Damn...just realized...I promised 'progress' pics in begining of June....does it have to be THIS June??

be gentle...
Was a bad day for me. Went outside lastnight to take out the trash from the office. It was beautiful outside. Warm, light breeze, star filled sky with a huge moon. I knew where I wanted to be: On the deck of my now ex-girlfriend, hanging out after bbq'ing and naking drinks and just enjoying the night. I left here and went home to get ready to go to the club. Well, as u may remember, I drive past the back of her house on the way home..and her lights were on..with the patio light as well...so..I can only guess THEY did what I wished I could have been doing...
and to top things off...(we still email) She told me that she was thinking about giong back to get her advanced diver certification..and her new BF wanted to learn...great.
Glad to get her into a new hobby that she is going to be sharing with someone else...
Yeah...it sucked. Depressing. I had a GREAT workout...got out MOST of the frustrations...
Next week would have been the week of our 2nd annversary..and I still love her...I am tweaked in the head..this is one of the main reasons for wanting to get the fuq outta thisn place. To bury my past where it belongs. Plus, to get on with it...
It does bug the shit outta me that she is gonna have him learn to dive so THEY can do it....that was supposed to be OUR thing.....
I think I need to go punch a wall...\
Hope somebody steps outta line tonight...
Oh...I did have a niec night last night..or shall I say..my ego did...got some nice compliments...I was even told I was the hottest guy in the club...I love the efects of alcohol and dim lighting!

I have even become friendly with a pair of twins...that could be fun...WTF..I am MOVING...what do I have to lose?
