Originally posted by greekblondechic
OK SO
I was planning on not cheating today..HA WHAT A JOKE
I totally messed up
started out fine...
1/2c oatmeal 1.5scoop protein
3 strawberries
4oz porkchop, salad, 1tbsp peanut butter
1 apple
THEN!!!!!!!!
TONS of Shrimp w cocktail sauce, celery w tad dip, few carrots, lotsa lamb, salad, TONS of cherries and grapes!! a bit punch (fruit juice and diet soda)
and two small bites of rum ball and 1 small bite baklava
That was the sinker..
i had some diet hot chocolate to avoid eating anymore but I already set myself up
went back and had 1.5 pieces baklava and 2.5 rum balls
and some chips and i basically wanted to eat whatever i could find even tho I was sick as hell..
Im not sure why when i start I just wanna keeeeep going and cant seem to stop even tho I feel SICKKK like, I wanna puke..
I know insulin is involved..but I also tryin to figure out the mental part of it..
All cuz I let myself have a tiny little taste...
BTW, I know its not all about weight..I do have a considerable amount of muscle and am actually concerned about going too low on calories (on days I stick to diet that is) ull see if i ever post b4 pics..
I did however lose 4lbs..(mostly water i bet)
was down to 148 this morning (who knows after todays binge)
Oh well..this just means gotta do cardio on fri sat sun to make sure i dont get superfat from today!
*sigh* and i wanted a break lol
I'll figure myself out eventually..
Thanks for the support and comments guys, Im already addicted to this site, I love the feedback!