Thread: MonStar's Journal: Self-Control

Good Luck !! I think your going to do great

What type of meal plan will you be following? I think that what you were doing in the past-low carb and then 1-2 week refeeds of junk would fuck me up. I have binging tendencies, and suffered from eating disorders for several years. JMHO I had a cheat/refeed day on Sat and it really messed with me mentally-I just cant handle it, bringing back old memories.

What you said is totally true about YOU. Everything you do is your responsibility. Ever read the Dr Phil book, or Overcoming binge eating disorders by Chris Fairburn? Both books helped me tremendously. Binge / bad food urges do pass. Normally people have 5-7 impulse food urges a day.

Andrea: Thanks so much for stopping by, I really appreciate it.

Jill: Wow, thanks for the really informative post! I have been suffering from binge eating for years now I would say. It's definitely a tough thing to deal with, that's for sure. I am not even sure how it started. Back when I first started training I would concentrate so hard on eating clean and then every now and then I would "go off my diet" and pig out. I have been doing so ever since. I agree that I am the only one who can control what I eat. Which Dr. Phil book are you talking about? I usually always like his opinion on most topics. I'll have to swing by Borders tonight and pick one of those up. Do you recommend one over the other? Thanks again!

7-22-2004

Upper Body

Incline DB Presses:
100's x 10
110's x 8
120's x 6!

Smith-Machine Military Presses:
160 x 8
180 x 5 (2)

Flat DB Flyes:
80's x 5 (3)
70's x 8

8" Lockouts:
315 x 3 (3)
275 x 6 (2)

Good workout today I think. Intensity was definitely there, that's for sure. Focus was also really really good I think. I am going to sell my MP3 player on Ebay though and buy a new one, haha. The one I have I can't attach to my arm or anything like I see everyone else doing, lol. Anyway, hit a big PR in incline DB presses. The 120's for 6 is definitely a huge PR for me. Those are the heaviest DB's in the gym and I hit 6 clean reps no problem at all.

Moved onto some military presses, not too bad at all there. Also some flat DB flyes. Flyes really beat up my pecs nicely, really good sets there IMO. Couldn't think of a good triceps exercise to do so I decided to really shock my CNS and do lockouts last. I was DRAINED by the time I got to them, lol. Really exhausting sets of lockouts. Elbows and triceps were burnt.

I have decided that I am going to shoot for approximately 75-100 reps per workout. Hit 86 today. This way I'll keep my volume a bit lower and focus more on intensity.

Diet:
- MRP + 1% milk
- Gatorade + V-12 during workout
- whey protein postworkout
- 1/2 whole-wheat turkey & cheese sandwich
- Trioplex bar
- grilled chicken sandwich, peaches
- whole-wheat tuna sandwich, low-carb milk

Diet was clean today, not too bad at all I don't think. I am going to try and replace all of my milk intake with low-carb milk. Simply because it's just all around SO MUCH better for you. I mean a cup of low-carb milk is 12g of protein and way less sugar, etc.

Sleep: 8 hours.

Weight: 223.5 lbs. Going to be weighing myself roughly once a week. Just to keep a rough track of my weight loss/gain.

Started back up with M1T today. Going to most likely be doing the same kind of cycle that I did before. The first week 10mg, the 2nd week 15mg, and the 3rd and final week 20mg per day.

Congrats on the PR ! And good luck on the new goals !

I'm having deja vu all over again . Nice PR Mike!

The Ultimate weight loss solutions I think is what Dr Phills book is. (its at home, Im at work) I would probably recommend the Binge eating book first though. The Dr Phill book is really really good too. I found that 'binging' is usually a result of restricting certain foods When they are no longer restricted, they are not as desireable. Ever thought of therapy? One thing a therapist told me is that once you have an eating disorder, you will ALWAYS have one-similar to an alcoholic. You just need to control it.

Good luck.

its too hot to type...........

but all I got to say is dig out the apron babyy!!































Ok on a more serious note, this approach will undoubtfuly be hard and stressful at time but Mikster, DIG DEEP, as I know that you truly have it in you. If you helped me so much as to realize that, I can only help to repay the support.
Best of luck!
btw, I think Jillys idea about getting Dr.Phils book is a solid one. Although I have not read it myself, my friends mother said that it truly has changed her perspective of things

Yes... join a womans book club while reading Dr. Phil

Good luck man.

Originally Posted by PreMier

Yes... join a womans book club while reading Dr. Phil

Good luck man.

Good one PM!!

Monstar -
Good luck with the new journal.... 120 x 6 on incline !!

gwcaton: Thanks so much for stopping by man, really appreciate it. I was very very pleased hitting 120's on incline for 6 reps. Not too shabby.

JerseyDevil: LOL, everyone is. Thanks for the support.

Jill: I stopped by Borders tonight looking for the first book you mentioned. I couldn't find it, so instead I got a book that looked really good called "Binge No More, Your Guide to Overcoming Disordered Eating" by Joyce Nash, PH.D. I'll definitely keep you posted on how I feel about it. I have considered therapy in the past, never got to the point though that I went through with it. Although, at times, I definitely should have. That's interesting about binging because you're lacking or restricting something in your diet. Thanks so much for all the help though Jill! I wouldn't have even gone out and bought a book on binging if you hadn't posted here today.

Jen: Hey, thanks for all that you have said/done, really appreciate it as you know. I am hoping that this is my last journal here at IM. I really don't want to binge and then start a new journal the next day, like I have an awful habit of doing. Thanks again for stopping by. My workouts I really think are going to take off now that I have carbs back in my system, and I am starting M1T again.

PreMier: LOL, whatever works man! Thanks for stopping by.

yellowmoomba: Thanks for stopping by bro, appreciate it. Yeah I was really really happy with my strength inclines today, that's for sure. I am usually a p*ssy on inclines.

That book sounds like a good read then, let us know how it helps you You could also look online at amazon or some American bookstore for Dr.Phils book.

diet today is looking good!
what kind of Trioplex bar? I havent had one in a while... their addicting, watch out!! lol

and 120s is just sick.

Hey Mon, any reason youre ramping up the dose of M1T again? Usually its only helpful to do it on a first cycle, so you can see how you react to the androgen. It might be worth it to just start out at 15 or 20, instead of wasting days at a dose that doesnt work for ya.

Jen: Yeah I will definitely keep posted about how the book is, I am really intertested to start reading it. We'll see what happens. I think reading this book and applying some self-control, I should overcome this binging habit. I am not a weak person in any part of my personality EXCEPT for this. I mean drinking, I cut that out completely. It wasn't a problem at all. Diet today has been pretty good. The Trioplex bar was peanut butter banana I think, and it was GREAT! I love those damn bars, lol.

Monolith: Hmmm, that's interesting bro. You bring up an interestnig point, actually. I am thinking that maybe I should bump it up to 15mg for 2 weeks maybe and then 20mg for the other 2 weeks? I don't know, I am going to post a thread in the supplements forum, get some opinions. Thanks man!

Were you seeing gains on the M-1T at 15mg a day? During which week did you respond best(from first cycle)?
The reason being, if you responded well at 10mg a day then why waste money(I know its cheap) running more than needed?

PreMier: I am honestly thinking 15mg per day because I cut the 20mg per day short. But does this mean I should run 15mg the entire cycle or what? All I know is that the last time around at 20mg per day I was definitely feeling foggy minded, etc. And at 10mg I think I was just getting the stuff into my system. But some definitely good points, PM.

Thats what I would do. Run the 15mg ED for 3-4 weeks. Also check your PM.

PreMier: Thanks bro, really appreciate it. I think I will in fact run 15mg for 3-4 weeks. That's probably much more effective than what I was planning on doing anyway. Thanks for link as well man, appreciate it!

No problem Mike

lmao, MM is gonna be getting a lot of business from IM it seems

Mike, if you are going to go 4 weeks with m1t, I highly recommend stacking a transdermal 4AD like 4Derm with it. It will really help the lethargy, and give you better gains. 4Derm is no where near as harsh as S1+ on the skin.

Good luck buddy!! Jen is right those Trioplex bars are addicting. I love the p-nut butter choc. chip.

a new AVI! I always thought it was better you put yourself for one!

I know your not weak(mentally)- thats why I know that you can do this

Hot hot hot avi.

Hey Mike I think you're showing a lot of strength by starting to really deal with this. You've had some great replys here and I'm so glad you got that book, I'm sure it will help you lots. I've had binging tendencies as well and recovered from bulimia about 4 years ago, so I know how hard things can be. Keep working at it and you'll beat it!
New avvy looks great btw

PreMier: Thanks again bro, I really appreciate it. You're saving me money on a PCT.

Monolith: LOL, well they have a new customer!

JerseyDevil: Hey man, thanks for chiming in. I am going to look into 4Derm and see what I think about it. I never really had all that bad of side effects the first time around on M1T by itself. I am not sure why. I mean a general sense of foggy mindedness but nothing ephedrine and some contact rewetting drops couldn't cure, lol.

I'm Trying: Hey man, yeah those damn Trioplex bars are great. I really like the way their texture isn't a typical protein bar either. Makes them that much better IMO.

Jen: Hey there, yeah I thought it was about time I changed my avatar. And it seems that everyone else is putting themselves as the avatar so I might as welll. Even if the pic is tiny after resizing it. Yeah I think that with enough focus I should be able to stop my binging without much of a problem.

BTW, so far this book is great. Has hit a few things right on the head that I experience.

Jill: Aww, thanks so much, appreciate it!

Jenny: Hey there, nice to see a new face. Yeah honestly going and purchasing a book and admitting that there is a problem was a big step I think. I think I am going to stop this once and for all honestly. I have more support now than ever, I am continuing to read a book about how to overcome it, etc. Thanks for the kind words about my avatar, I guess it was a good idea to change, lol.

7-23-2004

Lower Body

Hack Squats:
500 x 8
590 x 6
680 x 3!
590 x 6

T-Bar Rows:
315 x 6 (2)
360 x 3
360 x 5
385 x 2!

Nautilus Lying Leg Curls:
220 x 6 (2)
Stack x 3 (2)

Nautilus Pullovers:
260 x 12 (2)

Concentration Curls:
40's x 10
50's x 5

Good workout today! I can definitely tell that I am on M1T already. Not only because of my workout intensity but because it gives me that foggy minded feeling in the gym. I notice that right away for whatever reason, I am not really sure what causes it. It's not too bad at all at 15mg per day. It was definitely worse at 20mg per day. Anyway, hit a PR on hack squats. Really used a ton of weight there. Something like 7 plates on each side I think. Whatever. Nice PR.

Moved onto some ghetto t-bar rows, worked all the way up to 7 plates and a 25 for 2. Actually hit 3 but the 3rd rep I didn't bring the plates up to touch my chest, so I didn't count it. As you can imagine some momentum was used. Lying leg curls were good, not much to say. Pullovers were good too. Lats were pumped, lol. Finished up with some concentration curls, Ahhhnold style, lol, using the non-working hand to lean on something. I prefer them standing vs. seated.

Diet:
- MRP + 1% milk
- Gatorade + V-12 during workout
- whey protein postworkout
- Trioplex bar
- 1/2 whole-wheat turkey & cheese sandwich
- mixed nuts
- cajun chicken salad
- Balance Gold bar
- 1/2 whole-wheat tuna sandwich

Damn, I was starving today! Oh well.

Sleep: 7.5 hours.

Today is day 2 of M1T, at 15mg. So far just noticing some minor foggy mindedness. Nothing too bad at all.

Are you taking anything with the M1T??