The chronicles of a swedish stress nut

Jenny · 11-16-2004, 04:46 PM

Aggie

I'm going to have to order some

Jill · 11-16-2004, 06:17 PM

All this pb talk...weird cause I was just at the grocery store staring at all the jars of pb. Comparing labels and such.... not ready for pb in the house...yet

Jenny · 11-16-2004, 06:21 PM

Aww, you'll be ready soon enough Jill

Good job on not buying it, I'm proud of you

Jill · 11-16-2004, 06:41 PM

I bought sf ff pudding instead

greekblondechic · 11-16-2004, 09:27 PM

Ohhh I want PB too, but I'm with Jilly, I don't think it's safe yet

Jenny · 11-17-2004, 09:15 PM

Pb wasn't safe for me tonight

I had like 8 tablespoons

Good thing my carbies were low at least

Jill · 11-17-2004, 09:22 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Jenny

Pb wasn't safe for me tonight

I had like 8 tablespoons

Good thing my carbies were low at least

Jenny · 11-17-2004, 09:35 PM

Yep, will have to be a lot of running on 9 tomorrow

Cals were high today, like 1800

ncgirl21 · 11-18-2004, 07:29 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Jenny

Yep, will have to be a lot of running on 9 tomorrow

Cals were high today, like 1800

That's really not high sweetie, it's probably still below maintenance for you.

No harm done!

Jenny · 11-18-2004, 07:48 AM

Hehe, you're probably right Andrea. I kicked some butt in the gym this morning, am so tired I can hardly write.. Biked to the gym, 50 min on elleptical, 450 cals burned, biked home.. Now I'm just about ready for a day laying in bed watching tv

Too bad I have classes and stuff all day

I'm keeping my eyes on the goal, Thanksgiving break in 6 days

Jenny · 11-18-2004, 07:54 AM

This Saturday is "Jenny's birthday surprise day" that my roomies will throw. My 21st birthday is on Nov 28th and that's during Thanksgiving break, which means everybody will be gone. So the roomsters are celebrating me this saturday. I'm excited, but I am also worried about the food. There will probably be som sort of crappy food.. I hope they won't throw a party for me, cause really it would be all of their friends and not mine. They'll probably take me out to eat and stuff, which should make me be able to choose some healthy stuff. There will most definitely be cake, but a little piece won't kill me. My game plan is to run early in the AM, only eat eggwhites for b-fast and all the meals I can control will be low fat and low carb. That way the carbs I do get in form of probably pure sugar won't do as much damage. There will most likely be alcohol too, but I will limit that as much as possible. I can do this

It's pretty silly how I worry and plan when I should just enjoy and have a good time

But I know that I'll feel like crap if I just go all out, because I plan on having some cheats over Thanksgiving.

I can do this

Jenny · 11-19-2004, 06:07 AM

Lately I've been stressing a bit about me coming home to Sweden. I'm reeeeeally looking forward to it and it's going to be so wonderful seeing my family again

I miss them all so much! And my friends too! But I've been stressing and thinking "I want to be soo lean when I get home, I want them all to say WOW Jenny, you've lost so much weight!!". This is just plain silly. I know I've lost quite a bit of weight here, all the pants I brought from home are too big and I had to buy new ones, but still.. Since I'm spending Christmas with Justin's family I've been stressing about wanting them to think I'm an absolute hottie too. Come on Jen, do you think Grandmas and aunts will care if you have a six pack or a four pack?? No

This thinking is silly and I need to stop stressing and worrying like this. I do this all the time too.. Takes sooo much energy that I could use elsewhere

Alright, glad I got that off my chest

The stress nut is defeated, for now

gwcaton · 11-19-2004, 06:53 AM

Hang in there Jenny

greekblondechic · 11-19-2004, 07:31 AM

The only one seeing you naked thinks you are a total and complete hottie already

Jenny · 11-19-2004, 07:43 AM

Gary, thanks

I'm trying

Greeky, you're right sweetie

He's very good at expressing it too

Had another nutty run this morning.. 7.5, then 8 and a couple mins on 9. 460 cals burned in 35 mins

Jenny · 11-19-2004, 07:45 AM

I'm going to buy a heart rate moniter today. Hopefully, I'm at least going to look for one. I had a polar a couple of years ago and loved it. It's fun to track heart rate and calories burned more accurately

fantasma62 · 11-19-2004, 08:26 AM

Hey beautiful, how've you been?

Nothing better than writing or saying things to let out some steam. After I just wrote that, I realized I could have done the same thing the last couple of months, but instead, I have been out of the loop and out of the boards almost completely.
I have seen your photos, how much prettier do you want to get? Are you trying to give Justin's family a heart attack?

I imagine he has older peeps in his family that may just pass out after you get there. You are already a knockout

What you may not know, and I am betting on it, is that Justin is the one thanking his lucky stars that he found you

...nah, you already know that...
Yeah, yeah, I know, I haven't been by here in a long time...that's me, what can I say....

Jill · 11-19-2004, 08:41 AM

I think you need to find the real reason you seek everybodys approval. JMO

You are just too hard on yourself sometimes.

Jenny · 11-19-2004, 01:02 PM

TONY!! Hey man, how have you been!? I've missed you around here

Thank you for all your sweet words

Jill, I know

And I am.. I've talked about it in therapy lots a while back and Justin and I are talking about it too. We had a long therapy session last week

I know what it all comes down to and I know why I feel I need it, because of things in the past. But knowing that doesn't automaticly change my need for approval. It's constant work and a constant re-evaluation of things.. I know I'm hard on myself and a perfectionist, just like you

Jill · 11-19-2004, 03:40 PM

Ahhhh yes the approval issues....I guess I picked em out cause I can relate too

PreMier · 11-19-2004, 04:43 PM

This is oh so stupid, but funny. http://www.scrolllock.nl/

P.s. You have my approval. You are FINE!

Jenny · 11-19-2004, 10:00 PM

Jill, yeah, we are alike in some ways

You're doing so great with everything sweets

Jake, that was adorable!

So cute! Thanks, it made me smile

Jill · 11-20-2004, 10:48 AM

Whats on the agenda this weekend sweets??

Jenny · 11-20-2004, 02:37 PM

Well tonight it's roomies surprise Jenny night

I went shopping with my friend today, got a great deal on a pair of real sexy high heels and purses

Had a crazy workout on the treadmill this morning, craziest yet. Figured I would eat and drink some not ideal stuff today so I wanted to prepare

over an hour on the treadmill, running on 7.5-8.5. Good times.
Trying to figure out what to wear tonight

So far I've only eaten healthy, will try to make it as clean as possible.

greekblondechic · 11-20-2004, 03:23 PM

Sexy heels

You should wear those with a mini skirt and cute top and thigh highs

Jenny · 11-20-2004, 05:26 PM

Hehe

I'm not going to wear that, but I will wear something nice

Jenny · 11-21-2004, 09:16 PM

It was a rough night

Jenny · 11-21-2004, 09:21 PM

Um, some pics

Jill · 11-21-2004, 10:10 PM

You look soooooooo cute!! Adorable pics!

More, more, more!!!

That was great of your roomies to throw a party for ya. Did you get smashed?

Did you run today?

Jenny · 11-22-2004, 06:19 AM

I did not run yesterday

Don't even know if I can run today. I got wasted... I never drink like that!! But my roomies kept filling up my glass, it was never empty

And all the shots and shooters

They started writing I

Sweden on arms and stuff and then I took over and wrote it on peoples tummies and stuff too

11-16-2004, 09:27 PM	#95
greekblondechic I'm special :) Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: NJ Posts: 7,791	Ohhh I want PB too, but I'm with Jilly, I don't think it's safe yet
	I can do it I WILL be a size 5.

11-19-2004, 06:53 AM	#103
gwcaton Lookin' for abs ! Elite Member Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: central missouri Posts: 9,271 Photos: 28	Hang in there Jenny
	My Last Journal Before The One You're Reading Now Old Journals : My P/RR/S Journal My GWcaton Journal My Bulking Journal Just remember, when you think you're done you've just started . DEADBOLT . 2005

11-19-2004, 07:31 AM	#104
greekblondechic I'm special :) Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: NJ Posts: 7,791	The only one seeing you naked thinks you are a total and complete hottie already
	I can do it I WILL be a size 5.

11-19-2004, 08:26 AM	#107
fantasma62 HIHT Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: SoFla Posts: 2,516	Hey beautiful, how've you been? Nothing better than writing or saying things to let out some steam. After I just wrote that, I realized I could have done the same thing the last couple of months, but instead, I have been out of the loop and out of the boards almost completely. I have seen your photos, how much prettier do you want to get? Are you trying to give Justin's family a heart attack? I imagine he has older peeps in his family that may just pass out after you get there. You are already a knockout What you may not know, and I am betting on it, is that Justin is the one thanking his lucky stars that he found you ...nah, you already know that... Yeah, yeah, I know, I haven't been by here in a long time...that's me, what can I say....
	-Tony- HIHT: High Intensity Hybrid Training

11-19-2004, 04:43 PM	#111
PreMier happy sumo Elite Member Join Date: Sep 2003 Posts: 21,300 Photos: 2	This is oh so stupid, but funny. http://www.scrolllock.nl/ P.s. You have my approval. You are FINE!
	P-side Inc. "the post-workout high is more profound than any drug-induced rush imaginable." -Dante B.

11-16-2004, 04:46 PM	#91
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	Aggie I'm going to have to order some

11-16-2004, 06:17 PM	#92
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	All this pb talk...weird cause I was just at the grocery store staring at all the jars of pb. Comparing labels and such.... not ready for pb in the house...yet

11-16-2004, 06:21 PM	#93
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	Aww, you'll be ready soon enough Jill Good job on not buying it, I'm proud of you

11-16-2004, 06:41 PM	#94
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	I bought sf ff pudding instead

11-17-2004, 09:15 PM	#96
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	Pb wasn't safe for me tonight I had like 8 tablespoons Good thing my carbies were low at least

11-17-2004, 09:35 PM	#98
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	Yep, will have to be a lot of running on 9 tomorrow Cals were high today, like 1800

11-18-2004, 07:48 AM	#100
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	Hehe, you're probably right Andrea. I kicked some butt in the gym this morning, am so tired I can hardly write.. Biked to the gym, 50 min on elleptical, 450 cals burned, biked home.. Now I'm just about ready for a day laying in bed watching tv Too bad I have classes and stuff all day I'm keeping my eyes on the goal, Thanksgiving break in 6 days

11-18-2004, 07:54 AM	#101
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	This Saturday is "Jenny's birthday surprise day" that my roomies will throw. My 21st birthday is on Nov 28th and that's during Thanksgiving break, which means everybody will be gone. So the roomsters are celebrating me this saturday. I'm excited, but I am also worried about the food. There will probably be som sort of crappy food.. I hope they won't throw a party for me, cause really it would be all of their friends and not mine. They'll probably take me out to eat and stuff, which should make me be able to choose some healthy stuff. There will most definitely be cake, but a little piece won't kill me. My game plan is to run early in the AM, only eat eggwhites for b-fast and all the meals I can control will be low fat and low carb. That way the carbs I do get in form of probably pure sugar won't do as much damage. There will most likely be alcohol too, but I will limit that as much as possible. I can do this It's pretty silly how I worry and plan when I should just enjoy and have a good time But I know that I'll feel like crap if I just go all out, because I plan on having some cheats over Thanksgiving. I can do this

11-19-2004, 06:07 AM	#102
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	Lately I've been stressing a bit about me coming home to Sweden. I'm reeeeeally looking forward to it and it's going to be so wonderful seeing my family again I miss them all so much! And my friends too! But I've been stressing and thinking "I want to be soo lean when I get home, I want them all to say WOW Jenny, you've lost so much weight!!". This is just plain silly. I know I've lost quite a bit of weight here, all the pants I brought from home are too big and I had to buy new ones, but still.. Since I'm spending Christmas with Justin's family I've been stressing about wanting them to think I'm an absolute hottie too. Come on Jen, do you think Grandmas and aunts will care if you have a six pack or a four pack?? No This thinking is silly and I need to stop stressing and worrying like this. I do this all the time too.. Takes sooo much energy that I could use elsewhere Alright, glad I got that off my chest The stress nut is defeated, for now

11-19-2004, 07:43 AM	#105
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	Gary, thanks I'm trying Greeky, you're right sweetie He's very good at expressing it too Had another nutty run this morning.. 7.5, then 8 and a couple mins on 9. 460 cals burned in 35 mins

11-19-2004, 07:45 AM	#106
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	I'm going to buy a heart rate moniter today. Hopefully, I'm at least going to look for one. I had a polar a couple of years ago and loved it. It's fun to track heart rate and calories burned more accurately

11-19-2004, 08:41 AM	#108
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	I think you need to find the real reason you seek everybodys approval. JMO You are just too hard on yourself sometimes.

11-19-2004, 01:02 PM	#109
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	TONY!! Hey man, how have you been!? I've missed you around here Thank you for all your sweet words Jill, I know And I am.. I've talked about it in therapy lots a while back and Justin and I are talking about it too. We had a long therapy session last week I know what it all comes down to and I know why I feel I need it, because of things in the past. But knowing that doesn't automaticly change my need for approval. It's constant work and a constant re-evaluation of things.. I know I'm hard on myself and a perfectionist, just like you

11-19-2004, 03:40 PM	#110
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	Ahhhh yes the approval issues....I guess I picked em out cause I can relate too

11-19-2004, 10:00 PM	#112
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	Jill, yeah, we are alike in some ways You're doing so great with everything sweets Jake, that was adorable! So cute! Thanks, it made me smile

11-20-2004, 10:48 AM	#113
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	Whats on the agenda this weekend sweets??

11-20-2004, 02:37 PM	#114
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	Well tonight it's roomies surprise Jenny night I went shopping with my friend today, got a great deal on a pair of real sexy high heels and purses Had a crazy workout on the treadmill this morning, craziest yet. Figured I would eat and drink some not ideal stuff today so I wanted to prepare over an hour on the treadmill, running on 7.5-8.5. Good times. Trying to figure out what to wear tonight So far I've only eaten healthy, will try to make it as clean as possible.

11-20-2004, 03:23 PM	#115
greekblondechic I'm special :) Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: NJ Posts: 7,791	Sexy heels You should wear those with a mini skirt and cute top and thigh highs
	I can do it I WILL be a size 5.

11-20-2004, 05:26 PM	#116
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	Hehe I'm not going to wear that, but I will wear something nice

11-21-2004, 09:16 PM	#117
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	It was a rough night

11-21-2004, 10:10 PM	#119
Jill Back to reality Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: Re-Motivated Posts: 5,861	You look soooooooo cute!! Adorable pics! More, more, more!!! That was great of your roomies to throw a party for ya. Did you get smashed? Did you run today?

11-22-2004, 06:19 AM	#120
Jenny Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: May 2001 Posts: 6,728	I did not run yesterday Don't even know if I can run today. I got wasted... I never drink like that!! But my roomies kept filling up my glass, it was never empty And all the shots and shooters They started writing I Sweden on arms and stuff and then I took over and wrote it on peoples tummies and stuff too