Thread: MonStar's Journal: No More Bullsh*t!

Tuesday; 3-15-2005

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Good back workout today, I was in the gym about 45 minutes today. I looked back on one of my old journals and I am really going to keep things nice and simple with my workouts. Going to go heavy like I always have, and really focus on hitting each intended musclegroup hard.

Support Rows
2 sets of 3 with 300
3 sets of 7 with 235

CG Cable Pulldowns
6 sets of 3 with 275

Nautilus Pullovers
3 sets of 9 with 260

Bentover DB Lateral Raises
2 sets of 12 with the 30's

Started off with good old chest-supported rows today, love this apparatus! Started off with 6 plates for 2 sets of 3, not bad at all. Absolutely CRUSHED my manhood though, I might add, ouch. Did high-set/low-rep work with CG pulldowns, used almost the entire stack. Moved onto some pullovers and then some bentover laterals, nice workout.

Diet/Supplements:
- whole-wheat peanut butter toast, 100mg T3, 40mg nolva
- 1 scoop of Swole preworkout, 200mg caffeine
- 1 scoop of whey protein postworkout
- whole-wheat tuna salad sandwich
- grilled steak soft taco
- grilled chicken, broccoli + cheese
- ?

Sleep: 1 + 6.5 hours.

Weight: 226.5 lbs.

Feel FAT AS HELL today because I have pigged out probably the past 2 weeks in a row. Ben & Jerry's nonstop, Taco Bell, complete junkfood that I am ashamed to even post here in my journal. This sh*t has got to stop.

why do you keep running t3 if your binging all the time?

so he can binge and get away with it.

GL mike

youre too fucking hard on yourself. It's just a sport, something you should enjoy. Have some fun with it and you will see some better results.

Yanick: Just like Cold Iron said, if I am binging on a regular basis obviously I need the T3 even more to keep my bodyfat % somewhat low.

Cold Iron: I agree, bro. I really do need to take it easy on myself. Lately I have been striving for perfection and I am getting absolutely nowhere doing that. I need to realize that sometimes I am going to cheat on my diet and I just need to live with that fact. No one is perfect, and I need to stop expecting myself to never crave bad food, etc.

I don't ever have cravings as bad as you, and if I do I rarely act upon them. When you feel these things coming on, why can't you just go to the kitchen cook up some chicken or eggs and stuff yourself on that.

I don't know what to say. I think we all want you to succeed. Maybe you take a week or so off from everything and do what you want to do, eat what you want to eat, etc. and just ask yourself if bodybuilding is the right thing for you. Maybe you'd be much better off working your ass off trying to get as big as possible, but not dieting or supplementing like an Arnold or Ronnie. You wouldn't feel bad going to eat all that crap anymore, thats for sure.

It's all about accountability ......not starting new journals


So I guess my reverse psychology didn't work in your other thread, eh?

I get cravings when I miss meals myself. So sticking to a diet pretty much solves that problem, so long as life doesn't get in the way.

Ditto to what Mudge said. My binging/Cravings occur when I miss meals or haven't laid them out.

Maybe consider forgeting about the Scale.

I'm afraid there's no solution to this without some kind of professional help. Good luck Mike

soxmuscle: Honestly man, I know weight-training is for me. I look forward to the gym probably more than anything else in my life. I haven't taken more than a week or two off of lifting weights since I was 12-13 years old. My problem has always been my diet, honestly. Binging, dieting down, and binging again. But honestly---my diet has never stopped me from gaining. I have always grown like a weed so to speak. Always hit new PR's all the time, always done well on every program I have ever tried, more or less.

About my diet, I really don't know what to do. All I am going to concentrate on honestly is eating MORE. The only thing I can think of by my body having this intense cravings constantly, is me not taking in enough food. I mean there's no other reason I would get such intense cravings so frequently.

Cold Iron: The reverse psychology honestly I would say did work for the most part. It was motivation to prove people wrong, in a sense. But the bottom line is that I really need to keep my diet clean for myself, not to prove people wrong.

Mudge: Agreed, and I am the same way. But unfortunately I frequently end up missing meals, due to my work schedule. But I completely agree that missing meals definitely leads to cravings.

IainDaniel: Agreed, I definitely pay too much attention to the scale and not enough attention to the mirror. I really need to concentrate more on how my midsection looks, etc.

Duncans Donuts: I am going to see what happens with this journal. And if for some reason I end up binging out of control and starting a new journal---I might consider getting some kind of professional help. This whole thing is getting out of control.

Originally Posted by MonStar

Yanick: Just like Cold Iron said, if I am binging on a regular basis obviously I need the T3 even more to keep my bodyfat % somewhat low.

don't get too offended by this...but that is just fuckin stupid. you have no self control so you're gonna rely on drugs to keep you lean? you remind me of all of my stupid friends who don't have the determination to get big so they just juice their heads off and think they actually accomplished something. I've been fat for pretty much as long as i can remember, and there was a time in my life where i straight up did not have the dedication/will power to cut...a situation similar to yours. I came to terms with being fat, i didn't start pumping my body full of shit to get lean. you either do it right or you don't do it at all, don't rely on crutches.

i'm not even mentioning all the health deteriorating effects of all the bs you're putting in your body. get some self control and stop this madness. its all in your head.

Yanick: I agree that it is a weak way of staying lean, that's for sure. I can't imagine what my % of bodyfat would be if I binged constantly the way that I do and I didn't take T3, or sodium usinate, or ephedrine, or other fat-burning drugs that I have used in the past. It would probably be outrageous. Because honestly when I am taking these drugs and still gaining fat, I know that I would have to be putting on massive amounts of bodyfat without them. Bottom line is that I really need to get my diet in order. Keep sugar to a minimum, etc.

Do you think you are possibly binging and using the excuse "well its fine that I ate 15 tacos and 24 burritos because I am on T3?" I know its only creatine but sometimes for me if I feel I missed a set or did a few poor sets in a workout, or hell even if I had a whole bad workout I use the excuse that its alright, the creatine will keep me growing. Just saying.

Bottom line is that I really need to get my diet in order. Keep sugar to a minimum, etc.

yeah, that is the key. you say that though and I look at your diet, aside form the binging I mean (the stuff you post), and it fucking sucks!! Like, not even close. And I just think to myself "no wonder this kid can't get it together. his diet is shit."

soxmuscle: Yeah, I think that is partly my thinking. Well, honestly it was more my thinking when I was on sodium usinate. I would think in the middle of binging, oh well, I am sure I won't gain much bodyfat because my body temperature is through the roof on sodium usinate. Which is obviously a very wrong way of thinking.

Patrick: Overall, I just try and limit my sugar. I don't try and keep an overly strict diet at all. If I did, I would most definitely binge like crazy. I can't even imagine. Eating an overall clean diet has been the only way I have been able to stick to any kind of diet at all.

If you want it, just do it. No bitching, no excuses.

I try to keep that in mind for myself, either I make it or I dont.

Mudge: I agree, bro. And I honestly need to keep that mindset, and I think hopefully I'll be able to stick it out this time around. I was doing good for a while and then I started slipping up, and then I just lost control and started binging almost every single night.

Originally Posted by Mudge

If you want it, just do it. No bitching, no excuses.

I try to keep that in mind for myself, either I make it or I dont.

Exactly! It comes down to how badly you want it in the end.

Good luck Mike.

Monstar, once you learn what YOUR body needs DIET wise, you can change your body MUCH faster through diet than you can with any drug....

I wish you the best of luck.



Keep it in one journal though, so itll show up in our control panel.

Mike, get your will power together buddy. Once you do it and are consistent with it, it's not that big of a deal. And you need a cheat every now and then. If you don't, you will never stick to your diet. Stop changing your training and diet. Get on something and don't change it for at least 6 months. 6 months!
Now, how much should I wager that you will have this closed by tomorrow??

Kerry: Hey, thanks for stopping by. I completely agree that it really comes down to how bad I want it. I really need to keep the end result in mind and stop thinking for the moment. Thanks again for the support.

sara: Yeah I really need to realize this, and stop relying on fat-burning drugs. I can't even imagine how negatively these kinds of things are affecting my body. I really need to make sure that I keep what I eat clean, and low in sugar. More than anything else I am trying to keep my sugar intake to a minimum.

du: Thanks for the support, bud. I lost you though about the control panel, what do you mean?

dg: Thanks for stopping by, and I agree that I really need to keep my willpower in line. How about this for a wager, I'll send you $20.00 (I can't send more I am broke, lol) if I don't keep this journal for 6 months. I'll send you a money order of CASH for $20.00 if for some reason I stop posting in this journal, or start a new journal. You have my word, and we have all of IM for witnesses.

And at the end of the 6 months, you send me $20.00.

Originally Posted by MonStar

du: Thanks for the support, bud. I lost you though about the control panel, what do you mean?

When i posted in here, it automatically subscribed me to this thread. So when i sign on, all the current threads that ive posted in are shown. Including this one.

When you start a new one, I have to check out "new threads" to see it. If you keep it a single journal, itll be a lot easier for us to follow.

I hope that made sense.

Originally Posted by MonStar

Kerry: Hey, thanks for stopping by. I completely agree that it really comes down to how bad I want it. I really need to keep the end result in mind and stop thinking for the moment. Thanks again for the support.

sara: Yeah I really need to realize this, and stop relying on fat-burning drugs. I can't even imagine how negatively these kinds of things are affecting my body. I really need to make sure that I keep what I eat clean, and low in sugar. More than anything else I am trying to keep my sugar intake to a minimum.

du: Thanks for the support, bud. I lost you though about the control panel, what do you mean?

dg: Thanks for stopping by, and I agree that I really need to keep my willpower in line. How about this for a wager, I'll send you $20.00 (I can't send more I am broke, lol) if I don't keep this journal for 6 months. I'll send you a money order of CASH for $20.00 if for some reason I stop posting in this journal, or start a new journal. You have my word, and we have all of IM for witnesses.

And at the end of the 6 months, you send me $20.00.

Sounds like a plan. Deal. Say Sept.15.

Originally Posted by du510

I hope that made sense.

Not really but we know what you meant!

Originally Posted by dg806

Not really but we know what you meant!

It made sense to me

du: Yeah bud, I got it, thanks for explaining. I didn't realize I had people actually subscribing to my journals---now I feel like a jacka*s for constantly starting a new one, no wonder why it annoys people so bad when I drop old journal, lol.

dg: Great, sounds good to me. Actually bud, since cash is kind of stupid, why don't we bet on a 5 lbs. tub of Optimum Nutrition's whey protein powder? That's around $30, but a much better thing to bet on, IMO.

I am thinking maybe my journal title should be more corresponding to our bet.

sara: Me too.