Thread: Just doin' it

KUSO!! PRINCESS!! What are you doing to my journal!?!? j/k, I love having you here!
Will update diet/workouts as soon as I get it all right at Fitday!

Workouts:
Weights; shoulders and abs.. I will be sooo sore tomorrow!
Cardio (right after weights): 30 min intense, 30 min powerwalk

diet:
meal1:
Were almost out of eggs again!! only 3 left..
3 whites
2 yolks
0.5 cup oatmeal
2 multigrain crackers
25g proteinpowder

meal 2:
4 oz chicken breast
veggies

meal3:
low carb diet bar.. don't like these bars.. had NO time between classes and forgot my pre-prepared turkey breast filé in the fridge at home... excuses, excuses, excuses..

meal 4: (after training)
35g proteinpowder
1 small orange

meal5:
5 oz lean beef
mixed veggies

1578 cals

202g protein 55%
91g carbs 21%
38g fat 24%

unmentionables: Yes, Miss L.. I slipped today.. were at the cinema.. all my friends bought their bags of candy.. big bags.. and I bought a Diet coke.. and chewing gum.. well.. when my friend beside me asked me if I wanted any candy for the 3rd time, I gave in.. and had a total of 5 pieces.. I'm so bad...
Oh well, I'll live..

Workouts:
25 min interval cardio in AM
60 min moderate-high intense cardio at 3:00 PM

Diet:
meal 1:
7 egg whites
0.5 cup special K
0.5 cup natural yoghurt (actually it is a Swedish thing called "sour-milk".. no sugar and practicly fat free.. )
0.5 green apple
20 almonds

meal 2:
3.5 oz turkey filé
1 slice ww bread
1 orange
10 almonds

meal 3:
4 oz chicken
2 ww crackers
broccoli
green beans

meal 4:
4 oz chicken
1 slice ww bread
broccoli

Went to the movies again tonight.. was not supposed to at first.. went with my best male friend.. we had such a good time.. went for coffee before the movie and for a beer after the movie.. had a really good time.. I had a small light beer.. I need to start enjoying life and not feel guilty about everything.. I'm good the way I am.. I need to realise that.. am working on it.. I really need some sleep now.. G'night!

Originally posted by Nike_Girl
unmentionables: Yes, Miss L.. I slipped today.. were at the cinema.. all my friends bought their bags of candy.. big bags.. and I bought a Diet coke.. and chewing gum.. well.. when my friend beside me asked me if I wanted any candy for the 3rd time, I gave in.. and had a total of 5 pieces.. I'm so bad...
Oh well, I'll live..

What? What? WHAT? This is shocking information!

Honey, don't stress about five pieces of candy, please!

It just proves that you are human, I hope you enjoyed those five pieces.

Hey NG, I forgot to tell you. Go visit my journal, I posted a pic in there that I think you would be interested in seeing.

no one is interested in that terrible picture but you

What? You know that is a lie! You know that NG loves Nicky just like I do!

I think she just likes to humour you :o

kuso, maybe you should go check out my journal now..I really did add another picture tonight.

I think I may already be looking at it right??

Nice new avatar

kuso, yep...it's my avatar for now.

Thought I'd leave our good friend nike_girl a little present...

Hey guys!
Miss L, yes, I know, I usually have a mind of steel and not cheat when I'm not supposed to.. but lately I've been kinda slacking.. In a good way I think.. I mean, there's more important things in life than having a 8% bodyfat.. I'd love to have it of course, but since I'm not even considering any comp or anything like that, I need to realise that I'm good the way I am.. I've never felt that I was good enough in the past, but I'm starting to learn to. by losening the control a little, I don't get that hysteric about foods and that actually keeps me from cheating, since I love the healthy foods I eat.. I mean, I could beat myself up over having an extra fruit a day, cause that would bring up my carbs with 1%.. WTF is up with that.. And those guilty feelings could lead to some REAL cheating.. I needed to losen up a little.. lol...So, I don't think our unmentionables are that bad once in a while, it makes it easier to follow this healthy lifestyle..

Thanks for that Nicky pic!! After hearing my friend's description of him, he kinda lost his status for me though.. But I used to be such a HUGE fan when I was like 13-14! And he looks cute in that pic! Thank's again, you're such a sweety!

Kuso, don't puke in my journal!! Do you expect ME to clean up that mess??

Forgot to log yesterday..
Diet was perfect 50%P 30%C and 20&f..

Cardio in AM, intervals 25 min..
Weights: Legs.. high reps, mod weight.. supersets for calves..
30 min cardio after weights!

Am in a hurry, have a nice day everyone!

Hey Nike Girl!!! I think you are TOTALLY right about letting the control go a bit on our diets. Like you, I am doing this for my health, to stay slim, but not for competitions or anything like that...and I agree with you about having an unmentionable every once in awhile. Thanks for opening my eyes. Its not a bad thing to have that extra fruit a day..or whatever..your soooo right!! I am with you on this girl!!! YOU LOOK GREAT, and I know you always will because you ENJOY eating healthy, and thats whats important!! WAY TO GO GIRL!!!
Have a great day!
BTW!~ how's that boyfriend of yours?? Ya'll doing good?
Take care!!
~ Stacey~

~~ Oh did you get that job at the fitness store????
~~ Hope So!!

Thanks Princess! Felt good with some feedback!

as I've told before I've had a lot of issues with my eating and exercising in the past.. Eating disorders and stuff.. Now, I've started seeing a psycologist.. cause even though I don't have the real eating disorder anymore, I've been going through some rough times lately.. this all falls back on my poor ability to love myself and feel that I'm good enough.. I would just love not to be so over-controlling about my diet and not worry so much.. to feel safe..that's why I started seing my shrink.. And he is so helping, I have progressed so much this last weeks.. I thought about stopping this journaling completly, cause I have realised why I do this.. To let my screen and you guys confirm that I have been good.. cause that is so important for me, to have control..

Sometimes when I don't log my meals, is not because I haven't been good, but because I'm trying to learn to confirm myself, without you guys or fitday.com.. I so need to realise that life is not all about bodyfat and muscles.. it's about loving life and feeling good about yourself.. I'm starting to learn to combine these to factors (bodyfat and loving life) and to get beautiful on the inside.. It can be done, and a lot of you have already learnt how to do it..
I've been abusing my body.. Not on the outside, there I've been perfectly good, but my soul has been so abused.. I'm starting to feel whole.. and safe.. I've never felt this good before in my life..

This probably sounds like some darn mambo-jambo for some of you.. I'm not getting insane, I'm just trying to learn how to live and how to be happy!
I've learnt so much about my eating patterns and how emotional I am with it.. I have eaten for comfort so many times without even realising it.. I thought that was something only 350 pounds Sally did... Guess not..

This journal really doesn't belong in a muscle and fitness forum.. Maybe I should go look for a "finding yourself forum".. But, it's all about being healthy.. So I guess I could stay here..

Oh, and Stacey, boyfriend is fine.. He's still in Hungary though.. I'm missing him like crazy.. Tomorrow we celebrate our 22months anniversary and since we both were supposed to have the day off, I had planned for us to go on a trip to Copenhagen in Denmark (that's reallt close to us.. they've built a bridge between Sweden and Denmark) and just chill and have a good time all day.. Now, he won't get back in time.. I guess that's what comes with having a super successful boyfriend.. It really sucks.. I have sooooo been looking forward to it.. Oh well, we'll do it some other time..

Don't know about the job yet.. The owner will contact me sometime next week!

Hope you're having a GREAT DAY! Thank's for being here for me!

Hey Nike_girl...(I pmed you back by the way) !! Girl, I have been in your shoes, and sometimes still am!! I go through this challenge with my Mind and body a lot..and my sister (college student studying nutrition/and psycology) has to help me out a lot! SOOOO I know what your feeling, and understand EVERYTHING!!! Really I do. YOUR JOURNAL Belongs here, I am not competing either, but I do want a lean, healthy body..thats why we are here and have found friends in here to help us! Thats good you have a Dr. helping you. The most important thing you need to do is love yourself in the inside!! (I tell myself this too as I write this to you girl) I have had eating disorders also, nothing MAJOR, but they have been in my life, and have messed my mind up!! I am glad you posted this... I want to help you out as much as I possibly can! I know its not fun to have food control your life. But we let it somehow.? You have a good positive additude sooo far, saying that "it can be done (loving life, and getting beautiful on the inside)!! So thats very good..a lot of girls don't think like that!! Anyway..I wanted you to know that I am listening to you, and will be hear for you!! KAY!~
Let me know if ya get that job, I hope you do!!
That really sucks about your boyfriend not being here for your anniversary..sorry!! I am sure he wishes he were too!! Let him make that money!! I know you were looking forward to that trip!
OKay, Now go have yourself a great day chick!! AND SMILE!!

Awww, thank you SOO much Princess! I don't have time to write a long reply since I am going to teach the kids in my dance class real soon! But I really apprechiate your reply!! It feels so good to have you guys here backing me up!! I will check in later and write something longer!! THANKS!!! And have a great day you too!!!

Jen

Hey Sweetie..your welcome, and just remember that I'm here for you!! Now go teach those kids and I will talk to ya later when you have more time!!! ~Stacey

Hang in there girlie! You're doing great and we're all behind you!

Hey girls.. Princess, thanks, it means a lot! And Butterfly, HI! I know you're going through some rough time and in times like that we all have to stick together and help each other..

Actually I'm not doing very great today.. I have been eating like crap.. I'm not ready to losen control yet.. when I don't control my meals, I go over the edge and eat stuff that I'm not supposed to.. which leads to cheatfood.. I need to take ministeps.. My Dr. told me this, but I was so anxious to live the happy life so I dropped every controlplan.. Not good.. I need to control my food intake and log everything, that way I can stick to it.. And not sticking to it has left me feeling fat.. I swear, I have gained weight this last week!!! And I'm not OK with that.. So, tomorrow is right back to loggin again.. ministeps Nike, ministeps..

I am feeling very crappy right now.. I was supposed to go out partying with friends tonight.. But I'll stay home.. there will be a lot of alcohol if I go out with them and I really can't handle that.. My "bad" feelings gets 10 times worse when I drink.. And I feel like staying home.. I so wish boyfriend was home now.. I need his strong arms around me..

Tomorrow will be a brand new day and I'll be back on track.. Over-controlling and all.. The way I can handle..

hi nike_gurl. i don't want to intrude....but i can really relate to the stuff you're saying

i think more then a few of this do this as an obsessive thing that we call ok b/c it's "healthy". does that make sense? i used to have similar obsessive issues that were "bad" because they were unhealthy. back in high school it was all about how thin can i get. how low a number can i see on the scale. then i realized that i didn't look good (finally) and i pointed my energy somewhere else. now it's about bodyfat instead of pounds. i'm just as obsessive with the food etc. now - just pointed it in a different way.

i've never been too good with moderation. i'm either PERFECT or i'm not caring what i eat at all. i'm trying to change that. i get so stressed out on weekends. just not having the same control over my meals freaks me out.

what should be nice days - out and about visiting friends or family or shopping with the boyfriend end up bothering me if i realize too many hours have gone by without food etc.

so - you aren't the only one. i don't have many answers. i do know you have lots to feel good about inside and out. you look wonderful and you take the time to help other people with their goals etc.

so hang in there and please try....try not to be too hard on yourself (i know - easier said then done) sorry to go on so long!

Thank you nikegurl.. I'm really glad you wrote that.. It feels so good to be understood... Not many of my friends can relate to this issue.. Of course, almost everyone of them worries about their weigt, but when I tell them I feel bad because my macros were wrong, they don't quite get it...

I know that a lot of people in the fitness industry feels like this.. not many would be were they are in their perfect body if they didn't have feeling like this to push them towards their goals.. It's all about balance.. moderation.. but it is so hard to find that and I really can't figure it out.. I'm also into it 100% or I'm totally slacking..

About going shopping with bf and counting the hours.. Been there, done that.. My bf is very understanding since he's a bodybuilder too, but he has never had any problems with bodyfat (that lucky bastard... lol).. Sometimes I tell myself "come on Jen, don't worry..eat that darn cookie if you want to".. But if I do, I freak.. it sucks big time..

Thank you for saying those kind words about my inside and looks..
I've read your journal and you're doing so great.. You should really be proud of what you're doing, and I hope that you feel as good doing it as you look.. I'm thinking about giving that super-low carb thingie a try again, but I don't know if I should.. I want results, but I don't want to feel overcontrolling.. hmm, I'll sleep on it.. Again, thanks for the support!

feels good to me too! yep - people don't get it. all the time people say "but you're not fat. why do you care?" aaarrrrgggghhhh! as if it's that simple!

as for the super low carb thing. it's my first try at it. i had been doing 50/30/20. it's really extreme but physically i feel good. i was crabby the first few days. and then i really stressed after my first carb up. hated feeling stuffed and seeing my calories go over 2000 for the day. but had a much better time yesterday.

i'm such a nut though. one day i'm sure i'm getting so much leaner and then the next i decide i'm not seeing enough progress in my lower body. i know i feel ok and i know i'm eating my veggies finally so that much is definitely good. i do think it's working but probably need some more time to tell.

i will confess - sometimes i wonder.....if it works really well and i'm ever actually satisfied with my results. what then? i mean - do i never ever in life eat bread or pasta again? (my favorites)

i don't have it figured out long term. just going one day at a time.

if what you're doing feels good - why change? you look so great!

Be patient ng, it will work!! just look at W8!! She's like THE rolemodel here! You can do it.. And feeling unsure about it is just natural.. it is a big change in your diet and it will make you guess... be patient.. give it a good go.. If you would (against all odds) find that it does not work for you; at least you've tried it and at least you know..

Well, as for me thinking of changeing.. I want results!!! FAST!! And that makes me want to go to the extremes.. but perhaps that won't be good.. I just want to loose the darn fat on my butt.. lol.. I have no idea what to do.. I guess I'll just see what feels right tomorrow and work from there!

yep - you always know just what to say! i think of w8 all the time. it's an act of faith sometimes! and you're right - by commiting to it 100% i'll know whether it works for me or not. it's totally different then anything i've done before. at least i'll know!

i know what you mean about results. when i see my upper body at the gym i feel good - veins and definition showing. my waist is really small now. it's great.

then i check the butt and back of my upper thighs and there's still the jiggle zone. that's when i freak and say it isn't working! i lack patience for sure. that will ruin my morning. i keep thinking one day it will be gone. bf insists i've changed so much. i believe it and see it myself - til i check the butt!

deep breath. we'll just keep going and one day - we'll be there. let's just hope we know it!