Goodbye bad influences

Candy · 12-13-2004, 02:07 PM

Hi. Im sure no one remembers me. I've had a journal here before probably a year ago.

My main goal was to help people with disordered eating, since I had conquered it, or so it seemed. I would travel the bords and websites over the interenet, and preach to my friends, blah blah blah.

Then I got engaged. I had a blog on a website and I used to talk to girls that had eating disorders daily. I would try and cheer them up, motivate, I dont know, SOMETHING.

Long story short, the stress of the engagement, and the bad influences of the girls I was talking to...... pulled me down into that world.

i feel guilty now if I eat 300 calories of protein a day.

I think I'll be okay, I know that this does not work. I've lost alot of weight that I worked very hard to gain. But that's okay. I'll learn from this.

I hope that no one minds if I place my little journal here. I'm not trying to litter, but this website I visit everyday, and I dont want to post in my old blog.

So - here goes! A new beginning I guess.

p.s. and for losing weight you'd never know, I look like crap.

I'm all squishy in the middle and my hips actually got bigger.

Paynne · 12-13-2004, 02:21 PM

Welcome back! A journal is the best thing you can do, you're not littering at all but please don't feed the animals

. You sure look great in your gallery pix. Good luck

Candy · 12-13-2004, 02:31 PM

thank you. I dont think i look so hot, but we are our own worst critics.

Luke9583 · 12-13-2004, 03:20 PM

Quote:

i feel guilty now if I eat 300 calories of protein a day.

That's only like 65g

Candy · 12-13-2004, 03:28 PM

no no no no. I would eat 300 calories A DAY. all of them coming from protein.

ex. I could eat two cans of tuna a day. If I ate anthing more, I was overeating.

Luke9583 · 12-13-2004, 03:30 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Candy

no no no no. I would eat 300 calories A DAY. all of them coming from protein.

ex. I could eat two cans of tuna a day. If I ate anthing more, I was overeating.

CANDY! That's disgusting

Candy · 12-13-2004, 03:41 PM

I know.

tuna is sooo gross....by itself. Out of the can. I'm getting ready to leave. Bye!

simbh · 12-13-2004, 04:31 PM

Ya , good luck with your goals...

Im getting used to tuna. I eat it out of the can all the time. I just poor out the water and I give it to my cats. For me , the tuna is easier to eat if you have no water in it ... Doesnt taste as bad.

Anyways , Ill say the same thing , as some did , you look great in your galery pictures , but please , eat more !

tenxyearsxgone · 12-13-2004, 04:57 PM

missouri i have cousins in branson county...lots of hicks man...i love it...odessa

gwcaton · 12-13-2004, 06:43 PM

Welcome back Candy !

**Emma-Leigh** · 12-13-2004, 09:43 PM

Hello and welcome back!

Congratulations on taking the plunge to get back on track with your health and diet. A journal is a great way to keep yourself honest and to help you evaluate your decisions... It is also good as there are lots of helpful people here who will help you out as well!!

Good luck with everything...

Candy · 12-14-2004, 08:20 AM

ew. I could not eat tuna w/ the water in it anyway.

Yesterday's diet was allright but I'll start posting diets today. And I sucked so bad at the gym yesterday. I worked on shoulders. I was going to do triceps too but I suck.

Today I want to do legs. Thats what I'm feeling today. I dont really have a schedule or split in mind right now. I'm just doing whatever I feel like doing. I prob. need a goal. I'll get myself all measured and everything and then I'll figure out where I need to be I guess. Sigh.

thanks for the nice words!

Candy · 12-14-2004, 08:25 AM

I'm not a hick??? I live in an urban area. Kansas City.

Candy · 12-14-2004, 08:26 AM

maybe I am.....and i dont know it

RoCk79 · 12-14-2004, 10:45 AM

Good luck Candy, Were all here for you

Candy · 12-14-2004, 12:13 PM

okay today's diet:

m1 = egg + egg whites 1 tbs. natty pb

m2 = 1/2 CUP OATS 1 can greenbeans 1 can tuna
workout
m3 = banana w/ Protein shake

m4 = protein shake carbless

m5 = chicken breast w/ broccoli and 1 sweet potato

okay how is this for today??? Any suggestions? Too many carbs?

gwcaton · 12-14-2004, 12:18 PM

Hmmm don't know if its too many carbs or not. depends on your weight , goals etc but I would flip m2 and m3 if possible. Just my preference though, oatmeal after a workout .

Luke9583 · 12-14-2004, 12:18 PM

Looks like me, except a 1/3 as much

What are your maintainance calories? are you planning on building muscle or lowering body fat?

How many grams of whey in your protein shakes?

ncgirl21 · 12-14-2004, 12:26 PM

Hey Candy

Welcome to IM (or Welcome Back

)

300 calories a day

, I'm glad your eating more now

Your calories still only look like they are around 1100, you may want to increase those slowly. How many eggwhites are you eating? Is your oatmeal measured dry or cooked? I don't think your carbs look high at all, IMO. You could actually take the carb from one of your meals and put them in M1 or just add a carb to M1. That's your first meal of the day and really could be a little bit larger.

Good Luck!

Candy · 12-14-2004, 02:03 PM

Thanks for the advice. I would like to lower bf i have no place trying to add any more muscle right now, imo , but I dunno. My miant. cals are around 1350-1450. I am anywhere around 23-25% bf right now.

Yeah, I guess that is only 1100 calories. I forgot fish oil - do you guys count those calories? do you also count your veggie calories?

Sorry so many questions - how much cardio should I be doing and what kind? It has to be something I can do inside its way too cold. Right now I power walk for anywhere from 20 min , to 45 min -either in the morning or after I workout, thats not enough huh? I really really really hate cardio.

Candy · 12-14-2004, 02:07 PM

oh yeah grams of protein 25 or 28. cant remember. I'll look..........

RoCk79 · 12-14-2004, 02:13 PM

Yeah, cardio blows. I'm no expert on diet, but I do know that a calorie is a calorie, no matter where it comes from, you have to count it.

I got a personal trainer, I hate cardio, he made me do it, and told me that I can't power walk. Something he told me is you need to get your heart rate to a certain point, and keep it there, and you start to burn calories after 20 minutes. So you have to do more then a power walk, to get your target heart rate, and keep it there. I know it sucks....

Candy · 12-14-2004, 02:16 PM

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Luke9583 · 12-14-2004, 02:58 PM

Yea, Fish oil is 'fat'. So 10 calories per gram.

ncgirl21 · 12-14-2004, 03:15 PM

Well, all I do for cardio is walk on my treadmill or ride my stationary bike. It works for me

I usually estimate my veggies, I don't measure them cup for cup.

Candy · 12-14-2004, 03:31 PM

what do you guys think about the banana? I gain fat easily.

ncgirl21 · 12-14-2004, 03:59 PM

I think it's fine if your using it right after your workout. I think oats may be a little better for post workout though. But if you like the banana keep it in there. You need to like the food your eating so you stick with it.

Candy · 12-14-2004, 04:06 PM

no. I'll ditch it. I like bananas and oats the same.

MAYBE TOMORROW WILL LOOK LIKE THIS:
M1 = protein shake w/ 1 tbs natty PB

m2 = 1/2 c. oats w/ 1 scoop PP
workout
m3 = 1/2 c. oats w/ protein shake or PP mixed in i dunno

m4 = tuna w/ 1 can green beans

m5 = chicken w/ broccoli?

maybe i'll switch oats with brown rice in one of those meals. Which is a better carb source?

12-13-2004, 02:07 PM	#1
Candy Registered User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Missouri Posts: 170 Photos: 3	Goodbye bad influences Hi. Im sure no one remembers me. I've had a journal here before probably a year ago. My main goal was to help people with disordered eating, since I had conquered it, or so it seemed. I would travel the bords and websites over the interenet, and preach to my friends, blah blah blah. Then I got engaged. I had a blog on a website and I used to talk to girls that had eating disorders daily. I would try and cheer them up, motivate, I dont know, SOMETHING. Long story short, the stress of the engagement, and the bad influences of the girls I was talking to...... pulled me down into that world. i feel guilty now if I eat 300 calories of protein a day. I think I'll be okay, I know that this does not work. I've lost alot of weight that I worked very hard to gain. But that's okay. I'll learn from this. I hope that no one minds if I place my little journal here. I'm not trying to litter, but this website I visit everyday, and I dont want to post in my old blog. So - here goes! A new beginning I guess. p.s. and for losing weight you'd never know, I look like crap. I'm all squishy in the middle and my hips actually got bigger.

12-13-2004, 02:21 PM	#2
Paynne ╔═╬═╝ Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: Southern NJ Posts: 686	Welcome back! A journal is the best thing you can do, you're not littering at all but please don't feed the animals. You sure look great in your gallery pix. Good luck

12-13-2004, 04:31 PM	#8
simbh Simon Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: Greater Ottawa Region , Canada Posts: 986 Photos: 4	Ya , good luck with your goals... Im getting used to tuna. I eat it out of the can all the time. I just poor out the water and I give it to my cats. For me , the tuna is easier to eat if you have no water in it ... Doesnt taste as bad. Anyways , Ill say the same thing , as some did , you look great in your galery pictures , but please , eat more !
	When a goal is reached comes satisfaction . You're accomplished as a person when you surpass those goals .

12-13-2004, 04:57 PM	#9
tenxyearsxgone Registered User Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: long island Posts: 370	missouri i have cousins in branson county...lots of hicks man...i love it...odessa
	Squat: 5x5: 295lbs Bench: 1x4: 275 Dead: 1x1: 475

12-13-2004, 06:43 PM	#10
gwcaton Lookin' for abs ! Elite Member Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: central missouri Posts: 9,271 Photos: 28	Welcome back Candy !
	My Last Journal Before The One You're Reading Now Old Journals : My P/RR/S Journal My GWcaton Journal My Bulking Journal Just remember, when you think you're done you've just started . DEADBOLT . 2005

12-13-2004, 02:31 PM	#3
Candy Registered User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Missouri Posts: 170 Photos: 3	thank you. I dont think i look so hot, but we are our own worst critics.

12-13-2004, 03:28 PM	#5
Candy Registered User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Missouri Posts: 170 Photos: 3	no no no no. I would eat 300 calories A DAY. all of them coming from protein. ex. I could eat two cans of tuna a day. If I ate anthing more, I was overeating.

12-13-2004, 03:41 PM	#7
Candy Registered User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Missouri Posts: 170 Photos: 3	I know. tuna is sooo gross....by itself. Out of the can. I'm getting ready to leave. Bye!

12-13-2004, 09:43 PM	#11
Emma-Leigh Acting Normal... Moderator Join Date: Mar 2004 Location: Different shades of black Posts: 5,554	Hello and welcome back! Congratulations on taking the plunge to get back on track with your health and diet. A journal is a great way to keep yourself honest and to help you evaluate your decisions... It is also good as there are lots of helpful people here who will help you out as well!! Good luck with everything...

12-14-2004, 08:20 AM	#12
Candy Registered User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Missouri Posts: 170 Photos: 3	ew. I could not eat tuna w/ the water in it anyway. Yesterday's diet was allright but I'll start posting diets today. And I sucked so bad at the gym yesterday. I worked on shoulders. I was going to do triceps too but I suck. Today I want to do legs. Thats what I'm feeling today. I dont really have a schedule or split in mind right now. I'm just doing whatever I feel like doing. I prob. need a goal. I'll get myself all measured and everything and then I'll figure out where I need to be I guess. Sigh. thanks for the nice words!

12-14-2004, 08:25 AM	#13
Candy Registered User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Missouri Posts: 170 Photos: 3	I'm not a hick??? I live in an urban area. Kansas City.

12-14-2004, 08:26 AM	#14
Candy Registered User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Missouri Posts: 170 Photos: 3	maybe I am.....and i dont know it

12-14-2004, 10:45 AM	#15
RoCk79 The one and only.... Join Date: Nov 2001 Location: Arizona Posts: 896 Photos: 9	Good luck Candy, Were all here for you
	Only one holding you back is yourself...It's time to let go.... .......Tebo

12-14-2004, 12:13 PM	#16
Candy Registered User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Missouri Posts: 170 Photos: 3	okay today's diet: m1 = egg + egg whites 1 tbs. natty pb m2 = 1/2 CUP OATS 1 can greenbeans 1 can tuna workout m3 = banana w/ Protein shake m4 = protein shake carbless m5 = chicken breast w/ broccoli and 1 sweet potato okay how is this for today??? Any suggestions? Too many carbs?
	" I cannot be defeated; the only thing that can defeat me is my mind." In life, if you don't stand for something, You will fall for everything. And if you keep trying to be everything you're not, You'll end up missing out on Everything you were meant to be.

12-14-2004, 12:18 PM	#17
gwcaton Lookin' for abs ! Elite Member Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: central missouri Posts: 9,271 Photos: 28	Hmmm don't know if its too many carbs or not. depends on your weight , goals etc but I would flip m2 and m3 if possible. Just my preference though, oatmeal after a workout .
	My Last Journal Before The One You're Reading Now Old Journals : My P/RR/S Journal My GWcaton Journal My Bulking Journal Just remember, when you think you're done you've just started . DEADBOLT . 2005

12-14-2004, 12:18 PM	#18
Luke9583 Lucky Luke Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: idaho Posts: 5,379 Photos: 9	Looks like me, except a 1/3 as much What are your maintainance calories? are you planning on building muscle or lowering body fat? How many grams of whey in your protein shakes?
	New goal for 2005, 190lbs @ 7% bf "She Blew my nose, and then she blew my mind"

12-14-2004, 12:26 PM	#19
ncgirl21 Registered User Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: North Carolina Posts: 2,134	Hey Candy Welcome to IM (or Welcome Back ) 300 calories a day , I'm glad your eating more now Your calories still only look like they are around 1100, you may want to increase those slowly. How many eggwhites are you eating? Is your oatmeal measured dry or cooked? I don't think your carbs look high at all, IMO. You could actually take the carb from one of your meals and put them in M1 or just add a carb to M1. That's your first meal of the day and really could be a little bit larger. Good Luck!
	http://stephlg.proboards44.com/index.cgi#general

12-14-2004, 02:03 PM	#20
Candy Registered User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Missouri Posts: 170 Photos: 3	Thanks for the advice. I would like to lower bf i have no place trying to add any more muscle right now, imo , but I dunno. My miant. cals are around 1350-1450. I am anywhere around 23-25% bf right now. Yeah, I guess that is only 1100 calories. I forgot fish oil - do you guys count those calories? do you also count your veggie calories? Sorry so many questions - how much cardio should I be doing and what kind? It has to be something I can do inside its way too cold. Right now I power walk for anywhere from 20 min , to 45 min -either in the morning or after I workout, thats not enough huh? I really really really hate cardio.
	" I cannot be defeated; the only thing that can defeat me is my mind." In life, if you don't stand for something, You will fall for everything. And if you keep trying to be everything you're not, You'll end up missing out on Everything you were meant to be.

12-14-2004, 02:07 PM	#21
Candy Registered User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Missouri Posts: 170 Photos: 3	oh yeah grams of protein 25 or 28. cant remember. I'll look..........
	" I cannot be defeated; the only thing that can defeat me is my mind." In life, if you don't stand for something, You will fall for everything. And if you keep trying to be everything you're not, You'll end up missing out on Everything you were meant to be.

12-14-2004, 02:13 PM	#22
RoCk79 The one and only.... Join Date: Nov 2001 Location: Arizona Posts: 896 Photos: 9	Yeah, cardio blows. I'm no expert on diet, but I do know that a calorie is a calorie, no matter where it comes from, you have to count it. I got a personal trainer, I hate cardio, he made me do it, and told me that I can't power walk. Something he told me is you need to get your heart rate to a certain point, and keep it there, and you start to burn calories after 20 minutes. So you have to do more then a power walk, to get your target heart rate, and keep it there. I know it sucks....
	Only one holding you back is yourself...It's time to let go.... .......Tebo

12-14-2004, 02:16 PM	#23
Candy Registered User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Missouri Posts: 170 Photos: 3	NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
	" I cannot be defeated; the only thing that can defeat me is my mind." In life, if you don't stand for something, You will fall for everything. And if you keep trying to be everything you're not, You'll end up missing out on Everything you were meant to be.

12-14-2004, 02:58 PM	#24
Luke9583 Lucky Luke Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: idaho Posts: 5,379 Photos: 9	Yea, Fish oil is 'fat'. So 10 calories per gram.
	New goal for 2005, 190lbs @ 7% bf "She Blew my nose, and then she blew my mind"

12-14-2004, 03:15 PM	#25
ncgirl21 Registered User Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: North Carolina Posts: 2,134	Well, all I do for cardio is walk on my treadmill or ride my stationary bike. It works for me I usually estimate my veggies, I don't measure them cup for cup.
	http://stephlg.proboards44.com/index.cgi#general

12-14-2004, 03:31 PM	#26
Candy Registered User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Missouri Posts: 170 Photos: 3	what do you guys think about the banana? I gain fat easily.
	" I cannot be defeated; the only thing that can defeat me is my mind." In life, if you don't stand for something, You will fall for everything. And if you keep trying to be everything you're not, You'll end up missing out on Everything you were meant to be.

12-14-2004, 03:59 PM	#27
ncgirl21 Registered User Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: North Carolina Posts: 2,134	I think it's fine if your using it right after your workout. I think oats may be a little better for post workout though. But if you like the banana keep it in there. You need to like the food your eating so you stick with it.
	http://stephlg.proboards44.com/index.cgi#general

12-14-2004, 04:06 PM	#28
Candy Registered User Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Missouri Posts: 170 Photos: 3	no. I'll ditch it. I like bananas and oats the same. MAYBE TOMORROW WILL LOOK LIKE THIS: M1 = protein shake w/ 1 tbs natty PB m2 = 1/2 c. oats w/ 1 scoop PP workout m3 = 1/2 c. oats w/ protein shake or PP mixed in i dunno m4 = tuna w/ 1 can green beans m5 = chicken w/ broccoli? maybe i'll switch oats with brown rice in one of those meals. Which is a better carb source?
	" I cannot be defeated; the only thing that can defeat me is my mind." In life, if you don't stand for something, You will fall for everything. And if you keep trying to be everything you're not, You'll end up missing out on Everything you were meant to be.