dvlmn666

yep, TP's quote in my sig is awesome. Always reminds me how many times you think your tired or can't do something instead of really being done or tired.

wow busy day, you may have been getting sick from all the heat the day before. Make sure you drink enough water when your out there.

"When I use the word intensity I mean the ability to continue past and through the pain barrier where your mind pleads to stop and in fact convinces your body that you have hit failure, but you push through. How far you push through that barrier is the level of intensity with which you train." -- Twin Peak

J'Bo

TX= yes raging bitch is about where i am at right now and btw i love your journal too...dont stop posting cause its grrrrreat.

DV= your so sweet....always looking out for your girls..aaaahhh we really appreciate it...you make this site a great place to go to. i am sure that everyone agrees with me (yes. emotional jenny is back. )

....and thats my $.02

TXDeb

Dv... thanks for checkin in... how was your weekend with your girlie?

Back on track for me today... just finished my belated bis/tris workout... feel GREAT today already! I just love morning workouts... they just fuel me with so much energy for the day, makes me feel like I can tackle/accomplish anything!

so... today's workout:

Bar Curl 25/12 25/10 25/8
Tricep Dips 0/12 0/12 0/12
1 Arm Curl 15/12 15/120 15/10
Tricep Kick Back 15/12 15/10 15/10
Incline DB Curl 15/12 15/12 15/12
Skull Crushers 17.5/12 17.5/12 17.5/12
Decline Weighted Crunch 15/12 15/12 15/12
Ball Crunch 3 x 24
Decline Leg Raise 2 x 12
V Sit 2 x 12

Need to go get the kiddo out of the bed (darn lazy teenagers) and grab some food for the office... (cooked up another TON of chicken last night) If I dont get to the grocery store tonight I'll be living off chicken and egg whites tomorrow!

Later!

~You laugh because I'm different... I laugh because you are all the same~

dvlmn666

awwww thanks, I like emotional Jenny

"When I use the word intensity I mean the ability to continue past and through the pain barrier where your mind pleads to stop and in fact convinces your body that you have hit failure, but you push through. How far you push through that barrier is the level of intensity with which you train." -- Twin Peak

dvlmn666

Sounds like me, living off chicken. lmao this week I'll go get more food lol

the weekend was fun, busy and went by really fast. But was alot of fun.

"When I use the word intensity I mean the ability to continue past and through the pain barrier where your mind pleads to stop and in fact convinces your body that you have hit failure, but you push through. How far you push through that barrier is the level of intensity with which you train." -- Twin Peak

TXDeb

Welp... yesterday sucked hardcore! Tummy started feeling shitty again after work, had chicken broth, chicken and some brown rice soup for dinner and laid on the couch most of the evening.

watched the final buffy... big whoop!

had a bagel with PB for M5 comfort food or something... at any rate, it actually helped my tummy feel better...

whatever it is, it seems to have gotten my kiddo too as she was all sick and stuff this morning... must be some kind of stomach virus or something.

Back on track today and feeling fine (for now)... did legs this morning.... leg ext, squats, lunges and 1 leg deads.... did them at home too, was kickin my butt from the get go... maybe not quite up to speed from the tummy probs... I dunno... but felt weak and NOT like working out... but did anyways.

So long as the tummy probs dont return today I'll do calves and abs tonight.

STILL havent gone shopping... got the other half of my spagetti squash and canned tomatoes for food today, can of tuna, couple of cans of chicken and some summer squash and baby carrots here at the office to eat.

Decided NOT to do the August show... for many reasons... main one being $$$... the aug show is a 3 hr drive and a different org than the sept show... so to save $$ I'll just stick wiht the sept show here locally... gives me 18 weeks to be ready, which shouldnt be a problem at all... so long as I dont loose track of where I'm going or what I'm doing.

Other than that... full of fuckin issues I am! re-thinking alot of shit in my life, relationships, habits... you name it... its an issue with me lately.

dont want to ramble about all that shit on here though... dont think it would help much.

Till later...

~You laugh because I'm different... I laugh because you are all the same~

J'Bo

if you want to pm me and ramble....i could use a ramblin buddy too

....and thats my $.02

TXDeb

Thanks J'Bo... Ill take ya up on that offer when you get back to town after your comp... I could really use someone to ramble on with... right now though I'd better get back to work or life will be REALLY boring cuz i'll be jobless

~You laugh because I'm different... I laugh because you are all the same~

TXDeb

Food today:

M1:
3 egg whites, 1 yolk
.5 grapefruit
5 oz. ckn breast

M2:
.5 spagetti squash
1 c. canned tomatoes
6 oz canned ckn breast

M3:
PB Pure Protein Bar

M4:
6 oz ckn breast
1 c. green beans

M5: Not yet eaten
shake with strawberries

Water:
5 liters

Just re-read my post from this morning... boy was I a ray of sunshine or what???

~You laugh because I'm different... I laugh because you are all the same~

TXDeb

M1: 8:45
5 egg whites, 1 yolk
5 oz. ckn breast

M2: 12:30
2 summer squash
8 baby carrots
2 radishes
6 oz. ckn breast
1 T. Red wine vinegar
1 T. Flax oil

M3: 3:00
3 bites of albacore tuna - UGH... had other food planned but that was all I could stomach... there goes the tummy again!!!!!!!!!! Thought it was queasy cuz I was hungry... but it was obvious that was not the case!

M4: 6:30
1 c. cooked oatmeal
1 banana

M5: 9:00
1 c. chicken chow mein

Water:
4 liters

GOT to go to the store tomorrow! no doubt about it... if i put of shopping any longer, I might simply starve first!

Think I might have the tummy probs figured out... the morning vitamin pack contains Vit A and D from fish oil... I'm allergic to fish! I can eat shellfish (the opposite of most ppl who are allergic to fish) and tuna doesnt make me sick, but any other form of fish I've ever eaten has caused me to break out in a rash and become violently ill! Im sure there may be some freshwater vs. saltwater thing going on, or something... but I've never actually worked it out to determine which types of fish affect me vs. which do not... just know that shellfish goes down easy and canned tuna does too... fish sticks, other types of fish... BLECH! As a young child growing up in florida I liked fish and would eat it when we went out to eat... my parents thought I was sickly or had gotten food poisioning or something... one day it donned on me (or them) and I quit eating fish and no more probs since.

Going to 86 the fish oil capsule tomorrow and see how that works out. Dunno if it's enough to matter or what... no rash, no puking... but lots of feeling like crap... take it around 8-9 am, start feeling sick at different times of the day, today was around 2:30... thought it was cuz i was hungry and it was time to eat (which happens alot... i get hungry, i start to feel sick) usually eating cures it within the first few bites... not today!

It's definately started since I started on the hard core supp routine, I thought it could be other supps or something else and had decided to eliminate them one by one, or eliminate them all and add them back one by one when the bf says "Do any of those have fish oil in them?"... sure enough... one of the capsules in my ms. power pak is nothing but fish oil... so eliminating that tomorrow and if it doesnt clear up... ill take the other route.

Still not feeling the best, spent most of the evening on the couch and fixing to hit the bed for the night.

Hittin the grocery on the way to work for eats at work, and on the way home for groceries at the house... will be cooking up a storm again this weekend. maybe I can cram it all in tomorrow night so I can get out on saturday and get some riding in... LOTS of stuff going on this weekend... weather should be gorgeous too!

Kick ass effect from yesterday's workout... butt, glutes and quads are sore as hell today! I love that feeling!

No cardio this week... weight down to 128... hittin 2 lbs a week pretty regularly, still hoping that will taper off somewhat... sent in a check in email to BI and will see what they have to say about all that.

Chest back shoulders and traps are tomorrow.... either do that in the am before work or while cooking foods tomorrow night. Either way, gonna hit it hard so that I feel it like I do in my legs today!

until tomorrow!

~You laugh because I'm different... I laugh because you are all the same~

J'Bo

No fish? Ahhhhhhhhhhhh i don't know what i would do.

....and thats my $.02

katie64

HI Deb, how are you feeling now, hope that's all it was...........you must be busy, haven't seen you around much, hope all is well

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Katie
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TXDeb

I'm here and doing so-so.... had some unauthorized eats this weekend... not to mention a couple vodka and grapefruits last night which I shouldnt have... specially after riding out saturday to a big biker campout and taking my own food and avoiding the beers and alcohol there.... but I caved and enjoyed it last night.... bad girl! Scale is up because of it too

Cooking now and fixing to go get in my workout and get back on track.

Decided against the August show... so im 17+ weeks out from the September show... lost some sense of urgency and feel like it's okay to slack because of that....

Been a lazy monday for me.... slept late, ate breakfast, took a nap, got up, rented some movies... now I gotta go get in my workout so I can spend the evening on the couch with VIN!!! LOL

~You laugh because I'm different... I laugh because you are all the same~

J'Bo

Evening with Vin? What movie? You hear about his new flick coming out? awwwwwww orgasmic.

....and thats my $.02

TXDeb

New movie??? NO!!!! Ill be there though!

Rented fast and the furious... I own all the rest

~You laugh because I'm different... I laugh because you are all the same~

J'Bo

i could watch boiler room over and over again.

....and thats my $.02

TXDeb

Oh... J'bo... I forgot about that one... thats another one I need to buy for the home Vin Library! it's a good one too!

so.... totally whacked out day today.... woke up a zillion times last night, then up at 5 am not even tired.... did my workout, then it was still early so went to the gym and did some cardio in an effort to get rid of this weekend a bit faster... came home, ate breakfast and fell asleep on the couch... kiddo woke me up, took her to school, went to the office and literally couldnt keep my eyes open... locked the door, turned off the lights and took a nap from 9 till 11... ended up working late to make up for the a.m. nap... got home at 7 cooked dinner and now im ready for bed already...

Workout:
Chest/Back

Decline Bar Bench 35/10 35/10 35/10
Med Grip Pulldown 45/12 45/12 45/12
Incline Bar Bench 35/8 35/8 35/8
Close Grip Pulldown 45/12 45/12 45/12
Flat DB Bench 17.5/12
1 Arm DB Row 17.5/12 17.5/12 17.5/12
DB Pullover 17.5/12 17.5/12 17.5/12

Cardio: 20 mins inclines on treadmill; 5 mins skipping rope

Food:
M1: 7:30 am
4 oz ckn breast
.5 c. onion and bell pepper
3 egg whites, 1 yolk

M2: 11:40
1 tomato
1 can tuna

M3: 1:30
6 oz. ckn breast
.25 c. cucumber
.25 cup tomato
2 radishes
2 cups mixed baby greens
1 pkg creamy ceasar dressing

M4:
1 PB Pure Protein Bar

M5: 5:30
9 baby carrots
1 tomato
1 can tuna

M6: 7:30 ~I'm not even supposed to have 6 meals!
2 cups broccoli
10 oz sirloin <--- guessing weight... LOTS of meat, actually went back for seconds on both... thus the HUGE portions!

Been starving all day! wondered what was up with that... now im feeling fat and bloated and cramping... so im guessing that the starving feeling was/is fixing to be a visit from 'Aunt Flo' The scale is up and I'm guessin' she'll hit town before morning... that will be a bit of a relief.... means the extra bloat/scale weight and famished feeling will be back to fairly normal tomorrow... just gotta put up with her for the week.

Lol... im thinking how nice it will be to lean down enough that she stays away for a while! wonder when that will be? was right at 12% last I checked, been as low as 11% before... still had visitors....

thinking right now I have a date with a loritab and a heatin pad... cant be late

Anyways... wanted to check in and update here!

Later~

~You laugh because I'm different... I laugh because you are all the same~

J'Bo

girl you dont know what being bloated is i am now 15lbs heavier than 2 days ago and i am retaining water so bad that i can fit my shoes or rings on and my lower legs are numb. Hows that for aunt flo and carbo binge.

....and thats my $.02

TXDeb

OUCH! Now that sucks.... sorry for whining... i now pray to the bloat goddess j'bo!

~You laugh because I'm different... I laugh because you are all the same~

J'Bo

you know i wasnt trying to be bitchy right? sorry if it sounded bad....dont make the same mistake and binge after your comp. cause this is what can happen. Took a couple diuretics though and the water is finally slowly starting to come out.

....and thats my $.02

TXDeb

NO... I didnt think you were being bitchy... I thought I was

I was seriously utterly in awe!

~You laugh because I'm different... I laugh because you are all the same~

J'Bo

well i gotta go pee again...it seems as though i can finally shed this extra 15 lbs...now thats gonna be a record for losing w8

....and thats my $.02

TXDeb

Welp... no food log for yesterday... was a bad bad bad girl!!!

Did 30 mins of cardio on the elliptical this morning, ate M1 (nice clean foods instead of JUNK like yesterday) and got bis and tris tonight.

Tons of work at the office, will check in later and post food and workout tonight!

~You laugh because I'm different... I laugh because you are all the same~

J'Bo

pst what did you eat deb? i will tell if you tell....

....and thats my $.02

TXDeb

Oh.... you dont really want to know do you? We're talking major cals full of major sugar carbs... then chased it down with MAJOR amounts of nuts... damn PMS!!!! It was terrible... it was binging to the max... control went out the window! instead of teetering off the edge... i just totally threw myself off the freakin plank!!!

~You laugh because I'm different... I laugh because you are all the same~

TXDeb

Ok... back on track today and it feels sooo good!

NO MORE sabotage for me!!!! I feel fat and gross and UGH!

I could go on and on and on, but this journal is called 'The Art of Shredding' not 'The Art of Whining'... you ppl should be glad I don't force my mental state on you on a regular basis... been involved in a board with some girls ive known on the net for years and they have been getting an ear (or eye) full of my whacked out self lately.... its like therapy though... getting it out.... better suck it up and get on track and be a good girl or they are gonna run out of sympathy for my psycho alter ego! PMS is a terrible thing when it happens to me.... I'm like the bimbo in the scary movies who gets killed first cuz instead of running she crumbles in the corner and cries when jason or freddy shows up... terrible... terrible stuff!

At any rate... did 30 mins on the elliptical this morning "pennance cardio" so to speak.... not that it was near enough to put a dent in yesterday's binge eating, but it was a start!

Ate good all day, hitting the protein hard and staying away from the carbs... more "pennance" for yesterday! STill got one meal left to eat and fixing to go shove a chicken breast down my throat to accomplish that.

Workout:
Barbell Curl 25/12 30/10 35/8 40/6
Tricep Dips 0 weight 4 sets of 12 reps
1 arm DB curl 15/12 17.5/10 22.5/8 17.5/10
Tricep kick back 15/12 17.5/10 22.5/8 22.5/8
Incline seated DB curl 15/12 17.5/12 17.5/12 17.5/12 (biceps were tight and opted not to up the weights but use slow correct form instead.
DB Skull Crusher 15/12 17.5/10 17.5/12 17.5/12
Wrist Curls 7.5/12 7.5/12 7.5/12 7.5/12
Rev. Wrist Curls 7.5/12 7.5/12 7.5/12 7.5/12

Food:
M1: 9 am
3 Ultra 40
4 egg whites, 1 yolk
.5 grapefruit
4.2 oz ckn breast

M2: 1:00 pm
4.4 oz ckn breast
1 T. Flax
1 T. Red Wine Vinegar

M3: 3:00 pm
Salad with:
lettuce
cukes
radishes
canned chicken breast
1 t. red wine vinegar
1 t. flax

M4: 8:30
6 slices turkey bacon
.75 c. green beans

M5:
not eaten yet... fixing to munch a chicken breast and go to bed...
estimating at 5 oz. for fitday sake

Water:
5.5 liters

Breakdown:
Total: 1372
Fat: 61 548 43%
Sat: 15 132 10%
Poly: 4 36 3%
Mono: 8 73 6%
Carbs: 26 81 6%
Fiber: 5 0 0%
Protein: 162 647 51%
Alcohol: 0 0 0%


Forcing myself to log in fitday to keep those carbs in control for the next few days. ummm.... my former low fat diet mentality is simply in freak out mode from all that fat!!!

cardio (yup... more 'pennance cardio') tomorrow a.m. and legs tomorrow p.m.

Then sat morning I will be packing and planning foods for a bike run to Austin for the ROT Rally where I plan to enjoy the wind and the road, not the beer and the food!