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Posted by: Big G

TUESDAY.

SLEPT (last night): 12:00am-7:00am (Bed at 11:30pm, read Psycho-cybernetics - Interesting stuff!).

WEIGHT (AFTER breakfast):173.2lb (up, down, up, down! WTF?)

Meal 1 - 7:30am
Meal 2 - 10:30am (w/added pretzels. Dr's orders).
Meal 3 - 1:15pm (w/salt. Dr's orders.I don't like salt.)
Meal 4 - 5:20pm (Benefits Mtg: snacked on 1oz pretzels).
Meal 5 - 11:00pm (slept 7pm-10:45pm. came home exhausted)
Meal 6 - 1:45pm Shake before bed.

NOTES: Nothing day. Tired. Busted ass at work. Crashed as soon as I got home (couldn't stay awake). Woke at 11ish hungry. Ate pretzels throughout the day and salted lunch & eggs. Realized that I don't really like salt sprinkled on my food too much (if at all!), but still... gotta have it. Tomorrow is G-Day! Back to the gym. I'm hoping for no headache. Otherwise it's back to the doc and off for a fucking MRI/brain-scan to see what's up. And with it goes any hopes of packing on some serious pounds here over the next few years.

Fingers crossed. Fuck. Fingers, toes, arms and legs crossed! Come onnnn brain! No weakspots allowed! No pussy-ass weakspot brains at this party!

*********** NHA Stack (DesignerSupps) ****************
ActivaTe: 1cap w/meals 1,3 & 5 and one more before bed.
Novedex Rx: 2caps before bed.
************************************************** ****
Took w/meals 2, 4 & 5 and again before bed becuase I forgot to take pill#1 w/meal#1. Not far off the mark though.
SIDE EFFECTS: Definitely spots. On my forehead. Not loads of them, but they hurt. They're down deep ones. Squeezing 'em only seems to piss 'em off and they just swell up and look bigger 'n' meaner. Whatever. I'll just walk the fuck around with spots on my head, I suppose.



Posted by: Big G

WEDNESDAY.

SLEPT (last night): 7pm-11pm then 2:30am-7:00am (Fell asleep when I got home from work - exhausted. Woke up hungry. Ate. Wide awake but went back to bed at 2am. Couldn't sleep. May have even been 3am before I eventually dozed off. I need to go to bed at 11pm every night to get 8hours. Will do better.).

WEIGHT (AFTER breakfast):172.8lb (½lb over weight when admitted to hospital dehydrated. 3½lb lighter than I was when released And, I've been eating salt and drinking boat loads of water. WTF?)

Meal 1 - 7:30am
Meal 2 - 10:45am
Meal 3 - 2:00pm (PWO shake. Left work 2:15pm w/headache)
Meal 4 - 9:30pm (slept 3pm-9:00pm - headache.)
Meal 5 - 12:30 (back to bed at 2am)

PRE WORKOUT NOTE - No supplements pre-workout. 1st day back in the gym since Monday last week (and resultant hospitalization due to severe head pain and dehydration - again!). Will I get a headache today? That's the question! If I do, it's back to the doc' and off to hospital for a brain scan. I definitely don't want that! Fingers crossed.

WORKOUT
Warm-up: 5mins on elliptcal trainer (.67miles)fwds/bckwrds.
1. Incline situps - twisting: 1x25, throwing & catching 4lb ball:1x25, holding 4lb ball behind head:1x15(fail).
2. Full squats (free weights) - 135lb:1x10(HEADACHE!Fuck!!Fuck!!Fuck!!), 145lb:1x10, 155lb:1x10
3. Deadlifts - 175lb:1x10, 195lb:1x8, 215lb:1x6, 235lb:1x4.
4. Lunges - not done. feeing like shit and already short on time because of extended rest intervals taken due to headache.
5. Prone Leg Curl - not done. see reason above.
6. Rotary Calf Press - 190lb:1x15, 210lb:1x15, 230lb:1x15.
7. Knee raises - not done. out of time.

POST WORKOUT NOTE: FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFU CKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFU CKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!! 10 reps at 135lb and BANG! Headache. Not a killer, drop-you-to-your-knees headache but a definitely a nasty, uncomfortable pressure inside my skull. I can't fucking believe it. I called my doc. He said "go get your blood pressure taken immediately. And, while you're there, do some squats or lunges or something and take it again. If it's over 160 call me". I went to Walmart and used their free blood pressure monitor. I was 141/__ 20 minutes after having worked out. I grabbed two 40lb bags of salt and did 10 squats (right in the store w/people looking at me weird!) and tried again. I was 169/__. One minute later I was 155/__. I called the doc. He wanted to know if my headache came back at 169/__. I told him I hadn't noticed any change. I still had the same dull hedache I had after my first set of 135lb squats. He said he wants me to do an MRI. I asked him what good it would do anyway. It's not like they're going to cut my head open to fix something, right? He said Wrong! If I'd had an anuerism (sp?) it'd need to be removed! WTF!? Fucking brain surgery!? Fuck that!

I called my insurance company to be told that my out-of-pocket-deductible is $500, plus they only pay 80% after that until I hit $1,500. When my policy renews on Sept 1st the deductible goes to $750 and my out of pocket max jumps to $2,000 (excluding the deductible, i.e. $2,750 max). Since I remain buried in debt (self-image issue?) I won't be doing any of these options. I can't afford an MRI whatever it costs. I bullet straight through the skull sounds just wonderful to me (stop this misery!) but that'd leave Mrs.G fucked, so I guess I'll just go on with whatever the fuck is wrong with my head as-is.

What pisses me off the most is that I finally found something that I enjoy doing (after years of depression and misery) and now it turns out that my fucking head is messed up.

I'm going to go back through my journal (from March or May or whenever it was when I got dehydrated last time) and see if, after the massive knock-me-down headache, whether I got mild versions of that same headache weeks aftrwards. Hopefully so. Hopefully this is just like an injury. My head is sore today because it just hasn't quite healed up yet (hopefully).



Posted by: Big G

THURSDAY.

SLEPT (last night): 3pm-9pm then 3:30am-7:00am (Got off work early yesterday due to exertion headache - see yesterday's notes. Fell asleep when I got home from work - Woke up hungry. Ate. Wide awake but went back to bed at 2:30am. Couldn't sleep. i.e. Same story as yesterday.

WEIGHT (before breakfast):not measured.

Meal 1 - 7:40am
Meal 2 - 11:05am (X/lrg meal. depressed).
Meal 3 - 1:45pm
Meal 4 - 12:30am!! (got off work @5pm. slept 5:15-12:15a!)

HEADACHE NOTES: Not too bad this morning. I can feel it when bending down to tie my shoes, for example (presumably due to increased blood pressure in my head while bending over), but it's not particularly painful. Just a dull ache. Doc said (yesterday) to take another week off from the gym (like I have any other options, dammit!) and try again next week. Ideally I should have an MRI (to rule out any possible brain damage, bleeding, weak-spots etc) but I just can't afford it. Going further into debt would lower my quality of life to the point where I wouldn't want to live it (like it's not already at that point already!) so, untill I have the money, I'll be in and out of the gym periodically just to see if the head pains reoccur. Hopefully it'll ease up in a few weeks and I'll be back to normal. Who knows. Life sucks.

I wish I had better news but I don't.

NOTE Re: WORK - Opted to use a vacation day and take tomorrow off.



Posted by: Big G

Nothing recorded at all, not even in my little notepad I carry everywhere. 1st time ever. feeling v.low. ate well/clean but just felt miserable. Nagging headache. Worked on paving stones in side yeard (new raised patio, sloping pathway and circular patio/pathway in front of garage (where man-door is going to be installed).



Posted by: Big G

Same as yesterday. Clean enough eating but feeling v.low. Same projects continued in yard (looking good!)



Posted by: Big G

Dammit. WTF? Wife told me today she lost her job on Friday but too afraid to tell me about it on Fri & Sat b/c I was so miserable about headache, potential $2,750 MRI/surgery and existing $20k credit card debt (mostly wife's medical). Can life get worse!? Geez!



Posted by: Big G

Called off work. V.low. Headache, worry, depression. Can't seem to shake it off.



Posted by: Big G

Day off. Boss v.understanding. Encouraged me to just rest. Of course, I worked outside all day b/c that IS a day off to me! Still though, in seriousness, v.worried about money, health, wife, house, debts, future, potential surgeries, never hitting gym again. Mind is fried/spinning.



Posted by: Big G

Nothing new. Feeling beat up. Boss OK'd rest. Found it difficult to get "into" anything in particular. Rested for evening.



Posted by: Big G

Final day off work. Back to work tomorrow. Feeling some breaks in the clouds, wife has interviews lined up (from craigslist ads - quick replies!), have vowed to sell anything and everything I can to battle this depressing debt, gotta DO something, can't live like this. Slight ongoing headache but nothing I can't live with.



Posted by: Big G

FRIDAY

Slept: 11:30p-6:45a

Weight (before breakfast): Not measured.

Meal 1: 7:30am
Meal 2: 11:15am (after mtgs)
Meal 3:
Meal 4:
Meal 5:
Meal 6:

OOPS! Had a bit of trouble settlin into my old ways today. Food log not comleted and no paper recos maintained. Ah, well... I ate well anyway. Nice and clean.

Am considering going on a cut, dropping to maybe 5% this time (for photos/memories, plus it'd give me something to focus on sinxce headpain is ongoing and llifting hevy remains out of the question for the time being). I planned to bulk until Dec/Jan then cutting to 5% for spring, but this headache crap may just have to move all that around. I'll jusyt have to stay ripped after I get ripped - Gotta be crazy ripped next spring, if just to celebrate 1½yrs at this game (and OK, show off a bit too).



Posted by: Big G

Alright. Balls'd-up food journal again. Ate well, but didn't keep up on this. Will get back into it here soon (promise to self). Still suffering nagging background headache, but feeling a bit better emotionally.



Posted by: Big G

Same shit. Diferent day.

Tomorrow, it's on! Life resumes. Let's get a cut started.



Posted by: Big G

MONDAY

SLEPT - 11:30pm-6:45am (woke at 3am thirsty, drank some milk and went back to sleep - woke feeling rested).

WEIGHT (before breakfast): Not measured. 175.8lb yesterday.

Meal 1 - 7:20am (salted eggs + ate pretzels at 9:30am).
Meal 2 - 10:45am w/salt! (+ 1plum 11:30am - little treat)
Meal 3 - 1:40pm w/salt (incl. pretzels w/salt!)
Meal 4 - 5:00pm
Meal 5 - 9:00pm
Meal 6 - missed it, in bed at 11pm.

WORKOUT: 1st workout in 10days (due to ongoing headaches). Consumed approx' 3xRDA of salt/sodium on Sat & Sunday. Woke with no headpain today. Weight yesterday was 175.8lb (i.e. damned near my weight when released from hospital re-hydrated). Hopefully my dehydration and head-pain issues will be (i.e. have been) resolved simply by increased salt intake (like the doc' said). We'll see.

UPDATE - Too busy at work to go to gym at lunch. Too tired afterwards. I'll try again tomorrow. Fingers crossed it'll be a pain free experience.

NOTE Re: BEER - Finished 12pack purchased a couple of days ago while bummed and off work with head pain & stress issues. Didn't really enjoy it. Won't be buying more. Stupid beer, just makes me fat and miserable. Why do I bother!?

NOTE RE: PLANS TO CUT - Tomorrow. Tomorrow. Tomorrow!



Posted by: Big G

TUESDAY

SLEPT: 11:15pm-6:45am (not bad).

WEIGHT (before breakfast): 176.0lb (Back to weight when released from hospital after being re-hydrated. Good news! The increased sodium intake recently seems to be helping retain water / avoid dehydration. Hopefully I'll be back to the gym soon, without head pain!

Meal 1 - 7:15am (Reduced carbs. Got a bit doughy-looking while unable to workout due to dehydration & head pains)
Meal 2 - 10:40am (reduced carbs again + used last of PP)
Meal 3 - 1:45am (PWO:PP shake, nuts, a plum & 1oz pretzels)
Meal 4 - 3:45pm (hungry already)
Meal 5 - 9:00pm (starved. just back from grocery shop)
Meal 6 - Missed it. Fell asleep after meal 5.

LUNCHTIME WORKOUT: Press/Bi.
WORKOUT (Press/Bi):
(1) Incline BB Press - w/bar(warmup):1x20, 95lb:1x8, 115lb:8, 135lb:1x7, 155lb(new max):1x1½(fail).
(2) CG Chin-ups - 3x8 (all completed - nice!)
(3) Seated Military BB Press - 115lb:1x7, 125lb:1x6, 135lb:1x4.
(4) DB Press - 55lb:1x9(fail), 60lb:1x4(fail), 55lb:1x4½(fail), 50lb:1x8 (weaker than last month - pre headpain, but there was no pain. Woohoo!)
(5) Arnold Press - 40lb:1x6(fail), 40lb:1x5½(fail), 40lb:1x4(fail) - Again, weaker than last month, but no head pain! Woohoo!
(6) Smith-machine shrugs - 185lb:1x10(still v.easy!), 205lb:1x10, 225lb(new max):1x10, 245lb(not done):Taking it a little easy.
(7) EZ-Bar Curls - 75lb EZ-bar BB:1x10, 1x6(fail), 1x3½(fail).

FUCKING AWESOME!!!! I was scared that I'd never be back in the gym again, but here I am, hydrated and kicking butt! It feels so good to be back. I noticed some slight pressure in my head with the 225lb shrugs (hence no 245lb shrugs today) but all-in-all a very successful workout. Left feeling 110%. Colors looked brighter. Even showering, all pumped up, felt fantastic. I was loaded with seratonin and endorphins, I'm sure. Woo-fucking-hoo!!

NOTES Re: HEAD-PAIN (9pm)
I'm not exactly in pain, but something's not right. I could feel it at work too, but it was more noticable when bending down to change my shoes, pickup clothes from floor etc. Something's not right. Hopefully it's just whatever was injured last month healing, but it's still tender inside my head, that's for sure.



Posted by: Big G

WEDNESDAY

SLEPT: 9:30pm-6:45am (woke at 12p thirsty, drank ½cup milk & went back to bed).

WEIGHT: 174.2lb (AFTER breakfast - recorded 173.6 in weight log to offset 2½pc toast, approx 1.25tblsp PB & 1cup coffee) - Down 2½lb from yesterday morning! WTF? I ate sodium and drank water all day yesterday. Why the enormous drop?

Meal 1 - 7:30am
Meal 2 - 10:45am
Meal 3 - 1:10pm (hungry already)
Meal 4 - 4:30pm
Meal 5 - 10:00pm (slept 6p-8:15p +fight w/wife until 9:45p)
Meal 6 - 1:00am (up late, fighting, miserable re:headache)
Meal 7 - 3:30am (PP only.Slept 1:15am-3:30am,woke thirsty)

WORKOUT - None. Fucking head pains continue.

NOTES Re: HEADACHE - Annoying background ache in top of head won't go away. Sometimes it throbs. In bed at night it felt like something cold was dripping inside my head (v.annoying when trying to sleep). Woke with it. Worked all day with it. Went to bed with it. Thoroughly depressed about it. Something's definitely not right! On Tuesday when I worked out I'd had no pain in 2 days. 30 minutes after working out it started up again and it just keeps on coming.



Posted by: Big G

THURSDAY

SLEPT (last night): 6pm-9pm, then 1:30am-7:00am (woke at 3:30am thirsty, had PP shake, went back to sleep).

WEIGHT: Not measured. No poop this morning either. Possibly from reduced calorie intake yesterday?

GOAL - Cut body fat down to 5-6%. Currently probably around 10-11%. Can't lift weights due to head pain issues. Every time I lift I get a headache that last days, or possibly weeks. It's been this way now for about a month. Totally depressed about it. Decided to rip body fat down to lowest ever levels (for something to do!).

Meal 1 - 7:15am
Meal 2 - 11:30am (late. v.busy at work)
Meal 3 - 2:15pm (after cardio & mini-workout. see below)
Meal 4 - 5:00pm
Meal 5 - 8:45pm (after cooking lrg batch of veg)
Meal 6 - 11:30pm (small snack w/PP)

TOTAL DAILY CALORIES: 2200 (The cut is on!)

CARDIO - 30min @ approx 8mph i.e. 4miles 10mins fwd 5mins bckwrd X2 w/HR@145-160 +3mins rowing - I've decided to get into rowing, but I exhausted myself doing it today. HR was at 179, gasping. I was surprised! Still... I'll be back! ALSO... ½mile jogging on the road around local park & sidestreets (1st time. See note at base).

WORKOUT (test if headpain would reappear):
1. WG Pullups (BW) - 2x6, 1x4. No pain. There's hope!
2. Full Squats w/135lb: 1x10, 1x8, 1x6 (no fails. 2min RIs)
3. Dips 1x12 (couldn't resist, while walking out)

HEADPAIN NOTES: Woke this morning with mild headache. Still had it at 1:30pm when going to gym. 30mins on elliptical passed v.easily. When I got off I noticed no headache. I rowed for a few minutes - just getting a feel for it, then decided to test if headache would reappear with some more strenous exercises than I did on Tues. WG Pullups went well, even pushing to fail on set 3, so I decided to try squats. I was doing 165lb full squats whe I got the mother-headache last month (the start of this nightmare) so I settled on 135lb. Again, after 3 sets, no pain. Excellent. A dozen dips on the way out caused no pain too. Afterwards (maybe an hour or so) I got the old, mild incling of a headache, like I had when I woke up this morning, but it was on and off. Writing this at 10pm I feel fine.

Oh! Oh! I forgot to mention, I decided I'd rather run than fight w/wife, so I drove around in circles, found a perfect ½mile course and later tested it. I was nice. My knees don't like the treadmill, so I'm guessing they won't like the road much either, but I'm gonna try some repeated ½miles, then a mile, then... We'll see how it goes. It'd be nice to be able to run long(ish)-distances outside in the sun. Hopefully my knees hold out. Plus, if I get in on of those moods, or if my wife's onthe attck, I can at least vent by just running running running. It'd make me feel better than fighting and arguing, I'm sure!



Posted by: Big G

For reference, this is the blood/urine analysis the day I went into hospital:

Hematology
WBC (4.6-10.2): 8.5
RBC (4.3-5.7): 4.33
HGB (13.5-17.5): 14.3
HCT (39.0-49.0): 41.4
MCV (80.0-97.0): 95.6
MCHC (32.0-36.0): 34.6
RDW (11.0-14.8): 13.2
PLT (142-424): 197
MPV (6.2-12.1): 8
NEUT ABS (1.8-7.7): 4.1
LYMPH ABS (1.0-4.8): 3.2
MONO ABS (0.0-0.9): 0.8
EOSIN ABS (0.0-0.7): 0.2
BASO ABS (0.0-0.2): 0.3 H
AUTO SEG (40-70): 48.5
AUTO LYMPH (22-44): 37.7
AUTO MONO (0-12): 8.9
AUTO EOSIN (0-7): 2
AUTO BASO (0-2): 2.9 H

Chemistry
GLUC (70-110): 120 H
BUN (8-20): 32 H
CREAT (0.6-1.3): 0.9
NA (136-145): 137
K (3.6-5.1): 3.7
CI (98-107): 3.7
CO2 (22-32): 27
AGAP (6-18): 6

CKMB-Troponin
CK (21-232): 454 H

ESR
WSR (0-15): 6

Ur Microscopic Panel
U WBC (0-5/HPF): <1
U RBC (0-5): 1
U BACTERIA (None/HPF): Rare A
U SQ EPI (FEW/LPF): Rare
U MUCUS (NONE/LPF): Rare A

Urinalysis Screen Panel
U APPEAR (Clear): Clear
U COLOR (Yellow): Straw
U PH (4.5-8.0): 5
U SP GRAV (1.002-1.03): 1.019
U GLUCOSE (NORMAL): Normal
U BLOOD (NEGATIVE): 10/UL A
U KETONES (NEGATIVE): Negative
U PROTEIN (NEGATIVE): Negative
U UROBILN (NORMAL): Normal
U BILI (NEGATIVE): Negative
U LEUK EST (NEGATIVE): Negative
U NITRATE (NEGATIVE): Negative

Who knows... I might even figure out what some of this means in time!



Posted by: Big G

FRIDAY

SLEPT: 11:15pm-6:50am (slept right through too).

WEIGHT (before breakfast): 173.0lb

Meal 1 - 7:30am
Meal 2 - 10:30am
Meal 3 - 2:15pm (after cardio)
Meal 4 - 5:00pm
Meal 5 - 8:15pm
Meal 6 - 11:15pm

CARDIO: Went to gym with my bookkeeper who's just getting into all this. Gave him some pointers re:full-squats (incl. 10lb plate under each heel). He had trouble with the bar & two 5lb plates (tee-hee), but I assured him it'd improve quick, once he gets used to it.

This left me a little short on time, but still...

20mins on elliptical machine w/HR @ 145-155, 10min fwd & 5mins bckwrd +5mins fwd.
Then...
5mins rowing - I took my HR-monitor-wristwatch off and put it by my feet today. It worked out better. Yesterday after 2½mins I felt completely dead. When I looked down a my watch my HR was 179. Today it was nice. I kept my HR @ 145ish, felt a good workout in my back. I'll up the duration little by little over the coming weeks. Still... rowing is nice. I like it. Who knew?

ALSO Re:CARDIO - Came home from work and did a quick ½mile round the block. I'm not use to running on the street. It was actually nice. It feels unfamiliar and I kep feeling tempted to breathe in time with my feet, but I should probably just run and let my breathing be what it wants to be. My knees felt fine though. I'll up the distance here soon.

HEAD PAIN - Minimal. Slight ache comes and goes throughout the day, but it's only slight, it doesn't last long (1-2sec) and then it goes away again. Could it all have really been a sodium thing? Let's hope so.

Anyway... The cut goes on. I'm ripping it down to about 5%bf, I swear. A crazy cut for a crazy nut!

If I'm 173lb now and 10%bf (may be 11-12%, not sure), then LBM=155.7lb. At 5%bf w/no LBM loss I'd be 163.9lb i.e. 9lb to lose. If I aim to lose 10lb (incl. 1lb LBM loss) over the next 6-8weeks I should be fine.

It's something to do while my head completely heals up anyway! And plus, if I can up my ability for jogging on the street that'd be nice too (even though it'll be winter and it'll be deathly cold and/or everything'll be buried in snow for 6 months anyway here soon!). Whatever. Like I said, it's something to do. I've never been that lean before, so I've got to give it a go. Call me crazy.

DAILY CALORIES: 2,335 (not too bad)



Posted by: Witchblade

Can't the docs figure out what it is that causes the headaches?



Posted by: Big G

Quote:
Originally Posted by Witchblade View Post
Can't the docs figure out what it is that causes the headaches?
The doc wants me to do an MRI but at that point I was already $25k in debt from my wife's gastic bypass and other surgeries. We're busy selling stuff, living on peanuts and doing whatever we can to get rid of the debt. I just sold my golfcart (loved the golfcart) and an MRI is about the same price. I'm trying to avoid blowing a bunch of cash we don't have on something that may reveal nothing and may not een really be necessary. Next year, like I above, I'll put some cash aside in an FSA Acct and have cash at hand if needed.

The doc's last guess was just sodium, so I've been trying that out. It seems to be working. I'm just gonna cut for a while and avoid heavy-heavy lifting to make sure whatever got injured (something clearly did) can heal up as best as possible. If it happens again, after adjusting my diet to include much more sodium (like I have) then I'll call it quits and hand over the bucks for the damn MRI.

I just want to be worth nothing one of these days! Not in debt. Not wealthy. Just worth nothing. That'll be a dream come true in itself! Battling these debts (it was $25k @ 24.9% for 2years!) has been so frustrating. It's been two steps fwd, two steps back again, for far too long. It's gotta end. I just want them gone and, dammit, if I can't afford an MRI right now, I'm just gonna have to live without.

Call me stubborn but, I swear, I'm done with debt. I'm gettin' out if it kills me (which hopefully it won't!).



Posted by: Big G

SATURDAY

SLEPT: 1:30am-7:30am (not enough, but woke up wide awake)

WEIGHT (before breakfast): 171.4lb (lowest in quite a while. hopefully from reduced calories and cardio - not dehydration again!)

Meal 1 - 8:00am
Meal 2 - 10:45am
Meal 3 - 2:55pm
Meal 4 - 5:45pm
Meal 5 - 9:00pm
Meal 6 - 11:45pm

WORKOUT: None, but spent 2hours mowing some waaay overgrown grass. Pushing lawnmover back and forth, back and forth, to get it cut right was a pretty good workout. I'll run tomorrow.



Posted by: Big G

SUNDAY

SLEPT: 1:30am-9:30am (woke @ 4pm, PP shake & back to bed)

WEIGHT: 171.2lb

Meal 1 - 9:45am
Meal 2 - 11:30am (after road run! - see notes below)
Meal 3 - 1:45pm (weak, shaking... already!)
Meal 4 - 5:30pm (snacked on apple 4pm)
Meal 5 - 10:00pm
Meal 6 - missed it, sleeping.

CARDIO: What a day! First ever decent road run. Did ½mile track around park (+ additional block). It was so easy I did it again. Even after that I felt as if I could do it all again, and more! I opted for a 1¼mile route (around neighborhood streets) and ran it too, no problem. I felt like I could run forever for the first time in my life. I wasn't out of breath. I kept a good pace. I'd push myself for a few hundred yards than back of a little bit. Buy always running running running. It was awesome. The sun was shining. The birds were chirping. The crickets were...um... "cricketing" (?). Anyway, it was great. The next day my legs definitely felt it. My first DOMS from a road run.

BEER: WTF!? After all the running and limited calories all day, WTF happened!? My pressure washer happened! All I had planned for today was to pressure wash some old paint splatters off the garage wall (from where previous oner did crappy paint job), let it dry, then repaint. Instead I spent 7 hours (yup... 7 stinking hours) fucking with my pressure washer trying to get it started. Out came the wrenches. Over came the mechinically inclined neighbors. And I pulled the string. And I pulled. And I pulled. and I pulled. And I complained, got completely pissed off, kicked it, broke it some more, bitched & moaned and eventually dragged the entire unit around to a neighbor and pleaded with him to fix it. Shortly thereafter I was buying beer! I should avoid mechanics while cutting. Hell, I should avoid mechanics. Period.

Oh well... Another day tomorrow. Labor day, even. Another day off work.



Posted by: Big G

MONDAY (labor day)

SLEPT: 1:30am-9:30am

WEIGHT: 170.8lb

Meal 1 - 10:00am (woke crazy hungry, but kept meal little)
Meal 2 - 12:45am (v.weak/shaking, back from hardware store)
Meal 3 - 1:45pm (couldn't shake weak feeling, ate again)
Meal 4 - 6:15pm (crashed out! slept 2pm-6pm. woke better)
Meal 5 - 9:15pm (after 2½hrs staining backyard fence)
Meal 6 - 12:00pm (stayed up to cook veg for the week).

CARDIO - None, unless painting the fence counts!

WORKOUT - None. Wanted to, but either shopped, slept or worked the whole day away. Plus garage is still a mess anyway. I need to get the smith machine sold so I can setup the new power rack and get the money to add some upped/lower cables to it.



Posted by: Big G

TUESDAY

SLEPT: 1:30am-7:00am (woke 4:30, had PP shake, back to bed)

WEIGHT: Not measured

Meal 1 - 7:20am
Meal 2 - 10:50am (late. did quick grocery shop: work food)
Meal 3 - 2:15pm (PWO: pretzels & PP shake)
Meal 4 - 4:15pm (hungry already)
Meal 5 - 7:00pm
Meal 6 - 10:00pm
Meal 7 - 4:00am (PP shake & back to bed)

WORKOUT:Press & Bi.
1.Incline BB Press - 95lb:1x10(easy), 115lb:1x10(easy), 135lb:1x6, 155lb:1x1½ (spotter helped 2nd rep).
2.Chin-ups - 3x8 (easy enough!)
3.Miliary Press - 115lb:1x10(struggled 9&10), 125lb:1x5,1x3.
4.DB Press - 55lb:1x8,1x7,1x4½F (last month, before headpain issue I was pushing 65lb DBs up. Not now!).
5.Armold Press w/40lb DBs - 1x6½F,1x5,1x4 (weaker than last month! next time drop the weight)
6.Machine Shrugs - 225lb:2x10, 245lb:1x8.
7.EZ Bar Curl w/75lb - 1x8,1x7,1x5.

HEAD-PAIN NOTES: None! Absolutely none. Went hell-for-leather in the gym too, and still nothing! It must've definitely been a sodium thing. I couldn't be happier (well... I mean... I could be... but anyway... I'm cool.) No head pain... That means no MRI expense! No brain surgery. No pills. No B.S!! Wooohooo!!

YARD WORK: None! Came home tired (after short night's sleep last night. will go to bed earlier tonight). Planned to complete staining inside of backyard fence, but couldn't muster the energy. Maybe tomorrow.

CARDIO: None. I'd like to run but my legs are still sore from 2¼mile road-run on Sunday.



Posted by: Big G

WEDNESDAY

SLEPT: 11:30pm-6:45am (woke at 4am, PP shake, back to bed)

WEIGHT (after breakfast): 173.2lb (Recorded 172.2 in weight log to offset coffee, 8 egg whites and 2pc toast w/PB).

Meal 1 - 7:15am
Meal 2 - 10:15am
Meal 3 - 1:45pm (PWO: pretzels, PP shake)
Meal 4 - 5:00pm
Meal 5 - 8:45pm (late. staining fence before it got dark)
Meal 6 - 11:25pm (PP shake only. off to bed)

WORKOUT - Push/Tri:
(1) Wide Grip Pullups (BW) - 4x6 (only 80% of the way down) [Me-52lb:1x6 warmup]
(2) Bent-over BB rows (knees bent, back straight) - w/bar:1x10(warmup), 65lb:1x10, 75lb:1x10, 85lb:1x10(old max, now easy!) 95lb(new max):1x10 (all reps to abs, but wrist was twisting a bit w/last few reps of 95lb causing little nerve pinch).
(3) Dips w/20lb(new max) DB - 3x8 (felt heavy, but it felt good. All reps/sets done well. Nice!)
(4) Cable Row w/narrow handle - 110lb:1x10(all reps to abs), 120lb:2x10(reps7-10 not to abs)
(5) Bent over lateral raise (rear delts) w/25lb DBs: 3x10(perfect).
(6) DB Pullover - 30lb:1x10, 35lb:1x10, 40lb:1x10(heavy!)
(7) Skull-Crushers - 25lb:1x8, 1x5, 1x3.

ADDITIONAL WORKOUT NOTES: Man, oh man! What a pump! My lats were MASSIVE by the time I got done. I flexed inthe mirror in the changing room and 'bout laughed out loud. I looked awesome... a perfect triangle. If I was gay I'd fall in love with myself.
I'm definitely stronger than my last workout and that was about a month ago! I should take breaks more often (Not month-long ones, and not due to crippling head-pain, but a week or two every three months probably wouldn't hurt. I was definitely doing stuff I couldn't have done before (e.g. 4x8 WG Pullups. Nice!).

CARDIO: None. Worked at work, worked-out, worked at work again, then went home for yard work!

YARD WORK: 2hrs staining inside of fence. Managed two panels. It's a bitch staining the inside of fences! I need a paint sprayer! Sheesh!

HEAD-PAIN: Came back. It's only faint and it's not constant, but I'm aware again that something's not right (like I'd knocked an old injury or something). Hopefully it's all still healing up (there was no incling of pain this morning) and I over-did it a bit in the gym. I'll rest up tomorrow, maybe just cardio and do legs on Friday (head willing) and I'll take it easy (no heavy squats!).



Posted by: SamEaston

hey man!

That's some good stuff you got going on in here! I can't believe you're cutting on just over 2000kcal, is that high enough for you? In any case, best of luck with it - remember, we're going to need pictures to critique!!

Your head pain must be concerning for you. Does it have a pattern of occurrence, ie, the day after a hard workout, after eating (or not eating) certain foods, lack of sleep, anything?

I also noticed a couple of nights you got a really long sleep (well, long for you!). Good job, I hope it makes you feel better!

Hope you're doing well today, nice one on all the running, and i hope you get to do legs on Friday!



Posted by: Big G

Hey Sam. Thanks for the post. Nice to hear from you. How you doing?

I'm definitely on the up and up.

Head-pains diminished basically to nothing. I can't say 100% whether it just healed up, and I'm good to go, or if it really was the sodium. I can say that the pains have completely stopped (occassional very very faint ache after crazy bonkers workout, but basically nothing) and nowadays I salt my food and eat pretzels with my shake after workouts. I'm guessing sodium helps. I certainly wasn't taking any in before and that wasn't probably too smart.

Cutting on 2,000's not too bad. I like coming home in the evening for huge salads and monster plate-fulls of veg. At work it's a bit sad that my usual bowl of muesli now looks like it could fit in a teacup! But it does the job. I don't get that weak, gotta-eat-soon feeling creep up on me for 2-2½hrs usually, and I'm generally good to wait until 3. My PWO meals always seem wear off quicker than other meals, but I do OK.

I can't believe it's the 13th already. I haven't updated this since the 5th. It's a simple copy and paste from my food log journal, but I have to update Saturday & Sunday's notes/food before I can do it. Be right back...



Posted by: Big G

THURSDAY

SLEPT: 11:15pm-7am

WEIGHT: 170.6lb

Meal 1 - 7:30am
Meal 2 - 10:25am (After 1½hr mtg, starved, weak, shaking)
Meal 3 - 1:45pm (after cardio - see below)
Meal 4 - 4:15pm (hungry already)
Meal 5 - 8:20pm (busy selling a puppy. ate apple 7:15pm)
Meal 6 -

CARDIO:
(1) 30mins on elliptical running machine, 10mins fwd 5mins bkwrd (X2), HR 145-165, resistance 8-12, speed 8-9mph fwd or 6-7mph bkwrd, total distance 4miles,
(2) 10 mins rowing, resistance 10, HR 145-150.

HEAD-PAIN: None when I woke up this morning. None after cardio. None this evening. Still though... I'm going to take care at the gym tomorrow (legs).



Posted by: Big G

FRIDAY

SLEPT: 1am-7am (up late reading, couldn't get tired)

WEIGHT: 170.0lb NOTE: 162-164lb s/b approx 5%bf if I was 9-10% @171lb. Man, I'll be crazy ripped at 164lb! Is that shit even possible without withering away?

Meal 1 - 7:30am
Meal 2 - 10:30am
Meal 3 - 1:40pm
Meal 4 - 4:25pm (only 2¼oz chicken left at work )
Meal 5 - 7:30pm
Meal 6 - 10:45pm
Meal 7 - 1:00am

WORKOUT - None. Too busy at lunch. Rushed home after work to stain fence. Need to tidy garage and set-up power rack to get leg workout done tomorrow. I want to run again on Sunday. I signed up for a 5k race next week even though I've never run that far, ever (gulp!).

HEADPAIN - None when I woke up. Slight ache mid afternoon although I only drank .25gal water by 3pm (time flew by, busy at work). Got the best part of a gallon in by the end of the day though. Woke next day feeling OK.



Posted by: Big G

SATURDAY

SLEPT: 1:15pm-9:00am

WEIGHT (before breakfast): 170.0lb.

Meal 1 - 9:15am
Meal 2 - 12:00pm (got weak, working in yard, 2nd breakfast)
Meal 3 - 2:40pm (snacks whist working on taxes, raining)
Meal 4 - Doh! Opted for beer @6pm(7 of 'em!)Stupid. Why!?
Meal 5 - 9:00pm
Meal 6 - missed it. sleeping by 10pm!

NOTE: Boring boring day. Rainy outside. Can't work on any projects. Needed to get taxes done (they owe us, so no late file fee). So I'm working, working, working, all day long, working, working, working, determined to get 'em done. 6pm rolls round, I should eat, wife's home from long shift and asleep, I'm plodding along, entering invoices/receipts and next minute I'm driving up the road to buy beer instead of making dinner.

I dunno. Alter ego shit, I s'pose. "Id" shit maybe. Something. Either that, or doing taxes all damned day'll drive you to drink!

Still... Off running tomorrow morning, come hell or high water [Edit:Shouldn't have said that! The clouds o-p-e-n-e-d Sunday morning. Big time! It was a wet run!]



Posted by: Big G

SUNDAY

SLEPT: 10:00pm-8:45am (10¾hrs! beer-sleep!)

WEIGHT: 171.4lb (waaay up! WTF?)

Meal 1 - 9:00am
Meal 2 - 11:45pm (PWO pretzels, shake, sups)
Meal 3 - 5:00pm (weak. back from grocery shop. apple @3pm)
Meal 4 - 8:00pm
Meal 5 - 11:00pm
Meal 6 - sleeping. Zzz.

CARDIO - 11am... 2¾miles non-stop road-run, 33mins (preparing for next week's 5k race). Hey! It might be slow, but it's the first time I've ever run that damned far! My left knee complained all the next day even! Damned 34yr old, previously scateboard-thrashed knees!

Oh! Forgot to mention. It RAINED like... well... I don't know. But it RAINED! Rained, rained, rained! I ran anyway. But, hell. It seriously rained! It was crazy.

I plan to do next week's 3.1m (5k) race in 30 minutes. That'd be over 10 mph. Nine point something. That doesn't sound too shabby to me. For a first timer. Old timer! Nine point something.

The rest of the day I did taxes, ate well, felt good, filed the taxes (after an annoying wrestle with TurboCrap and some number it wanted to auto-do but it kept telling me I had to enter it but when I did it would tell me it wanted to auto- kind-of put the number there by itself and I'd say OK, but then it wouldn't do it and it'd just ask me to enter it so I would and then it'd complain that I had again and so I'd delete it and then it ask me to.... AAAAAARRRRRGGGHHHHH!!!! FFUUCKK!! FFUCKK!!

I don't know what finally fixed it. I spent about an hour clicking every fucking link in the whole entire program before it finally shut the fuck up and agreed to file 'em!

Other than that... Nice enough day!



Posted by: Big G

MONDAY

SLEPT: 1:15am-7:00am

WEIGHT: 171.2lb

Meal 1 - 7:30am
Meal 2 - 10:30am
Meal 3 - 1:40pm (bread again. no food prepped @wk-end).
Meal 4 - 5:10pm (after mtg - not starving, surprisingly)
Meal 5 - 9:00pm (3beers 7:30pm-9pm, ravenous thereafter!)
Meal 6 - 10:45pm (can't quit eating! munchies! damn beer!)

WORKOUT: None - Planned rest day.

LEGS: Absolutely fine after yesterday's run. No muscular aches or pains of any kind.

KNEES: Left knee complaining a little bit from yesterday's run. Nothing bad, but it's not 100%. Should still be OK for next Saturday's 5k race. My 1st ever race. I'll be happy just to finish without ever having stopped running!

BEER: WTF!? I got off work, changed clothes and went outside to strip paint w/paint-stripper and pressure washer. An hour later I was hot, frustrated and craving a beer. It was compounded by the pressure washer still not working right and having to fuck around with small engines again! 3 beers slid down very nicely, but left me ravenously hungry! A small dinner didn't quite do it, so I had an apple, then a peach, then a banana, then a big salad, then nuts, then pretzels and peanut butter! Soembody stop me! No, wait! On second thoughts you might get eaten if you stand in my way! Oh well... tomorrow's another day. We'll regard this evening as an impromtu "refeed"

AVOCADO - Now, I honestly had no idea that there was, like, 500 calories in a single avocado. I knew they were high in fat, but 500 calories worth!? Geez! I ate half of one yesterday too. It was delicious, but then you'd hope so for 250cal each half, wouldn't you!?

WATER - For some reason water just didn't slide down too well today. Maybe I was perfectly well hydrated and didn't need it. Maybe not. Who knows. Either way, my mouth wasn't constantly drying out - like it usually does - and I only got through about .6 of a gallon (not like me). The 2 morning coffees, 3 beers and 2 evening decaf coffees are (of course) not included.



Posted by: Big G

TUESDAY

SLEPT: 12:30pm-7:00am (not enough)

WEIGHT: 170.6lb.

Meal 1 - 7:25am
Meal 2 - 10:20am
Meal 3 - 1:15pm (PWO shake, pretzels & banana)
Meal 4 - 4:15pm
Meal 5 - 9:00pm (powerwashing 6-8, beer 8-9)
Meal 6 - 11:30pm PP shake.

WORKOUT - Press/Bi.
1.Incline BB Press - Bar:20(warmup), 95lb:1x10(easy), 115lb:1x10(easy), 135lb:1x10 (after 2-3min RI, talking w/Kim Re:headaches), 155lb:1x1½ (spotter helped 2nd rep).
2.Chin-ups w/10lb DB - 2x8, 1x7½(fail).
3.Miliary Press - 115lb:1x9½(fail, WTF?:lost strength), 95lb:1x8(just), 1x5½(fail - This sucks, was pushing 125lb before 1mo headache break).
4.DB Press - 55lb:1x10,1x6, 50lb:1x7(just). (again, weak. before headpain I was pushing 65lb).
5.Armold Press w/35lb DBs - 3x6(failed last rep, last set). Last month was using 40lb'rs
6.Machine Shrugs - 225lb:2x10, 245lb:1x10.
7.EZ Bar Curl w/75lb - 1x10,1x6(just),1x3(just).

MEMO: Nice enough workout. Chinups w/10lb DB between feet was good. Couldn't do that before. But, for the most part, I'm definitely weaker than I was before the 1mo break (due to dehydration/headpain). Still... I can't complain. At least I'm back in the gym. It really does feel good to be back. No pain during/after workout. Must've been a sodium thing all along. Nice to have figured that out! I was worried I'd never be back in the gym. That'd've sucked!

ANIMAL PUMP - Note: Took Animal Pump creatine matrix before workout today (1st time in 1½months following Killer-Headache incident). Doc said "use it once weekly - no more - it's hard on your kidneys, and you've already had kidney issues" - Fair enough. These days I actually get a pretty good pump without it. When I was gangly skinny (last year!) I never noticed a pump unless I took creatine. These days I seem to come out of the gym pumped up huge whether I've taken creatine or not. Still... I took some today, just to try it out again.

HEAD PAIN - None. Completely OK, during or after workout. Sodium. Love sodium!

BEER - I dunno. I got home, powerwashed for a couple of hours. The 3 beers in the fridge were just begging me to drink 'em! Ah well, 2300 cal daily total anyway. Not too shabby.



Posted by: Big G

WEDNESDAY

SLEPT: 12:30am-6:45am (Went to bed at 11pm, read for a bit, wife came to bed bitchin', got up again for PP shake (11:45pm), wife got up too - to continue bitchin', I went back to bed, wife stayed up, I read until 12:30am before falling asleep. Currently reading Psycho-Cybernetics (V.Good book - Everyone should read it!).

WEIGHT: 171.2lb up down up down WTF?

Meal 1 - 7:20am
Meal 2 - 10:50am (v. small 2nd breakfast - 200kcal)
Meal 3 - 1:45pm (PWO shake, banana & pretzels:carbs/sodium)
Meal 4 - 4:15pm (hungry already)
Meal 5 - 8:00pm (apple at 7pm - added last to food log)
Meal 6 - 11:00pm (says "Meal 5" twice in food log - oops!)

CARDIO (lunch-12:30pm-2:10pm: too long. s/b 1hr!) - 40mins
1. Elliptical Running Machine (10mins fwd & 5mins bckwrd (X2) + 10mins fwd) HR 150-165, speed 8-12mph interval training 1min fast 2-3mins slower (fwd & bkwrd).
2. Rowing: 10mins, HR 145-150, resistance 10(max).

HEAD PAIN - Not really anything to complain about but I do feel some pressure today. I drank water well at work, but as soon as I got off work I spent 2hours staining a section of fence, then 3hours cleaning, chopping & cooking 9 different veg' to load the fridge up with for the week. I didn't do so well drinking water at home, and the pressure came on later in the evening. I should be OK though. Back workout tomorrow and 5k run/race on Saturday. Sunday I think I'll just let my knees rest. I bet they ache a little after 5k (my 1st ever 5k - hoping for under 30mins. I did 2 3/4miles in 33minutes last weekend, so I'll need to speed up a bit, without trashing my poor ol' knees).

Everything else was good. Low cal day. 2,004kcal total.



Posted by: Big G

THURSDAY

SLEPT: 11:45pm-6:45am (up early - drive to get eggs)

WEIGHT: ?lb - not measured (no poop this morning! wierd).

Meal 1 - 7:30am
Meal 2 - 10:15am
Meal 3 - 1:15pm
Meal 4 - 4:15pm
Meal 5 - 7:55pm (+apple 6:30pm)
Meal 6 - 11:00pm

WORKOUT: Pull/Tri
(1) Wide Grip Pullups (BW+10lbDB:1st time w/extra weight) - 2x7½(fail), 1x6½(fail) NOTE: Damn! Updating this I just now realized that I was doing sets of six before! I must've got confused with chin-ups! Hell, I did really well then! The 1st & 2nd set I almost-almost-almost got my chin over the bar on the eighth rep. On the third set I did the same thing on rep 7. With a 10lb DB between my feet that's pretty damn good, for me. I'm going to do that again! Full extension on all, but no hanging. [Me-52lb:1x8 warmup]
(2) Bent-over BB rows - w/bar:1x10(warmup), 75lb:1x10 (screw starting on 65lb!), 75lb:1x10, 85lb:1x10(old max, now easy!) 95lb(new max):1x10 (all to abs, but wrist getting involved w/last 2 reps), 105lb(new max - couldn't resist):1x8(#8 not to abs).
(3) Dips BW+20lbDB(last week's new max) - 3x8 (Nice! Sets 1 & 2 were cake! Struggled a little w/rep 7&8, set 3, but still... up to 25lb next time!
(4) Cable Row w/narrow handle - 110lb:1x10(all reps to abs), 120lb:2x10(set2/reps9-10 & set3/reps8-10 not to abs)
(5) Bent over lateral raise (rear delts) w/25lb DBs: 3x10(set3/reps8-10 arms falling, not controlled lower).
(6) DB Pullover (arms straight) - 30lb:1x10, 35lb:1x10, 40lb:1x8(got all 10 last week, but not now)
(7) Swapped Skull-Crushers for Straight-armed Lat Pulldowns this week (might try 2sets of each in future, just to finish up). Anyway... Straight Armed Lat Cable Pulldowns - w/100lb:1x8, 1x7½, 1x6.

NOTES: Nice workout. Man, I love that shit!

HEAD-PAIN: None. None at all. Had a chance to chat with two of the personal trainers (who were there just working out today) about it though.

As soon as I explained what had happened one of them said "Exertion Headache" and went on to tell me that it happens to him about once a year too. His pain only lasted 2-3days apparently, but the other guy said he'd known several clients that had had them last a month or more.

One guy, he said, had all kinds of tests done (brainscans and what-not) but the doc's never found anything. They'd both obviously had it happen to them. They both described it exactly like it happened to me. Like all the pressure from the weight ends up in your head instead of on your body somehow and then there's just this kind-of pop followed by absolutely horrible pain. I was relieved to hear their stories. More reason not pay for the freakin' MRI! And, less reason to worry. I'm gonna stay mindful of that shit though. Keep an eye on my head pressure. Kind-of.

Daily Kcal: 2032. Gotta shift that scale into the 160's at some point!



Posted by: SamEaston

Nice going G!!

Im so glad you have some respite from your headaches! gotta love sodium!!

Im doing well - im doing a rowing marathon on Sunday, so this is the first of a couple of days off the gym. Im chomping at the bit here, hankering for some exercise!!

Anyway, take care - and keep on running!!



Posted by: Big G

Quote:
Originally Posted by SamEaston View Post
...this is the first of a couple of days off the gym. Im chomping at the bit here, hankering for some exercise.
Understood! Even with just one day completely resting for tomorrow's race (i.e. today) my mind's nagging me to "do a little something". I'm going to limit it to 3hrs of staining the last of my backyard fence (not exactly cardio!), but still... I've become a Gym Junky! There's no going back now! Gotta get that workout fix! Just can't feel right without it.

Good luck on that row! Go get 'em girl!



Posted by: Big G

FRIDAY

SLEPT:12:30-7:00am (gotta get more sleep, dammit!)

WEIGHT: 168.2lb Yay! Dropped into to the 160's! Cool.

Meal 1 - 7:30am
Meal 2 - 11:15am (late,wasn't hungry. ate ½yolk:egg broke)
Meal 3 - 2:15-3:00pm (eating & working at the same time)
Meal 4 - 8:15pm (late! @Sears sale. 2pants for $15!).
Meal 5 - 11:30 PP shake, off to bed.
Meal 6 - 12:30pm couldn't sleep. snacked on mushrooms.

WORKOUT: None. Rest day for 5k race tomorrow morning. Not carbing up today. Running near ketosis tomorrow. Carbs... who needs 'em!? It's only 5k afterall. I'll be alright (which is more than can probably be said for my ol' knees!). Whatever. I'm still running the whole damn thing non-stop. 30minutes. That's the goal. I'm gonna have to push it to do that too. It should be fun. It's my first ever race! I even like the look of the pin-on number I got for my T-shirt! Like I'm a "real" runner! Wife's coming too (though not running). She'll have my Pretzels, Banana and PPshake at the finish line (God bless her).

FOOD NOTES: Since it took me until 3pm to get lunch down I was feeling fine at 5:30pm when I got off work. I decided to drive home before eating again, pop into Sears, grab a couple of pairs of pants, jet home and eat about 6:15pm-ish. Instead Sears' crappy sale had maybe 4 pairs of 32" pants on each of 15 different racks. And...Some 32s were really 31s, some 33s were 32s and some 31s were the same as some 33s! Add that, X2, with inner seams in the mix, and I must've tried on maybe 20 pairs of pants before I finally got the hell out of there! Half starved.

Dinner, PP shake and early to bed in hopes of long night before tomorrow's 5k race. Couldn't sleep. Got back up. Munched on some steamed mushrooms, updated journal and hit pillow again about 1am. Up at 7:15am. Race day.

KCal: 1,490. Too low really, but probably won't hurt as a one-off. I didn't plan to drop my calories like this today. It just kind-of worked out like that. Anyway... 5k while hovering nr ketosis. Cake.

{Edit: Geez, I rambled on today!}



Posted by: Big G

Correction... Ate chicken breast at 1:30am, then woke at 4:15am hungry, had a PP shake and went back to bed.

Total Kcal: 1,699. 56% protein, only 142g carbs.



Posted by: SamEaston

Well . . . . . .

. . . how did it go? I hope you're okay! I remember when i lowered my carbs so much then did a 2000m test on the rowing machine, i passed out, then puked, then had to eat above maintenance for a couple of days, just to feel normal again!

It's good that you're into the 160's for your weight too. Makes me feel dead fat though, cos im 154lb!!



Posted by: Big G

OK... Sorry... Here's the scoop...



Posted by: Big G

SATURDAY

SLEPT: 1:15am-7:15am (up early for 5k race)

WEIGHT: not measured

Meal 1 - 7:30am (Lrg brkfast for race... Any excuse!)
Meal 2 - 10:30am (PWO shake, pretzels)
Meal 3 - 11:30am (small salad - food provided at race)
Meal 4 - 3:30pm (slept 2:00-3:15pm - afternoon nap. nice!)
Meal 5 - 6:10pm (then 4miller lite & 2 bud ice! Aargh!)
Meal 6 - 9:30-11:00 (Mad munchies following beers! Ate dinner, then 2pc toast w/PB & extra walnuts, then wife brought home chicken and mushrooms from catered event - I ate that too. Beer makes me hungry - or prevents me from feeling full.

WORKOUT: 5k race (at 10:00am) completed in 29mins 11sec. Nice! I enjoyed it too. My wife says I was in the top 200 (not bad for 2,500 runners), but I think I was more like #500. Whatever. It was fun and my knees didn't hurt one bit. That's the farthest I've ever run on the road. Next comes 10k!

NOTES: Nice enough day. My mind started nagging me for alcohol about 7:30pm while outside painting (shed door, gutter/facia-boards) - just getting dark. I don't like painting too much. It was nice to have a little buzz while I worked. I figured I'd run it off earlier anyway (any excuse!). I stopped drinking after 6, leaving two in the fridge (mistake! should've poured them away! see tomorrow's entry!).

Kcal: 3,568 (15% beer) - Ate like a madman after finishing 6beers and 5hours painting. Monster munchies!



Posted by: Big G

SUNDAY

SLEPT: 12:30pm-9:30am (9hours! WTG!)

WEIGHT: 170.2lb (up 2lb from Friday! beer/water retention?)

Meal 1 - 10:00am
Meal 2 - 1:20pm (painting handrail, fence, facia boards...)
Meal 3 - 4:30pm (still painting/staining fence... no fun)
Meal 4 - 8:00pm (worked until dark. beer is food, right!?)
Meal 5 - missed it. slept 9pm-11:45pm exhausted
Meal 6 - 1glass milk & off to bed. tired/sleepy.

WORKOUT: None, unless 8hrs of painting counts!

PAINTING: Everything's done! No more painting this year. Next comes new gutters/siding for garage, roto-till and level back yard, build 3 remaining raised veggie-patch boxes, cut bricks to complete paving stone patios and pathways, cover back yard in gravel (temporary fix for dogs tracking in dust'n'mud) then build the deck - Man, the deck is going to be completely awesome! I'll definitely take before/after pictures for this one. I can see it in my mind's eye. it's gonna be a good one - multi-level with a spiralling stairway. Can't wait to start the deck. I just can't wait. Gotta finish everything else first though. No more incomplete projects allowed!

BEER: I'm outside painting by 11am. At noon I fancy an apple (or something), open the fridge and see the two beers left over from yesterday. I decided it'd be a nice addition to an afternoon of painting so promptly drank them both. A few minutes later my neighbor calls me - he wants a ride to the store. While at the store I buy 6 more beers. I paint for an hour, sit down with a cold beer, paint for another hour, stop again for another beer. Pretty soon I'd guzzled down all six and was bumming 4 more from my neighbor! 12 in total. 18 total for the weekend. Gadzooks! WTF happened to the cutting plans!? One beer just leads to another...

Miserable day for water intake too. Kept chugging beers and kept on painting. Back on the band wagon tomorrow! No more beers this week, for sure!

NOTE Re: Meal 4 (says Meal 5 in log - oops): While painting wife asked if I wanted a chicken/broccoli pie. I figured she was making something from the chicken and broccoli I had in the fridge. When I came in I found that she'd eaten the chicken I had in the fridge and cooked me some ungodly, frozen, processed, bullcrap pies! I was too tired/hugry/weak to bother cooking some other meat, so I scraped the middle of the pies out, left 80% of the pastry and had that with some veg. Fitday says each pie is 400+cal. I entered 2 (rather than the three I ate b/c I don't think what I ate of the pies amounted to much at all (they were very small), but still it looks stupid in the food log - A bazillion calories before bed!

KCal: 3,267 (30% beer! Aargh! Terrible!) WTF happened this weekend? Fell off the program, big time. Involuntary refeed!?



Posted by: Big G

MONDAY

SLEPT: 9pm-11:30pm (exhausted/painting),then 12:15pm-6:50pm

WEIGHT: 169.8lb

Meal 1 - 7:20am
Meal 2 - 10:10am
Meal 3 - 1:15pm (PWO pretzels, PP shake)
Meal 4 - 3:20pm (hungry. only ever get 2hrs from PWO meal)
Meal 5 - 6:10pm (huge salad,0.5tblsp oil homemade dressing)
Meal 6 - 8:30pm (after bldg raised veggie patch box. weak)
Meal 7 - 11:30pm

WORKOUT: LEGS (Finally! Been putting it off for past 2wks while training for 5k race on Saturday, plus I was worried about head pains returning - I exert myself more doing legs than push/pull days, I think).
Warmup: 5mins on stair climber (1st time ever - surprisingly hard; set on fat-burner level 10 - Fast!).
1.Incline situps (twisting, max decline setting, all the way down every time): 2x25, 1x20(fail), plus 1x10 throwing/catching 4lb ball. Failed on 10. Should've used ball earlier.
2.Full Squats (ass touching heel!) - 115lb:1x10(warmup), 135lb:1x10, 155lb:1x8(no fail, but good enough - shaking! Too afraid to try 165lb. That's what I was doing when the headpains got me last month - "Train to stimulate, not anihilate"). NOTE: 10lb plate under each heel works well - minimal lower back involvement.
3.Deadlifts - 205lb:1x10, 225lb:1x8, 245lb:1x6. Nice! Try 4@255lb(new max) next time.
4.Lunges w/2x20lb DBs (legs already fried - 2sets only) - 2x10 (2steps=1rep). NOTE: Ball of right foot is sore (possibly from 5k race on Saturday), decided 2 sets would be enough for now.
5.Laying leg curls - 90lb:1x10(easy), 100lb:1x10, 110lb:1x10, 120lb(new max):1x5. (just right - do same again next week - legs fried when done).
6.Seated Rotary Calf Press - 215lb:1x20, 220:1x15, 225lb:1x10(on fire!).

WORKOUT NOTES: Nice workout. Felt a little ill after prone leg curls (not a bad thing, just saying). Legs were shaky/weak trying to get to calf press machine. Took the stairs one at a time (holding onto the handrail) on the way out! Do same again next week although maybe no stair-climber (tired quads out too much before getting started) and use 4lb ball right from the start of sit-ups. 3sets of 25 sit-ups before throwing/catching was too much. Other than that, that was good fun! Fried my legs waaaaayyy more than a measly ol' 5k run! Listen to me... Mr Health & Fitness all of a sudden ("Little ol' 5k race doesn't really do it for me, blah blah blah!"). Heh-heh.

HEAD PAIN - What head pain!? Felt nothing before, during or after workout. Absolutely 100% better. Yeehah!

Kcal: 2,227.



Posted by: Big G

TUESDAY

SLEPT: 12:15am-6:50am (would've gone to bed earlier, but agreed to watch movie w/wife @ 9:30pm then, mid-way through, had to pause it (for 20mins) to help neighbor measure, cut & screw plywood over basement window following vandalism (break-in attempt?).

WEIGHT: 170.8lb

Meal 1 - 7:20am
Meal 2 - 10:30am
Meal 3 - 1:20pm (After cardio: PP, pretzels & banana)
Meal 4 - 3:25pm (only ever get 2hrs from PWO meal. weak.)
Meal 5 - 6:20pm (after apple at 5:30pm. hungry already)
Meal 6 - 9:30pm
Meal 7 - 11:45pm (PP shake & off to bed.)

CARDIO: Swimming (fancied doing something different). 50 lengths of pool (32 lengths = 1mile. So... 1 length = 50 meters) in 40 minutes (i.e. Just over 1½miles @ approx 2½mph, breast-stoke).
PLUS: 5min jacuzzi & 5min steam room. Lovely!

NOTES (LEGS): Still feel pretty good following Saturday's 5k race and yesterday's workout. Calves & quads a little tender, but nothing much. Decided to swim, for active recovery, rather than use elliptical trainer (just for a change). It was a good idea. I enjoyed it. Although... I swear my legs hurt more afterwards than before. My calves definitely seemed tighter anyway. Maybe that'd've happened anyway as the day went by, but there was a distinct difference when I got out of the pool compared to before.

CUTTING: Started 8/28 between 176lb & 173.6lb. Weight this morning 170.8lb but has been down into 160's a couple of mornings recently. i.e. Approx 5lb down in 3weeks. Keep this going to mid-Oct. We'll see how I look then. 3rd row of abs definitely more chiseled than end of Aug, so must be accomplishing something bodyfat-wise (not LBM loss!). I just want a few pictures of me super-lean then I'll bulk back up for a while. I'm looking fwd to some 3,000+KCal days again, that's for sure!

YARD WORK: 2½hrs after work, measuring, cutting, nailing, screwing 2by12s for last-but-one raised veggie patch box. Next, rototil and level back yard (keeing topsoil for boxes) and break ground for the all new blow-your-freakin' mind deck above all decks! 30'x20' multi layered, spirally-stairwayed dreamdeck. I can't wait! Almost there...

KCal: 2,212 (for ref: 226g protein / >1¼g per lb of me.)



Posted by: Big G

WEDNESDAY

SLEPT: 12:00pm-6:50am

WEIGHT: 169.8lb

Meal 1 - 7:20am
Meal 2 - 10:50am (late. busy at work)
Meal 3 - 2:20pm (late start on workout. PWO shake/pretzels)
Meal 4 - 5:10pm
Meal 5 - 8:00pm
Meal 6 - 11:00pm (X-lrg pc salmon - Mmm!)

WORKOUT:Push/Bi. (1min RIs throughout)
1.Incline BB Press - 95lb:1x10(easy), 115lb:1x10, 135lb:1x6 (was 10 last week, but that was after 2-3min RI), 135lb:2x4 (2 extra sets instead of two 155lb reps).
2.Chin-ups w/10lb DB - 2x8, 1x7½(fail).
3.Military Press - 95lb:1x10, 105lb:1x9½(fail), 115lb:3x3(failed last rep).
4.DB Press - 50lb:1x9,1x7,1x6.
5.Arnold Press w/35lb DBs - 3x6(failed last rep, last set).
6.Machine Shrugs - 205lb:1x10, 225lb:1x10, 245lb:1x8, 265lb(new max):1x6, 285lb(new max!):1x4, 305lb(new max!!):1x4.
7.EZ Bar Curl - 85lb:1x7(fail), 75lb:1x7(fail), 65lb:1x7(fail).

WORKOUT NOTES: I'm still bummed that I've lost so much strngth in the past two months following 1mo break (due to head-pain issues). There's no point focusing on that, I guess. I may as well just accept where I am now and just start from there. Still though... it is disappointing. What's also disappointing is the fact that there are no improvements on last week's numbers. I'm failing the same rep on the same set as last week for almost everything. I wonder if it relates to the cut I've been on for the past 3 weeks; insufficient glucose, low energy, etc. I don't feel sluggish or weak, but I was definitely pushing up more weight more times than I am nowadays.

NOTES CONT... I reshuffled the workout a little bit today; added some extra sets (#s 1, 3 and 6) and a lot more weight to the shrugs. I'm not convinced that they were 100% full shrugs (more like 90% maybe), but it was fun to try. I was pleased just to even be able to stand up and grip 305lb to be honest. I've never held over 300lb before. I remember having trouble gripping 245lb when I first started dealifting that weight. That's no problem now (so maybe there are some improvements afterall). As always though, I just want more, faster! I'm an impatient M.F.!

EVENING: Nothing. Came home with plans to build last raised veggie box, landed in the LaZboy and barely got out of it! Watched a movie("Junebug" - weird!) with Mrs G., and went to bed around 9:45pm to read. Only 1750KCal in by end of meal 5. Probably not the best diet in the world, bread, tuna, egg wites, PB, PP shakes filling most of day. Should probably try to incorporate more fresh veg/fruit into day. Need to go grocery shopping. Too tired to go right now.

READING: IronMag board for cutting tips. Concerned that strength loss may be diet related. Found all kind of stuff on refeeds/leptin plus a low carb diet plan. Considering refeed this weekend (Yom Kippur - off work tomorrow) then drastic, near-carbless diet for three weeks. Body fat now is probably 8-9%. Plan to drop to 5%(ish) for a few photos, then bulk. We'll see how it goes.



Posted by: Big G

THURSDAY

SLEPT: 12:15-6:45am (Went up to bed at 10pm, got into reading IronMag stickies (and following links) after updating my journal. Man, some of the recommended cutting diets seem a little extreme to me. More like no-carb than low-carb. Time just flew by. Salmon at 11pm, watched a bit of TV, then off to bed. Should sleep more. Need to remember Melatonin at 10pm. That might help. Also, ordered ZMA (per recommendations in this jrnl) from FitnessOne.com to aide sleep. Should arrive with 2lb of Casein protein (haven't used before) in a week or so.

WEIGHT: 168.6lb (light! Hopefully not LBM loss!)

Meal 1 - 7:15am
Meal 2 - 10:10am
Meal 3 - 1:25pm (PWO pretzels/shake.Should add banana too)
Meal 4 - 3:30pm
Meal 5 - 6:45pm
Meal 6 - 11:00pm (After beers. No work tomorrow:Yom Kippur)

WORKOUT:
(1) Wide Grip Pullups (BW+10lbDB:2nd time w/extra weight) - 2x8(awesome!), 1x6½(fail). Full extension on all. No hanging. Chin pulled above bar all reps.
(2) Bent-over BB rows - w/bar:1x10(warmup), 75lb:1x10, 85lb:1x10, 95lb:1x10, 105lb:1x8(#8 not to abs).
(3) Dips BW+25lbDB(new max):3x8(easy), w/30lbDB(new max):1x6½(fail).
(4) Heavy Rows w/pivot machine (1st time on this machine - cable row occupied) - 45lb:1x10(too easy! OK for warmup, I suppose), 70lb(Heavy!):3x6. Maybe next time try 60lb and sets of 8.
(5) Bent over lateral raise (rear delts) w/25lb DBs: 3x10(set3/reps8-10 not 100% but lowering was controlled).
(6) DB Pullover (arms straight) - 30lb:1x10, 35lb:1x10, 40lb:1x8(same as last wk)
(7) Skull-Crushers (2 sets only - added #8;lat pulldowns) - 1x8(just), 1x6½(fail)
(8) Straight-armed Lat Pulldowns (2 sets only) - w/100lb:1x8, 1x5(fail).

WORKOUT NOTES: Nice workout. Good back pump (even w/o creatine - Dr's orders). Proud of 3x8 WG Pullups with 10lb between feet. Couldn't complete 1st set last week. Got 2 sets of 8 this week without too much bother.

@WORK: Oops! Showed up to work in casual clothes. No-one else had. I figured it was the last day of the week so it'd be casual (like all Fridays). Apparently no-one else thought likewise. Mtg w/GM & directors was little more than a series of comments regarding my clothes. Still though... I do look nice'n'buff in the tight(ish) Abercrombie T-Shirt I got free for the 5k run last week.

DIRTY LITTLE SECRETS / BAD HABITS! - See tomorrow's entry. It's confession time!



Posted by: Big G

FRIDAY (Off work - Yom Kippur)

SLEPT: 12:30pm-7:30am

WEIGHT: not measured.

DIRTY LITTLE SECRET / BAD HABIT...
I had my first puff on a cigarette at age 12 or 13. By 18 I smoked every day. I've quit a few times since, cold turkey, but nothing has ever lasted more than a few months (maybe 6mo max). Most recently, I quit in November (last year), shortly after signing up for the gym. There didn't seem much point in running miles and miles only to fire up a cigarette a few minutes later. My non-smoking lasted until May (this year) when I smoked (as a "treat" - some treat!) on my birthday, then again from the 25th through to early June (while camping in The Smokey Mountains). After our camping trip I confessed to work collegues that I'd started smoking again.

Anyway... As of midnight last night, I QUIT!!!

I didn't maintain my food log today. I didn't eat shamefully badly, but I definitely snacked all day. Nothing bad, like I said, but (I figured) as long as I'm not smoking, anything goes. I can lose any body fat I might put on. I can't diet Lung Cancer away!

So... This is Day 1. Non smoking... Geeking!

YARD WORK - I built the last of the raised veggie patch boxes this morning and installed it (and the 2nd to last one) too. They still need filled with dirt but they already look good. This afternoon I ripped all the aluminum siding (& gutters) off my garage and installed sheet-wood all over. All that remains is to install J-Channel round the edges, a starter strip along the bottom and white vinyl siding from top to bottom (acquired, for free, from a neighbor who's doing a fake stonework facade instead). I didn't get any of the siding done, but it was still a pretty productive day.

BEERS - None. Surprisingly. Did the whole of Day 1 Non-Smoking completely cold turkey. If I felt like I was "Jonesing" I'd eat pretzels, have some PB on toast, eat an apple, a banana, a peach... dot dot dot!



Posted by: Big G

SATURDAY

SLEPT: I dunno. Fuck everything. As long as I'm not smoking, who cares!?

WEIGHT: 174.4lb WTF!? Heaviest reading in about a month. I didn't eat THAT much yesterday. What's going on? Topped-up glucose levels from beers and carbs past couple of days?

DIRTY SECRET / BAD HABIT: Non-Smoking day 2. - Screwed sheets of wood (previously nailed only) all over garage, ready for siding to be installed. Need to do some electrical work, so security lights can be mounted up, but it's getting there.

BEERS - Decided day 2 of nictoene detox' might go better with a few cold beers. I bought 12, figuring I might do the same tomorrow (6ea) but ended up killing all 12 by myself today. Again though, who cares. As long as I'm not smoking, anything goes.

FOOD LOG - Not maintained. Snacked all day. Bananas, apples, pretzels, X-lrg breakfasts (maybe three of 'em thoughout the day!), milk and anything else I could lay my hands on.

NICOTENE - None. Absolutely none. No cheating. I'm in this game to win! No more smoking ever!



Posted by: Big G

SUNDAY

SLEPT: All damned day! I got up at 8:30am, had breakfast and went back to bed at 9:30am. At noon Mrs.G tried to wake me for some... shall we say... "extra-curricula"(sp?) activities, but I was just too tired. She went off to work and I got up about 2pm. From 2pm-4pm I thought how productive I could be outside if I would actually get off the couch. At 4pm I gave up on that idea and went back to bed. I got up again about 7pm. Then back to bed again about 10pm. Wife came home from work about 11pm. I got back up around midnight. And went back to bed (again, again, again!) about 1:30am.

WEIGHT: 175.8lb DAMN! This really is heavy. Must surely be weight from topped up glucose levels from mad eating over past few non-smoking days. Otherwise I need an eight pound shit!

DIRTY SECRETS / BAD HABITS - Non-Smoking Day 3. Survived by sleeping. No motivation to do anything. Even the idea of listing eBay auctions seemed too much like hard work. Blobbed around house, snacked/ate all day.



Posted by: Big G

MONDAY

SLEPT: 1:30am-7:00am (after sleeping all day yesterday)

WEIGHT: 177.4lb - OK. This is getting F-ing crazy. I was 168 point something last Thursday morning. Now I'm almost 10lb heaavier. I have been doing some fairly serious eating/drinking since quitting smoking cold-turkey midnight Thursday, but gaining 10lb!!? WTF is that!? I haven't eaten 30,000 cal in three days, so it can't be body fat. Must be topped up blood glucose levels, following temporary abandonment of strict cutting program (to facilitate initial 10 non-smoking days, as agreed with self!).

Meal 1 - 7:20am
Meal 2 - 10:20am
Meal 3 - 1:30pm
Meal 4 - 6:30pm (after nap 4pm-6pm)
Meal 5 - 9:30pm (off to bed 10:30pm)
Meal 6 - 12:30pm (can't sleep. up for PP, melatonin & ZMA)

WORKOUT: None. Busy at work. Didn't even bring gym bag. Plan to make it through day, go home and go to bed, ready for Day 5 non-smoking tomorrow.

DIRTY SECRET / BAD HABITS... (Non-Smoking)
NOTES: Starting to get some deep chest coughs today. I need to find one of those tables that tells you (for example) 1 month of non-smoking, heart rate is normalized... 2months of non-smoking, lung function 90% restored... 6 months non-smoking, risk of heart attack reduced to normal... dot dot dot.

GENERAL NOTES: Today sucked. Felt crappy all day. Made it to 3:30pm then asked boss if I could go home early. he was fine with that. I crawled into bed as soon as I got home, slept for 2hrs then couldn't go back to sleep when it was bed time. Wife came home bitchin' (as usual). She went to bed early so she could get up for 7:45am start at work. I went to bed too but couldn't sleep. Got back up for melatonin, ZMA and PP shake. Felt sleepy about 30mins later. Back to bed for 6 hours sleep (interupted by 2x trips to the bathroom). Woke next day tired, still feeling crappy, coughing, gasping for air, and Jonesing for a cigarette. This sucks!

BEERS: Give me a break already! As long as I'm not smoking, who cares!? I felt like shit, had no way to change the way I was feeling, so I drank a few beers. When they'd worn off I drank a few beers again! Whatever it takes. Gotta get through the next two weeks nicotene free then it should be better.

WIFE: Came home with nicotene-free cigarettes and announced she'd been nicotene-free for 6 hours! If she actually quits I'll eat my hat! I've quit three or four times (for 6mo+) over our 8yr relationship and she's never once stopped (well... she HAD TO stop for a couple of weeks to have her gastric bypass, but she went straight back to it afterwards). Always smoking in the house even though I'm sitting there choosing not to smoke (day in, day out!). It's been hard. It'd be easier if she'd quit too.



Posted by: Big G

TUESDAY

SLEPT: 1:15am-7:10am (in bed at 10:30pm, couldn't sleep, got up for shake, melatonin & ZMA - seemed to help).

WEIGHT: not measured. probably horrendously high. diet has sucked since quitting smoking on Thurs (midnight).

Meal 1 - 7:45am (after fight w/MrsBigG: bitch/moan...)
Meal 2 - 10:30am (feel like crap: coughing,sighing,gasping)
Meal 3 - missed it. felt aweful at work. used ½day. slept!
Meal 4 - 5:30pm (after sleeping 1p-5p)
Meal 5 - 9:30pm (after 10 beers! Depressed. Cold turkey.)
Meal 6 - missed it. in bed by 11pm.

WORKOUT: None. I took my gym bag to work with me this morning, but I dunno. I feel like crap. All I want to do is go home and go to bed. This sucks. One freakin' cigarette and all this shit would go away. I guess that's why they call it an addiction, right!? Cold turkey sucks.

NEXT DAY NOTES: I eventually did go home and go to bed, using a ½day vacation to do so.

SMOKING & DRINKING! - Left work depressed with head all discombobblated (that's a word, right? ), jonesing big-time for a cigarette. I swung into a gas station, bought a pack of Marlboro and smoked 3 before I got home! Aarck! Somebody stop me! I spoke to wife when I got home. She said she was still on her Nicotene-free cigarettes and was determined to stop smoking too (1st time she's been like that!). I went to bed and woke at 5:30pm (she'd been home 30minutes by that point). When I came downstairs she'd obviously been smoking Marlboros too! By the following morning we'd smoked the entire pack between us, vowed never to smoke again, and I'd driven to Walgreens to buy Step2 Patches and some gum.

I did drink 10 beers though. Not good. But temporarily excused during this nicotene-deprived hell!

The fight goes on.



Posted by: Big G

WEDNESDAY

SLEPT: 11:30pm-7:00pm

WEIGHT: 175.8lb (Up 7lb on last week! Presumably becuase of carbing-up while quitting smoking - Body fat seems unchanged. 3rd row abs still visible )

Meal 1 - 7:10am (up early to go and get nicorette patches!)
Meal 2 - 10:30am
Meal 3 - 2:00pm (forgot to add WORKOUT memo to foodlog).
Meal 4 - 4:50pm (leftover salad from meeting. Mmm! Good!)
Meal 5 - 8:15pm
Meal 6 - 11:15pm (casein, almonds and off to bed)

WORKOUT: LEGS
Warmup: 5mins on Elliptical trainer; 1min fwd, 1min bckwrd (X2½).
1.Incline situps (throwing/catching 6lb ball - new max): 1x25, 1x19(fail), 1x11(fail), Twisting (elbow to knee) w/no ball:1x11(fail! - nothing left)
2.Full Squats (ass touching heel!) - 115lb:1x10(warmup), 135lb:1x10, 155lb:1x6(lower back getting involved on #6. Did 8 last week), 165lb(1st time since head-pain issues):1x4 (no head pain! - lower back involved w/rep4).
3.Deadlifts (no gloves. lost one) - 205lb:1x10, 225lb:1x10, 245lb:1x8. Nice! 255lb(new max):1x5(Kewl!).
4.Lunges w/2x20lb DBs - None. Took 1½-2min RIs w/heavy squats/deadlifts - short on time, plus legs fried from additional reps @ new max weights w/1,2&3above.
5.Laying leg curls - 90lb:1x10(easy), 100lb:1x10, 110lb:1x10, 120lb(last week's new max):1x7 (6&7 not to butt). Nice! Legs burning.
6.Seated Rotary Calf Press - 190lb:1x25, 2x15. Used 210lb last week and calves hurt for 5 days. Backed off on the weight a bit today. May keep it on 190lb until I can get 3sets of 25 completed. Damn lactic acid burns my calves up!

WORKOUT NOTES: Nice! I used to hate leg workouts. Now I don't mind at all. It's like my legs finally gave up complaining. They know they're gonna get beat-up and there's no sense them crying about it! They'll complain tomorrow though, I bet.

HEADPAIN - None. No pressure. Nothing. All is well. I am sooooooo relieved. It would've really really sucked to have got addicted to pumping iron only to be told I should never do it again!

SMOKING: Nicorette patches rock! I feel absolutely lovely compared to yesterday. And I only got Step2 patches, not full strength ones. Ah! Nicotene! Bliss.

EVENING: Lunched out, nothing productive. Resisted nicorette gum. Patch seemed to wear off late evening. Wife is definitely on board. Can't believe it. She smoked a marlboro this morning but nothing all day, and only three marlboros in 2½days. She's smoking Quest#3s(nicotene-free) just so she has something to smoke. Otherwise, she's saying, she wants the nicotene out of her system! Cool. It's gotta be waaaay easier for me to stay quit if y wife isn't lighting up around me all the time, month after month.

FISH OIL: Hit the fish oil jackpot at Walgreens. 2x200cap bottles for $9.99, buy one, get one. Regularly $14.99ea. Perfect! I jut ran out. One for home. One for work.

WATER: 0.75gal. Not the greatest, but was pleased to not spend whole day snacking frantically in absence of nicotene. Patch left me ½ starved for it, but still able to think.

KCal:2,482(261g protein). I need to take some photos! I'm already pretty ripped. I'm not bodybuilder-competition/3% ripped, but Ultimate Fighting Championship ripped, for sure (just watched it this evening - brutal! wears me out watching it, so tense).



Posted by: SamEaston

hey G!

That's great news that you've both decided to give up the weed - FOR GOOD!! Im happy for you mate! My granny has been smoking for about 45 years, and we're always on at her to stop, but she won't have it. And she's always complaining about not being able to afford it, i've no money, blah blah blah, but i've always said, no matter how long you''ve smoked, you have to WANT to give up. My gran says she wishes she could stop, but really i think she likes it.

You're doing really well for trying - you've already done yourself proud with minimising your beer intake, regulating your calories and getting a fitness regime in order for yourself, now attacking the smoking habit - Gosh, you're having one hell of an overhaul. You're body must love you now!

Nice one bud - stay focussed on your goal, one at a time and you'll get there!



Posted by: Big G

Thanks for the encouragement. Very kind of you. I've battled smoking a few times in the past. I quit in November '06 (soon after I started running/lifting) and didn't start again until May this year (I started on, or around, my birthday whilst drinking one night. I've only been smoking for about 16 weeks since and I've even tried a couple of times since. Not like this though. And never with my wife doing it too. I've definitely got it this time. Day 13 today. And kicking butt!

Anyway... I'm past due for an update. And, there's trouble looming for toe! The life and times of Big G continue...



Posted by: Big G

THURSDAY

SLEPT: 1:15am-6:45am

WEIGHT: not measured. no poop this morning. wierd.

Meal 1 - 7:00am
Meal 2 - 10:30am (after colorful migraine 10:00-10:20am)
Meal 3 - 1:30pm (PWO: pretzels, banana & PP shake)
Meal 4 - 4:15pm
Meal 5 - 7:30pm
Meal 6 - 10:30pm (Whey, casien & PB shake. Mmm! Good!)

WORKOUT: Press & Bi.
1.Incline BB Press (6 sets! higher weight, lower reps) - 115lb:1x10 (screw starting on 95lb!), 135lb:1x10 (Ha! 6 last week.), 155lb:1x2½(1st time 2 unassisted. Spotter helped w/rep3), 155lb:1x1½+½ (i.e. spotter helped w/rep 2 and 3 - fun trying though!), 135lb:1x6, 1x5
2.Chin-ups w/10lb DB - 2x8 (all reps completed - 1st time for that - only just made last rep).
3.Military Press - 95lb:1x10 (too easy!), 115lb:1x6(just), 1x4(just), 105lb:1x4. Maybe just go for 3sets of 105lb next week.
4.DB Press - 50lb:2x10, 1x8½(fail) - Better than last week though. Getting some strength back - Thank goodness!
5.Arnold Press w/35lb DBs - 3x6(failed last rep, last set - same as last week).
6.Machine Shrugs - 225lb:1x10, 245lb:1x10 (easy enough!), 275lb:1x10(kewl!), 315lb(new max!):1x4 (more like ½-shrugs, too heavy really. Just wanted to try with 3x45lb plates on either side - It looked cool! )
7.EZ Bar Curl - 85lb:1x8(fail), 75lb:1x6(fail), 65lb:1x5(fail).

WORKOUT NOTES: Fun fun fun! Beat some of last week's numbers. Chest had a shaky feeling the rest of the afternoon. I enjoyed myself.

MIGRAINE: 10am, just getting hungry for meal 2, and I get a miraine. I had one yesterday too. Wierd to get two in two days. I only usually get them if I'm changing jobs, moving home or going through some other major stress. Maybe it's a quitting-smoking thing. No pain. Just flashing colors. It's annoying not to be able to see the keyboard or computer screen (especially with some tight deadlines at work) but I'll live.

SMOKING - None. No patch. no gum. No smoking fake nicotene-free cigarettes. No ravenous snacking. Still find myself looking around for a cigarette, or checking my pockets for a pack, but other than that I'm not doing too bad today. My chest isn't sore any more, and any coughing is both short-lived and productive. Yesterday my wife was standing in the middle of the living room simoultaneously coughing and crying while saying "I just want it to stop... I just want it to stop..." which was actually very funny indeed! It made me laugh anyway! That sounds really mean to say but I've done this before and she's never had any sympathy for me. Now she knows what I go through when I detox like this. It'll be soooo much easier to stay quit (for 6mo+. Correction: Forever!) if she's not on the couch smoking cigarette after cigarette all day, every day! She'll do it too, I bet. She's tough. Hopefully she remembers the pain and discomfort she's going through now, to keep her motivated to stay quit afterwards.



Posted by: Big G

FRIDAY

SLEPT: 12:00am-7:00am

WEIGHT: 177.2lb (Up 9lb on last week! WTF!?)

Meal 1 - 7:15pm
Meal 2 - 10:20pm
Meal 3 - 1:45pm (PWO:PP shake,pretzels,banana,small apple)
Meal 4 - 3:50pm (only ever get 2hrs from PWO meal)
Meal 5 - FOOD LOG not maintained. Snacking. Nicotene free.
Meal 6 - 6 beers, but no cigarettes. Day 8 nicotene free.

WORKOUT: Back & Tri.
(1) Wide Grip Pullups (Full extension, all reps. From fully extended hang position to chin over bar) - BW-52lb(warmup):1x10, BW+10lbDB(between feet):1x7(just), 1x4(dropped DBNeed belt). BW:1x6, 1x4, 1x3½(fail)
(2) Bent-over BB rows - 85lb:1x10, 95lb:1x10, 105lb:1x10(8-10 not to abs), 115lb(new max):10(7-10 not to abs), 125lb(new max):1x6(#6 not to abs).
(3) Dips BW+30lbDB(new max):1x6(Dropped DBAwkward!), 1x8, 1x6½(fail). NOTE: 30lb DB between feet is hard to hold.
(4) Heavy Rows w/pivot machine (2nd time on this machine - nice change from cable row) - 60lb:1x8(nice), 70lb(Heavy!):1x8(#6-8 more like ½reps), 60lb:1x8(Again, #6-8 more like ½reps). I like this machine. It's fun!
(5) Bent over lateral raise (rear delts) - WOOPS!! COMPLETELY FORGOT TO DO THESE!!
(6) DB Pullover (arms straight) - 30lb:1x10, 35lb:1x10, 40lb:1x10(1st time all 10), 45lb(new max):1x5(just).
(7) Skull-Crushers (2 sets only - added #8:lat pulldowns) - 1x9(just), 1x5(just)
(8) Straight-armed Lat Pulldowns (2 sets only) - w/100lb:1x8(just), 1x6(just).

WORKOUT NOTES: I weighed 9lb heavier on the scale this morning compared to this time last week (why? carbed up from quit-smoking snacking? rehydrated? both?). WG Pullup #s are down, probably becuase I weigh more. Also, I did WG Pullups much slower than last week, and went all the way down to complete hang position (definitely harder). I did a couple of extra sets w/BW to compensate for lower reps w/BW+10lb. Lats felt good afterwards. Pumped.

ALSO... For Dips & WG Pullups I add weight to myself by sticking a dumbbell between my feet. Today, especially the new 30lb DB (I used for dips) was too hard too keep in place. The 30lb DB is wider than a 25ld DB and it kept falling off of my feet. I need a belt where I can hang weights off of it (like others in the gym) rather than using stupid DBs!

CIGARETTES - None! Still feel crappy. Still coughing. Still snacking ravenously after a few beers. Looking forward to cravings coming to an end (should be end of next week). Wife also doing well. Still coughing/snacking/craving but she's nicotene-free (Day 5 for her - she started after me).



Posted by: Big G

SATURDAY

SLEPT: Dunno. Don't remember.

WEIGHT: nnot measured.

FOOD LOG - Not maintained. Didn't eat badly although did drink at least 6 beers. Snacked on nuts, pretzels, bananas & apples - as long as I'm not smoking, anything goes!

WORKOUT: None. Garage is a mess. Needs tidied before I can set-up power-rack and workout at home.

YARD WORK - Installed vinyl siding on garage. Gutters are 1/3rd complete. Triangle area between house and garage now looking awesome... Shed (incl. vinyl siding, windows etc), raised stone patio w/brick wall, sweeping/curved pathway, 9 raised veggie patches, white marble chip pathways, lrg round paving stone patio/path, dog-eared fence, new gutters, new garage siding and lights.

TO DO...
(1) Clean some more marble chips (currently in a big pile, mixed with mud; need pressure-washed and installed around last remaining raised veggie patches).
(2) Cut bricks to complete paving-stone pathways, patios etc.
(3) Hang shed door & gate (easy enough).
(4) Complete garage gutters (incl. gutter on back of garage, so rain landing on garage roof - nearest side to house - travels along gutter to outside privacy fence.

There's always something!



Posted by: Big G

SUNDAY

SLEPT: 12:00pm-7:30am (up early - lots to do today!)

WEIGHT: 177.5lb

FOOD LOG - Not maintained. Didn't eat very well. Ate good food, but not often enough (maybe only 4 meals - subsidized with apples, bananas, nuts & pretzels (snacking to avoid smoking) . Drank at least 6 beers but didn't smoke any cigarettes.

NICOTENE FREE - Day 10. Feeling a bit better. Not thinking of cigarettes quite as much. Still coughing deep chesty cough but at least it's productive, not wheezy (sp?) like before.

YARD WORK - Powerwashed and installed white marble chips around #7of9 raised veggie patch. Spent morning at Home Depot picking new dining rm light fixture (+ ceiling rose) and dimmer switches. Electrician came round 3pm to fix 3-way stairway and dining rm lighting (after I messed with both circuits on the same day and then forgot which wire went to which circuit - oops!

WORKOUT - None. Garage is a mess. Need to tidy and build power-rack before I can pump iron! Still battling time in an effort to get side yard completed, garage siding/gutters replaced with viynl, plus I want my deck in before the ground freezes! Lots to do, limited time.



Posted by: Big G

MONDAY

SLEPT: 11:30-7pm (woke with a bit of a hangover Drank 8 beers last night and definitely not enough water). Not good, but at least I didn't smoke any cigarettes. Whatever it takes to get off the nicotene. I can lose a few pounds when I'm done (if need be). I can't lose lung cancer! Back to work this morning (although I honestly don't feel like it! - Used ½day vacation to come home early / finish yardwork).

WEIGHT: not measured

Meal 1 - 7:30am
Meal 2 - 10:10am (peckish at work)
Meal 3 - 2:30pm (had banana 11:30am)
Meal 4 - 8:00pm (late. after grocery shop. ate banana 5pm)
Meal 5 - 11:00pm
Meal 6 - missed it. in bed sleeping.

WORKOUT: None. Used ½ vacation day to spend day w/wife powerwashing white marble chips to complete side-yard pathways surrounding raised veggie patches. All that remains is sawing bricks to finish paving stone patios/paths. Then I break ground on the deck. Woohoo!

NICOTENE FREE - Day 11. By this time next week I should be feeling 100% better. Wife is on day 8 today. She's off work today too.

MUM'S BIRTHDAY TODAY - Emailed pic of MrsG & I dressed as cowboy/bar-whore (from NC camping trip, in May). May not have money, but think Mum'll still like pic. We sent her a real live picture of MrsG's great-great-great-great grandfather last year (he looked like Billy The Kid - honestly). This year she'll have us, dressed the same way (only we're in costume), to hang beside that old pic.

OH NO!!!! BAD NEWS!!!! I broke my big toe today! Kicking a mini soccer ball barefoot, in the house, at my dog, I misjudged it and kicked the floor! Hard! I knew it was broke the moment I did it. It felt like a blowtorch held right on my foot. My big toe has turned black and purple, has swollen up and h-u-r-t-s r-e-a-l-l-y b-a-d!! Limping is making my leg hurt becuase I can't walk properly. Plus, the pain from my toe is making me feel kind-of ill. I hobbled around the grocery shop to get some fresh fruit/veg, but didn't get anything else accomplished after that. This sucks. No squats, calf presses, lunges or deadlifts for me for a while. Fuck!

WATER: I don't know. Amidst the powerwashing, grocery shopping, toe breaking and day-long painful hobbling, I didn't get my usual gallon of water in. Still, ½gallon for a non-workout day isn't going to hurt anything as a one off. There's always tomorrow.



Posted by: Big G

TUESDAY

SLEPT: 12:10am-7:10am

WEIGHT: not measured - broke my big toe yesterday - couldn't be bothered to wrestle my foot out of my house-shoes and get on the scale. My toes hurts.

Meal 1 - 7:30am (eggs+toast w/sml banana,½peach,+2strwbrs)
Meal 2 - 10:45am (salmon+toast w/½peach,sml banana,strwbrs)
Meal 3 - 2:15pm (PWO:PP +sml banana,pretzels & sml apple)
Meal 4 - 4:20pm (chicken, yam & veg)
Meal 5 - 8:00pm (+ 2 beers after work )
Meal 6 - 11:00pm
Meal 7 - 2:45am (woke hungry, had casein, back to bed).

FOOD LOG NOTES: I'm making a personal vow to eat even more fresh food than I currently do AND to eat a wider variety of food with each meal. For breakfast, for example, I'll typically eat 2-4 peices of toast w/½tblsp PB on each slice, plus 8-12 egg whites. This morning I had 8 egg whites, one whole egg, 2pc toast w/PB, 2 strawberries, 1 small banana and ½ peach. Plus I took my vitamins at the same time (I hear they should be taken 4hrs before or after a workout becuase a workout restricts absorbtion - per Franco Columbu's "Bodybuilder's Nutrition") i.e. This morning breakfast was much more nutritious than just egg whites, PB and toast. That's my goal, from now onwards. More variety and more fresh fruit/veg with every meal.

WORKOUT: Press & Bi.
1a.Incline BB Press (6 sets! higher weight, lower reps) - 115lb:1x10, 135lb:1x10(just), 155lb:1x2½(2nd time 2 unassisted. Spotter helped w/rep3).
1b.Incline DB Press (New! Just fancied something different) - 65lb:1x6(just), 60lb:1x6, 55lb:1x6.
2.Chin-ups w/no extra weight (can't hold DB between feet w/broken big toe!): 1x10, 1x9½(fail), 1x5½(fail). WTF!? Usually do 3x8 w/10lb DB. I thought 3x10 w/no weight would be fairly similar. Apparently not!
3.Military Press (45sec RIs) - 105lb:1x10(just), 1x6(just), 1x5(just). Stick to this weight for a while.
4.DB Press - 50lb:2x10, 1x7½(fail w/45sec RI), 1x9(fail w/1min RI)
5.Arnold Press w/35lb DBs - 4x6(failed last rep 3rd set last week. completed it without problem this week so did extra set. failed last rep 4th set. up the weight next time.).
6.Machine Shrugs - Can't do 'em. Can't barely walk, let alone stand holding 300lb!
7.EZ Bar Curl - 75lb:1x7(fail) - out of time.

NOTES: Last week I really fried my chest and shoulders. This rarely happens. My chest and shuolders are never sore. I decided to blast 'em again today. I added 3 sets of incline DB presses (new) and an extra set of Arnold Presses. Shoulders felt good when I left the gym although it was a little bit short of a workout (due to it taking me so long to walk to the gym with my stupid broken big toe!). Anyway... nice workout. We'll see if I'm sore again tomorrow (although, I know, I know... DOMS is no indicator of hypertrophy blah blah blah ... Whatever! It's an indicator of something!).

NEXT DAY - Nothing sore. Chest & shoulders absolutely fine.

CASEIN - 2:45am I woke hungry, had 1scoop Casein (chocolate), 1 scoop Whey (vanilla), ½tblsp PB & 2 strawberries. It was pretty good, although I still wished I'd ordered anything but chocolate casein - I don;t really like chocolate. I ordered it by mistake.

WATER - Again, not a good day for water intake. ½gal total. Must do better. Tired and a bit depressed today Re: Broken toe.

KCal=4,211 (Too high really. Would've been better without 2 Stella Artois (270cal) plus pretzels (138cal) & nuts (366cal) I got snacking on after beers. Still though, again, no cigartettes today. This is Day 12. This coming weekend will be first few days of third week. Cravings should (from previous experience) be minimal at that point. Let's hope so!



Posted by: Big G

WEDNESDAY

SLEPT: 11:30pm-7:00am (7½hrs! That's pretty good for me, although I could've gone to bed even earlier. I was tired. Did nothing last night; blobbed on the couch reading Franco Columbu's "Bodybuilder's Nutrition Handbook"
SLEPT AGAIN 5:25pm-7:10pm (woke hungry & angry! nicotene?)

WEIGHT: not measured. couldn't be f&^%ed to remove pants, shoes etc due to broken big toe.

Meal 1 - 7:20am (8whites,1egg,2pc toast w/PB +peach/banana)
Meal 2 - 10:30am (fresh salmon on toast w/peach/strwbrries)
Meal 3 - 1:30pm (PWO:PPshake w/oats +pretzels,banana,apple)
Meal 4 - 3:45pm (chiken,yam,veg)
Meal 5 - 7:15pm (beef'n'veg',after nap)
Meal 6 - 10:25pm (casein,whey,strwbrries,cream,PB w/nuts)

WORKOUT: Pull/Tri.
(1) Wide Grip Pullups (Full extension, all reps. From fully extended hang position to chin over bar + d-o-n-e s-l-o-w-l-y!) - BW-52lb(warmup):1x10. NOTE: Can't hold DB between feet w/broken toe, so... BodyWeight only:1x8(just), 1x7½(fail! NOTE: I'm 10lb heavier than the carb-starved me from last month - hence not 3x8 easily), 1x6½(fail), 1x4(pissed at results, did extra set, only just got 4. Oh well, try again next time.).
(2) Bent-over BB rows - 105lb(screw starting on 85lb!):1x10(all to abs), 115lb:10(9-10 not to abs), 125lb:1x8(#8 not to abs), 135lb(new max):1x6(5-6 not to abs), 115lb(extra set):1x7(#7 not to abs).
(3) Dips (NOTE:I found a belt to hang weights from in the gym for everyone to use - Cool!) BW+30lb:1x8, 1x6½(fail), 1x5½(fail). BW only(3 extra sets w/15sec RIs & fast reps):1x8, 1x5(fail), 1x3(fail) Triceps fried!
(4) Bent over lateral raise (rear delts) - (S/b#5,not#4. Forgot last weeks WO notes) - 2x25lbDBs:3x8 (perfect).
(5) DB Pullover w/arms straight (S/b#6,not#5) - 30lb:1x10, 35lb:1x10, 40lb:1x10, 45lb:none (did 5 last week, forgot notes).
(6) Rows w/pivot machine (NOTE:s/b#4,not#6!) - 60lb:3x8.
(7) Straight-armed Lat Pulldowns [S/Set w/#8, no RI] - w/100lb:2x10, 1x6(fail).
(8) Cable/Rope Tricep Pulldowns [S/Set w/#7, no RI] - w/100lb:1x4(fail) then w/80lb:1x6, 1x5(just). 2sets only. Triceps fried from dips.

PWO SHAKE - Made myself a Whey shake w/3strawberries, 1tsp PB and ½oz powdered oats. I figured ½oz oats (plus 1oz pretzels to snack on) would be more nutritious that the 1½oz pretzels I've been eating PWO (for sodium, +insulin spike). I was going to add 1tblsp of FF yogurt to the shake, but I didn't know if the yogurt in the fridge was mine or not (so I didn't). It was pretty good, but it needed blended more. It was lumpy (mostly just strawberries). It slid down OK though. The PB and strawberries covered the powdered oats fairly well. I'm gonna try that again, but set blender on liquify, rather than blend (maybe that'll help).

ANIMAL PUMP - Dr said take creatine only once/wk due strain on kidneys (plus mine aren't 100% apparently, following 90% renal failure in May). I took it yesterday (for chest/shoulders) but couldn't resist using it again today (for back). Twice in one week can't hurt, as a one-off.

BIG TOE: Woke up tired and aggravated this morning. My XLrg Big Black Broken Toe had me awake numerous times during the night (dogs laying on it, rolling over onto it, kicking covers with it etc etc). Plus, it just looks disgusting. I wonder how long it will take to heal. 6weeks or more, I bet. This sucks. I'm going to be hobbling around like an old man for weeks, all from a split-second error kicking a mini soccer ball for a freakin' dog! Dammit. What am I going to do for leg workouts in the meantime? I've been feeling pretty pleased with my 165lb full-squats recently. I don't want 6weeks of rest and loss of strength. I'll have to figure something out. My legs have only just recently started to take on a THICK appearance compared to the rest of me. It's taken a year of some truly crippling workouts, but I'm happy with the results. I definitely don't want to lose 'em.

HEAD PAINS - None. Pain shifted from head to toe!

WAKING WHILE SLEEPING - I swear I wake up every night 3 or 4 times to pee!

OUTOFROOM-Fitday journal maxed ou



Posted by: katt

Hey G - hows the wo going? Creatine is a strain on the kidneys??? hmmmm... I wasn't aware of that. What condition do you have that warranted your doc to tell you once a week? What caused the 90% failure?



Posted by: Big G

Hey Katt, wassup!

Back in March I got an exertion headache at the gym that wouldn't go away. I hate doctors (correction: I hate doctors' bills!) but I went anyway. 2days later I got a call while I'm at the gym (trying to lift even pissy little weights without a headache) and apparently I'm to "get to the nearest hospital ASAP because my kidneys have shut down"

I was never told specifically why they shut down ("It was 90% Renal Failure and it was all they could do to keep me off dialysis", that's all they said) but I think it was dehydration related. I was seriously dehydrated too, that's for sure. I had, like, 9bags of IV before they'd let me go. I gained mad weight overnight, I know that much.

A few months later I got another excrutiating exertion headache, went back to the doc and found I was dehydrated again. This time my kidneys were working (although doc said they appeared to have been damaged from prior incident). I'm tempted to believe that the "not-100%" reading was due to the fact that I was dehydrated again.

The dehydration issues have stopped now. It all turned out to be a sodium thing. Kidneys don't apparently regulate your level of hydration. Instead they control your sodium concentration levels. Lots of sodium in your system = lots of water needed to dilute soduim to desired concentration (hence, high sodium = high blood pressure from water retention). My problem was not salting my food and not eating processed foods while sweating profusely in the gym (and outside, doing landscaping/construction-work, at home). Sodium-Out but no Sodium-In eventually = Disaster!

I should probably go back to doctors (now that I'm feeling 100% again) and have him re-run bloodwork to see if kidneys are better now. If they were "not-100%" when I was dehydrated last time, maybe they are 100% now that I've figured out the sodium thing.

Unfortunately though, my health insurance sucks serious ass, and I'm liable for first $2,500 (or something like that), so I'm not going near the doctors unless a major organ shuts down or the ol' wedding tackle drops off! If some disaster strikes and I find myself $2,500 out of pocket (and I've hit my max) I'll be at the doctors every other week (well, not really, but it would be free, if I did). But until then, I'm keeping my cash and I'm stayin' the hell away from those damned doctors. I still have $17k of $25k bills to clear following my wife's gastric bypass in '05 (She's down 300lb from 460lb to 160lb now BTW) plus she needs another $20k (on top of the $17k currently on credit cards) to have her excess skin cut off.

Big bills. Little income. It sucks. And I'm an accountant even. I don't know how the rest of the world does it, I swear. We don't even have kids. Who can afford 'em!?



Posted by: Big G

THURSDAY

SLEPT: 11:30pm-6:50am
SLEPT AGAIN: 3:15pm-6:15pm (after 5hr training seminar)
THEN AGAIN: 11:00pm-2:30am (woke for pee, stayed up for whey/casein shake, plus needed to email my ½Bro in UK - He turned 18 on 10/5. 2:30am here is 7:30am there so I phoned too. He was still in bed, but got his Dad (a.k.a. The Wimp) to hopefully pass message on.

WEIGHT: not measured

Meal 1 - 7:20am (3pc toast+PB,9whites,1egg,¼pear,½peach...)
Meal 2 - 10:10am (@break:chicken,bread,nuts,pear,strwbrrs)
Meal 3 - 12:45pm (@lunch:beef,bread,pear,banana,nuts)
Meal 4 - 6:30pm (leftover sandwiches w/fruit after nap)
Meal 5 - 10:00pm (roast beef 'n' veggie before bed)
Meal 6 - 2:30am (casein&whey shake +strwbrrs &1tblsp cream)

WORKOUT: None. All-day training seminar on new accounting software. Not at work. Training held 20miles north of Columbus in ExecuTrain offices (Polaris).

FOOD: Took four sandwiches to get through the day. 6oz beef (w/horseradish sauce) used for two of 'em. 6oz chicken breast (w/mayo & tarragon) used for other two. I also took a bag of almonds, a bag of walnuts, 2 bananas, a can of tuna and a couple spare pieces of bread. They had apples available when I got there. It's more bread than I would typically eat but I couldn't take sweet potatoes, veggies, salmon etc with me. People thought it was wierd enough that I didn't want to eat the food ordered in for lunch. I said "Yeah... I'm a fussy eater" and left it at that!

NAP: Class ended early. Home by 3pm. In bed by 3:05pm! Tired. Woke at 6:30pm hungry (5½hrs since last meal - oops!).

BEER: Opened one (when it was time for meal 5). Drank just over ½ before deciding to pour it away and eat instead. Other than that, it was a nice clean day.

PC PROBLEMS: I have some damned Spyware crap installed on my PC. I get mad pop-ups, plus it's running really fucking slowly. It's bugging the hell out of me. My wife apparenty spent all day trying to install "Norton 360" (got it cheap on eBay recently) but it won't install. Possibly spyware preventing successful installation. Not sure what we'll do now.

MELATONIN / ZMA - Took it at 11pm, slept 11-2:30am but still woke up for a pee. It's the same every night, whether I take that stuff or not. Usually I'll just go straight back to sleep, but today I stayed up to make a shake, call UK, send emails and update this journal. Went back to bed at 4am (for 3 more hours).

BIG TOE - Actually starting to look better already. Not "better" as in healed, but not quite so fucked up looking anyway. The black/purple ring that formed all around it has disapated a little bit. The blood's seeped into neighboring tissue, making more area seem a light purple color, but it sure beats the black'n'broke look I've had going for the past few days. I'm wiggling it as I type and it's not hurting either. Maybe (could it be?...drumroll...) it's just a nasty-nasty bruise instead of a full-on break. That'd be nice. I'd be back to squats (etc...) much sooner in that case. Time will tell, I guess. Time will tell.

KCal: 3,525 (331g/40% protein). A nice enough day.



Posted by: Big G

FRIDAY

SLEPT: 11:00pm-2:30am (up for pee, casein shake, email little bro' in UK (turns 18 today) and update fitday-jrnl/IM-log).
SLEPT AGAIN: 3:45am-7:00am

WEIGHT: not measured.

Meal 1 - 7:20am (2pc toast w/PB, 11whites,1egg,banana)
Meal 2 - 10:45am (late.busy at work. salmon,bread,banana)
Meal 3 - 2:00pm (PWO:PPshake,pretzels,banana,2x sml apples)
Meal 4 - 4:40pm (chicken,salmon,veg,salad:fridge contents!)
Meal 5 - beer!
Meal 6 - 9:00pm (beef/veg - event leftovers, from wife)

FRUIT - Ran out of most fruit now. Have some frozen strawberries for bedtime casein shakes, but other than that there's just bananas and apples. Need to bring some frozen strawberries to work to make oat/strawberry/PP shake and only eat ½ the pretzels PWO. More nutrients in oats that processed pretzels (But I do still need the sodium - Dr's orders).

WORKOUT: Press & Bi. (NOTE: Should be Legs today, but wth broken big toe I'm going to give it a little longer).
1a.Incline BB Press - w/bar:1x10(warmup/stretch), 115lb:1x10, 135lb:1x7½(WTF? Did 10 on Tues. Not enough recovery?), 155lb:1x2½(Spotter helped w/rep2&3).
1b.Incline DB Press - 65lb:1x6, 60lb:1x6, 55lb:1x6 (same as Tues. Do this again. Only just made 6reps each set.)
2.Chin-ups (BW): 2x10, 1x6½ (I want 3 sets of ten before I'm adding more weight)
3.Military Press - 105lb:1x10(just), 1x7(just), 1x6(just).
4.DB Press - 50lb:2x10, 1x7½, 1x6½(extra set, for fun).
5.Arnold Press w/35lb DBs - 3x6(all complete), w/40lb:1x4½(fail. extra set w/extra weight, for fun!)
6.Free-weight BB Shrugs - 185lb:1x10, 195lb:1x10, 205lb:1x8(#8 only ½rep). Man, these feel completely different from Machine Shrugs. I was doing 305lb on the smith machine. There's no way I'm doing that with free weights. Not yet anyway!
7. Fly Press (New. Extra chest set. Why not?) - w/30lb DBs: 3x10 (Try 40lb, then 35lb then 30lb next time. i.e. run the rack.)
8. EZ Bar Curl - 75lb:1x9½(fail), 85lb:1x4(just), 65lb:1x7,1x5.
9. Crunches on Ab Isolator Machine (on my way out of the gym, passed this machine, couldn't resist it) - 150lb:1x25(easy), 200lb(machine max):1x25, 1x15(fail. lactic burn!). NOTE: Not too shabby. I remember messing with this machine when I first started (last year). I certainly didn't have to have it maxed out to get a workout back then! Still prefer incline situps/twists/crunches w/weight behind head. Machines are so... what's the word... limiting.

WORKOUT NOTES: Long workout. I was probably in there an hour and a quarter. After a bite to eat, a shower and the walk back to and from the office I probably took an hour and 3/4 lunch-break! It didn't matter too much today because everyone else had their OSU Buckeye Football Lunch Party (below).

OFFICE PARTY: They had a "Go Bucks" (OSU Football) lunch party at work today. Greasy burgers, white bread and cookies. I wasn't eating any of it. Mktg Director said "Come on... support the Buckeyes" (as if eating greasy burgers would make OSU play better football!). When I said "I couldn't care less about the Buckeyes" she replied "Come on... Team spirit!" (so now I'm not a fucking team player becuase I don't want their crappy nutritionless white bread and saturated fat burgers).

NICOTENE: None. Angry all morning. Day 15 today. When will this shit end? No burger for me, but I'd like a side order of happiness please. Thank God for the gym! After an hour of ass-busting lifting I got back to the office feeling 100% better. I need to get my garage tidied up so I can do this shit at home on the weekends instead of relying on damned alcohol to rescue me from my post nicotene blues. There's something inherently calming about killing yourself in the gym. I love it.

BEER: Damn! WTF happened? I got home, had a beer and didn't stop drinking until Sunday evening! I wasn't drunk-drunk but there was a steady flow of beers Fri-Sun. Again though, no cigarettes. And that's what counts, for now.



Posted by: Big G

SATURDAY

SLEPT: don't know exactly. 8hours-ish though.

WEIGHT: not measured

Meal 1 - 10:00am (11whites,1egg,2pc toast,banana,apple)
Meal 2 - trip to H.Depot, then beer.
Meal 3 - 3:00pm
Meal 4 - beer, beer, beer!
Meal 5 - 9:00pm (beef/veg - from wife's work / leftovers)
Meal 6 - missed it. fought w/wife then slept 10pm onwards.

SUPS: Took pak/flex/calcium - forgot to add it to food log.

NOTES: Good grief! Beer, beer, beer! Had 6 miller in fridge (leftover from last night - told wife to buy 6 - she showed up with 12 - beers left in the fridge nagging at me all morning - drink me... drink me... ), bought 6 more, drank them all, then bought Heiniken Light and drank 3 of them too.

YARD WORK: H.Depot trip (gutter hangers, gutter corners, downspout angles, fence post top, rear gate latch...). Spent rest of day taping/painting facia boards, front porch archway supports, fence post top. Oh! And drinking!

OVERALL - A stupid day. Drank loads of beers. Didn't eat right. Didn't drink enough water. It was basically a nicotene-deprived day of self-sabotage. I worked outside all day, kept stopping for a smoke, kept realizing that I don't smoke any more, and ha