run a marathon eventually. Things have just been too hectic to really train for one. I also have really flat feet , so I am prone to injuries when I run outside.
I am not dieting right now, I'm maintaining. I am comfortable where I am right now and I do not want to be on a hard core diet. When I deprive myself and am on a strict diet, I tend to just eat healthy foods because I feel I have to. When I am on a little looser grip I eat healthy food because I want to and because I like it and might allow myself to have things 5 pieces of candy corn like today This makes me enjoy my food more And when I eat like this I don't binge and I keep my weight stable I don't just live for my cheat days and go just longing and longing for them cause I can EAT then. The cheat days in the past have just been about eating exessively and don't feel good at all afterwards. So, it's going to be moderation around here, with some fun stuff in my daily diet If the fun stuff appears too much I'll have to cut it down, but now I'm doing well
They partied last night, got up around noon and started drinking again.. Went to the football game, drank some more and now they're out I have done my fair share of 
I got a fake ID when I was 15 and was out clubbing every weekend when I was 16. Been there, done that, moving on.. I do not want to live their lifestyle, I think it's rediculous! Average of 4 nights out binge drinking each week, that's what they do. They've been giving me hell for not going out with them and when I do I don't drink, they give me hell for that too I do not care They have now accepted it I think, even though I know they talk about it behind my back. Oh well Tonight Justin and I are going out to see the new Pixar movie, I LOVE all their movies!! I'm doing great! I've had some kick ass workouts today so I'm feeling great! I decided to take the day off school work and RELAX
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He was watching it with me and the girls last night and he got so into it
I love reading your journal.
Poor Justin, he doesn't see me much these days.. Thanksgiving break, Thanksgiving break, that's what I keep repeating to myself
So great! It was a huge relief cause about 40% of our grades are made on this one presentation. I'm so glad it's over, I don't have to worry about it anymore I love running these days
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Originally Posted by Jenny
NT, I know.. I don't get it either. One of my roomies, the one that parties the most, had to re-take a semester.. Not good. I enjoy going out every now and then, especially going dancing. But here it's just about getting shit-faced and I just don't want to do that
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I really like the way I eat and my workouts right now I feel I have a good balance
I'm doing great, so don't worry
Might even post some pics to let you know that just because I'm not journaling it doesn't mean that I'm pigging out on cheats 
Love you guys
It's a good thing I have you to keep me warm That and the fact that my mom's package with my warm clothes finally arrived You're just the most amazing thing ever
I need to be careful and make sure I rest enough between my running sessions though, cause I'll get overtrained if I'm not careful. My runs are usually 40 mins and on 7.2-9.0, so I'm pushing myself hard and need to give my bod some time to rest inbetween. Last week I ran like 5 times for my AM cardio and that was too much, my knees started to feel weird and all that crap. I love it so it's hard to stay away. This morning I'm going to the BIG gym though so there are all kinds of things to do, will probably stay off the treadmill
56 min on the elliptical trainer, then a 15 min walk home from gym. 500 cals burned
< Just for you Jenny!!
Im jelous
Thanks for stopping by My calories are always around 1500 though and my workouts are great Thanksgiving will be fun though Yeah, I do run like crazy sometimes Keep working on your speed and you'll be up there too
I've gotta a quick question for ya sweets. I'm trying to get out of the habit of being so anal about my meals. You seem to have a great grasp on what you eat. Do you actually count your calories or do you just estimate? Do you still measure? My thing is, I'd kind of like to quit having to measure every little thing and just concentrate on making healthy choices but I wonder if that would be a bad idea and maybe if I'd eat too much?? One more thing, 1500 calories, is that for weight loss? You work out a lot, are you sure that's enough food since your wanting to maintain? Just checking babes!! Your smoking 
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Originally Posted by Jenny
Hey Andrea
I log all my food on Fitday everyday. I measure things like oats and brown rice and stuff, but estimate other things such as chicken. Yeah, on the days when I work out a lot I try to get the cals up a little bit. I guess in my mind I'm still cutting somewhat even though I'm happy where I am.. It's like I've been cutting for so long that I don't know anything else. But I have higher calorie days at least twice a week, so I think it all evens out. I've been cutting back on my cardio somewhat too, only doing one session a day usually I'm going home and to Chicago for X-mas break, will be back here in beginning of jan. Then I'll stay until end of May, so we'll have plenty of time to meet!! |
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Originally Posted by Jenny
Boooo.. No one left me any love
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". It's hard because I don't want to go overboard and gain, but I don't want to be on a crazy strict diet either.. It's HARD!!
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Originally Posted by Jenny
I bought some new peanutbutter last week, it's Reeses peanutbutter!! I got so excited when I saw it at walmart!! It's sooo good and has the same cals as regular pb.
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I need some of that
I'm going to have to order some
Good job on not buying it, I'm proud of you
I had like 8 tablespoons Good thing my carbies were low at least
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Originally Posted by Jenny
Pb wasn't safe for me tonight
I had like 8 tablespoons Good thing my carbies were low at least |
Cals were high today, like 1800
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Originally Posted by Jenny
Yep, will have to be a lot of running on 9 tomorrow
Cals were high today, like 1800 |
No harm done!
Too bad I have classes and stuff all day I'm keeping my eyes on the goal, Thanksgiving break in 6 days
But I know that I'll feel like crap if I just go all out, because I plan on having some cheats over Thanksgiving.
I miss them all so much! And my friends too! But I've been stressing and thinking "I want to be soo lean when I get home, I want them all to say WOW Jenny, you've lost so much weight!!". This is just plain silly. I know I've lost quite a bit of weight here, all the pants I brought from home are too big and I had to buy new ones, but still.. Since I'm spending Christmas with Justin's family I've been stressing about wanting them to think I'm an absolute hottie too. Come on Jen, do you think Grandmas and aunts will care if you have a six pack or a four pack?? No This thinking is silly and I need to stop stressing and worrying like this. I do this all the time too.. Takes sooo much energy that I could use elsewhere The stress nut is defeated, for now
I'm trying He's very good at expressing it too
I imagine he has older peeps in his family that may just pass out after you get there. You are already a knockout ...nah, you already know that...
You are just too hard on yourself sometimes.
Thank you for all your sweet words And I am.. I've talked about it in therapy lots a while back and Justin and I are talking about it too. We had a long therapy session last week I know what it all comes down to and I know why I feel I need it, because of things in the past. But knowing that doesn't automaticly change my need for approval. It's constant work and a constant re-evaluation of things.. I know I'm hard on myself and a perfectionist, just like you
You're doing so great with everything sweets So cute! Thanks, it made me smile
I went shopping with my friend today, got a great deal on a pair of real sexy high heels and purses over an hour on the treadmill, running on 7.5-8.5. Good times. So far I've only eaten healthy, will try to make it as clean as possible.
You should wear those with a mini skirt and cute top and thigh highs
I'm not going to wear that, but I will wear something nice
More, more, more!!! Did you run today? 
Don't even know if I can run today. I got wasted... I never drink like that!! But my roomies kept filling up my glass, it was never empty And all the shots and shooters They started writing I Sweden on arms and stuff and then I took over and wrote it on peoples tummies and stuff too Apparantly I also wrote on some random people I talked to at the bigger party we went to I don't know how many people woke up yesterday being pissed off at me, because it was a permanent marker and it's hard as heck to get off
I'm not hungover anymore I'm so embarassed for being out of control My roomies say I don't have anything to worry about, that I was so much fun to be around. But I really hate not remembering things and not having control of the situation
. Happy Late Birthday too!! Enjoy your Thanksgiving, eat lots of goodies !!
My birthday is actually this Sunday, but we celebrated early since everybody will be gone for Thanksgiving. Justin and I will have our own celebration on Sunday
We just went to outback and I had chicken and veggies The Outback staff sang for me and gave me ice cream, but I just had a bite and let my roomies have the rest Hope you'll feel better soon
Take care sweetie!
I'm so glad to see you here! So sorry about the aches and pains honey Surgery again huh? I'm so sorry
The past week have been non-fitness minded. I haven't been binging or eating whatever I wanted, Thanksgiving and the day after was actually really healthy. But still, I don't feel great! So tomorrow, my first real day as a 21 year old, I'm going to start taking action I'm going to commit to 2 weeks of great eating In two weeks I'll be hooooome I'm looking forward to it!! Wohoo, sooo much, it's going to be great to see everyone again Two weeks of nasty finals, papers and crap first though I figure if I eat well these two weeks I'll feel better about myself when I go home I will post meals here each day for these two weeks
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Originally Posted by Jenny
I'm definitely not drinking like that again..
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I've said that a few times in the past.|
Originally Posted by BritChick
I've said that a few times in the past.Belated birthday wishes Jenny. xxx |
It was really bad.. I never puke when I drink.. but well, I did that time Several times Swedie (my nickname) and I Sweden with permanent marker, and I have NO idea who those arms belong to Oh, and my friend and I in the mud was a winner People were yelling "two hot blondes are mudwrestling"
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Originally Posted by Jenny
It was really bad.. I never puke when I drink.. but well, I did that time Several times I have pictures of arms where I've written I Swedie (my nickname) and I Sweden with permanent marker, and I have NO idea who those arms belong to Oh, and my friend and I in the mud was a winner People were yelling "two hot blondes are mudwrestling" I haven't been able to drink anything since then. Justin and I were supposed to have wine with dinner, and some egg nog and stuff.. But I couldn't.. |
Your diet is so clean girl
It was my birthday on the 28th, but my roomates (americans, not crazy europeans, I currently live in the states) had a party for me the weekend before thanksgiving. Yes, it was a little crazy
but I was tempted)
Feel like I don't need it, but of course I do need it. Will allow myself to low low carb today too, but tomorrow I need to at least have some oats and brown rice This one is not as big and chunky since it's made especially for a womans wrist http://niketown.nike.com/niketown/ca...tegoryId=53711
My former nick name here on IM was Nike_Girl It's so much cheaper here than in Sweden, so I'm happy
Tried it this morning Wasn't supposed to run, I know, but I really wanted to try my new HRM So I did some intervals and stuff So nice to have a more accurate way of tracking cals and pulse, the cardio equipments tracking is always so in-accturate, always says you've burned more than you have
Im going to run today too
I had my brown rice today so get off my back I just don't feel like eating them sometimes Hope you're feeling better today! hehe, hm is honey mustard, my new found love It does have a little bit of sugar in it, but that's okay I know, sometimes I feel like I could just as well skip the carbs and just eat veggies. But my carbs have been under 40 grams the last couple of days and that's too little..
But sometimes I just eat them anyway because if I don't I might crave sugar later on
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Originally Posted by Jenny
Yeah, that's what I do too
But sometimes I just eat them anyway because if I don't I might crave sugar later on |
I know I'm bloated because I'm pms-ing, but I just feel so nasty
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Originally Posted by Jenny
Thanks premi, but I reaaaally feel fat and nasty today..
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But................ you are super lean and super hot so cheer up
Have never had it
It was just the PMSy pissy Jen talking I feel much better now, the bloat isn't as bad! Whew! I mean NOTHING, I've been sitting with my books for hour after hour after hour. Had my first final yesterday, got an 88. Which isn't great, but it was in my hardest class (Health communication) and it was all I needed to get an A in that class!! I never thought I'd be able to get that, I'm proud of myself Have aother exam today and then next week I have two and a take home final But, in a week from now it'll all be over and I'll go to DC to FLY HOME next Saturday 450 REAL cals burned according to my heart rate monitor (about 800 accorfing to the cardio machine, lol). Haven't done weights in 3 days, I've been so busy studying Will go today though
Nice work girlie!! I guess its not that bad-I went on the net, the frenchs one has 5 cals per tsp. Fitday caluclation is much higher
Thing is, I only studied the day before the exams and no more than that. My exams in Sweden are so much harder, I need like two weeks for them since we have an average of 3 whole books to know completely But we only have one course at the time. Anyways, I think those hard exams have taught me to study effectively, because I have to back home to even pass the exam. These exams are child play compared to my swedish ones. ). She would challenge me too, asking "Ms. Sweden, what do you think?". In the beginning of the semester I hated it, I wanted to dissapear and I got sooooo nervous. Then I had two presentations, started actually raising my hand to get to talk.. I came out of my shell and it feels really good. It was a challenge and I conquered it It's so nice to study things that I'm interested in, I'm glad I didn't pick accounting as my major Another field I was interesting in was Marketing, and now it looks like I can do both that AND work with my passion; health! But it's health related, because it's about spiritual and professional fulfillment. And anti-stress related too So if you don't want to read this, don't come here 
), then I'm going HOME!
I don't know where I'll be working after I graduate. I will have my masters in 2 and a half years, and then we'll have to see what I'll do The cals for it on fitday is probably for honey mustard sauce, the kind you get with chicken nuggets, more fat in that
: no ephedrine, made it a little tougher, but I'm going to go off for a while.
What did you eat the hm with in meal 1? Oats? Eggs?
This is why I don't like posting my meals It was with my eggs
It's really good
It's been tough at times, but I don't regret a minute of it. Yeah, Justin and I are doing well, it's been great to live close to each other for once
They are great though, I've been doing well since Thanksgiving Had 3 Hershey kisses and one bite of the peanut butter hershey kisses cookies that my roomies made Saturday, but since then I've just been looking at those cookies laying on display in the kitchen People are going crazy around here I only have three this week so it's not too bad. One is a take home thing and is actually pretty fun Wohooo, I'm soooo excited
Good luck with your exams!!
Thanks sweets Which is good cause I think my brain would explode if I had any more Justin will fly to Chicago and I'll fly to SWEEEEEDEN
Everything is the same back home. My mom has hugged me like a billion times today, she's extatic that I'm home again It's good to be home, but I miss Justin already So much, it feels like a piece of me is missing. I love him
Nope, I'll spend Christmas in Chicago. Only staying here until the 22nd. I was up half the night cause I couldn't sleep. Now I woke up and feel like I got clubbed in the head so I think I should go back to bed
I like it That's cool you have a swedish grandmother Do you celebrate any other swedish traditions?
That's hilarious! I had to think hard when I read that I love it when my american boyfriend tries to speak swedish, it's so cute
I've been doing well I haven't been eating enough. Friday I had a great run (5.7 miles) in the morning and then a nice breakfast. We got on the road and drove up to DC to Justin's friends and I had some beef jerky and some nuts and an apple. Then at night we had a real yummy steak, I ate about 5 oz and some veggies, didn't eat their bread or rice. Too little food that day.) . Got home yesterday morning, had a slice of whole grain bread with turkey and veggies. Then I slept all day.. Had salmon and veggies at night. And about 20 almonds.