jstar

I've spent the past few days reflecting on my life and my goals, particularly what I want to achieve with my diet/fitness goals. I have come to the conclusion that I really needed to take stock and figure out why I can't seem to make it through the week without bingeing. The past few days I have realized that I am obsessed in a bad way with my diet so much so that it causes me a lot more anxiety and stress that it should. A very important lesson I have learned in the past few days is that not only does my bad bingeing behavior disrupt my well-being but it also negatively affects those around me who care about me the most-my family, friends, boyfriend and even my employment. In an attempt for me to regain control of my eating, and ultimately of my life, I have decided to start a new journal.

Yesterday I bought and read the Dr. Phil book cover to cover. A lot of his messages hit home and made sense to me. I also bought Tony Little's new book: One on one with Tony Little, 28 day program. I bought this book because it is geared towards getting someone who is inconsistent (or unmotivated) to stick to a diet and exercise plan for 28 days. That is roughly the amount of time it takes to form a habit. This is why I feel it would get me off to a great start. For the next 28 days I am going to go "by the book" in an attempt to form some normal eating habits and to get me started on the right path. This isn't going to be a perfect diet and exercise program - I will be eating occassional protein bars and ww breads...I just am not going to stick with a very limited list of foods since that has always been a trigger for me to go off my diet and binge.

I will post my stats on Day 1 and on the last day to compare my results. Please remember I am doing this to break free of binge eating. Hopefully after 4 weeks I will be in a better place and can tighten up my diet some & go back to a more substantial weight training split in order to get even better results.

jstar

Chest: 34.25
Arms: 11
Waist: 28
Abdomen: 32.5
Hips: 39
Thighs: 22.5
Calves: 13.75
Size: 10
Weight: 142.5
Tanita: 30%

greekblondechic

congratulations on your fresh start girl! I will def have to read dr phil and also look into that tony little book (let me know if its any good) what u r describing about yourself is just like me but i know we can both overcome this!!!

BTW tony little is a funny looking and sounding guy..he overacts too much

jstar

DAY ONE:
I woke up this morning and took a green tea capsule. I got on the elliptical for 12 minutes (as the book said). I felt really energetic in the morning after doing the elliptical. I haven't done cardio first thing in the morning in a long while. It was nice to get my day off to a good start and feel good from such a short workout.

Meals:
Breakfast: 1 piece whole wheat toast with Smart Squeeze (fat free butter substitute); carton eggwhites

Lunch: Turkey on 2 slices whole wheat bread; small apple

Snack: Fat Free Strawberry Yogurt

Gym: I was in & out! With this program we start out slow and gradually increase the duration and intensity as we go along. This week concentrates on building the "core" muscles.

15 Crunches
15 Reverse Crunches
Cable Squats: 15x60 15x80
Ab Machine: 12x10
15 Hyperextensions

Dinner: 85% lean hamburger patty with steak sauce; baked potato and mustard greens

Snack: Atkins Breakfast Bar


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atherjen

Hey Star! I love the new attitude and view that you have on things. You are a very strong woman and I know that you will be able to take control of things. Best of luck girlie!

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Stacey

I think you are doing a GREAT Thing. And I totally understand where you are coming from. I can't diet a full week either without bingeing -- & It makes me upset.

I can't wait to follow you--and I would really like to do it with you, I may go buy that book!!!!!

You can do it honey, You have my support!!!

I Believe in the Impossible!!!

jstar

Thanks Girl..that means a lot

The Dr Phil book is on sale at the Vitamin Shoppe for $13.00 He talks a lot about emotional overeating in it & I found it pretty informative.

Tony Little...yeah he is a funny guy, huh? He is an ex-bodybuilder, (5th runner up in Mr America in the 80's) so he knows his stuff. I really liked the layout of the book - very straightforward and simple. He takes you day by day what to do and what to eat. His personality really comes across in the book as well. Let me know if you are interested I can PM you with more info and maybe you can follow along with me. :smile:

jstar

Aww thank you Jen & Stacey. I love you guys
I'm sorry I haven't been around for a few days on IM, I had to sort all this out myself.

Stacey, This is really a back to basics type book. I would highly recommend it to a total newbie but for someone more experienced like yourself I would say flip through it and see if it something you would be interested in before you buy it. You see my problem is that I have such an "all-or-nothing" attitude. Either I am on a rigid precontest type diet or I am bingeing on bread and cookies I really liked the format of the book and thought it would help me see that I don't have to be a perfect eater all the time, just eat more sensibly and not obsess about food. I swear I obsess so much that I can't even enjoy myself anymore. I have 2 bridal showers coming up and all I can think about is "what am I going to eat?" I need to get a grip.

Let me know if you buy the book or want any more info about it. I will be more than happy to answer your questions.

Jill

I just started this book last night. Its really good so far. You should check it out, I think you would relate.

http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg...books&n=507846

I hope this works!

Jill

Oh and same to you Greeky, check out this book.

greekblondechic

Thanks hon will do

jstar

I read that a couple years ago. I remember cuz of the pictures of food on the cover Thanks anyways hun! Reading these types of things does help, doesn't it?

Jill

they do help if you can make a connection with the author.

Stacey

My gosh-- I feel just like you JSTAR, Greekie & Jill--its like what you wrote-is how I am. I am totally addicted to sweets, chocolate, cookies, and more junk...it's bad..but them I' OBSESSED with my meals AND my body!! I'm beyond obsessed with my body that it keeps me from going places, seeing people, etc... I never want to go to a party or hang out with friends b/c of the way I look (Or the Way I "FEEL" I look) Crazy crazy!!!!!

I am definatly going to the book store this weekend to flip through these, better yet--I will go to Vitamin shoppe--you can RENT a book

I Believe in the Impossible!!!

Stacey

Oh and sooo many people are worried about me for when I get pregnant, they always tell me that I better eat right, and eat enough calories.

If they only knew I stuffed my face when I'm alone. (which is a bunch)

I Believe in the Impossible!!!

greekblondechic

I know stacey, its like..u think I dont eat enough? u should see me binge...

But really, we all need to find that BALANCE
that is the key....

Jill

I can totally relate to you too Stacey. The beginning of my new book Ive already made 'a' connection. A food addiction is kinda like an alcohol addiction-the only thing is you CANT live without food, so that makes it hard, the addiction

Stacey

I know!!!! I want that BALANCE!!!!!!!!

I want to check out that book Jill--feel free to give us tips from it if you can!!!

I Believe in the Impossible!!!

Stacey

** I just went to Kroger for bodywash-- & I walked past the candy binds and took out 2 yogurt covered pretzels!! I'm so bad

I Believe in the Impossible!!!

Jill

I sneak a choc usually from the candy bins too Stacey, you are not alone! Its better than buying a bag!

Stacey

hehehe YOU DO TOOO!!! I feel soooo bad!!! Would we get in trouble??

Yep Your right, better than having a bag full of it!!!!

I Believe in the Impossible!!!

Paynne

I'm no expert on diet by far. But for this go around I decided to just stay with a liveable diet rather than something super strict. So far it's going great. I'm sure you'll do awesome with this Jstar!

jstar

Stacey & Jill You guys are naughty!
I totally do feel like an "addict" sometimes. I still live with my parents so there is no way on earth I can have just healthy food in the house. So Dr Phils Key#3 about having a "no fail environment" is impossible for me. I find it easier though to always eat right anywhere outside of the house but when I am here, that is when it gets tough! Stacey - my friends say the same thing to me too and my coworkers...my boyfriend and I hardly go out to eat anymore either. Greek is right we should be able to find some sort of balance. That is exactly what I am trying to do!

I will post up each day what the book says so if anyone wants to follow along they can

Hi PaynneIt's all about balance! And moderation.

Stacey

I dooo want to follow a long!! I know honey, my hubby & I never go out to eat anymore either!! (maybe once/twice a month)

I totally understand where your coming from!!

We can make it through this!

I Believe in the Impossible!!!

Jill

The new addictive eating book is already better than Dr phils IMO. Get it AGAIN from a library, for me sweets, im sure it'll help.

jstar

Thanks Jill, I will see if I can get it at the library this weekend.

jstar

DAY 2
I did 15 minutes on the elliptical again this morning after taking a green tea cap. Also did another 15 minutes when I got hime from work (after taking another green tea cap). No weight training workout tonight just stretching.

Note on the meals: I am going to get some ezekiel bread this weekend instead of eating wheat. Also I am going to cut down on the baked potatoes due to the high GI. I am really confused though because in this book he gives a list of foods and their GI and some foods are high that I always thought were low. Like Oat Bran is 78 and oatmeal is 87...that can't be right, can it? Also yogurt is only a 20?
I will have to look up the official list somewhere and doublecheck

Meals:

Breakfast: 1 ww bread, fake butter, egg whites

Lunch: 2 ww bread, 5+ oz turkey, small apple

Snack: Atkins Bar, orange

Dinner: baked potato, 2 ww bread, 5+ oz turkey, onions, ff mayo

Snack: Atkins Bar, 1.5 TBL PB

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I was supposed to be off tomorrow and meet one of my competitor friends for a workout. I nw have to work so I will probably be working out alone tomorrow night. I'm going to bed, got to do 20 mins cardio tomorrow morning.

aggies1ut

wow PB with an Atkins bar? Isn't that a lot of fat?

jstar

wow I didn't realize..yep it's 20g all together