greekblondechic

hahaha! I love reading this! I agree..everybody tries to live outside their means here! sheesh!

DG-my parents have always been very strict about me going anywhere, and yesterday i was talkin about wanting to go on vacation and my mom's like now you are working save up your money and go! I Was like..nice! I wanna do a roadtrip but I dunno where to.

I can do it

I WILL be a size 5.

naturaltan

Recycling only makes sense. Most, like you've noticed, don't ... but they should. I hear a lot of excuses just like going to the gym ...

Oh well, we just keep doing what we're doing and it will help ... maybe not much, but it's better than not doing anything at all.

just kick'in it in the ole Charger

PreMier

This is great!

P-side Inc.

"the post-workout high is more profound than any drug-induced rush imaginable." -Dante B.

atherjen

Jenny you are AWESOME!!! You should go on Oprah and address the nation with WHY people are obese from your standpoint of moving here!

" To dream anything you want to dream: That is the beauty of the human mind. To do anything you want to do: That is the strength of the human will. To trust yourself to test your limits: that is the courage to succeed."

NPC Southern Classic, June 3rd
NPC Cajun Classic, June 10th
NPC Mississippi State July 22nd

J'Bo

I love the journal jenny.
Get used to the nice ass comments and blunt words from men
Or just give them dirty looks and flex
Better just to ignore though
Peppers are expensive but lettuce is cheap

Love the fact that you bought a Jamis, those are nice bikes and you will really enjoy it

....and thats my $.02

Jenny

Hey guys!

Justin and I had a silly fight last night. It was all my fault He's a patient man, that's for sure. I had two vodka/diet pepsi drinks and that didn't help. He is wonderful.
I'm getting along really well with my roomates! I really like them now and I really like my living situation right now! It's great
Though they won't take a no to a party for an answer I am participating a little bit sometimes and sometimes I'm just not, but it takes a strong person to say no and I'm glad I am

Off to do cardio.. And kiss Justin's butt a little for being so silly yesterday

Jenny

Just had a great run! Good thing I didn't drink more last night, it wouldn't have been so great if I did. Added the alcohol to my total calories yesterday and I was still below 1500, which was low due to all the cardio I was doing.. I need to increase my cals a little bit I think.. My body is feeling great though!

Jenny

Friday:

Meals:
1: 6 whites, 1 yolk, 1 slice lc bread, 1/2 c milk w creamer
2: carb control shake, 1 apple, 20 peanuts
3: 4 oz chicken, 1 slice lc bread, veggies, lc milk, 1 tbsp ff ranch

Workouts:
AM: 40 min running, with some walking when the hills were just toooo high. I really pushed myself today.

ncgirl21

Morning babe!! I just want you to know how much I admire your dedication to living healthy. Your such a beautiful girl and you've got an awesome body. Don't worry about the silly fight- everyone has them. Just wondering, do you know your waist measurements. Your waist is soooo small and I need a goal and I would love for my stomach to be that small.

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Jenny

Hey Andrea Thanks, those words mean a lot! Yeah, I know, silly fights just happen Um, I don't know my waist measurements It's not all that small, I have a very wide bonestructure when it comes to hips and shoulders, so that probably makes it look smaller than it is. I'll measure it when I get a chance

fantasma62

Hey Jenny, don't sweat the little stuff....Silly fights happen in every relationship. I have been married for 8 years and we have our disagreements (I am too much of a doofus to stay mad at her for more than 10 seconds).There is always making up, which is the best part (..mmmh, I am sounding like a song I used to know....).
You are a beautiful young lady and have a great personality, and a kind, kind heart....
Justin would be a fool not to make up with you IPSO FACTO (immediately).

I hope you have a wonderful day!!!!

-Tony-

HIHT: High Intensity Hybrid Training

Jenny

Thanks Tony You're very sweet Justin and I are on the right track again In fact, we're going to the gym together in just a few minutes

fantasma62

-Tony-

HIHT: High Intensity Hybrid Training

Jenny

It's Friday and I'm having my weekly cheat I'm having chocolate Lots

Jenny

Okay, no more weekly cheats. Yesterdays cheat could be described as a binge. I haven't been there in so long that I didn't rememeber what it felt like Don't want to go down that track again So no more cheats like that. I'm allowed treats, not cheats. That has worked so well for me before, I think my stress with all new things took over yesterday when I let go and said "okay, cheat meal". I wanted to try all the things that we don't have in Sweden and had a lot of chocolate And some crackers and party mix. Not good, I feel like shit today. Mostly because of my past. Last night I felt really guilty and I wished I could get it all out. Yes, I wanted to throw up. But that promise I made myself 4 years ago is still valid, I will never do that again. So I didn't. But I do take this seriously, because I was closer to doing it than I've been for a long time. So no more gigantic cheats, it's not worth it. Now I'm just going to enjoy the kick I gabve my metabolism No more weekly cheats

atherjen

I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO proud of you Jenny!! not for going overboard on the cheat, but for reconizing not only where you made a mistake but also not breaking that promise that you made to yourself! That takes a STRONG will!!!
I hope that you get feeling better today, have a great weekend girl!

" To dream anything you want to dream: That is the beauty of the human mind. To do anything you want to do: That is the strength of the human will. To trust yourself to test your limits: that is the courage to succeed."

NPC Southern Classic, June 3rd
NPC Cajun Classic, June 10th
NPC Mississippi State July 22nd

Jenny

Thanks AJ I'm feeling pretty good today. I have a day packed with workouts to look forward to and that helps

Jill

I know these feelings all to well hon. Good thing you made the right choices, otherwise the outcome is horrible, as we know. Its a viscious cycle. It good you know your triggers. And you are right-If you know 'gigantic' cheats have this affect on you, stay away from them. That is why many foods are restricted from my house and diet...Im just afraid I will b/p.

Im really proud oy you darlin. Have a wonderful weekend!

Jenny

Hey Jilly! Thanks Justin and I had a nice talk this morning, he's my little therapist and trouble shooter right now We have a lot of crap in my apartment here, my roomies eat all kinds of stuff. There are Krispy Kremes, cookies everywhere, peanut butter, candy, all kinds of cereal, sugary drinks, pasta, just anything you can think of. It doesn't bother me and I don't touch it. Though if I take away my restrictions and say "let's cheat", then nothing is safe Yesterday wasn't a planned cheat and that was my first mistake. They need to be planned for me or bad stuff can happen. I won't even have cheat meals now, it's not worth it. I'll have a few treats here and there, but the word cheat won't be used anymore. It didn't feel good to be that close to actually thinking about throwing up, it really made me think things through.
On another note, I'm looking pretty darn good today My glycogen stores are filled and my muscles looks pumped I'm hungry as hell, my metabolism is live and kicking I'm having a close to no carb day today though, no carbs necessary in my system

Jenny

Saturday:

Meals:
1: 6 whites, 1 yolk, veggies, lc milk in my coffee
2: 5 oz chicken, veggies, ff ranch, 1 cup lc milk, 1 triscuit
3: carb control shake, 20 peanuts, 1/2 apple
Snack: 1/2 cup lc milk, 1 vodka pepsi drink
4: 1 turkey burger, veggies, 3 triscuits

Workouts:
- Chest and triceps:
Benchpress: 4x7-8
Incline: 4x8-10
DB flyes: 3x8-10
Pushdowns: 4x8
Reverse pushdowns: 4x8
- 30 min hiking

fantasma62

Well Good Morning Jenny!!!


I hope you are doing well today.
I am off to the beach today all day (one of the perks of living in Miami) and plan on using my rest days (weekend) to rest up and take a long walk on the beach with my beautiful wife...Nope, the kids get to stay with my parents in their apartment. Don't worry, they have the apt. at the beach so we won't leave them behind for long

Have a "groovy" day!!!!!!!

-Tony-

HIHT: High Intensity Hybrid Training

lakergirl

hey jenny!!

you are looking so good in your pictures! and its great to know that you will not let yourself slip back into any bad habits. they are hard to get away from, I know. but you are doing so well. and being really smart with eliminating the "cheat" word from your diet. Im happy you know what works for you. It is obviously working! youve come so far. I find you very motivating! I love hearing about your new journey in the US. I am 19, and going into my second year of university in 11 days! I can't wait. I feel like we have some things in common, except you are a tall girl! Im about 5'2 on a loooong day when I am stretching as much as I can manage!

anyway, just wanted to give you my vote of support if ever you feel a bit down, and wanted to let you know you are an inspiration to me! Im glad you are enjoying your new life over here! and that you have Justin to enjoy it with!

have a great day jenny, good luck with the low carb day.. and all the pasta around in your apartment? ah man, Id be insane! that is my weakness!!

So the last shall be first, and the first last.For many are called but few chosen"—Matthew 20:16.

Jenny

Tony, I hope you have a wonderful day at the beach! I miss the beach! The mountains here are soooo pretty though Good call leaving the kids with the grandparents

Laker, thank you so much sweetie! It means a lot. The psychological reasons for what we do are so important to understand in order to change a behaviour and I'm really trying to work with that. yeah, Justin is wonderful to have around. We had such a great talk this morning and he reminded me of all the things I need to focus on instead of being scared of what other people think. I've done that a lot, and still do. The truth is that I've spent way too much of my time worrying about not being good enough instead of being out there ENJOYING life! That has to stop.


I was supposed to go spinning today. Though after my emotional breakdown this morning when I just cried and had all my bottled up stress released, I decided not to. Justin is such an amazing person. He is so wise and he is so wonderful to be around. His never ending support and love means the world to me. He is so insightful and deep too, and just knows how to make me feel better when I'm down. It really is amazíng.

I'm going to stop worrying about what my roomates think when I don't want to go out. It doesn't matter. What I want is what matters. It's just so silly how much I've been seeking approval from other people in my life. Before I was really flirty cause I wanted guys to show that they thought I was hot. That means shit. I need to realise that I AM good enough! Friggin stop worrying about pleasing everyone and have everyone like me. Who friggin cares if they don't??
I'm aware of the fact that this is a process, and it will take some time. But I'm on my way to fulfillment.

Justin and I are going hiking in the mountains today instead of me going spinning. I just felt like I really needed to get out in the wild for some time to be able to breath and relax. It has always been a way for me to unwind.

david

Oh Jenny... Oh Jenny...o-o- girl, I LOVE this journal! OMG, what have I been missing! I read it from post one to here! Wow! Well, it's amazing of the lifestyles that you're learning from your roommates to the American society in general!

1) Well, I'm going to start developing small tours for the band and I will definitely make sure it crosses through your area!

2) Try to make a point to come down to Florida (Central or South) so I can come visit you and Justin. I'll make sure the band plays there as well!

Have a great weekend/week, Jenny!

Rocco32

Hey Jenny, just finished reading everything. You're such an awesome person! Sounds like your doing great. It's normal to be homesick sometimes and to maybe feel isolated when around your roomates because your so different. I bet Justin is a BIG help. I miss him by the way. How's he doing? And when are we getting together? Need to do that before my car dies LOL

I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain...

Eggs

Hey Sweetie

I like the journal... I'll have to stop by more often. Keep kicking ass in the gym, and dont worry about that cheat meal the other night, your metabolism could use a kick with you having so few carbs in your diet generally. But you know that

Have a good day in school tomorrow honey, talk to you around lunch time.

Wuv wou