katt

So why don't you just go for it and compete?

DontStop

I don't think It's attractive
I have to car model in the summer, and that requires me to have softer curves instead of being a little brick
I would go for it...but...deep down it's not what i want.

You know, the Nazis had pieces of flair that they made the Jews wear.

katt

Gotcha... well, just listen to fufu, and don't eat too much while you're taking the winny

And, yeah, that is a "tiny" amount

DontStop

Well i dont mean to say it's not attractive, just not for what I'm doing. I hope you didn't take that the wrong way!
I'm definately going to do alot more research on it, but I've found all the research I've done hasnt really answered my questions.

You know, the Nazis had pieces of flair that they made the Jews wear.

katt

Not a problem - I didn't take it the wrong way...

It's really hard to do research,,, it took me forever and I found a few things.. then I had the help of a PA that sent me to a website that is reputable and I have learned a ton

DontStop

what's the site?

You know, the Nazis had pieces of flair that they made the Jews wear.

Nate K

Hey, don't stress about this stuff too much if you are. Just stay healthy and you will be happy.

DontStop

I have to stress about it if i have a job this summer that requires me to look practically like a maxim model

You know, the Nazis had pieces of flair that they made the Jews wear.

DiGiTaL

Are you gonna be wearing those tiny underpants or tight pants?
will i be able to find ur pics on in the internet after? haha jk.

I dont you would get all bulky, your a girl..things are different for you and i think only if you really do heavy stuff that you'll get muscles showing and get thicker.

Stats: [ Weight: 192lbs ] [ Height: 5'11 ] [ BF %: 15% ] [ Routine: P/RR/S ] [ Currently: Cutting ]
Current goals: - Lower The bf%

DontStop

i know from experience i get bulky haha
and if you go to tibbymat on nex, that's who i am posing for

You know, the Nazis had pieces of flair that they made the Jews wear.

DontStop

Ahh I've had a nice afternoon so far
My friend Asher and I went down to the old pawn shops in china town
We came accross a gallery which had a bunch of weird shit
There was this really cool big metal sculpture
It was of a laty and her nipples were gears (I'm telling you it was big)
and she was driving some sort of contraption, and on the back was a big metal penis it was hilarious

I wish i could find a picture

Then we walked on Jasper Ave because it is beautiful out.

Ahh i cheated. Asher bought a hot dog from fat franks and i had a couple bites.
So good though

All in all the only exercise ive had today is walking a good 2 hours

You know, the Nazis had pieces of flair that they made the Jews wear.

DontStop

Never mind! I looked up the gallery and found the vendor name!!
this is her
Shes called shifting lobeda

You know, the Nazis had pieces of flair that they made the Jews wear.

Plateau_Max

That's NEAT (non exercise activity thermogenesis) sure it does have slightly higher calorie utilization than just sitting there but I wouldn't call it exercise babe.

What are you gonna do for your workout today?

"Years of hard work for only a single moment of perfection is a worthy trade." - Myself

DontStop

haha whats neat is my metal lady who i want to buy!Workout today, if i in fact make it to the gym will likely be shoulders with, le sigh, cardio

I'm SUPPOSED to see anthony tonight but...i dont know if thats gonna happen

You know, the Nazis had pieces of flair that they made the Jews wear.

Plateau_Max

Ah who needs him anyway.

"Years of hard work for only a single moment of perfection is a worthy trade." - Myself

DiGiTaL

Her. but for what reason?..thats a secret.

Stats: [ Weight: 192lbs ] [ Height: 5'11 ] [ BF %: 15% ] [ Routine: P/RR/S ] [ Currently: Cutting ]
Current goals: - Lower The bf%

DiGiTaL

I'll check it out, this should be cool

Stats: [ Weight: 192lbs ] [ Height: 5'11 ] [ BF %: 15% ] [ Routine: P/RR/S ] [ Currently: Cutting ]
Current goals: - Lower The bf%

DontStop

i dont need him
Im done with men for awhile
last night he pissed me off, literally to the point where i dont even want to look at him.
W.E
fuck it im putting all my energy into school, gym, work

fuck everybody seriously

You know, the Nazis had pieces of flair that they made the Jews wear.

DiGiTaL

so much for lovely dovey heh.
im scared to ask what did he do

Stats: [ Weight: 192lbs ] [ Height: 5'11 ] [ BF %: 15% ] [ Routine: P/RR/S ] [ Currently: Cutting ]
Current goals: - Lower The bf%

DontStop

well we were SUPPOSED to go tand spend the night together, but he had to work until like 9
and i told him id wait at west ed because i was in the city anyways
Well
his phone was turned off all night and i was stranded downtown
i literally cried for like an hour
so essentially right now i feel:
- ugly
- fat
- undesirable
- unimportant
- unwanted
- did i mention fat and ugly

You know, the Nazis had pieces of flair that they made the Jews wear.

DiGiTaL

oh..wow, fuck that is pretty gay.
as gay as this sounds, things will get better.

Your not either what you describe . Your a very important member of this community. C'mon dont bring yourself down cause of that then again when you mention crying for an hour I just go . He should appologize thats very wrong.

Your not ugly, your sexy ..vairy.

Stats: [ Weight: 192lbs ] [ Height: 5'11 ] [ BF %: 15% ] [ Routine: P/RR/S ] [ Currently: Cutting ]
Current goals: - Lower The bf%

DontStop

Well i dont understand what i did to deserve to be treated like that
he still hasnt called me back yet or texted me, and i havent called him or texted him
when i came home me and my mom talked and shes like
"you know what cayla, be happy he didnt call you back. just think to yourself "fuck you anthony, i have better things to do. and if you're going to treat me like shit, then good, dont call" things will get better"

my moms awesome
she sat down and said a bunch of really nice things to be because im still recovering from bullimia and she knows i feel like shit.

shes right though
fuck you anthony

not to toot my own horn or anything but there are so many guys who want me right now. so many. i dont think anthony is quite aware of what he threw away last night


my theme song for this week:
Tears from the moon- Conjure 1 featuring sinnead o'connor

i bought a deep dish CD yesterday too it;s helping

You know, the Nazis had pieces of flair that they made the Jews wear.

DiGiTaL

He'll come crying for you, i guarantee it.

Lol kidding.

He deservs some punishment. I gtg now. get healled girl peace out.

Stats: [ Weight: 192lbs ] [ Height: 5'11 ] [ BF %: 15% ] [ Routine: P/RR/S ] [ Currently: Cutting ]
Current goals: - Lower The bf%

DontStop

i should hope he comes fucking crying.
Thanks for listening though
But I'm reealllly depressed right now. like last night i swunbg right back into my bullimia again and i didnt even binge. it was weird

You know, the Nazis had pieces of flair that they made the Jews wear.

katt

Life's too short to have bad boyfriends.... there are so many other good ones out there..

kinkery

try missing a few payments

katt

Dump him !

DontStop

I value my credit thanks.

And we're not talking so im going to assume we're broken up.
ARG
haha well im kind of cheering up because im listening to Global DJ's and there songs are always happy
"one night in bangkok and the worlds your oyster"

But yah, Im mad enough to start weights again so i'll be posting my workouts, with the inclusion of sets reps weights etc

hooray for my journal being interesting, somewhat, again!!

You know, the Nazis had pieces of flair that they made the Jews wear.

Brachiisaurus