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Posted by: DontStop

My Journal!!
Well, I do think it is time I finally started a journal! I find myself again in a rut and I need POSITIVE support.
I already know a good 95% of you will disagree with what I’m doing right now…but I treat it as a problem which needs solving.

Background
My name is Cayla and I’m 18 years old. I live in Edmonton Alberta and I am upgrading all my sciences so I can get into some sort of medical degree.
I started “training” when I was 15. My mom, at the time, was an alcoholic and she said some pretty mean things to me (like for example, she would monitor how much sugar I’d put in my tea) which eventually lead me to be so self conscious I developed an eating disorder. To this day I haven’t fully recovered, but I believe with the right diet and exercise I’ll get the confidence I’ve always desired.

Current Exercise plan
I gain muscle so incredibly easy it is sick. I’m a relatively “larger framed” girl (think Brigitte Nielsen, just not 6’1). But because of my muscle mass, I lose fat relatively easy, so “leaning out” doesn’t take me long…when I stick to it.
I used to do weights daily (legs twice a week) but because of my muscle gain, I’m going to cut it down to 3 or less days a week. Big muscle’s isn’t quite the look I am going for
I’ll usually superset two body parts (not just for the cardiovascular benefit, but to not get bored)
I do cardio 5-7 days a week. An hour to an hour and a half a day, which is broken into sections. Morning Cardio is done on an empty stomach, and I usually have the most energy first thing so it’s moderate/heavy intensity. Most of my cardio is done in the morning because I hate wasting my night doing cardio. I may do another heavy session at night like HIIT depending on how I am feeling.
I hate the elliptical but I’ll use it sometimes because I get shin splints like a bitch sometimes. I mostly stick to the treadmill and spinning classes.

Diet
This is the “ghey” part. I’ve found that low calorie works pretty well for me. I’m still able to maintain some lean muscle at around 1300 calories a day. On Monday, I started fooling around with my macros. Some days have carbs, some days don’t. I hate that but eh…just seeing what works.

Meal One
Is either:
- One lo carb/ high protein smoothie (aprox 280 cal, 6 grams of carb, 28 grams of protein)
- 200mL egg whites (100) with chopped up veggies
- Or last but not least, 1/3 c oatmeal (150), ½ c Soy (35), ½ an apple (40) totaling 225 cals. (carb days)
Meal two
- 200mL egg whites, with chopped veggies (100) + protein bar (210)
- Carb days are two pieces of fruit (120) with 1c carrots (50)

Meal three
3oz chicken (150), 2 tbsp light dressing (40), salad (20)

Meal four
3/4c fat free cottage cheese (135)

Meal five
Same as meal three, or another protein smoothie
If my cals are low I’ll usually have a couple tbsp of a fat (Udo’s Oil, PB)

Day 1:
First day of my “plan”. Getting ready to get lean for summer. I have a few photo-shoots in line and I want to look and feel my best! I just finished spring break and it was a good time for reflection. It was also a good time for me to neglect my diet and exercise plan and eat like shit. Hoorah. Relatively boring break. Got mega loaded on the weekend with a friend of mine and ended up puking all over my doorstep. Next day I could barely walk I was so ill.
But Day 1, has been peachy. Started the morning out with an hour of cardio. I was invited to a spin class (which I love) so I really got to a great start. Diet was good throughout the day. When I got back into Spruce Grove from the city, I went back to the gym and started with some HIIT for 20 minutes. I did somewhat of a leg day. Trying to get rid of some muscle however so I just stuck to resistance training

Diet
M1: protein smoothie (280)
M2: Yogurt and some carrots, and a zone bar (310)
M3: 3oz of chicken, salad, and dressing, (200)
M4: ¾ c of yogurt (135)
M5: Protein Smoothie (280)
M6: a couple tbsp PB (200)

Exercise
Morning cardio: 60 min
Evening cardio: 20 min
Resistance training (4 sets 25)
- Pelvic thrusts, weighted donkey kicks, piles, step-ups
( I felt like the biggest pansy bitch in the world I hate not lifting)

Day 2
Today was kind of a downer. I got up and went to the gym but cardio lagged on and I was grumpy. The day I did noting but study. I DID have plans on going to the gym for round #2, but ended up hanging out with a friend of mine and played XBOX for about 6 hours. Didn’t get home until really late.
Diet
M1: protein smoothie (280)
M2: 200mL egg whites, a zone bar (310)
M3: 3 oz chicken, salad, dressing (200)
(Yes, that is all I ate all day when I went to my friends we literally did NOTHING but play games)

Exercise
45 minutes morning cardio on empty stomach
ABS: Decline crunch, Weighted Twist, Side bends. All preformed until exhaustion

Day 3
Today is day 3
I slept in because I was tired from the night before and I feel like shit. I’m all bloated too which is always a real plus. Won’t be exercising today, have exams tomorrow.
M1: 1/2c oats, ½ apple, ½ c soy, 2 tbsp PB (475)
M2: 2 oranges (120)
M3: 3 oz chicken, salad, dressing (200)
M4: Will be ¾ c cottage cheese (135)
M5: same as m3 (200)

Anyway. That’s me. I know you won’t like what I just posted haha

Posted by: DontStop

On a side note
Stats
Height: 5'7
Weight: Dono
Squat: 200lbs
Curl: 25
Press: 75lbs
Waist: 30

Thats all i know for now I'll add some more later

Posted by: Bakerboy

Congrats on the new Journal Cayla

Posted by: Tom_B

Hey Cayla ! Congratz on starting up a journal!

Now I know you already said that a good 95% of us will disagree with your current "plan" .. and you're right! Seriously that is way too little food to support the level of activity you're currently doing, and it's honestly just feeding the disorder and the mentality that fewer calories = better ..
I know it's a hard 'rut' to get out of, speaking from experience (in fact I'm still working through some of my own issues in regards to food..) but honestly though those are starvation numbers!
What do you plan on doing once you 'hit a wall' and weight loss halts? Your already doing so much cardio, and your calories are already so low .. in my opinion your leaving yourself no wheres to go once progress stalls ..

Posted by: Stewart20

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Originally Posted by DontStop

On a side note
Stats
Height: 5'7
Weight: Dono
Squat: 200lbs
Curl: 25
Press: 75lbs
Waist: 30

Thats all i know for now I'll add some more later

200lb squat eh? damn girl, that is some good stuff

Posted by: Mista

Nice to see you starting a journal, Goodluck!

Posted by: NordicNacho

lot of Cardio have fun up there in the arctic tundra! Guess its cool if you ice skate alot

"To this day I haven’t fully recovered, but I believe with the right diet and exercise I’ll get the confidence I’ve always desired."

Confidence and sense of self should come from within everything else is just temporary and will never bring true happiness. I found this out the hard way

Posted by: BigDyl

I don't think this journal will last long, but good luck!

Posted by: Archangel

Best Wishes my Friend!!!

Posted by: fufu

I know you don't want nitpicking, but be careful not to cut cals too low. If you cut them too low weight loss can halt and you gotta jack em back up and it is just an annoying process, so be careful.

and - good luck.

Posted by: Seanp156

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Originally Posted by Stewart20

200lb squat eh? damn girl, that is some good stuff

I agree, pretty good for a girl your age, especially one that's not competing in powerlifting.

Posted by: goob

Good luck. Hoping for plenty of ...um,...progress pics....preferbly nude.

Posted by: DontStop

Thanks all! Yah like I said, It's trhe shits right now My cals are too low but i dont know what to eat? It feels like if I even add 100 calories i pu on weight

April 5

Slept in Again. I have 3 exams today so I was up studying all night (followed by talking on the phone for like 3 hourse...le sigh)
Suppost to be going for coffee with a friend today in the core. I'm tempted to get a "shit" drink but i think I'll just stick too tea.

I am planning on going to the gym for a few hours tonight. Want to do some weights today...I'm feeling deprived
Chest and tris i think. Need to firm up the goodies!!

Havent ate much today

m1= 1/3 c oatmeal, 1/2c soy, apple, pb (300)
m2= zone bar (210)
m3= 3 oz chicken, salad, no dress (170)

I need suggestions for snacks. I dont have time really to cook up rice and I heard I shouldnt have fruit while I'm cutting. I'm tired of cottage cheese. it tastes like plastic.

Workout tonight will consist of supersetting
Incline press/ Tricep Extension
Incline Flye/ Reverse cable tricep extension
Flye with cables/ Dips or tricep pulldown with bar.

Burnout with pushups!
thinking hour and a half of cardio tonight...

I have no school for 5 days so will be hitting the gym hard.

Posted by: fufu

oats + skim milk

microwave

add PB first, then whey, mix well

freeze in pan

then you got protein carb bars

Posted by: DontStop

That sounds pretty good actually. My mom gave me some protein bar recipe to make. She's training for another marathon so she's really watching what she's eating n such.

somethings wrong with my ankles today i can barely walk.
Looks like it'll be the damn elliptical tonight

I think I'm going to be focussing alot more on my upper body. My lower body is really strong but my upper body is weak. I can barely do 10 pushups.

New Goal: be able to do 25 pushups by the end of the month.

Posted by: Bakerboy

It sounds like you need a new program.
Something that gets you excited to train again, something based around your specific body type and goals.

DontStop besides being able to do 25 pushups what are some of your other goals?

You sound like a girl I used to date she had great genes too. Her body could build muscle so easy...

Your type of body is the type that most people

for at night. lol

meow. True story.

Posted by: DontStop

Goals
Physically
- Lose some (not all, I'm proud of the strength in my legs) of my muscle mass in my glutes. It's like a rock and really round but It's unproportioned!
- tone up the ol' shoulders. I have very broad ones and I would love to show them off more
- Tone, Not gain in the upper body. My problem area is my triceps. They are strong you just can't see the muscle though. It looks flabbish!
- Get a money maker, not a gross "he man" money maker but a nice little aarow

Mentally
- Be comfortable with myself! I'm so shy and self concious about my body that I won't even go out sometimes...even though i know im not fat. It's all weird mental shit.
- Recover from my Bullimia
- Not feeling guilty if i endulge once in awhile (which essentially leads to my purging)

Socially
- I need more girlfriends, all my friends are boys!

Misc.
- Want to move out by summer. Might be moving to panarama outside of calgary with my best gf...or west end of edmonton.
- New job. Just quit my old one...got offered a job at hooters but i dont feel like subjecting myself to the bullshit that can happen there.

Educationally
- Get into the University of Guelph...or Saskatoon
- If that fails then NAIT or SAIT for cytotechnology program.

Posted by: DontStop

Anyway, I won't be on again until Tuesday. I'll log everything however and post it all for you when I get the chance. please leave me some diet suggestions it's a really big rut for me.

Posted by: DontStop

Well
Was a very long weekend for me
Friday was pretty good as far as workouts
I forget what I ate but I did back and shoulders ( most were 3 sets of 15, but in some exercises I would add some extra sets until failure)
- Barbell Rear Delt Row
- Lateral raises one arm at a time, and then a burn out using both arms
- Power cleans (could only do 40lbs because I had "obstacles" to get over when doing this one...)
- An exercise my friend showed me involving cables. You cross the two over and then do pull out like you're doing a flye...hard to explain but burns
- Close grip lat pull downs
- Wide grip pull downs
- Seated Rowe (machine)
- Seated Rowe (cable)
- One arm dumbbell Rowe
- Reverse Grip bent over Rowe
- Reverse butterfly

Then did 45 minutes of cardio on the elliptical. I hate using the elliptical but I do believe I have a stress fracture on my right foot...So I'm stuck using stupid no stress cardio exercises. Kept my HR at about 180 the whole time.

Later that night was good. I went to "Shooter" with the BF. I love movies like that, and marky mark was an added bonus.

Saturday I was really lazy and did close to nothing.
I did like biceps and Triceps. 2 Exercises haha I was so sore form the day before.
3 sets of 12
- Hammer Curls
-Cable triceps pull down
-Nose breaker
-Barbell Curl

After me and my friend went offroading. Later that night I got wrecked at the bar and made out with a girl (supposedly I hardly remember. I doubt I did because I'm as straight as an arrow...but who knows._

Yesterday was buts
I went for an hour walk, then did 45 minutes really intense cardio on the elliptical

Later that night I went to another gym and did weights
I did my "max squat" like 3 sets of 5 around 175lbs followed by a lot of hi rep squats (maybe only using 30lbs)
I supersetted those with a standing shoulder press
Went into piles, 3 sets 15, 30lbs supersetted with lat raise
Then Leg press, 3 sets 12, 160lbs (I can go heavier but I was doing higher reps)
Leg curl, 3 sets 15, 50lbs.

All that and then followed it with 15 mins on step mill.

Today so far I've done nothing...will go to gym tonight
So far I've had

Meal 1
1/3 c oats
1/2 c soy
1/2 c chopped strawberry's

Meal two
Peas and carrots
And a homemade protein "cookie"

Posted by: DontStop

K, Monday's Workout is STILL killing me. I woke up this morning and My quads were screaming. I can barely walk up and down the stairs. I think I'll just do some moderrate cardio tonight.

Posted by: AndrewSS

gee wiz, good squats....

IBseanmakesfunofmefornotbeingawholelotstrongerandi maguyandolder*

Posted by: Bakerboy

Your workouts look very demanding kind of like Andrew. lol

What do you do for your warm up? Do you stretch at the end of your training sessions?

Posted by: kinkery

Quote:

Originally Posted by BigDyl

I don't think this journal will last long, but good luck!

agreed

Posted by: Bakerboy

Give the girl a chance!

Posted by: soxmuscle

Have you ever thought about coming to America for college?

Posted by: kinkery

Quote:

Originally Posted by soxmuscle

Have you ever thought about coming to America for college?

nice try

Posted by: soxmuscle

Quote:

Originally Posted by kinkery

nice try

It was actually an honest question, but if you want to play it like that, she's certainly welcome to visit the Big Ten's finest: Indiana University and sleep in my bed...

Posted by: kinkery

Quote:

Originally Posted by soxmuscle

It was actually an honest question, but if you want to play it like that, she's certainly welcome to visit the Big Ten's finest: Indiana University and sleep in my bed...

Posted by: DontStop

Quote:

Originally Posted by Bakerboy

Your workouts look very demanding kind of like Andrew. lol

What do you do for your warm up? Do you stretch at the end of your training sessions?

I usually will walk to the gym because it is in walking distance...i usually finish with cardio and do 10 minutes of cool down at the end of that, but stretching, not so much

Posted by: kinkery

Posted by: DontStop

Why rolling of the eyes?
I used to be pretty strecthy, i was a competetive synchronized swimmer for a pretty long time. Im still felxible i just always forget to stretch lol

Posted by: Stewart20

Quote:

Originally Posted by DontStop

I used to be pretty strecthy

Can we get some pictures of that?

Posted by: DontStop

i was like 14
but sure

Posted by: DontStop

Anyways, Last night i was up late. Skimped out on the gym again but for good reason. my quds are still soooo sore and There's still something wrong with my right foot. It's quite painful to even put weight on it...

Going to the doctor this week. My mom thinks it's a stress fracture...I hope it's not more serious. If i dont hang out with the BF tonight im going to try and do cardio on the bike or something (boooring)

Posted by: DontStop

Alright, I haven't posted for awhile much due to thefact I havent had alot of time to go to the gym.

So here's an update:
I have a stress fracture on the top of my right foot. Which is mega gay because it hurts to even walk! It also means thast my cardio is restricted to stupid elliptical, stupid stationary bike, and stupid jacobs ladder. Mind you, me going hard on the treadmill is probably why i have this.

I decided for the next couple weeks I'm going to stick to the light cardio and focus mostly on body weight exercises (pushups, pullups, all that super fun stuff). I will, a couple times a week, incorporate weights, but not too much due to my ability to bulk

As far as diet is right now, Not going so well because my mom doesnt buy me groceries for my diet. because of my bullimia she feels the need to lock up everything, so i'm pretty much stuck with lettuce and egg whites. I don't know what to do. She also wants me to move out by the end of the month, even though I'm not even done my semester at school. I'm so stressed, I have nowhere to live and not enough money to move out on my own right now. i literally JUST turned 18.

On a positive note, Anthony texted me last night because I've been ignoring his ass (since Sundays events)
He was like "oh too good to tlk to me eh?"
i was like well now you know how it feels. whatever. bu yah, positive, umm my friends from Calgary are coming up on the 27th and then we are all going to the mountains for the weekend. We have 2 condos, 12 peaople, mostly couples. will be a riot im pretty excited

Posted by: fufu

How do you think the stress fracture came out?

Posted by: DontStop

I don't know. My Running shoes are getting worn down a bit. i go on the treadmill ALOT because i feel it works best for burning fat. I also walk everywhere, and for some reason, I don't think DC's are a brand of choice when walking everywhere. Like it wasnt like a splint where i could kind of feel it coming, this one just BAM all of a sudden it hurt to even put weight on my foot. I read on the net it takes 6-8 weeks to heal, I'm going to the doc again this week to get a tensor and that jazz (care tips for my footsie)

Posted by: DontStop

May 2nd
The 2nd was an alright day. I slept in and missed my morning cardio, but i think i made up for it in weights that night. My foot is feeling somewhat better so i got back into the swing of things. Yesterday was supposed to be just back and legs, but i ended up going to the gym again with a friend and did a bunch of parts

Workout one
Squats 30lbs until failure (warmup)
Squats 40lbs until failure
Squat rack: Bar until fauilure
Suat 50lbs in plates X 12
Squats 100 lbs in weights X 10

(Didnt do max today..i didnt feel like being soar all week)

Leg curl 3 sets 15 X 55lbs
Cable kickback 3 sets per leg until failure at 35lbs (burrrned)
Leg Press 4 sets 15 of 180lbs

Shoulders/ back
Standing overhead Press 3 sets of 15 of 15lbs w/ lat pulldowns 3 X 15 at 70lbs
Lateral Raise 3 sets 15 of 15lbs w/ close grip pulldown at 75lbs 3X15
Bentover rowe with barbell 3 X 15 50lbs
Military press (my shoulders/back were dead i could hardly do any)
Front Raise 3 X 15 15lbs

May 3rd
Yet again i slept in this morning because i was pooped from yesterday. But tonight I'm planning on just doing some cardio (our and a half maybe???)

Posted by: DontStop

So yesterday was great. My foot was feeling awesome. I went to the gym intending just to walk on an incline on the treadmill, but my foot felt so good i ran for a good 80 minutes.

Pissed off though, a gay friend left a comment on my nexopia asking who my BF was and my BF read it and took it the wrong way and for some reason i was trying to get with my gay friend? was very odd and actually made me really upset

Posted by: NordicNacho

Maybe he has a crush on your boyfriend? He may be trying to steal your man.

Posted by: DontStop

Well I told jean my BF's name, so jean went through my friends list and found him and then meesaged him an emoticon of two guys holding hands. so anthony looked at his page and saw me and jean were tlking (anthony was loaded) and he got way mad and forgot to read thast jean was gay. so he message me while i was at the gym "WHO IS JEAN BLAH BLAH DONT PLAY ME BLAH BLAH"
OOO i was soooo mad

Posted by: Plateau_Max

A girl like you needs to understand, jealousy is an obvious worry when you're someone who's greatly desired by a lot of other guys. There's the fact that he may have a deal of insecurity about himself but a lot of it also would have to do with the fact that you don't seem to have been dating him for very long and as you've said, you haven't had sex with him either.

All this shows the relationship is still easily ended at this point... who wouldn't be worried?? You said yourself he doesn't know Jean's gay. Just calm down, talk it out, and if anything reassure him so he'll think twice before jumping to conclusions next time.

Posted by: DontStop

Well there will be no need to do that because we broke up this weekend. And i was an idiot about it
We were supposed to hang out but he flat out ditched me and wouldnt return my calls. So then i jumped to conclusions and assumed he was cheating on me because he has a history of it with other girls. So i just got mad and left him a bunch of messages. and then i got drunk and felt bad about it, and in my drnken stuper i told him i didnt blame him if he cheated on me blah blah. really dumb. now i feel like shit, and even though he was a prick to me i miss him.

Anyways

Yesterday i Did legs
Pile's 20X20lbs, 15X30, 13X40, 20X20, 15X30, 20X20
Deadlifts 40lbs until failure, 3 sets 60lbs X 15
Leg Press: 3 sets 12 180lbs, 3 sets 20X90lbs
Kickbacks: 3 sets per leg until failure

Then this morning i walked on an incline for 50 minutes....and now im at school

Posted by: kicka19

nice journal, this thing is like a book

Posted by: DontStop

Well the things that happen to me outside the gym affect my training and diet
for example, after i broke up with my BF on saturday, i went to the casino with some ppl and ate a plate of wontons, then that night i drank about 6 coolers and an abundance of shots, and before i got home from my night of drinking (which was about 5 a.m) i had a sausage mcmuffin
all because i was really upset.

Posted by: NordicNacho

Quote:

Originally Posted by kicka19

nice journal, this thing is like a book

you mean a novel

Posted by: NordicNacho

Quote:

Originally Posted by DontStop

Well the things that happen to me outside the gym affect my training and diet
for example, after i broke up with my BF on saturday, i went to the casino with some ppl and ate a plate of wontons, then that night i drank about 6 coolers and an abundance of shots, and before i got home from my night of drinking (which was about 5 a.m) i had a sausage mcmuffin
all because i was really upset.

your 18 I used to day that everyday in college and I was still in great shape. live it up don't forget the bong rips a lot of bc indoor up there

Posted by: DontStop

No i gain weight so easy it's disgusting.
I'm too scared to cheat anyways because it was always frowned down upon in my family. and if u eat like shit then my parents would lay a huge guilt trip on me.

as far as bong rips, my aunty has a place on Bear Mountain, just outside of victoria and she grows. it's her main source of income, she has a shop full, 2 chicken coups full, a backyard full, and a shed full.

Posted by: NordicNacho

lot of good outdoor up in that part of the country. Will make you trip out not just sit on the couch and watch tv and stuff your face.

this is a clone only strain from up. One of the all time greats
Texada Timewarp - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Posted by: Nate K

Stop eating like shit and bitching about guys.

Your aunty!!!!!!1 woah....2 chicken coups full haha

Posted by: DontStop

lol i ate like shit one day.
and i cant help but bitch about anthony.
le sigh

Anyways, all my shit eating was cancelled out yesterday and this morning because i busted my ass

Posted by: DontStop

And as far as my aunty and her stash goes...christ it's strong.
Me and another fellow at my aunties place smoked some and we ended up laughing at a commercial for 20 minutes because it was blue.
She also taught me how to make hash.

Posted by: DiGiTaL

Shit happens. My relationship almost ended because of the similar reason lol.

Posted by: DontStop

le sigh
look at him though

but apparently in his last relationship he cheated on his gf like everyday with randoms. so iono if he cheated on me or not. we are presently not tlking

Posted by: NordicNacho

but apparently in his last relationship he cheated on his gf like everyday with randoms. so iono if he cheated on me or not. we are presently not tlking

sounds like a keeper to me

Posted by: DiGiTaL

Maybe he did maybe he didnt. I guess it all depends...
lol I think I've seen him in West ed someday..he seems similar..or i could be wrong.

Posted by: DontStop

oh god hes always in west ed
his name is anthony and if u see him tell him cayla says go fuck himself

Posted by: DontStop

and that i want him

Posted by: Bakerboy

Maybe you need to switch to women for awhile.

Posted by: DontStop

nah im as straight as an aarow

Posted by: Plateau_Max

To Canada with me! my damsel is truly single now!

Don't worry about the wontons, just call it a cheat day and move on. There's always going to be bumps and having a nasty breakup is definitely a cause for a bump. At least you're back on here and focused again.

And Nate this is HER JOURNAL so she can bitch about her ex all she wants!

Posted by: Nate K

Haha, what a douch. I like that earring. Canada is funny

Posted by: Nate K

Quote:

Originally Posted by Plateau_Max

To Canada with me! my damsel is truly single

And Nate this is HER JOURNAL so she can bitch about her ex all she wants!

True

Posted by: DontStop

hehe thanks P-max
Yah yesterday i bought a new trance CD and worked out nice and hard to it.
I love working out when I'm mad. And to make things even better, my legs are leaning right out so my glute development is really noticeable.

Yah i hadnt had wontons in eons, but to kind of balance things out i had a salad with them.

The booze later killed me though haha
I was with, funny enough, one of my ex's and his friends, and then another car of people. Anyways, we all went drinking in a field and the cops came. and the driver of the other car got nailed with having no license on him, no insurance, and he was drrunk
$6000 fine.

But our car was good to go.

Posted by: Plateau_Max

Yes... work those glutes. Yeah working out angry is good you have an enhanced adrenal response, almost like what you'd get artificially from drugs like ephedra.

I suppose the answer to the ephedra ban is just watch a short video of some guy slapping your mother right before you run. Personally I'd run 20 miles then go kill someone hahaha.

Posted by: DontStop

yah i tick really easy to alot of things.
My stepdad is putting up the punching bag tonight so im going to use that too, as butch as that is.
but i used to be horrible when i was mad id break furniture and punch holes in walls...but thats when i was really bullimic and my mood would change like that.

Posted by: DontStop

by the way, i put a new pic in my gallery of my now dark hair

Posted by: Bakerboy

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Originally Posted by DontStop

yah i tick really easy to alot of things.
My stepdad is putting up the punching bag tonight so im going to use that too, as butch as that is.
but i used to be horrible when i was mad id break furniture and punch holes in walls...but thats when i was really bullimic and my mood would change like that.

Hitting/ kicking a bag is great, just make sure you tape your hands. It's easy to injure your wrists and hands if you don't.

You could also jump rope as another form of cardio. To me rope work is like sex, the more tricks you know the greater the satisfaction. I don't know why more people don't do it. Just make sure you do it on a cushy surface- not concrete.

I don't know how people run on treadmills or ride indoor bikes. I like to do as much as I can cardio wise outside.

Posted by: DontStop

Yah i like rididng my bike and such outside, but i cant run outside. For some reason i get bored of it really fast, and running on the treadmill is easier on my joints, because im prone to shin splints.
Also, when im listening to trance, i go into a trance on the treadmill haha and dont pay attention to anything

Posted by: Mista

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Originally Posted by DontStop

Yah i like rididng my bike and such outside, but i cant run outside. For some reason i get bored of it really fast, and running on the treadmill is easier on my joints, because im prone to shin splints.
Also, when im listening to trance, i go into a trance on the treadmill haha and dont pay attention to anything

I can relate to that.

Posted by: DiGiTaL

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oh god hes always in west ed
his name is anthony and if u see him tell him cayla says go fuck himself

Lol. I'll make sure to tell him that. I'm not always visiting west ed i juts live near by so i walk through the mall. I hope he doesn't start shit with "OH How do you know Cayla" Lol.

Nice pics btw.

Posted by: Plateau_Max

Yeah I'd train more outside if it would stop frickin RAINING... it's MAY for god sakes...

Posted by: DontStop

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Originally Posted by DiGiTaL

Lol. I'll make sure to tell him that. I'm not always visiting west ed i juts live near by so i walk through the mall. I hope he doesn't start shit with "OH How do you know Cayla" Lol.

Nice pics btw.

He lives near there too. He txted me last night an apologized to me. He would start shit hes a little nut ball, but say something anyway hahah

Yesterday sucked because i couldnt go to the gym...had to work. Work was dead so i ended up scrubbing everything! people can smoke at my work so smoke always sticks to the walls and glass so i have to clean it.
I walked home though. which was nice. A good 3 miles or so.

Slept in this morning because i worked late. I'm at school now and I'm planning my workout for tonight.
I'm thinking back and bi's tonight with a fare share of cardio. i feel like running.

Posted by: Plateau_Max

What do your training splits look like? Are you doing more total body type compound workouts since you're going more for overall calorie burn and toning?

Posted by: DontStop

I'm supersetting 2 different groups...usually
Full Body doesn do anything for me

It usually goes
Legs
Back and Bis
Chest and Tris
Then another legs w/ shoulders

Posted by: DontStop

Well, Anthony and I just talked. We're dating again haha

Posted by: DontStop

Last night I had a just peachy workout. I got to the gym about 6 and was there till 9.
I did back with triceps
Wide grip pulldowns, 3 sets 12, 1 set till failure
Reverse Cable Tricep Extension 3 sets 15, 2 sets until failure
Close grip pulldowns, 3 sets 12, 1 set until failure
Cable pulldown (tris) 3 sets 15, 2 until failure
Seated Rowe 3 sets 15
Lat Rowe 3 sets 15

Cardio: 1 hour really intense running followed by 20 minutes of good strecthing.

When i was doing triceps today, the front of my shoulders really started to hurt...more so then my tris. I dont know why? It happened welst doing pulldowns.

My diet yesterday was bland though...i didnt really eat but i had alot of energy. I'm planning on doing shoulders tonight

Posted by: DiGiTaL

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He lives near there too. He txted me last night an apologized to me. He would start shit hes a little nut ball, but say something anyway hahah

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Well, Anthony and I just talked. We're dating again haha

Can i still just walk up to him and say something weird o.O if i see him lol. Just for the heck of it.

Oh and Dontstop, one more question. I know your upgrading for nait or UOfA and I don't know where your upgrading so Im taking a wild guess and say Centrehigh? if so, do you know any close gyms there?. I live far, no car yet and I'd like to do my workouts after school or before.

Posted by: DontStop

Yah go hard haha. He's really shy so he probably won't even say anything...
Mind you...he did beak out a gay guy...ke ke ke

Yah I'm at Center High. It's faster and more efficient then Norquest. There is a Club Fit about a block away on Jasper Ave, right next to the second cup. on either 103rd or 104th street, something like that. There is a gym IN the school, but it only has a couple weight machines and cardio equipment...plus you have to be signed up for gym class.
Also, since it's downtown, there are alot of buildings where you can run the stairs.

Posted by: DiGiTaL

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Yah go hard haha. He's really shy so he probably won't even say anything...
Mind you...he did beak out a gay guy...ke ke ke

Yah I'm at Center High. It's faster and more efficient then Norquest. There is a Club Fit about a block away on Jasper Ave, right next to the second cup. on either 103rd or 104th street, something like that. There is a gym IN the school, but it only has a couple weight machines and cardio equipment...plus you have to be signed up for gym class.
Also, since it's downtown, there are alot of buildings where you can run the stairs.

Haha I'll talk to him then. He broke a gay guy..lol nice. I like the shy type

Lol jk.

Cool Thanks. Ya i was told about center high being better and thanks, I was afraid of not being able to workout in center high cause I got 3 courses to finish and all. I'll just check around Club fit or something then.

Posted by: DontStop

Yah. I really do adore him though. I like him so much it hurts.
I sound so pathetic it's disgusting...I'm usually a man eater...le sigh.

Yah center high has alot of resources and can hook you up with colleges etc. they have career advisors n such. Beauty campus too..right on boardwalk.
I bus here from spruce gorve...I dont get my celica until sept.

Posted by: DiGiTaL

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Yah. I really do adore him though. I like him so much it hurts.
I sound so pathetic it's disgusting...I'm usually a man eater...le sigh.

It's all good. I could start talking like that and feel pathetic. but the part i had in bold was shocking ;D haha.

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Yah center high has alot of resources and can hook you up with colleges etc. they have career advisors n such. Beauty campus too..right on boardwalk.
I bus here from spruce gorve...I dont get my celica until sept.

Yea I heard about their special programs for post secondary education stuff. Its really nice actually, I still don't know whats gonna happen overall, im not used to Edmonton Education system yet lol, I did move from Toronto not long ago.

I live like.5mins driving across west ed..I dont know what my location is called lol. I take the 14 to west ed and I have to take the 1 or 2 to center high..i gotta look that up..I dont want to be lost.

Edit: I just had a fight with my gf last night..for a dumb comment i made. it sucks cause she is PMSing and I should have backed off. Well I appologized and all but ugh she is still a bit sad.

Posted by: DontStop

I just get bored of most guys. Anthony's intreguing because he's obtuse.

Spruce grove is 15 minutes out of edmonton on the 16A/Yellowhead. I take the 197.
Alberta Education is harder...But we have more scholarships and government programs for students. The students here are prioritized way more then any group of people (seniors etc)

Posted by: DiGiTaL

Ya the education here is harder. Probably because there is less violence here lol. I've seen a fight since I came here now in toronto I would get to opportunity to once a month hear someone get shot or someone die lol.

I personally hate school. Always have. I just want to finish and go to University and leave lol. Like right now, im in computer class. The teach doesn't care what we do at all..the guy on my left is playing a game and the guy on my right is looking up chicks on this graphics website...im bored to hell lol.

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I dont get my celica until sept.

Whats that? heh

Posted by: DontStop

Education here is harder because we have higher expectations. Edmonton is actually one of the murder capitals of Canada, just last week a club owner got shot in the back of the head and his staff were tied up in the back.

I like school... I like challenging myself physically and mentally. I can't wait for secondary because then i can learn about somethingI enjoy instead of having to learn about shit unrelated to my career choice. I'm in chem class, in a. "education enhanced computer lab" alot of the cirriculum is on the computer...

A Celica is a car...
I'm getting a 2004 i believe. that or a 92.

Posted by: DiGiTaL

Education is harder and different. Edmonton values education more then other places..
Another club owner got shot..shit..I gotta go look up on that in the news lol.

Personally, I liked school until grade 5. Grade 6 i changed school 4times in one year, then moving out of quebec to toronto I was forced to skip grade 7. And Ever since I've been changing schools..overall 14schools so I never had time to settle down or anything.
And ya, University will be a good change for once even if its going to be a lot harder. Atleast It'll be something we like to study.

A celica is a car....
then obviously I dont know cars as much as i thought,
I'm probably getting a honda civic or acura tsx (my dad wants to pay half) next january (I got my learners couple months ago)

Posted by: DontStop

Yah i liked school until grade 9 when i got an eating disorder and i couldnt concentrate on anything. But I am smart when I apply myself and am not being gay about my diet.
Yah it was a toss up between a celica and an eclipse. My step dad is paying for most of mine. H'es partial to the celica. I would also like a nissan 240SX with a body kit.
My friend cory's uncle has a red supra. It's sex on wheels...
My grandpa has a 300ZX which i would love to have!! But eh...i can only dream.
I was also considering buting my friend rays Subaru WRX. It's a beauty it's silver with a black hood and an air scoop with a blowout valve and a wicked huge exhaust.

Get the Acura. My friend in Calgarys has a Type S...wicked cars...

Posted by: DiGiTaL

haha nice.

I got into all cars and stuff a few months ago. Your grandpa has a nice car

.. I was thinking of a nissan too but cant.

ugh shit i gtg. class is over. ttyl. I'll get the acura lol.

Posted by: DontStop

Damn rights grandpappy has a nice car. Hes not doing to bad for himself. lucky fucker has 2 condos in canmore and one in mexico.
le sigh

yah get the acura..they are cool...everyone up here has a civic or a prelude.

Posted by: Mista

Go the 240SX or WRX

Posted by: DiGiTaL

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Damn rights grandpappy has a nice car. Hes not doing to bad for himself. lucky fucker has 2 condos in canmore and one in mexico.
le sigh

When you say Lucker Fucker...damn right thats true. Fuck houses are so expensive here..

I have decided to get the acura but I still got like 10more months so I might change my mind..I dont want anything big (hummers or vans) or too small just enough for..2 or 4 people, good looking and "modern"

Posted by: DontStop

Yah both my friends with nice cars names are Ray
Ray in BC has the 240SX and Ray in Calgary has a WRX. I just want a sexy car...not a typical girl car like a pontiac or a neon.

Yesterday at the gym wasn't as X-Core as i would have liked it to be. I had another day of minimal eating so i couldn't preform right at the gym. I went home and then went out again with my friend.

Got some weird text lasts night though. Cory sent me a TXT about salad fingers, and some othe r guy who has an e-crush kept txting me.

Can't go to the gym tonight, as for i have to work until 10. Then I'll walk home and pass out.

Posted by: DiGiTaL

Is E-Crush? An Electronic-Crush as in Internet Crush...hehe

And ya I just want a good looking car, not the average looking one. Something attractive is all.

Posted by: DontStop

an internet crush
he alwways txts me at like 3 a.m asking me if i'm awake.

Posted by: katt

How annoying would that be??

Posted by: KelJu

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Originally Posted by DontStop

hehe thanks P-max
Yah yesterday i bought a new trance CD and worked out nice and hard to it.
I love working out when I'm mad. And to make things even better, my legs are leaning right out so my glute development is really noticeable.

Yah i hadnt had wontons in eons, but to kind of balance things out i had a salad with them.

The booze later killed me though haha
I was with, funny enough, one of my ex's and his friends, and then another car of people. Anyways, we all went drinking in a field and the cops came. and the driver of the other car got nailed with having no license on him, no insurance, and he was drrunk
$6000 fine.

But our car was good to go.

Finally a somebody who does this also. I use to workout for a while with total rage, and was probably the hardest I will ever workout. I can't do it anymore, because I have nothing to mad at right now. I need to go date some random chick for 3 months, have a huge fight, break up and have some new rage to fuel workouts again.

Posted by: NordicNacho

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Originally Posted by KelJu

not smoking cannablis helps too

Posted by: KelJu

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Originally Posted by NordicNacho

not smoking cannablis helps too

What, not smoke pot? That just doesn't make any sense.

Posted by: NordicNacho

makes alot of sense not many angry potheads, just a few dirty ones

Posted by: DiGiTaL

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Ya i use anger a lot too....a lot. It helps big time for those dumb days. Days my gf bitches and i have a fight with my parents (my parents are savages)...i feel like i can lift 2x my normal no problem.

And if only you could go to my school. You wouldn't need anything to make you angry.

Posted by: Plateau_Max

For some reason the shift change at work here is always loaded with a bunch of bullshit and people whining and complaining about us turning work over... (the usual thought is, HEY we're not here to power out all the work so you losers can sit and play cards all night even though that's what you do anyway!)

I tend to get my anger fuel right before I work out anyway

Posted by: DiGiTaL

What do you do at your job?.
My job is pretty gay, usually because I end up doing everything and eveyone likes to slack off. So glad i dont work today and tomorrow

Posted by: Plateau_Max

http://www.ironmagazineforums.com/op...do-living.html

Posted by: KelJu

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Originally Posted by NordicNacho

makes alot of sense not many angry potheads, just a few dirty ones

Well I smoke pot to calm me down. I am an insanely angry person by nature, btu I am mellowing out over time with practice.

On topic, what the hell are you doing DontStop? Where are the workouts. We are going to bug you until you start lifting again.

Posted by: DontStop

Yah I'm a pretty angry person too...i tend to bottle things up. This weekend really sucked. I worked every day. I managed to sneak in, maybe, one workout.

Cardio
1 hour running

Weights
Pile pyramids
Deadlifts 50lbs sets until failure...so alot
leg press...about 180lbs 4 sets 15
lunges until failure X6

Posted by: DontStop

But yah, Friday night I just went home I was so tired.
I had my days fill of natives and seniors and didnt want to interact with anybody. I came home and talked to my BF and then slept.

Saturday was my workout and it was peachy. I worked Saturday night and then after went to a guy friends house in north edmonton and watched movies. It was really odd though. I actually wanted to fuck him just for the hell of it. he knew it too, he texted me saturday and told me he sensed it haha and i should have spoke up...but i have to be loyal to my bf.

anyway Sunday my bf called me like 8 times at work. i worked 11 hours on sunday, but i had a break and went out and got baked. came to work high as a bird and turned purple. My friends from lethbridge were up visiting and came to my work though, and they picked me up after work and visited until late. then my bf called again and was all gushy. this morning he actually said he loved me, but he ditched me yesterday?? it was odd.

Posted by: DontStop

Well Yesterday was interesting
Had a full day of school and then came home and ran for about 40 minutes. No weights
I'm taking a "supplement" and it was suggested to me that i dont weight train while I'm on it because I'll gain too much muscle

My mom picked me up and we went shopping for a bit. I bought a new G-Star shirt and some new DC's.
I was supposed to meet anthony there but he definately didnt pick up his phone. He called me later and gave me some lame ass excuse.
I told him about this producer from penthouse who wants me to be scenes and for some reason he was all gung ho about it. Hermmm

Stuck in school right now I'm sick to my stomach. I was all last night too i dont know what's wrong

Posted by: katt

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Originally Posted by DontStop

Well Yesterday was interesting
Had a full day of school and then came home and ran for about 40 minutes. No weights
I'm taking a "supplement" and it was suggested to me that i dont weight train while I'm on it because I'll gain too much muscle

My mom picked me up and we went shopping for a bit. I bought a new G-Star shirt and some new DC's.
I was supposed to meet anthony there but he definately didnt pick up his phone. He called me later and gave me some lame ass excuse.
I told him about this producer from penthouse who wants me to be scenes and for some reason he was all gung ho about it. Hermmm

Stuck in school right now I'm sick to my stomach. I was all last night too i dont know what's wrong

Could have something to do with the new "supplement"???

Posted by: DontStop

Yah I'm suspicious of it myself.
My bodybuilding friend gave it to me and told me his gf took it and had good results. EE you guys will hate me but it's winny. and I'm SUPPOSED to only use it for a month, a tiny amount twice a day.

I just tried eating a protein bar for the sake of eating because i cant stomach anything else

Posted by: katt

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Originally Posted by DontStop

Yah I'm suspicious of it myself.
My bodybuilding friend gave it to me and told me his gf took it and had good results. EE you guys will hate me but it's winny. and I'm SUPPOSED to only use it for a month, a tiny amount twice a day.

I just tried eating a protein bar for the sake of eating because i cant stomach anything else

how much is a tiny amount?

Posted by: DontStop

3 capsules last me a month
so each pill gets divided into 20 piles

Posted by: fufu

Well Dontstop, I don't think you know what you are getting yourself into. Be careful. There is alot more to using steroids than just taking them, alot more. Educate yourself, it is for your own good.

Why would you even take them? You said yourself you put muscle on way to easy, and you don't even want that.

Posted by: DontStop

i know i do but he told me that if i just do cardio and not weights I'll lose fat and maintain the muscle i have

Posted by: fufu

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Please just read all the stickies in the Anabolic Zone about post cycle therapy and on cycle precautions. Don't just take them and leave it at that.

Posted by: DontStop

ok
Le sigh I'm so confused!
I like weights but i dont
If i do them i get huge
if i dont i get bored

Posted by: katt

Yes you will gain muscle that you may not want... and you have to be aware of the side effects also.. It's certainly nothing to take a guess at..

Posted by: DontStop

Well I've asked for help before and pretty much everyone said I'd just get a big clit

Posted by: fufu

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Originally Posted by DontStop

ok
Le sigh I'm so confused!
I like weights but i dont
If i do them i get huge
if i dont i get bored

You can only get bigger if you are eating surplus cals. Just eat at maintenance levels and keep training.

Posted by: DontStop

evenn if i eat just 1200 cals i can gain it in muscles.
my metabo is f u c k e d from my bullimia, which i'm still trying to recover from

Posted by: DontStop

AYou can tell i gain muscle easy even just by looking at my pics. I have a larger frame, so naturally my body just fills out when i train, and i dont want to haha

Posted by: katt

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Originally Posted by DontStop

AYou can tell i gain muscle easy even just by looking at my pics. I have a larger frame, so naturally my body just fills out when i train, and i dont want to haha

So why don't you just go for it and compete?

Posted by: DontStop

I don't think It's attractive
I have to car model in the summer, and that requires me to have softer curves instead of being a little brick
I would go for it...but...deep down it's not what i want.

Posted by: katt

Gotcha... well, just listen to fufu, and don't eat too much while you're taking the winny

And, yeah, that is a "tiny" amount

Posted by: DontStop

Well i dont mean to say it's not attractive, just not for what I'm doing. I hope you didn't take that the wrong way!
I'm definately going to do alot more research on it, but I've found all the research I've done hasnt really answered my questions.

Posted by: katt

Not a problem - I didn't take it the wrong way...

It's really hard to do research,,, it took me forever and I found a few things.. then I had the help of a PA that sent me to a website that is reputable and I have learned a ton

Posted by: DontStop

what's the site?

Posted by: Nate K

Hey, don't stress about this stuff too much if you are. Just stay healthy and you will be happy.

Posted by: DontStop

I have to stress about it if i have a job this summer that requires me to look practically like a maxim model

Posted by: DiGiTaL

Are you gonna be wearing those tiny underpants or tight pants?
will i be able to find ur pics on in the internet after? haha jk.

I dont you would get all bulky, your a girl..things are different for you and i think only if you really do heavy stuff that you'll get muscles showing and get thicker.

Posted by: DontStop

i know from experience i get bulky haha
and if you go to tibbymat on nex, that's who i am posing for

Posted by: DontStop

Ahh I've had a nice afternoon so far
My friend Asher and I went down to the old pawn shops in china town
We came accross a gallery which had a bunch of weird shit
There was this really cool big metal sculpture
It was of a laty and her nipples were gears (I'm telling you it was big)
and she was driving some sort of contraption, and on the back was a big metal penis it was hilarious

I wish i could find a picture

Then we walked on Jasper Ave because it is beautiful out.

Ahh i cheated. Asher bought a hot dog from fat franks and i had a couple bites.
So good though

All in all the only exercise ive had today is walking a good 2 hours

Posted by: DontStop

Never mind! I looked up the gallery and found the vendor name!!
this is her
Shes called shifting lobeda

Posted by: Plateau_Max

That's NEAT (non exercise activity thermogenesis) sure it does have slightly higher calorie utilization than just sitting there but I wouldn't call it exercise babe.

What are you gonna do for your workout today?

Posted by: DontStop

haha whats neat is my metal lady who i want to buy!Workout today, if i in fact make it to the gym will likely be shoulders with, le sigh, cardio

I'm SUPPOSED to see anthony tonight but...i dont know if thats gonna happen

Posted by: Plateau_Max

Ah who needs him anyway.

Posted by: DiGiTaL

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Ah who needs him anyway.

Her. but for what reason?..thats a secret.

Posted by: DiGiTaL

Quote:

i know from experience i get bulky haha
and if you go to tibbymat on nex, that's who i am posing for

I'll check it out, this should be cool

Posted by: DontStop

i dont need him
Im done with men for awhile
last night he pissed me off, literally to the point where i dont even want to look at him.
W.E
fuck it im putting all my energy into school, gym, work

fuck everybody seriously

Posted by: DiGiTaL

so much for lovely dovey heh.
im scared to ask what did he do

Posted by: DontStop

well we were SUPPOSED to go tand spend the night together, but he had to work until like 9
and i told him id wait at west ed because i was in the city anyways
Well
his phone was turned off all night and i was stranded downtown
i literally cried for like an hour
so essentially right now i feel:
- ugly
- fat
- undesirable
- unimportant
- unwanted
- did i mention fat and ugly

Posted by: DiGiTaL

oh..wow, fuck that is pretty gay.
as gay as this sounds, things will get better.

Your not either what you describe

. Your a very important member of this community. C'mon dont bring yourself down cause of that then again when you mention crying for an hour I just go

. He should appologize thats very wrong.

Your not ugly, your sexy

..vairy.

Posted by: DontStop

Well i dont understand what i did to deserve to be treated like that
he still hasnt called me back yet or texted me, and i havent called him or texted him
when i came home me and my mom talked and shes like
"you know what cayla, be happy he didnt call you back. just think to yourself "fuck you anthony, i have better things to do. and if you're going to treat me like shit, then good, dont call" things will get better"

my moms awesome
she sat down and said a bunch of really nice things to be because im still recovering from bullimia and she knows i feel like shit.

shes right though
fuck you anthony

not to toot my own horn or anything but there are so many guys who want me right now. so many. i dont think anthony is quite aware of what he threw away last night

my theme song for this week:
Tears from the moon- Conjure 1 featuring sinnead o'connor

i bought a deep dish CD yesterday too it;s helping

Posted by: DiGiTaL

He'll come crying for you, i guarantee it.

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not to toot my own horn or anything but there are so many guys who want me right now. so many. i dont think anthony is quite aware of what he threw away last night

Lol kidding.

He deservs some punishment. I gtg now. get healled girl

peace out.

Posted by: DontStop

i should hope he comes fucking crying.
Thanks for listening though
But I'm reealllly depressed right now. like last night i swunbg right back into my bullimia again and i didnt even binge. it was weird

Posted by: katt

Life's too short to have bad boyfriends.... there are so many other good ones out there..

Posted by: kinkery

Quote:

Originally Posted by DontStop

well we were SUPPOSED to go tand spend the night together, but he had to work until like 9
and i told him id wait at west ed because i was in the city anyways
Well
his phone was turned off all night and i was stranded downtown
i literally cried for like an hour
so essentially right now i feel:
- ugly
- fat
- undesirable
- unimportant
- unwanted
- did i mention fat and ugly

try missing a few payments

Posted by: katt

Dump him !

Posted by: DontStop

Quote:

Originally Posted by kinkery

try missing a few payments

I value my credit thanks.

And we're not talking so im going to assume we're broken up.
ARG
haha well im kind of cheering up because im listening to Global DJ's and there songs are always happy
"one night in bangkok and the worlds your oyster"

But yah, Im mad enough to start weights again so i'll be posting my workouts, with the inclusion of sets reps weights etc

hooray for my journal being interesting, somewhat, again!!

Posted by: Brachiisaurus

Quote:

Originally Posted by DontStop

Never mind! I looked up the gallery and found the vendor name!!
this is her
Shes called shifting lobeda

Jeebus, look at those nipples!

Posted by: DontStop

i know isnt she cool
im going to visit her again next week

Posted by: katt

Are the sculptures for sale??? Those are awesome!

Posted by: DontStop

yah haha
she's really big!
she probably weighs a ton
but i saw her through a gallery window and it was love at first site
im pretty sure u can buy her

Posted by: Brachiisaurus

Quote:

Originally Posted by DontStop

yah haha
she's really big!
she probably weighs a ton
but i saw her through a gallery window and it was love at first site
im pretty sure u can buy her

If you start having wet dreams about her...See a therapist immediately.

Posted by: NordicNacho

use a petroleum
based lube at least we don't want her getting rusty

Posted by: DontStop

Well the long weekend is over and I'm back at shcool. This has probably been the longest weekend of my life. Hold on...alot happened

Friday
After school, me and my best friend mike went to 28 weeks later. I loved it! I tyhought it was way scarier then the first one. Once i got hme i made plans with a friend from the city and we went to globe. it fucking sucked. i hate going to bars in edmonton because i dont know alot of ppl here. Onle really Spruce Grove ppl
Fortunately, one of my hookups lived only a block away so i went to his house and we watched dave chapelle until about 4 in the morning. I passed out on his couch.

Saturday
Saturday morning i was actually supposed to work. But mario slept in until about one. so i had to call work and tell them i was stranded in the city. While mario was sleeping,his roomate came out and made me french toast and we talked about school, degrees, work etc.
ario woke up and we went to drop me off at west ed (we actually kind of hooked up in his jeep but we didnt fuck. me and him have this thing for head we're both addicts.)
So he drops me off at west ed and i planned to meet another friend later that day. So here i am in the mall stranded for like 7 hours waiting for my friend to get off work. i ended up spending most of my time in blue shift gaming which is really gay because its basically a bunch of people sitting around playing world of warcraft
Christ
I also made my way down to good ol circuit circus where i endulged in my fav game in the world, big buck hunter plus.
Brandon finally got there and we went to his house, which might i add was sooo boring. we didnt do anything it was awkward. we liteerally sat there and watched the news. I spent thie night and im so thankful he didnt try and make a move on me because im not attracted to him

Sunday
Sunday i had to work which really blew. But the plus side was that me and anthony kind of started tlking again. He's all like "Tell me what u think of this kim girl blah blah we went to a movie"
It hurt my feelings so fucing bad
And this girl is like but fucking ugly. and i mean but fucking ugly.
So i sent him this convo i was having aboiut brandon gushing to me how much he liked me
and anthony goes
HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT IT'S SO HURTFUL
fuck
After work i went to a party in the country which was awesome. i ran into some lethbridge people there which is always a plus because lethbridge people always know eachother
the party was good besides the fact i drank whiskey and was loud and horny.
Monday
monday i had to work first thing which went by smoothly
then i came home and came online and anthony started tlking to me
and this is essentially what he said

( in the second post hes tlking about his license plate. he missed court dates and hes all tripped out that if he gets pulled over he'll go to jail for a year. and wtf? beauty and squirrels??)

Now after all that i see some weird things go on on his nex page. hes putting how he likes this girl n shit n hes like "oh yah i have to delete that blah blah
Then
then
fucking then
that kim girl msgs me!!
shes like
"so i hear your not to happy about me and anthony. who fucking cares we obviously like each other i'll make him way happier then you ever did!!"

So i start thinking
anthony obviously said something to her to make her write me haha and i was on the phone with him when i got this message
i was like
WTF IS THIS!? DID U SAY SOMETHING ABOUT ME TO HER
and hes all like, well im honest i tell people shit

so i said DO U WANNA BE WITH ME OR NOT BLAHDY BLAH BLAH
i pretty much fucking freaked out and hung up on him.

Oh oh, and then anthony messages brandon and tells him to "stay away from his GF"
we're not even going out and i told him this on the phone
hes like "we're not? fine then"

like wtf he must think im pretty stupid im not going to be played.
Brandon messaged me this morning to get mad at me because of anthonys message and i forwarded it to anthony saying "congratulations"

the message read like this

Congratulations FW: I'm just gpoing to stop liking you, simple as that

and anthony calls me like 2 seconds after and is like
YOU DONT LIKE ME ANYMORE
im like uhhh no thats what brandon said to me this morning because of ur message

CHRIST FUCK SHIT IM MAD AND ITS AFFECTING MY TRAINING AND DIET

Posted by: katt

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST! All I can say is thank gawd it's Monday!

Posted by: DontStop

Tuesday actually haha

Posted by: katt

Crap - I'm already behind a day ...

Posted by: DontStop

haha ahh yah. i hope this week goes ok. anthony is supposed to come with a bonfire wit me this wknd but i feel like avoiding him altogether

i tripped too hard on this guy i know hes lying to me but i dont know im still caught

i sound like such a stupid girl and im totally aware of it but i dont wanna let go

oh well atleast im going to the gym tonight

Posted by: DontStop

Anyways, with P-Max's help I've been put on a new sort of plan.
So far my diet today is

meal 1
1 cup soy milk
1 scopp whey
1/4 cup oats ( a shake)

meal 2
1/2c cottage cheese
carrots and radishes

meal 3
4 oz chicken
Large salad no dressing

Posted by: DiGiTaL

For a guy who loves you so much I like how work comes before you. Tsk tsk.

Thats very insensitive of him, should beat him. As far as we know its the second time he left you stranded (or i think so)

Posted by: DontStop

oh its been more then that
i dont know wtf to think
digital, go on nex and go to kimmie.xo and tell me what u think
she has like anthonys name in hearts n shit. i could fucking kill someone im so mad
and then he tells me hes ditching her
and he thought she was the one because she can play pool!?!?!

hes like
"well she lives 4 minutes away from me and has a stable job, but she isnbt as smart as u or as pretty"
fuckkk

Posted by: DiGiTaL

Ouch...that fucking sucks. If anyone deservs to be dead is that girl.As sad is this sounds she probably has him seduced someway and he obviously fell for her. Anthony should really start thinking of what he is doing, someone should knock some sense into him.

I can't access nexo in here. My school has it banned sorry. I'll do it after school at home....

This is ironic.

Posted by: DiGiTaL

I gtg, class is over again. Ttyl.

Posted by: DontStop

That girl is fucking shit.
And how dare she msg me
Apparently she's going to ask anthony out and i asked him what he'd say and he was like "shes not going to get a chance to ask me out"
He's lying
Someone should knock some sense into him
He attempted to crawl back to me last night but then i got that msg from her and ahh
i dont know
shes so fucking ugly too i cant even believe it

Posted by: soxmuscle

I didn't read all of what you wrote because I have better things to do with my time than reading the problems of the teenage dating scene. Afterall, I have myself to worry about in that regard.

With that being said, as Digital mentioned, the guy can't live without his car, his girlfriend, and his job? I mean, excuse me? The fact that he's comparing his car and his job to the girl he supposedly can't live without is just plain stupidity.

I don't know enough of the situation, perhaps I'll chime in from time to time so I can get a better understanding of what it is we're dealing with up in her'

Posted by: DiGiTaL

ok. Wow. This is weird.
This chick:

I'd give 4/10...
she is so skinny and ugh, basically Fugly
And

Quote:

To: Kimmie.xo
From: *****
Date: Sat May 19, 2007 4:06 pm
Subject: No Subject
hey
hows it going i was just looking
though people nexopia
and your page came up
your sooo cuteeeeeeee
can i get u some nexopia pluss ?
i need to get the money off my visa
lol its kinda confussing
tmb plzz
Antonio

^ Anthony is a dick. There are millions of other ways to 'get money off his visa', maybe something like doing some nice for your own gf. for once.

Posted by: KelJu

Quote:

Originally Posted by DontStop

3 capsules last me a month
so each pill gets divided into 20 piles

Holy shit, DontDoit, sorry, I couldn't help myself. But jokes aside, Fufu is right. That is a terrible idea.

Posted by: DontStop

was that on her page?

Posted by: NordicNacho

We need a new picture. Heres a idea

You standing by a barbwire fence looking out over the alberta prairie contemplating your lost love anthony

Posted by: DontStop

haha i dont know.

Posted by: DontStop

im done complaining i just recently stopped caring

Posted by: NordicNacho

Quote:

Originally Posted by DontStop

im done complaining i just recently stopped caring

Herea another idea

You with a Cheap Bottle of Cannadian Whiskey. Something like Black Velvet you don't care anymore because you have numbed yourself to the pain.

Posted by: DontStop

haha i really dont care. i adore him but, that bitch is butt fucking ugly
and i tell him like every day
if he wants a fucking ugly stupid braud, go hard.

Posted by: DiGiTaL

heh. dont worry about it, dont hurt urself just because he is making a dumb mistake.

So hows the workout plan for today gonna

. And i think you added a new pic. very nice hehhe

Posted by: NordicNacho

Heres a song you can drink too

YouTube Video

Posted by: NordicNacho

YouTube - Brooks & Dunn-Lost And Found

Posted by: DontStop

i love how the links dont work

Posted by: oaktownboy

reading ur entry makes me think of Laguna Beach..i always watched that shit thinking are people really that shallow and stupid? i read ur entry and just can't help but laugh..why u sweatin over some dude? ur 18!! ur a woman fuck all that bullshit...my god

Posted by: DontStop

I admit to how pathetic and stupid is
I don't watch TV so this "laguna Beah" is unfamiliar ground to me. But i suppose it would genralize about all the stupid emotional shit you go through as a "Teen"
God damn hormones

Posted by: oaktownboy

most people don't know how to be real..they love playing mind games and talking shit..

Posted by: DontStop

It's an annoyance to say the least
One that is beyond my control

Posted by: oaktownboy

yeh it is...just don't kick it with those types of people

Posted by: DontStop

I dont usually
But something aout this fellow. I dont no
ahh
like i said though
With gym time comes the right kind of scoial time.
And I'm looking forward to training
I'm going tonight and i think im supersetting legs with shoulders

Posted by: soxmuscle

I think what Oaktown means is that you're a chick, a chick thats hot as fuck. You should be the one having guys chase after you, not the other way around.

Posted by: NordicNacho

I think this lady can help you.

YouTube Video

Posted by: Plateau_Max

So wait... are we still having dinner this weekend?

Posted by: soxmuscle

Quote:

Originally Posted by Plateau_Max

So wait... are we still having dinner this weekend?

Let me double check my schedule, but I could've sworn I had a Chuck 'E' Cheese reservation for saturday.

Posted by: DontStop

Ahh I'm not a confident person. I have guys after me, but I'm immature and go for the ones that run away

Anywho

This morning I rand at an average of 7.0mph for about an hour. i threw in some sprints. Come with me-P-Diddy always pumps me up and i sprinted like 10mph to that one

I've planned my diet like this today:
Meal one:
1 scoop syntha 6 (200)
1 cup soy (80)
100 cals worht of oats (100)
Alll in a shake. it actually made me sick. i think tomorrow I'll only have half a scoop of protein

Meal two:
1/2 c cottage cheese 1% (100)
chopped cucumber (10)

Meal threee
3oz chicken breast (150)
salad (20)
2 tbsp dress (40)

Meal four (pre workout)
- apple (80)
- 3 oz chicken (150)
salad (20)
1 tbsp dress (20)

Meal five
- 1 can tuna (120)
- Veggies (20)
- 1 tbsp Udos oil (120)

estimated total: 1230

Ddint manage to do legs n shoulders yesterday so i'll do it today
A.M: 1 hour cardio
PM: Legs (4 sets 20) Shoulders (4 sets 15) supersetting.
Squat/ front raise
hack squat/ lateral raise
legcurl/ overhead press
kickback/ "shoulder flye"
lunges/ shrugs
30 min HIIT
Abs ( 3 sets 25)
- hanging leg raise
- reverse curl
- decline curl with medicine ball
- twists on decline
finish with high rep crunches until failure and 3 sets of planks

Posted by: DontStop

Yesterday was great! I followed my plan to a T and i feel so good!
I went for a long time and trained hard
Won't be able to workout today becaus ei have work tonight but my diet is as follows

Meal one
1/4 c oats (100)
1 cup soy (80)
1/2 scoop protein (100)

Meal two
1 can tuna (120)
Broccoli (50)

Meal 3
3 oz Chicken (150)
broccoli (70)

Meal 4
1/2 c 1% cottage cheese (100)

Meal 5
3 oz chicken (150)
salad (30)

Posted by: katt

You're diet looks pretty good! Are you supplementing with any fish oils, multi-vit, etc.?

Posted by: DontStop

Yah I have a multi Vitamin in the k\mornign along with 1 to 2 tbsps of "Udo's Oil" a day

Posted by: katt

I've never had udo's before.. it looks pretty jam-packed ! I may have to try that... You can put it in your shake,,? Is it tasteless?

Posted by: DontStop

Yah i usually put it in my shake/oatmeal. it has a fishy taste to it, so if i dont have it in a shake i'll just put it in water, hold my breath and drink it.

I've noticed huge improvements in the appearence of my skin and hair since I've started using it

Posted by: DiGiTaL

o.O I might try this as well. I gotta go pick up some fish oil so i'll check this too. Does GNC have it. Hmm.

Posted by: DontStop

I'm not sure if GNC has it. My mom always picks it up.
I'll check

K i called her she says any health food store has it but it's expensive

Posted by: NordicNacho

Quote:

Originally Posted by DiGiTaL

o.O I might try this as well. I gotta go pick up some fish oil so i'll check this too. Does GNC have it. Hmm.

no fish oil in it I don't think guys bodies can convert it

Posted by: DiGiTaL

I see, good to know.

Posted by: oaktownboy

Quote:

Originally Posted by DontStop

I dont usually
But something aout this fellow. I dont no
ahh

i'll tell you why..in my experiences, i've learned that hot women (I'm talking dime pieces) have very low self-esteem. dunno why..they just do and they always go with the guys that treat em like shit or give them backhanded compliments

Posted by: Nate K

Come with me remake by P-Diddy daddy is crunk, with the godzilla roar? that may be a diff. song.

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