I'm new to these boards, and I'm hoping that I can learn some valuable information here. My name is Andrew, I'm 20 on the 29th of this month. I graduated high school 3 years ago, and I haven't done a whole lot since except for working and saving up money.
Now people that know me will deny that I have a self-confidence problem, because I'm always the joker and I get along with everyone... what they don't know is that I battle a fight from within. I'm one of those sad cases that no matter how hard I try I can't gain muscle and retain it... underweight ftw? :\
At 6'2", I've never weighed less then 140 pounds, and more then 150 pounds. This has had a detrimental effect on my self-confidence. Not only am I a "bean-pole", all of my friends are jacked in comparison to me...and here I am... stuck with my 16 year old body.
I find myself not going to the bar with my friends, not going to social events such as party's... but instead sitting around at home doing nothing, and I believe that the reason I do this is because I'm ashamed of my weight. Its the only thing I think about all the time... its gotten to the point that I don't like hugging all the girls that want me to hug them, because I'm afraid they'll make a skinny comment. Its strange, because all through high school I got along great with everyone and I was extremely social... but now that I have to make my own decisions...and I have no one to force me to do anything, I find that my weight has held me back from pursuing my future.
This is the first time I've admitted these things; not even my closest friends know I feel this way about my body... instead I share these feelings with total strangers... I just feel that a better body would boost my confidence and help motivate me.
Well I'm completely aware that no can change me except for myself... so here I am... asking for a nudge in the right direction; what must I do to gain weight... where do I begin?