OK, I am so Over Myself!

I go back and read the old posts in my other journal and u guys are really supportive but if u get to know the Real me, I am so NOT like how I sounded! I guess bc everything is a thinking process, at least until I get used to it……..but its like that For Everyone right? I probably seemed like a Drama Queen and then some……I usually wrote the posts like right after whatever would happen, and so id sound like all stressed out but whatever it was, really WAS NOT a big deal. You people deal with it all the time. I am not special!

Bodybuilders /(people that have competed) are no better than any1else, at least not in the kind of way I thought u were! but bc that goal seemed so impossible for Me to achieve (and still sometimes does) I would try that much harder! Bodybuilding is a hard thing for everyone!

Not Every Bodybuilder cooks ALL their food! But Kris did, my old trainer(she competes) so I thought i had2, if i didnt i would never be able to compete if i didnt! Grocery shopping gets expensive! And cooking is a hard task! That’s right, 4 everyone! So my diet’s gonna be lil worse mmmmmmmmm