jstar

Sun - 10:30-11:30 yoga/pilates class then 11:30-12 30 min elliptical

Mon - AM = 45 min elliptical intervals plus 5 min wu and 5 min cd
PM = LEGS; cardio program #1

Tue - PM = cardio program #2, eat 1/2 apple, then BACK

Wed - AM = 45 min elliptical intervals plus 5 min wu and 5 min cd
PM = ARMS; cardio program #1

Thu - PM = cardio program #2, eat 1/2 apple, then SHOULDERS

Fri - AM = 45 min elliptical intervals plus 5 min wu and 5 min cd
PM = CHEST, LEGS; cardio program #1

Sat - 1 hr walk

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Goals
1) get all workouts in. do not skip any. do not switch days or change up this regimen in any way. this is the priority, everything else must be scheduled around training.

2) diet - no skipping meals. no "substituting." no condiments (except cinnamon, Mrs Dash, and splenda which are allowed).

3) to help me adhere to goal #2 my meals need to be cooked and stored in tupperware ahead of time, otherwise it is just to easy to eat something not approved. two or three days during the week will be "cook" days. i will post those days when i decide figure out my schedule.

4) get up at 7am everyday!

5) spend at least an hour a day studying for the ACE exam. (next week it goes to 2 hrs).

okay, that is it for now. the daily goals will be very specific and i will schedule times for when i will eat, workout, study, etc. otherwise nothing will ever get done!

"I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed." Michael Jordan

jstar

Rainy, cold and blah

I was 5 min late to yoga and as soon as class starts they turn off the lights and lock the door! So I missed it....note to self - get there at 10:15 next Sunday! So I did 45 min on the elliptical instead (on an empty stomach)

Workout = AM cardio 45 min elliptical (no intervals this time )

Diet = so far I have only gotten 2 meals in and it's 4PM. Okay, see I really do need help with scheduling all this. It is tricky! Tonight I am going to sit down with my notebook and come up with a time table for this week. I will of course post that later tonight. You should all get a good laugh out of my journal ha!

"I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed." Michael Jordan

JLB001

Take the amount of time you are awake and divide by the number of meals to come up with the hours to space them. Then eat when you are suppose to at those times. Even if you are not hungry. I get up at 6 am, but usually do not eat until 8, so my meals are spaced every 3 hours from there. at 8, 11, 2, 5 and 8, then sometimes right before bed.

J...gotta get tose planned out! Gotta kick that metabo in the butt and eatting is a must. You are gonna step on stage looking your best!!!

"When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on."

jstar

Hey Jodster! How is the final week of dieting treating you? I am so excited for you right now

Coming from you - yes I know how right you are! I have to eat all my meals as scheduled no matter what. If I was working this wouldn't be a problem at all, but since I have no reason to drag my but outta bed early I allow myself to sleep in It really kills me on M/W/F when I do AM cardio because by the time I eat my first meal it is noon! I did figure out my schedule for tomorrow though and I will figure out the rest of the week tonight.

"I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed." Michael Jordan

jstar

7 AM - Wake up, take green tea, water
730-830 AM cardio
830-845 AM shower
845-900 AM Meal 1 (oats, eggwhites)
**chores - get gas, go to back, write bills/mail
11AM - Meal 2 (1 scoop protein, glutamine)
**go shopping - my mom needs help finding a dress for the wedding!
1PM - Meal 3 (in car on way home from store - chx, sw potato)
3PM- Meal 4 (gr, turkey, veggies)
5-530PM Meal 5 (1 scoop protein, glutamine)
545-730-8PM - Legs, cardio (at gym with my friend. the w/o takes 1.5hrs)
8-820PM - Meal 6 (fish, veggies)
***shower, study 1 hr, cook/prep food for Tues)
10PM - Meal 7 eggwhites (choc. eggies are okay! )

"I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed." Michael Jordan

greekblondechic

Hey Girly welcome back! i like the sound of this new journal already and congrats on the results you are already seeing! keep on doing it and it will work out great I can tell! I think a move would be great, a fresh start, you need freshness! PM me anytime hon!

*hugs* Vivian

EDIT: I just saw you are still eating choc eggies LOL

I can do it

I WILL be a size 5.

aggies1ut

Wow, going to the gym twice a day. Are you on a shortened time schedule?

hikerchick

Hey Shining Star!
Your program looks so awesome! You can do it girl, I just know it.

I didn't know you worked in HR...I worked in HR for two years before my current gig of "SuperMom" which I think is the best job ever, by the way. I know we talked about where you live before, I think we were laughing at all the New England accents, I forget though - where do you live again?

Your goals and food look great, I will be keeping a close eye on you! Keep up the good work sweetie.

We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then, is just a habit.
- Socrates


I am worth it!

JLB001

J..That program looks really close to the one I use. Just more meals.

You should see lots of progress!

"When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on."

shortstuff

I think your schedule looks great and plus this will give you reasons to get up and more of a structure to life even though it may seem without any right now. You are going to kick butt!!! I want to look as hot as you all are going ot look, not have my flabby ass.

Good things come to those who wait........

jstar

Hey Greekie how are you? Yeah my trainer wanted me to eat eggwhites for the last meal so I asked if I could put in a TBL of cocoa and splenda and she said it was okay for now (I can't do the "Reese's" style that Jill does though - those were yummy!) I will PM you - we need to catch up!

Aggie - I only do twice a day workouts on M/W/F. My schedule is going to change up every 4 weeks though - it all depends on how I progress. The next contest is 9/25 and I started dieting at 17 weeks out. Since I gave myself a lot more time this time I should be ready on time.

Hikerchica - Hi girl Thanks for the encouragement I worked in Compensation which is a part of HR. No one ever knows exactly what it is (they assume worker's compensation) so I just say I work in HR. What did you do in HR - recruiting, benefits, etc? I am from the Boston area and I am in denial about my accent I can't wait for my trip to FL - I am going to bring some of those free real estate booklets and leave a few lying around so that the Floridians can see how much houses cost up here. They will be shocked

Jodie - It does? Well then I should get great results because you look FANTASTIC!!!

Shorty - I saw your pics - you are smokin' now! I hate my butt too - it always the last thing to lean down - if it ever truly does! I am just tryin' to be consistent as best as I can. You are doing really really well with being consistent and I KNOW you will reach all of your goals. You have proven in school, and in life, you do achieve the goals you set for yourself and I admire that alot! That is why I know you are well on your way

"I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed." Michael Jordan

jstar

Update on yesterday (Monday)

Meals - no cheating - got them all in

Workouts - Yesterday was insane:
*AM cardio - did it
*I went walking in the afternoon with my friend - 1 hr
*My mom still can't find a dress so I agreed to go to the mall with her. We spent 2 hours walking around (she still needs a dress!)
*PM Workout - Legs/Abs then 25 min stepper intervals, 20 min treadmill 4.0 incline, 4.0 mph

My legs are pooped to say the least! My friend couldn't make it to the gym with me and she is really struggling to get back into the swing of things so to make it easy for her we went for a one hr walk in her neighborhood~ the cool thing is we made plans to get together Wed. morning at my gym. I will be doing my AM cardio and she will be doing her thing~

"I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed." Michael Jordan

shortstuff

OMG J I LOVE YOU!!! You really know how to make a girl feel good, you should feel just as good about yourself as you are doing all this for yourself also!!! I think you are so amazing dealing withe verything and dieting and doing crazy workouts at the same time. You ROCK!!!!!!!!

Good things come to those who wait........

jstar

Tues June 8th

Oh oh, today is my brother's b-day so that means there will be CAKE in the house

MUST AVOID, MUST AVOID!!!!

Ok, here is what is on the agenda for today:

*Prep food for today and Wed
*Clean room
*PM workout - cardio then back:
10 min rower
10 min rec. bike
25 min treadmill intervals (walking)
eat 1/2 apple
then lift - BACK

Back is my favorite day!

"I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed." Michael Jordan

JLB001

Oh damn I hate when they have cake! I had to bake one on Sunday for my manager. It was tough! I LOVE cake batter!

J...you had asked how this week was coming, it's progressing nicely! I'm excited yet scared poohless! Craig drew out my routine lastnight in the form of stick people, so I have to learn it from stick people on paper! (I know why I love him so much). Work has calmed back down, but I faxed out my resume to other places on Sunday, have job interview on Thursday at 2. Told them they did not want me to come Fri. as I would be a really strange shade of brown and might stink.

In looking at your meals, I am assuming you're having about 3 to 4 oz of protein? If so, that is really close to what Jon has had me doing. You'll do great!

"When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on."

jstar

June 12th

Alright I am back (again!)

I have been bingeing uncontrollably the past 3 days and feel sick to my stomach. I swear I have never been so stressed out in my entire life. I really feel like I need to take stock and figure out what the heck I am doing to myself. As I stated before I hate change. I get comfortable with things and like them to stay that way. I like security in my life. I need to grow up and realize that things are not always going to be smooth and when things get crazy I should not revert to my familiar ways and binge on food. That only leads to more self-loathing and self defeat. So many negative changes have occurred in my life recently that I am scared stiff, I feel like the rug has been pulled out from under me. The 2 main "sure-things" in my life are no longer there: my boyfriend of 5 yrs and my job. It has been rough going trying to find another job; and all the rejection just dampens my spirits more and more. It is tough to not buy into this rejection as a sign that there is something terribly wrong with me, and that I am not good enough or not personable enough...I know that isn't true but it gets harder and harder and harder and harder to tell myself that every day. Also, my bf and I had the most solid, strong relationship...I felt secure there but now that has come to a bitter end. It was not pretty.

My question for any one out there who may be reading this is how do you pick up the pieces and get yourself back up and try again when you feel like you have done that a million times and just keep getting knocked down again? I am so tired, SO TIRED, of giving into bingeing as a way of coping. It does not work, yet I continue to do it!

There are so many choices that lie before me right now - do I stay here and take any job I can find and live w/my parents? Do I move to FL and try to make it there? My best friend said she would come down and live with me if I get an apt. I know she would so that is a possibility. I had a nice long talk with her today and she basically said I should do it and that I shouldn't look back and just keep going on even if I want to return home, things will get better. She is completely right. I tend to "go back" to what is familiar when all else fails. I need to move on, move ahead, do what is best for ME and not worry. She is totally opposite me in that she is very adaptable and can easily accept change and see it as good. Maybe this is what I need to do too.

Sorry for all this rambling. I am going to keep working out and trying to eat clean with out going overboard (bingeing) for now. I don't know about competing because I don't know if I will even be here in the fall. If not, I will compete in FL. I just want to control my eating habits, get lean, feel great, feel healthy. Once my direction in life becomes clearer I can set more specific goals for myself but for now I only have one: "no more bingeing".

"I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed." Michael Jordan

JLB001

J..don't look at change as always being a bad thing. Lots of positive can come from it.
When we get knocked down, pick up those pieces again and start again. It's part of life, its all in how we choose to handle that knock down. It's like riding a horse, if you fall off, you dust off your pants and get back on, take control of the reins and plow ahead. Life is the same way, its in which path we choose to take.

"When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on."

jstar

Thanks Jodie
I totally agree. I am started to feel inspired again. It is just a matter of taking a few small steps and building momentum to go in the direction I want to go in.

Friday night after the big blow-out with my ex I called my friend on her cell. Her and a group were getting together to go to Chili's (about 5 min from my house) and she was trying to talk me into going. And she ended up yelling at me to just go and to get out because it is better than sulking and moping at home. I didn't go. Then she invited me out last night to go to a club with her and some friends. Even though I kept talking myself outta going I went through the motions- took a shower, washed my hair, painted my nails, did my makeup...I really didn't want to go at all but I MADE myself do it. I ended up having a great time and my friend's boyfriend told her that his friend who they want me to meet would "love me." So anyways, it was a nice self-esteem booster! Plus there was this U2 tribute band there and they were awesome. I think there site is u2tributeband.com. The name of the group is Elevation. They tour all over so if they come to your area I would highly recommend seeing them

Today was even better. I went to the weekly fitness workout/posing session/get together ( I guess I don't know exactly what you call it but Cathy holds a weekly session every Sunday at her studio in the gym and we do a variety of things to get ready for upcoming shows). Since it is mostly fitness girls we do a lot of fitness drills. In other words, stuff I can not do at all! First we did some light aerobics then stretching and drills. Today I did cartwheels for the first time since I was oh about 10 yrs old! Then I manage to do a split (using yoga blocks but still) First time EVER!!! Cathy said it was enough of a split to actually put into a routine if I ever did fitness. Then I tried to do a handstand pushup and fell on my head. But they were holding my feet so it's all good! I want to practice all the drills we did some more so next time I go back peeps can see that I am getting better. Then she gave us a talk on how important it is to train doing bodyweight and plyos not just for fitness competitors but for figure as well. I am going to incorporate more of this type of training into my workouts. We also did some walking/posing in our heels and I customized my front stance to look the best on my body. It was a really informative and great day! Everytime I leave I feel more motivated so I intend to go every week if possible. Plus 2 of our New England girls are in Oxygen this month in the future of fitness. Talk about motivating! Everyone is talking photo shoots and about their web sites... I just want to get myself to that level. Seeing everyone around me get to that level is great and I know I can do better than what I have been doing. I am not sitting around saying boo-hoo what about me. I know that I have to work harder and be more disciplined if I want those goals. If I can just make continuous improvements week to week without backsliding then I will be happy with myself.

"I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed." Michael Jordan

hikerchick

Oh Jstar - if I were there right now I'd give you a big hug!

All you can do is just keep picking yourself up, dust yourself off and start over. It's kind of a cliche, but I go by the Alcoholics Anonymous creed of "one day at a time" or "just for today". Just for today, don't cheat. If you want to cheat tomorrow, go for it. But today YOU ARE NOT GOING TO CHEAT. It works for me sometimes. Just don't let yourself be talked into it by all those voices in your head , you know, the angel and the devil that fight up there? I'm really not crazy!!

Hang in there girl. You are not alone. You are going through a lot right now and all of your emotions are very hard to deal with. When that happens to me, that is when I binge. I'm working on that daily. Finding other ways to work through all the garbage in my head rather than sabotage my body with lots of junk. I'm here for you girl!

P.S. When I worked in HR (I left it to stay home and take care of my baby), I was a "Generalist" which basically means I did everything under the sun related to HR. I like it a lot, but am going in a different direction now, careerwise.

We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then, is just a habit.
- Socrates


I am worth it!

jstar

Thanks HC I KNOW those voices are evil, huh I feel like I have 2 devils up there sometime

What types of things do you do when you feel "weak?" I find that I usually have to get out of the house. After going to that class today (see above post) it really helped me get my mind straight. I mean only 5 other girls showed up and they all look amazing and they all kicked my butt doing the strength drills. I went there fully expecting this. In fact I almost wasn't going to go because I said to myself okay all these girls are like 2 lbs above contest weight (or so it seems) and they can do handstand pushups and cartwheels with ease. I will look like a fool if I go. But I ended up getting a lot out of today and if I listened to that evil voice in my head I would have not gone and not learned what I learned today and not have come out being all motivated and pumped.

The next time I will be able to attend class isn't until 7/11. Next Sun is Father's Day so it is cancelled; the one after that I am away, and the one after that is the 4th of July. My new mini-goal is to practice all the drills I learned today so that next time I go I can do the handstand pushups, some better cartwheels, high kicks and an L Press. Maybe even get that full split!
Even more importantly though I want to be noticeably leaner. My goal is to stick to my workouts and diet for the next 3 weeks. 15 weeks to go!!!

"I've failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed." Michael Jordan

hikerchick

Wow, that class sounds great. Just knowing I was going back there to "compete" with those superfit girls again would be enough for me. I just have to keep myself in a positive frame of mind at ALL times!! If I deviate from that, I tend to listen to the devil voices.

We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then, is just a habit.
- Socrates


I am worth it!

shortstuff

That class sounds awesome!! I wish there were things like that around me, I have been proud of myself, even with my boy eatng shitty I have been sooo good

Good things come to those who wait........