Jenny

I've been keeping this journal in the IM comp section, but I'm feeling so lonely there these days since I seem to be almost the only one keeping a journal there So, I'm starting this one here, since I just started a new mission I'm going to copy and paste my first three days of this mission in here

Hold on to your seats, Jenny is improving

Jenny

Okay. I need some guidelines I've been doing this "eating healthy without a plan" thing for a little over a week and it's not always working Tonight I'm eating chocolate easter eggs So, here it goes :

Diet guidelines
- 170-210g protein
- 60-150g carbs
- 30-55g fat

Avoid: almonds, sunflower seeds, bread

Log on Fitday and get macros.
On workout (weights) days more carbs
Morning cardio at least 5 mornings a week. Evening cardio when I feel like it. Push/pull weight sessions, 4-6 times a week.
I'm still working on my emotional eating a little. I've been improving so much, but I'm going to keep on working on it. One thing I've felt helping is doing relaxation exercises when I'm feeling stressed out and want to turn to food. To take a deep breath and ask myself "Hey Jen, what are you doing now? Why?". I'm going to keep working on that Dr Phils books are really helping me, I think I may be his biggest fan

I think I need to do some tanning, cause it makes me motivated and feel good about myself.. But I don't want to be all wrinkly and nasty

Okay, a few more chocolate eggs tonight maybe Tomorrow it's time to start working on bathing suit season

I'm ready

Jenny

Okay, here it goes, day one of mission "Impossible is nothing" That's what I call this This is not about willpower, it's not about restriction, it is about living life like I want to live it. There are 53 days left of this online competition. I don't see it as a real competition, but it's a good time line for me to do this. I have decided to take these 53 days and make the very best of them. There will be no cheats, not because I don't think I'd earn them. A cheat once every other week wouldn't hurt me bodywise, but it hurts my mind and spirit. I don't need cheats, I really don't and it is a relief to know that I wont cheat for 53 days. I have a plan and it is not just about what to eat and how to work out, in fact that's a very little part of it. In my plan I've outlined what usually brings me down, what makes me eat bad and sometimes binge. After that I've written things I can do when this happens, behavioural changes
I will treat myself every ten days when I've had a set of 10 successful days. I'm not saying if, I'm saying when These treats won't have anything to do with food, it's things that I like to do. Taking care of myself and doing things that I enjoy, maybe getting a massage or a haircut.
I have an inner peace today and a feeling of calm, which is something I want everyday. That will take some practise and I still have so much to learn. But I'm on my way and I feel strong and powerful, in a very peaceful type of way.

Life is beautiful

Jenny

Thursday April 8th:

Meal 1:
7 whites, 1/2 yolk
1/3 cup oatmeal
2 tbsp apple sauce

Meal 2:
5 oz salmon
1/2 cup b rice
veggies
2 tbsp lf sc

Meal 3:
1 dl whey

Meal 4:
5 oz chicken
1 grapefruit
veggies

Meal 5:
1 dl whey
6 fish oil

Okay, so I haven't eaten enough today. I wasn't very hungry today, much due to chocolate yesterday I'm sure. With all the workouts I did today I really should have eaten more. I was considering staying up really late and get more meals in, but I'm so friggin tired that it's not going to happen.. I'm having a shake before and bumped the fish oil up to 6 tabs, but that didn't do much for the total intake.. Oh well, I'll eat more tomorrow! Here are the totals:
1428 cals
186g protein 54%
79g carbs 23%
35g fat 23%

Workouts:
*Weights: Pull
- WG rows: 3x8
- WG pulldowns: 3x8
- Leg curls: 3x12
- DL: 3x12-15
- Hammer curls: 3x8
- BB curls: 3x8
- Crunches: 3x12-15
- Hip raises: 3x12

*Cardio:
- AM: 50 min powerwalk
- 40 min spinning
Today I ordered a yoga dvd and some inspirational books! I'm excited and hope they'll be here soon

Jenny

Friday 9th:

Meal 1:
7 whites, 1 yolk
1 grapefruit

Meal 2:
1 dl whey
3 fish oil

Meal 3:
5 oz chicken
1/2 cup b rice
veggies
8 cashews (my mom gave me cashews in my easter egg instead of candy cause I didn't want any )
1 TBSP Lf sc

Meal 4:
7 whites
1 grapefruit
1 tbsp sf apple sauce

Meal 5:
1 dl whey
3 fish oil

Meal 6:
4 oz lean beef

Totals:
1604 cals
203g protein 52%
82g carbs 21%
47g fat 27%

Workouts:
*Weight: Push
- Bench press: 3x8
- Cable X: 3x8
- Hack squats: 3x12-15
- Leg extensions: 3x8
- Arnold presses: 3x8
- Lateral raises: 3x8
- Tricep pushdowns: 3x8
- Kickbacks: 3x8

*Cardio:
- AM: 50 min powerwalk
- Biking to the gym and home
- 20 mins on stepper

Jenny

I did so freaking awesome tonight I went to a party and had a wonderful time My friends were having pizza, I was watching them and talking and laughing. They started drinking, I had a diet coke. We played a drinking game, they had booze and I had water and a protein shake Haha, well I did really well and it wasn't hard at all. The only thing that was hard was them saying I was boring cause I didn't drink, and I swear the guys did everything to try to get me to drink I didn't though, cause I just didn't want to

Jenny

Thank you so much guys It really was a big deal to me, cause I've never been that relaxed at a party. The food didn't have any power over me what so ever. It was a really empowering feeling and it just proved that I can do this I have another party tonight and I'm going to use the same strategies. They're having dinner there, but I've decided to eat with my family and show up an hour later. It will help me eat healthy and I value the time with my family so much, especially now when I know I'll be gone for a year.
I feel so at peace Yesterday I had a bit of struggles with some things from my past, but I've made peace with it and feel all good again.
The food thing has never felt like this before, I'm doing my own thing and I'm not focusing on food much at all these days. The focus is off diet and training, the focus is on enjoying life, which incorporates a good diet and lots of workouts. A big thing for me right now is that I've said "53 days without any cheating", because then I won't say to myself "Ah well, I might as well make today I cheat day" when I've had say an extra fruit that I didn't plan to have. It's really liberating, even though it sounds hard to believe. This is a detox and a life enjoyment plan, not a restricted and willpower based plan.
Man, I'm starting to sound like a friggin guru I'm still the same Jen Just a more happy Jen I'm feeling very spiritual these days, but in my own sort of way, not in a religion based way.
Life is so wonderful I had a downfall emotionally yesterday and was a bit cold towards Justin in the beginning of the day and the day before that. It just all seemed too good to be true and I started questioning things, it just couldn't be that good!! But it is I'm learning to allow myself to be happy, which is a bit difficult sometimes, cause I've never really allowed myself before. But I'm getting closer each day and I just feel like the whole world is open for me to enjoy. And it is, it really is

Justin, I love you and I love the life we're creating for ourselves. It makes me tear up, cause it's so wonderful. I love you

sara

Welcome Jenny! we still read you'r comp journal

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Jenny

Saturday 10th:

Meal 1:
7 whites, 1 yolk
1 orange

Meal 2:
1 dl whey
3 fish oil
1 grapefruit

Meal 3:
6 oz salmon
1/2 cup brown rice
veggies
2 tbsp lf sc

Dessert:
1/2 cup berries
2 tbsp wipped cream
(my family was having tons of ice cream)

Meal 4:
7 whites, 1 yolk
veggies

Meal 5:
1 dl whey
3 fish oil

Totals:
1508 cals
186 g protein51%
66g carbs 18%
50g fat 31%

Workouts:
*Weights: OFF
*Cardio: ON
- AM: 45 min spinning. It was so much fun today and I really enjoyed it
- Cleaning like crazy

Really good diet day with lots of temptations.. A LOT of them I was at a party with a HUGE candy dish right in front of me, along with two huge bowl of potatoe chips. Was I tempted? Not really I had my water and was completely satisfied with that

Jenny

Oh you do Well thanks Sara I'm going to keep this one though, it feels better being here with the gang And this is a new time in my life, so it feels good starting a new journal for it. I hope you're having a wonderful Easter

sara

Thanks hon! I sure hope to have a wonderful easter tomorrow.. well it's already tomorrow here 12:13 am

I'm so proud of you that you don't want any drinks

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greekblondechic

hey jenny! im so glad u came over here. I usually forget to go in the online competition section!

Jenny

Hey Greek, good to see you Haha, I know, I felt all lonely in there

Jenny

Sunday 11th:

Meal 1:
7 whites, 1 yolk
1/3 cup oatmeal
1 small apple

Meal 2:
1 dl whey

Meal 3:
6 oz salmon
2/3 cup brown rice
veggies

Meal 4:
7 whites, 1 yolk
1 grapefruit
1 apple
veggies

Meal 5:
3 oz salmon
3 whites
(yes, left overs )
veggies

Meal 6:
1 dl whey
3 fish oil

Totals:
1631 cals
205g protein 52%
102g carbs 26%
37g fat 21%

Workouts:
*Weights: Pull
- CG rows: 3x8
- CG pulldowns: 3x8
- Smith lunges: 3x10-12
- Leg curls: 3x10
- Cable curls: 3x8
- Cable X curls: 3x8
- Plank holds: 3x
- Back extensions: 3x10

*Cardio:
- AM: 30 min interval program on stationary
- Biking to gym and home

Eggs

Hey baby! Nice journal I'm looking forward to reading it lots Have a great Easter Honey!

atherjen

Morning Jenny!!! I can see why you were a lil lonesome over in that section!!! I wont repost everything I did about those posts ^!

your doing AWESOME!!!!

" To dream anything you want to dream: That is the beauty of the human mind. To do anything you want to do: That is the strength of the human will. To trust yourself to test your limits: that is the courage to succeed."

NPC Southern Classic, June 3rd
NPC Cajun Classic, June 10th
NPC Mississippi State July 22nd

Jodi

Jenny always does awesome.

Happy Easter Jenny

Essence EFA

Cate

Hey Jenny .....can't wait to follow your journal! The 53 days is a great challange! I'm officially at 61 days so we can challange together!

I may have to check out those Dr Phil books

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Jill

I've always went to the "comp" part to especially to read your journal! Just kept quiet cause I know you dont like the whorin'! Good luck with your new plan, you'll do great as usual. You totally inspire me chickie! I will deff be following

david

Your a lot stronger than I , that's for sure. But that's awesome though that you could fend off those temptations!

Hiya Jenny!!!

I really have to stop making dates with that include pizza and wine!! HELP ME!!!

BTW, the post below this original one of yours... so sweet Jen. Your such a sweet-hearted person...... I knew a person that was like you.......


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ME

greekblondechic

My friends always try to make me drink too

Jenny

Hey guys! I don't feel lonely anymore

Justin, thanks baby

AJ, haha, no, you don't need to repost anything If people want to read they can go back to my old journal. And thanks!

Jodi, I'm not always doing awesome But right now I feel really good! Happy day after Easter ! (we actually celebrate that here in Sweden, another way to get the day off from work )

Cate, hey! Yep, we can definately help each other stay motivated Dr Phil has great advise on his webpage too: www.drphil.com

Jill, thanks, I appreciate the no whoring I love visitors, I'm just not too keen on off topic whoring

Dave, hey my friend! You're totally right, you are a very sweet person! And stay away from that pizza

Greeky, I know, it can be hard.. Some people bug me about not eating unhealthy stuff too, which is really annoying. My real friends don't though

Jenny

Monday 12th:

Before AM cardio: coffee, small apple

Meal 1:
7 whites, 1 yolk
1/2 small banana
1 med grapefruit
veggies

Meal 2:
5 oz chicken
veggies
1 tsp oil

Meal 3: (Dinner at grandmas)
5 oz pork tenderloin
1 potatoe
veggies

Dessert (the others were having cake and cream and sugary pears and stuff ):
1 apple, 1 orange
2 tbsp wipped cream

That was the last Easter dinner this year! I've never had such a clean easter and it feels really really good

Meal 4:
7 whites, 1 yolk
veggies

Meal 5:
1 dl whey
3 fish oil

Totals:
1561 cals
181g protein 48%
102g carbs 27%
41g fat 25%

Workouts:
*Weights: Rest
*Cardio:
AM: 45 min powerwalk

Jenny

This morning I had half a banana. Now I love bananas, but it's just not a thing I've ever incorporated on diet days before. Bananas have actually made me have cheat days before. Like I've been craving one soo much and given in, then saying to myself "well I've already blown this diet day now, I might as well make it a cheat day". So today after my walk I saw the banana and I started debating myself. Then I said "Well have the friggin banana ". So I cut it in half and had some It's not something I'll do everyday, but I'll do it sometimes I'd pick fruit over candy any day, it's really the things I crave the most. Since I've only allowed myself to have grapefruits and apples for a while, some other fruits have led to that "all or nothing thinking". From now on that is gone! All fruits are allowed, in moderation I know fructose isn't the best carb source, but I don't really care

atherjen

Good girl!!! I love bananas too!! SO much (I used to eat 3-4/day back in high school )
good for you for allowing yourself what you wanted, they are good for you, not the best dieting food but as a treat they're great!

" To dream anything you want to dream: That is the beauty of the human mind. To do anything you want to do: That is the strength of the human will. To trust yourself to test your limits: that is the courage to succeed."

NPC Southern Classic, June 3rd
NPC Cajun Classic, June 10th
NPC Mississippi State July 22nd

Jill

A girl who Ive been reading on who is being trained by one of the top trainers, Kim Oddo, has 1-2 WHOLE bananas a DAY! And shes loosing weight..Its some sort of cutting plan.