Working on "ME"

Jill · 05-13-2004, 06:45 PM

I'm starting this new journal, cause I need to work on "me". Focus on "me", and only me.

I want to improve "ME" in several differnet ways:

Emotionally heal my wounds from my past

Eliminate binge / emotional eating-and connect with those triggers

Accept myself, and no longer 'beat' my self up if I am not perfect

Improve my self esteem

gwcaton · 05-13-2004, 07:54 PM

Hi Jill !

You should be able to accomplish your goals . they sound realistic and you get great supprot here !

Good Luck Sweetie !

greekblondechic · 05-13-2004, 07:55 PM

JILLIAN!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!

Jill · 05-13-2004, 08:22 PM

05/13

Meal 1: 1/3C oats, 1 Scoop protein, 2 ew's, 2T cottage cheese, 100g strawberries
Meal 2: 1/3C oats, 1/2C cottage cheese, protein, 1 ew, 100g strawberries
*rice cake*
Meal 3: 5.5oz cottage cheese meatloaf, 1/2C brown rice, veggies, 1 diet yogurt, 2 sf jellos
*2 rice cakes*
Meal 4: 2oz ff ham, veggies, 1T lf ranch, 1/2grapefruit
*1 diet yogurt*
Meal 5: 1C ew's, 2oz ff ham, 1 slice lf cheese, veggies

CALS: 1765
44%P, 41%C, 16%F

WORKOUT:
CARDIO: 30 mins ct, 30 mins running/walking-Im loving running again, It just feel SO great!
WEIGHTS: Shoulders

J'Bo · 05-13-2004, 08:29 PM

lookin good hot stuff.
what are the *'s for?
those non program foods?
and whats 1 ew?

Jill · 05-13-2004, 08:40 PM

Thanks Gary, Greeky, and Jbo-nice to see you, I religiously visit your jounal, but I keep quiet

The stars would be like a snack I guess. Im really trying to eat for 'hunger'-NO other reasons.

An ew is an egg white!

Stacey · 05-13-2004, 08:50 PM

Jill LOVE The new journal!!! I know you are going to doing really great at this! I believe in you sweetie! Remember, if you do happen to fall off the wagon DO NOT BEAT Yourself up about it...just jump back on again..

However.. I believe this is your day..this is going to be Great for you. I know it.. I can feel it..
Love ya!!
HUGS!

atherjen · 05-14-2004, 05:18 AM

I TOTALLY BELIEVE IN YOU Jillybean!!

greekblondechic · 05-14-2004, 06:08 AM

Good Morning Sunshine!!!!!!!!

LOL, i copy paste from my journal to a word document, print it out, and give to my therapist, and she asked me what an ew was too

sara · 05-14-2004, 09:12 AM

Jill- you are a great person!!! just to see you'r posts tells me you will get to all you'r goals.. just need some time and some help of others.. we are all here for you hon.. we here for eachother!!!
Just think of you'r positives and don't let the negatives get to you!!

sara · 05-14-2004, 09:15 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Jill

Eliminate binge / emotional eating-and connect with those triggers

Eat you'r meal and wait for 15 minutes, and then you'r cravings/binge would go away..
just give it 15 minutes

Jill · 05-14-2004, 10:08 AM

Thanks everyone for the support

I am so pmsing today, and grouchy. Im trying so hard to stay positive!

Some other things.....My work is going under reno's, so Im going to try and get a week off and sneak away to cuba! (depends if my gf can go too) I dont FOR SURE yet, but I just wanna get away. I hope it all works out for me. The only reason why I may not go would be that I would be depressed when I get BACK to work.

Stacey · 05-14-2004, 10:15 AM

Oh Cool! I hope you get to go to Cuba!!

Jill · 05-14-2004, 10:24 AM

My gf cant go.agggggggggg

Stacey · 05-14-2004, 10:28 AM

SOWWWWY.

What about Steve?

sara · 05-14-2004, 10:34 AM

You know anyone in Cuba that you can visit?

Jill · 05-14-2004, 10:37 AM

Steve doesnt want to go on another vac till fall.

No Sara, I dont know anybody there, id be staying in a resort.

sara · 05-14-2004, 10:40 AM

Stacey · 05-14-2004, 10:40 AM

hmmmmmmmmm?

Why Cuba?

Jill · 05-14-2004, 10:44 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Jenny
Hey Jill,

It really has to come from the inside of you and I know that you really really want to stop this, but something still hasn't clicked inside to make you stop. Sometimes we just need to tell ourself "Get over it, you're not eating that, deal with it". Sometimes we get so wraped up in the thought "I'm a binger" that it leads to binging. Like "oh well, I binge, so let's have a binge". Do you recognize this? Well, it was like that for me at least. Well, I guess it was that feeling that I really wanted to change my body, and knowing that what I put in it would keep me from doing that. But you already know that. I guess I stopped thinking "I'm a binger, there's something wrong with me", cause I think those thoughts alone made me binge a lot of the times.

Jillsan, I'm here for you. Let me know if there's anything I can do for you

I think you pinned the tail on the donkey....

I need to get over this crap-and deal with my emotions. I need to change my mindset from a 'binger' to a normal person / eater. It really is true that when you 'think / know' your a binger, you practicallly give yourself permission to binge. I am not doing that anymore. I must banish these crazy thoughts. Im glad you have recovered Jenny, I will be where you are some day. I really value you thoughts and love every word in your post. Thank you

Jill

Jill · 05-14-2004, 10:45 AM

Cuba is CHEAP right now, last minute deals. Ive been there before and it is beautiful!! I may still go alone....

Stacey · 05-14-2004, 11:02 AM

oh thats awesome! Oh my gosh I could never go on a trip by myself...well Acutally I think I could go to Playa del carmen alone. Just for a few days.

greekblondechic · 05-14-2004, 11:09 AM

I wish I could go with you hon!

BTW donkeys are funny sounding and stinky..my grandparents have them in Greece!

Jill · 05-14-2004, 11:17 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by greekblondechic
I wish I could go with you hon!

BTW donkeys are funny sounding and stinky..my grandparents have them in Greece!

Morning sunshine! I wish you could come with me....

Whats on the agenda today? I work till 5, them Im going to buy a new workout jacket. This store has THE nicest workout clothes.
http://retail.lululemon.com/fcgi-bin...0000090&ppp=24

greekblondechic · 05-14-2004, 11:20 AM

Ooh thats cute

Today.. just chill and hope to go out later, I really need it

I wanna hit the gym too, but I slept like 4.5hrs so we'll see, I'll probably be needing a nap soon...

sara · 05-14-2004, 11:26 AM

I missed Greece!

JLB001 · 05-14-2004, 12:21 PM

I love About me Journals!

Craig aslways tells me its about me....but I swear it never is!

Boys.

Good luck on your personal journey to find inner happiness! You can accomplish it!

Stacey · 05-14-2004, 01:07 PM

Jill those jackets are SO Cute!!!

Greeky you need to sleep more you silly girl!!!!!

Jill · 05-14-2004, 01:44 PM

Thanks Jodie!

Hey all, I got a $30 voucher from Bulk Nutrition, cause of the order I couldnt accept here in Canada from like 3 months ago. What should I order? Im thinking bars. ALSO, I have to be able to recieve it here in CANADA!

05-13-2004, 06:45 PM	#1
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	Working on "ME" I'm starting this new journal, cause I need to work on "me". Focus on "me", and only me. I want to improve "ME" in several differnet ways: Emotionally heal my wounds from my past Eliminate binge / emotional eating-and connect with those triggers Accept myself, and no longer 'beat' my self up if I am not perfect Improve my self esteem

05-13-2004, 07:54 PM	#2
gwcaton Lookin' for abs ! Elite Member Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: central missouri Posts: 9,271 Photos: 28	Hi Jill ! You should be able to accomplish your goals . they sound realistic and you get great supprot here ! Good Luck Sweetie !
	My Last Journal Before The One You're Reading Now Old Journals : My P/RR/S Journal My GWcaton Journal My Bulking Journal Just remember, when you think you're done you've just started . DEADBOLT . 2005

05-13-2004, 07:55 PM	#3
greekblondechic I'm special :) Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: NJ Posts: 7,792	JILLIAN!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!
	I can do it I WILL be a size 5.

05-13-2004, 08:29 PM	#5
J'Bo Cuddle Slut Join Date: May 2002 Location: Back in Canada Posts: 9,753 Photos: 6	lookin good hot stuff. what are the *'s for? those non program foods? and whats 1 ew?
	....and thats my $.02

05-13-2004, 08:50 PM	#7
Stacey Registered User Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Cypress, Texas Posts: 10,585 Photos: 23	Jill LOVE The new journal!!! I know you are going to doing really great at this! I believe in you sweetie! Remember, if you do happen to fall off the wagon DO NOT BEAT Yourself up about it...just jump back on again.. However.. I believe this is your day..this is going to be Great for you. I know it.. I can feel it.. Love ya!! HUGS!
	I Believe in the Impossible!!!

05-13-2004, 08:22 PM	#4
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	05/13 Meal 1: 1/3C oats, 1 Scoop protein, 2 ew's, 2T cottage cheese, 100g strawberries Meal 2: 1/3C oats, 1/2C cottage cheese, protein, 1 ew, 100g strawberries rice cake Meal 3: 5.5oz cottage cheese meatloaf, 1/2C brown rice, veggies, 1 diet yogurt, 2 sf jellos 2 rice cakes Meal 4: 2oz ff ham, veggies, 1T lf ranch, 1/2grapefruit 1 diet yogurt Meal 5: 1C ew's, 2oz ff ham, 1 slice lf cheese, veggies CALS: 1765 44%P, 41%C, 16%F WORKOUT: CARDIO: 30 mins ct, 30 mins running/walking-Im loving running again, It just feel SO great! WEIGHTS: Shoulders

05-13-2004, 08:40 PM	#6
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	Thanks Gary, Greeky, and Jbo-nice to see you, I religiously visit your jounal, but I keep quiet The stars would be like a snack I guess. Im really trying to eat for 'hunger'-NO other reasons. An ew is an egg white!

05-14-2004, 05:18 AM	#8
atherjen DS Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: MS Posts: 5,757	I TOTALLY BELIEVE IN YOU Jillybean!!
	" To dream anything you want to dream: That is the beauty of the human mind. To do anything you want to do: That is the strength of the human will. To trust yourself to test your limits: that is the courage to succeed." NPC Southern Classic, June 3rd NPC Cajun Classic, June 10th NPC Mississippi State July 22nd

05-14-2004, 06:08 AM	#9
greekblondechic I'm special :) Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: NJ Posts: 7,792	Good Morning Sunshine!!!!!!!! LOL, i copy paste from my journal to a word document, print it out, and give to my therapist, and she asked me what an ew was too
	I can do it I WILL be a size 5.

05-14-2004, 09:12 AM	#10
sara cRaZy!!! Elite Member Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Earth Posts: 6,304 Photos: 2	Jill- you are a great person!!! just to see you'r posts tells me you will get to all you'r goals.. just need some time and some help of others.. we are all here for you hon.. we here for eachother!!! Just think of you'r positives and don't let the negatives get to you!!
	www.metzgerbodies.net www.myspace.com/smbdybldr

05-14-2004, 10:08 AM	#12
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	Thanks everyone for the support I am so pmsing today, and grouchy. Im trying so hard to stay positive! Some other things.....My work is going under reno's, so Im going to try and get a week off and sneak away to cuba! (depends if my gf can go too) I dont FOR SURE yet, but I just wanna get away. I hope it all works out for me. The only reason why I may not go would be that I would be depressed when I get BACK to work.

05-14-2004, 10:15 AM	#13
Stacey Registered User Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Cypress, Texas Posts: 10,585 Photos: 23	Oh Cool! I hope you get to go to Cuba!!
	I Believe in the Impossible!!!

05-14-2004, 10:24 AM	#14
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	My gf cant go.agggggggggg

05-14-2004, 10:28 AM	#15
Stacey Registered User Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Cypress, Texas Posts: 10,585 Photos: 23	SOWWWWY. What about Steve?
	I Believe in the Impossible!!!

05-14-2004, 10:34 AM	#16
sara cRaZy!!! Elite Member Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Earth Posts: 6,304 Photos: 2	You know anyone in Cuba that you can visit?
	www.metzgerbodies.net www.myspace.com/smbdybldr

05-14-2004, 10:37 AM	#17
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	Steve doesnt want to go on another vac till fall. No Sara, I dont know anybody there, id be staying in a resort.

05-14-2004, 10:40 AM	#18
sara cRaZy!!! Elite Member Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Earth Posts: 6,304 Photos: 2	oh
	www.metzgerbodies.net www.myspace.com/smbdybldr

05-14-2004, 10:45 AM	#21
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	Cuba is CHEAP right now, last minute deals. Ive been there before and it is beautiful!! I may still go alone....

05-14-2004, 11:02 AM	#22
Stacey Registered User Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Cypress, Texas Posts: 10,585 Photos: 23	oh thats awesome! Oh my gosh I could never go on a trip by myself...well Acutally I think I could go to Playa del carmen alone. Just for a few days.
	I Believe in the Impossible!!!

05-14-2004, 11:09 AM	#23
greekblondechic I'm special :) Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: NJ Posts: 7,792	I wish I could go with you hon! BTW donkeys are funny sounding and stinky..my grandparents have them in Greece!
	I can do it I WILL be a size 5.

05-14-2004, 11:20 AM	#25
greekblondechic I'm special :) Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: NJ Posts: 7,792	Ooh thats cute Today.. just chill and hope to go out later, I really need it I wanna hit the gym too, but I slept like 4.5hrs so we'll see, I'll probably be needing a nap soon...
	I can do it I WILL be a size 5.

05-14-2004, 11:26 AM	#26
sara cRaZy!!! Elite Member Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Earth Posts: 6,304 Photos: 2	I missed Greece!
	www.metzgerbodies.net www.myspace.com/smbdybldr

05-14-2004, 12:21 PM	#27
JLB001 I see YOU!! Elite Member Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Houston Posts: 8,293 Photos: 5	I love About me Journals! Craig aslways tells me its about me....but I swear it never is! Boys. Good luck on your personal journey to find inner happiness! You can accomplish it!
	"When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on."

05-14-2004, 01:07 PM	#28
Stacey Registered User Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Cypress, Texas Posts: 10,585 Photos: 23	Jill those jackets are SO Cute!!! Greeky you need to sleep more you silly girl!!!!!
	I Believe in the Impossible!!!

05-14-2004, 01:44 PM	#29
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	Thanks Jodie! Hey all, I got a $30 voucher from Bulk Nutrition, cause of the order I couldnt accept here in Canada from like 3 months ago. What should I order? Im thinking bars. ALSO, I have to be able to recieve it here in CANADA!