fantasma62

Hey buddy, how are you today? I hope all is well with you...


Have a great day

-Tony-

HIHT: High Intensity Hybrid Training

fantasma62

Hi Chiquita, just saying hi again....I hope you are having a good day....

-Tony-

HIHT: High Intensity Hybrid Training

BoneCrusher

Hope your day is going well Chiquita ...

gwcaton

Where has our little Maria gone to ?
Hope you are doing ok .

My Last Journal Before The One You're Reading Now
Old Journals :
My P/RR/S Journal
My GWcaton Journal
My Bulking Journal

Just remember, when you think you're done you've just started . DEADBOLT . 2005

chiquita6683

hey everyone!!!
i had a great time! it was so nice to see another 4 walls for a whole week and no gym w no worries and great food w my family! i kept a journal with paper and pen that i wrote down my thoughts thoughout the day, so ill be typing it in word for a while. its good to be back, gotta get ready for my week now

P-funk

wecome backl chiq

http://pwtraining.blogspot.com/.....come and see what is on my mind!

http://ivonneberkowitz.blogspot.com/....check out Ivonne's new blog!

Optimum Sports Performance

"In the beginners mind there are many possibilities, in the experts there are few."
-Buddha's Little Instruction Book

BritChick

Welcome back, glad you had a great time. Looking forward to reading your journal entries when you get a chance to add them.

sftwrngnr

Hi Chiq,
Glad to hear you had a great time with your fam! Good job on journaling even while you were away. I look forward to reading it. I bet you are excited for school and everything that entails. Maybe a little scared, but you're gonna do great!
-Dan

"Dude... thats a lot-a weight... I mean yer like... what... 50??" Said to me by a 17 year old when I was doing deadlifts.
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Current Stats:
Age: 39
Squat: 585 Bench: 265 (STILL Pathetic) Deadlift: 565 Weight: 218
Goals:
Interrupted due to accident !
Rehab journal:
Dan's rehab journal
Training journal:
Dan's westside training journal

gwcaton

Hi Maria

Glad you are back ! Missed ya !

My Last Journal Before The One You're Reading Now
Old Journals :
My P/RR/S Journal
My GWcaton Journal
My Bulking Journal

Just remember, when you think you're done you've just started . DEADBOLT . 2005

fantasma62

I am glad you are back Chiq, I missed reading your journal and hearing from you

-Tony-

HIHT: High Intensity Hybrid Training

chiquita6683

i just wrote random thoughts that i got thoughout the week, no phones, no computers, no gyms, no doctors, just an empty beach with my father and aunt
8-23-04
I’m so indecicisive! I don’t know how I want my body to be, muscular and bulky but really really fit or sleek, toned feminine and “society’s ideal”. I want to be a bodybuilder bc they exude the confidence that I don’t have. I believe weather or not I compete figure or bb…. Or I compete at all, working out has been a positive influence on my life. That influence gives me the drive to want the most out of life and to be the very best I can be.

But I am really a lady who acts prim and proper ….most of the time, like I never cuss for real and this is a journal and I was just venting in that 1 post, you know? And my trainer had me do rows with a wide grip and it was like 80lbs which is heavy for me, and my left hand(stronger hand)/grip slipped, I was like “aw Fuck!” like not even that loud, and she said “HEY!” and shot me a dirty look. I immediately apologized. She hates it when I’m unladylike.

chiquita6683

8-24-04

So here I am jotting down different thoughts, about every time I look in the mirror, I get a thought. Hopefully, so does every1else. Does every1else? A whole wall in the condo is a mirror so I have to walk past it to go past it, a lot of the time in a bikini + towel, so I’m tidbit self conscious. But I mean consider this; I’m a young girl that wants her body a way it can’t be right now or for many years. Okay I didn’t write all this down this week, but its flowing out of me now, well the last 2-3 sentences did anyways

gwcaton

Pretty deep thoughts there Maria !

My Last Journal Before The One You're Reading Now
Old Journals :
My P/RR/S Journal
My GWcaton Journal
My Bulking Journal

Just remember, when you think you're done you've just started . DEADBOLT . 2005

chiquita6683

8-25-04
I start a class next week, I’m pretty nervous. Don’t know what to expect, but it’ll be good to get around other people…..probably looser guys. I don’t know.

So since I am very high functioning given my situation, @FINR I didn’t really need like physical or speech therapy and so after they did their evaluation, I had to decide on a voc (vocational) site. There was a greenhouse, a woodshop, a room where you sat and did nothing but had a fancy name for but I forgot it, and a classroom to help people get their GED

BritChick

Great journalling, enjoying reading it.

chiquita6683

8-26-04

I picked the woodshop. I made a beautiful table from raw lumber and learned how to use the big saws and a nail gun and picked out my own stain and everything! I made a gate leg table that can seat 2-6 people and I followed instructions/a plan w the help of a vocationalist. but I’m really proud of it!
So now I’m home. I did enjoy making the table, it kept me busy. I’ve signed up for a general carpentry course, but I’m not exactly going to get the carpentry certificate thing, it’ll just introduce me to tools and lumber I hope. Because I think I came up with another crazy dream. I’m still working on the other crazy dream, which is to become a bodybuilder. But this crazy dream is to have my very own business (like have my own web site n all!) building really nice wood furniture! It’ll take some time and money to start…….for the first time, I think I can do it! I dunno, maybe I’m just in a good mood right now. Maybe cause I’m on vacation, maybe cause me n my aunt had a great conversation this morning.

*** I choose bodybuilding bc it gives me personally a sense of independence and acheivement

chiquita6683

Ok, I just back after gallivanting around this afternoon. Me n my aunt talked my dad into getting a pedicure for the very first time! I’m positive it was a very good experience for him and I hope he’ll become a regular at it. I was joking w him afterwards, “you should tell your podiatrist, that you probably won’t need him anymore, that your daughter finally introduced you to pedicures,” He always has had the grossest feet! When the nail tech took the scraper to his heels, it was just years and years worth of skin, so gross! When the nail tech was done she had cleaned his cuticles on his toes, trimmed his toenails, and put lotion on and massaged his calves and feet.
So notice here, I’m encouraging guys to go get a pedicure. Now I’m not saying become a high maintenance bitch-boy but u want ur girl to have cute feet too right?
It must be actuated where I live in florida bc I live in flip flops

But u sit in these chairs that vibrate/massage u and u have ur feet in this this tub of water like a mini hot-tub and they even cut ur toenails! Which I know is something u forget to do, I know I do when I go w/out getting 1 for along time. Take care of urself guys(other than working out), go n get 1! I want to see a thread on here somewhere about guys commenting on their first pedicure!

chiquita6683

I really really want to train hard to where I’m starving and come home to something I prepared before hand. (I miss that so much!) My lifestyle right now as well as my dad/aunt ect….. just eat food to get by on, munchies, carbs, barley any protein

chiquita6683

Although, I have to say I am very proud my aunt! She’s a recently retired social worker from Washington D.C. Last time she was here I introduced her to the gym and Bodybuilding.com and she came down months later w a whole new attitude and at least 15lbs lighter. She tells me all about her new gym membership and loves it! Spends hours there! My whole family absolutely loves fitness. My father has a regime, he wakes @5:00 almost everyday and swims 1000 yds. While training for a marathon, my sister injured her knee so she now does Pilates/yoga on DVD. My brother was the captain of his golf team when he was in high school and he now works very hard at his job.

chiquita6683

8-27-04

So lastnite @dinner I told my dad that I want to start going heavy and transform my body. I also explained that bodybuilding is an outlet of independence and achievement. He said wait a minute, a few weeks ago you said you wanted to do figure, which I did, I’m really indecisive but I miss training hard and cooking he said I could do it but not like before. We have separate lifestyles, so back before I had my breakdown I was training 5 days a week and cooking 6 meals a day and none of the meals were protein shakes either. All whole foods, and oh yeah I couldn’t just drive to the gym I had to take a cab. And I don’t live in a place like New York either where I dunno it’s like how it is in the movies n stuff. So back in the day, I was in shape, I felt invincible, I did inappropriate things all the time, but I was stressed as all get out and would never admit to it. But I want it so bad I cant stop thinking/writing about it, and I’m on vacation!

P-funk

Wow, intense stuff.

http://pwtraining.blogspot.com/.....come and see what is on my mind!

http://ivonneberkowitz.blogspot.com/....check out Ivonne's new blog!

Optimum Sports Performance

"In the beginners mind there are many possibilities, in the experts there are few."
-Buddha's Little Instruction Book

chiquita6683

"T-Marie?"(my family nick name since i was little) She said as my aunt kissed me on the cheek. I groaned and rolled over, she giggled. "Me and your dad are gonna go for our morning run", she said as she lazily pulled on a sports bra and running shorts.

chiquita6683

You know, its been really nice here this week. Away from all the drs/therapies/phone calls/appoitments and yes the gym too, and being here with my family. I think it was sort of needed.

chiquita6683

Every story has an end, but in life every ending is a new beginning

chiquita6683

My trainer is competeing tonite. I wish her the best but Im so glad i didnt go to any shows this year

chiquita6683

Im so youn and have so much to learn and still to experience. I need guidance and am open to any suggestions

sftwrngnr

MariA,
Excellent job on journaling. There is nothing wrong with giving your feelings, hopes, dreams an outlet. Part of achieving your goals is writing them down. I don't know that you need to figure out EXACTLY what you are doing in terms of your training. Certainly I'm an advocate of going heavy, but thats just me . It may be too early to decide right now... I don't know. I do know, that you will do whatever you set your mind to, and will be successful at it. If you feel that bodybuilding helps to establish your independence, then go for it girl .

I look forward to following your progress.

D