Diary of a madman.....

Burner02 · 07-12-2003, 11:12 AM

that's funny!
Man, spring time here...is 'miller season'..
moths...
I used to live out East of town...so alot of open land...moths everywhere..my helmet would be palstered w/ them...couldn't understand how someone would ride w/out a helmet for that purpose alone...
Pus the road rocks and such that get kicked up....can't feel good..
I'm ugly enough as is..no need to add pits to the face as well!

Burner02 · 07-12-2003, 11:29 AM

so...was looking thru the harley site to see if anyu bikes caught my eye.
this one wasn't too bad...I liked the blue one in the gallery:
http://www.harley-davidson.com/PR/MO...ection=styling

Pitboss · 07-13-2003, 11:21 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Burner02
so...was looking thru the harley site to see if anyu bikes caught my eye.
this one wasn't too bad...I liked the blue one in the gallery:
http://www.harley-davidson.com/PR/MO...ection=styling

If ya get a Dyna get the wide glide. The Dyna actually handle pretty good, alot better than mine.

Burner02 · 07-13-2003, 11:22 AM

that's what the link was for, wasn't it? a wide glide? That blue one looked nice...

Pitboss · 07-13-2003, 11:33 AM

Dear Diary,

Wow what a long day yesterday was. I was up at 8:30, at work at 11:30 until 7:30, at the other job at 8:00 and home at 2:00am. Doing the same thing today too. I guess over all it's worth it.. around $220 for the day, cash...for about 12 hours of work. Almost 19 and hour "before" taxes.

Yesterday at the bar I worked with this new girl. She came in about a month ago and I have called her couple of times to get her to come work for us. She finally did. Gorgeous girl, really sweet, has a 3 yr old girl. I likes her

so she was just totally bumming yesterday. I tried everything I could to get her to smile. I even "acted" professional and tried to talk to her one on one... you know to let her know I noticed and care. Actually I do that a lot with my girls. I like to keep them as happy as possible. Usually I can get them out of there slump of a day. The best tactic so far is when we are done talking I offer my "additional" services at a discounted rate.. $75.00 for the first half hour, $50 for every half hour afterwards. That gets a good laugh.....

Last night was... boring!! Joan Osborne is okay. But after the first hour there I needed some repellant... to keep the old ladies off me!! I think my arms are bruised from being squeezed so much. I ain't Charmin biatch!!! LOL

Of course the best part of the night is leaving. There are 3 of us with Harleys and when we leave it's so fuq'n load!! We live in the same area so it's a nice ride home.

Oh yeah the Amanda thing. She called yesterday like said. Last night she sent me 6 text messages. Trying to justify why she said what she did. Telling me how much she loves me and knows that we should be together. We are soul mates, etc. She did start to get to me a little but I didn't reply or call.

I do wish it was possible for us to be just friends. No sex, no kissing, no holding hands, just friends. But I don't see that happening any time soon.

I have almost gotten to the point to tell her that I have been sleeping around just to see what reaction comes from it. But then again I start thinking of John Wayne Bobbett... and I think it best not.

Burner02 · 07-13-2003, 11:37 AM

yo, PB-
Bro- we are gonna need to hook up and hang out sometime!
hmm..cruising S. Cali on a bike at night...must be great....

Well, fuq ol bobett..she has to get to the bits-n-pieces first, doesn't she?

J'Bo · 07-13-2003, 09:58 PM

good job pb....it is the best thing to do.

remember how i told you that she would change her tactic once she relized that it wasnt working? well she is...now dont let her think that this will work....stay strong babe

Pitboss · 07-15-2003, 10:42 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by J'Bo
good job pb....it is the best thing to do.

remember how i told you that she would change her tactic once she relized that it wasnt working? well she is...now dont let her think that this will work....stay strong babe

She called again this morning at 6:30.. I didn't here my phone, but either way I would not have answered. Oh and no message this time.. or should I say no message "yet"

Thanks J'bo

Pitboss · 07-15-2003, 10:46 AM

Well work sucks lately. It's just so slow during the summer days. I'm basically losing nearly $50 a day, $300 a week!! This ain't getting the bills paid!!

I hate being late on payments and I hate being broke!! Oh well not much I can do. I am not looking for another job.. the market out here sucks big time!!

Not much else going on really. Work the night club/concert tonight. That should be fun. That'll make up for what I didn't make at the bar today... Get Carter this weekend

!!!! He loves the zoo so much. Maybe I'll drive up to Santa Barbara and see the zoo up there. It's not big or anything special but at least it's nicer than the LA Zoo.

Oh yesterday i worked with Ashley... have to go back a page or two to read up on her. I finally came to an understanding with myself. I guess for years I just never put two and two together. Here I am killing myself emotionally for this girl. Trying to get her to go out with me. Everytime I'd touch her or get near her I was going nuts. Not only does she turn me on but I honestly can say personality wise she has it all... and I could no make that would be intersted on a real relationship with her. But as I said I came to an understanding... it takes two!! If she isn't attracted to me then there is nothing I can do or say to change that. Maybe this is why I always got that "your a nice guy but" thing... So no more trying to chase her down. Treat her just like I would treat someone I wasn't attracted to. Yeah I know reading this makes me think that I still have the mentality of a 16 year old... ho hum.

Well that's it for now.

have a great day!!

J'Bo · 07-15-2003, 10:54 AM

anytime babe

only a matter of time before she tries to think of excuses to see or talk to you...so beware

Pepper · 07-15-2003, 10:57 AM

I hope you know that you women with those back avatars are totally destroying my abilty to work today.

Pitboss · 07-15-2003, 11:01 AM

Hey ladies think dipples are cute on a guy right? So uh are those dimples on my back cute

J'Bo · 07-15-2003, 11:01 AM

i never knew you were a gangster.
does someone have a back fetish?
cause we did butts a couple of days ago.
til i offended some people.

Pitboss · 07-15-2003, 11:02 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by J'Bo
i never knew you were a gangster.
does someone have a back fetish?
cause we did butts a couple of days ago.
til i offended some people.

I was offended by your butt avi..

Offended that I couldn't reach out and smack it!!

Pitboss · 07-15-2003, 11:10 AM

Oh and Butterfly I decided not to include any comments regarding last night... or what happend yesterday which led up to last night. I think if I keep including sexual comments or situations in my journal everyone is going to think I'm a whore or something.

J'Bo · 07-15-2003, 11:21 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Pitboss
I was offended by your butt avi..

Offended that I couldn't reach out and smack it!!

good one.

you sensored it? what does that mean? if you cant be yourself then why would you be here?

butterfly · 07-15-2003, 11:30 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by Pitboss
Oh and Butterfly I decided not to include any comments regarding last night... or what happend yesterday which led up to last night. I think if I keep including sexual comments or situations in my journal everyone is going to think I'm a whore or something.

Well you could email me with the details!!!

BTW, you have email!

buff_tat2d_chic · 07-15-2003, 02:09 PM

I like the details of your journal, PB...it makes you "you"!

Don't keep us in suspense...if it offends someone...then they don't have to come in here. I don't think you are a whore....I want details!!

Sosunni · 07-16-2003, 11:18 PM

Well well well.... if it ain't QME!?! !?! PB PB PB.... how's my big honey bear!?!?!. And since we ALL stalk PB's journal... Hi Fade, Fly-girl, Burner (!), Dero, I talked to you do though, Steven... or eh hmmm... NT.. you hussy

Mr. MAN!... and lets not forget BOOBILICIOUS!!! I know i know.. i forgot some major players.. dvlmn

Tank etc... you're all there... in my heart and I'm well.. still here!! Think of you all often and my goal is to try and start posting again. Posted a readers digest version today.. but I'll try and be more consistent.
PB, glad things SEEM to be going well. Carter's good, that's a great thing... I see you're moving away from Amanda..., How's things with P .. or is that T?

Drop a note and say hi stranger. Remember, you can always ALWAYS reach me at Sosunni@yahoo.com!

Burner02 · 07-17-2003, 02:55 PM

hiya sue!

Pitboss · 07-30-2003, 11:11 AM

Finally got the laptop back!!!!

Well hello Sue!!!!!! Still with Da huh? Too bad for me. wink wink!!!

Things have been good, sometimes great sometimes pretty crappy. It's all a day to day life for me I guess.

Still dealing with Amanda. Didn't hear from her for almost a week and then wshe broke down. By the end of all her text messages she lost it and left me with a I hate you message.Then she broke down again and asked if she could come over that night, then again last night. I replied both times with "why?" Figure she'd reply with she wanted to be "with" me.. actually hoping she would so I could ask her if she wanted to be in the same category as the others I have or will see.. anyway. I broke down yesterday and left her message. I can't just leave her out of my life. I'm such a wuss!!!!

A few threads back I was talking about this girl I work with, Ashley. I finally asked her yesterday why she won't go out with me? All day she kept talking about the "boys" she has been dating and how worthless they are, etc, etc. So when I asked her she replied with "you're so nice" uh like that's a reason not to go out with me? "you're so kind and sweet and caring".. and again your point there being?????? Then she tried "I'm not very nice to boys right now" Which I then leaned over and whispered in her ear.. "I'm not a boy!"

Funny how I say I don't want to be in a relationship, but with Ashley I seriously would. I have not found one thing about this girl that bothers me or I dislike about her. I can say that I have never dated anyone that belongs to AA and NA... addictive personality ya think????

So I got my plates ..hmm plate for my bike. I think they are rather fitting considering my perverted personality

butterfly · 07-30-2003, 11:20 AM

Hi PB

Glad to hear from you!!!

...and stay away from Amanda!!!

Burner02 · 07-30-2003, 11:21 AM

that's funny, PB-
I thought they screened for things like that....
good job!
sounds like Amanda is head trippin ya...just tell you are now involved w/ someone else..she might leave you alone? ANd you can move on...

Pitboss · 07-30-2003, 11:22 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by butterfly
Hi PB

Glad to hear from you!!!

...and stay away from Amanda!!!

I'm trying, really I am. But she makes me feel like shiat when I ignore her or try to be mean to her... I say try cause me being mean to a women is like me trying to pretend I don't like women.. just doesn't happen.

Okay off to shower

XXX
PB

J'Bo · 07-30-2003, 11:25 AM

babe i missed you. i get no email or nothing

your gonna get it

bend over NOW!

Pitboss · 07-30-2003, 11:26 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by J'Bo
babe i missed you. i get no email or nothing

your gonna get it

bend over NOW!

Promises, promises.................

J'Bo · 07-30-2003, 11:26 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by butterfly
Hi PB

Glad to hear from you!!!

...and stay away from Amanda!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH YAH...we have been telling him that for years it seems

07-12-2003, 11:12 AM	#721
Burner02 Super Hero in Training Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Tip of the spear! Posts: 28,300	BODYBUILDING SUPPLEMENTS High Quality Supplements For Bodybuilders and Athletes. www.ironmaglabs.com that's funny! Man, spring time here...is 'miller season'.. moths... I used to live out East of town...so alot of open land...moths everywhere..my helmet would be palstered w/ them...couldn't understand how someone would ride w/out a helmet for that purpose alone... Pus the road rocks and such that get kicked up....can't feel good.. I'm ugly enough as is..no need to add pits to the face as well!
	Success leaves clues. People who produce outstanding results do specific things to create those results Nobody cares what you did yesterday or what you are going to do tomorrow. What is important is what you are doing NOW to solve our problem THERE IS NO TOMORROW! - Appollo Creed

07-12-2003, 11:29 AM	#722
Burner02 Super Hero in Training Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Tip of the spear! Posts: 28,300	so...was looking thru the harley site to see if anyu bikes caught my eye. this one wasn't too bad...I liked the blue one in the gallery: http://www.harley-davidson.com/PR/MO...ection=styling
	Success leaves clues. People who produce outstanding results do specific things to create those results Nobody cares what you did yesterday or what you are going to do tomorrow. What is important is what you are doing NOW to solve our problem THERE IS NO TOMORROW! - Appollo Creed

07-13-2003, 11:22 AM	#724
Burner02 Super Hero in Training Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Tip of the spear! Posts: 28,300	that's what the link was for, wasn't it? a wide glide? That blue one looked nice...
	Success leaves clues. People who produce outstanding results do specific things to create those results Nobody cares what you did yesterday or what you are going to do tomorrow. What is important is what you are doing NOW to solve our problem THERE IS NO TOMORROW! - Appollo Creed

07-13-2003, 11:33 AM	#725
Pitboss User title goes here Elite Member Join Date: Aug 2001 Location: In my own world Posts: 3,114 Photos: 6	Dear Diary, Wow what a long day yesterday was. I was up at 8:30, at work at 11:30 until 7:30, at the other job at 8:00 and home at 2:00am. Doing the same thing today too. I guess over all it's worth it.. around $220 for the day, cash...for about 12 hours of work. Almost 19 and hour "before" taxes. Yesterday at the bar I worked with this new girl. She came in about a month ago and I have called her couple of times to get her to come work for us. She finally did. Gorgeous girl, really sweet, has a 3 yr old girl. I likes her so she was just totally bumming yesterday. I tried everything I could to get her to smile. I even "acted" professional and tried to talk to her one on one... you know to let her know I noticed and care. Actually I do that a lot with my girls. I like to keep them as happy as possible. Usually I can get them out of there slump of a day. The best tactic so far is when we are done talking I offer my "additional" services at a discounted rate.. $75.00 for the first half hour, $50 for every half hour afterwards. That gets a good laugh..... Last night was... boring!! Joan Osborne is okay. But after the first hour there I needed some repellant... to keep the old ladies off me!! I think my arms are bruised from being squeezed so much. I ain't Charmin biatch!!! LOL Of course the best part of the night is leaving. There are 3 of us with Harleys and when we leave it's so fuq'n load!! We live in the same area so it's a nice ride home. Oh yeah the Amanda thing. She called yesterday like said. Last night she sent me 6 text messages. Trying to justify why she said what she did. Telling me how much she loves me and knows that we should be together. We are soul mates, etc. She did start to get to me a little but I didn't reply or call. I do wish it was possible for us to be just friends. No sex, no kissing, no holding hands, just friends. But I don't see that happening any time soon. I have almost gotten to the point to tell her that I have been sleeping around just to see what reaction comes from it. But then again I start thinking of John Wayne Bobbett... and I think it best not.
	167 170 175 180 185 190 195 196 197 198 199 200 \|- -\|----\|----\|----\|----\|----\|---\|---\|---\|---\|---\| **** ^^^^^^^^^^^^^Progress^^^^^^^^^^^^^ 2/22- ?? my gym membership expired!! 2/11- 170lbs 2/4 - 167lbs

07-13-2003, 11:37 AM	#726
Burner02 Super Hero in Training Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Tip of the spear! Posts: 28,300	yo, PB- Bro- we are gonna need to hook up and hang out sometime! hmm..cruising S. Cali on a bike at night...must be great.... Well, fuq ol bobett..she has to get to the bits-n-pieces first, doesn't she?
	Success leaves clues. People who produce outstanding results do specific things to create those results Nobody cares what you did yesterday or what you are going to do tomorrow. What is important is what you are doing NOW to solve our problem THERE IS NO TOMORROW! - Appollo Creed

07-13-2003, 09:58 PM	#727
J'Bo Cuddle Slut Join Date: May 2002 Location: Back in Canada Posts: 9,753 Photos: 6	good job pb....it is the best thing to do. remember how i told you that she would change her tactic once she relized that it wasnt working? well she is...now dont let her think that this will work....stay strong babe
	....and thats my $.02

07-15-2003, 10:46 AM	#729
Pitboss User title goes here Elite Member Join Date: Aug 2001 Location: In my own world Posts: 3,114 Photos: 6	Well work sucks lately. It's just so slow during the summer days. I'm basically losing nearly $50 a day, $300 a week!! This ain't getting the bills paid!! I hate being late on payments and I hate being broke!! Oh well not much I can do. I am not looking for another job.. the market out here sucks big time!! Not much else going on really. Work the night club/concert tonight. That should be fun. That'll make up for what I didn't make at the bar today... Get Carter this weekend !!!! He loves the zoo so much. Maybe I'll drive up to Santa Barbara and see the zoo up there. It's not big or anything special but at least it's nicer than the LA Zoo. Oh yesterday i worked with Ashley... have to go back a page or two to read up on her. I finally came to an understanding with myself. I guess for years I just never put two and two together. Here I am killing myself emotionally for this girl. Trying to get her to go out with me. Everytime I'd touch her or get near her I was going nuts. Not only does she turn me on but I honestly can say personality wise she has it all... and I could no make that would be intersted on a real relationship with her. But as I said I came to an understanding... it takes two!! If she isn't attracted to me then there is nothing I can do or say to change that. Maybe this is why I always got that "your a nice guy but" thing... So no more trying to chase her down. Treat her just like I would treat someone I wasn't attracted to. Yeah I know reading this makes me think that I still have the mentality of a 16 year old... ho hum. Well that's it for now. have a great day!!
	167 170 175 180 185 190 195 196 197 198 199 200 \|- -\|----\|----\|----\|----\|----\|---\|---\|---\|---\|---\| **** ^^^^^^^^^^^^^Progress^^^^^^^^^^^^^ 2/22- ?? my gym membership expired!! 2/11- 170lbs 2/4 - 167lbs

07-15-2003, 10:54 AM	#730
J'Bo Cuddle Slut Join Date: May 2002 Location: Back in Canada Posts: 9,753 Photos: 6	anytime babe only a matter of time before she tries to think of excuses to see or talk to you...so beware
	....and thats my $.02

07-15-2003, 10:57 AM	#731
Pepper Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: Dec 2002 Posts: 4,539	I hope you know that you women with those back avatars are totally destroying my abilty to work today.
	My Carb Cycling Progress - you can't hide from the numbers.

07-15-2003, 11:01 AM	#732
Pitboss User title goes here Elite Member Join Date: Aug 2001 Location: In my own world Posts: 3,114 Photos: 6	Hey ladies think dipples are cute on a guy right? So uh are those dimples on my back cute
	167 170 175 180 185 190 195 196 197 198 199 200 \|- -\|----\|----\|----\|----\|----\|---\|---\|---\|---\|---\| **** ^^^^^^^^^^^^^Progress^^^^^^^^^^^^^ 2/22- ?? my gym membership expired!! 2/11- 170lbs 2/4 - 167lbs

07-15-2003, 11:01 AM	#733
J'Bo Cuddle Slut Join Date: May 2002 Location: Back in Canada Posts: 9,753 Photos: 6	i never knew you were a gangster. does someone have a back fetish? cause we did butts a couple of days ago. til i offended some people.
	....and thats my $.02

07-15-2003, 11:10 AM	#735
Pitboss User title goes here Elite Member Join Date: Aug 2001 Location: In my own world Posts: 3,114 Photos: 6	Oh and Butterfly I decided not to include any comments regarding last night... or what happend yesterday which led up to last night. I think if I keep including sexual comments or situations in my journal everyone is going to think I'm a whore or something.
	167 170 175 180 185 190 195 196 197 198 199 200 \|- -\|----\|----\|----\|----\|----\|---\|---\|---\|---\|---\| **** ^^^^^^^^^^^^^Progress^^^^^^^^^^^^^ 2/22- ?? my gym membership expired!! 2/11- 170lbs 2/4 - 167lbs

07-15-2003, 02:09 PM	#738
buff_tat2d_chic Tat2d Freak Elite Member Join Date: May 2002 Location: Central Texas Posts: 2,176 Photos: 12	I like the details of your journal, PB...it makes you "you"! Don't keep us in suspense...if it offends someone...then they don't have to come in here. I don't think you are a whore....I want details!!
	~health and fitness are a lifestyle~

07-16-2003, 11:18 PM	#739
Sosunni How do ya like me NOW!?!? Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Somewhere Naked no doubt Posts: 894	Well well well.... if it ain't QME!?! !?! PB PB PB.... how's my big honey bear!?!?!. And since we ALL stalk PB's journal... Hi Fade, Fly-girl, Burner (!), Dero, I talked to you do though, Steven... or eh hmmm... NT.. you hussy Mr. MAN!... and lets not forget BOOBILICIOUS!!! I know i know.. i forgot some major players.. dvlmn Tank etc... you're all there... in my heart and I'm well.. still here!! Think of you all often and my goal is to try and start posting again. Posted a readers digest version today.. but I'll try and be more consistent. PB, glad things SEEM to be going well. Carter's good, that's a great thing... I see you're moving away from Amanda..., How's things with P .. or is that T? Drop a note and say hi stranger. Remember, you can always ALWAYS reach me at Sosunni@yahoo.com!
	Uttt... You touched it, now you have to eat it.

07-17-2003, 02:55 PM	#740
Burner02 Super Hero in Training Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Tip of the spear! Posts: 28,300	hiya sue!
	Success leaves clues. People who produce outstanding results do specific things to create those results Nobody cares what you did yesterday or what you are going to do tomorrow. What is important is what you are doing NOW to solve our problem THERE IS NO TOMORROW! - Appollo Creed

07-30-2003, 11:11 AM	#741
Pitboss User title goes here Elite Member Join Date: Aug 2001 Location: In my own world Posts: 3,114 Photos: 6	Finally got the laptop back!!!! Well hello Sue!!!!!! Still with Da huh? Too bad for me. wink wink!!! Things have been good, sometimes great sometimes pretty crappy. It's all a day to day life for me I guess. Still dealing with Amanda. Didn't hear from her for almost a week and then wshe broke down. By the end of all her text messages she lost it and left me with a I hate you message.Then she broke down again and asked if she could come over that night, then again last night. I replied both times with "why?" Figure she'd reply with she wanted to be "with" me.. actually hoping she would so I could ask her if she wanted to be in the same category as the others I have or will see.. anyway. I broke down yesterday and left her message. I can't just leave her out of my life. I'm such a wuss!!!! A few threads back I was talking about this girl I work with, Ashley. I finally asked her yesterday why she won't go out with me? All day she kept talking about the "boys" she has been dating and how worthless they are, etc, etc. So when I asked her she replied with "you're so nice" uh like that's a reason not to go out with me? "you're so kind and sweet and caring".. and again your point there being?????? Then she tried "I'm not very nice to boys right now" Which I then leaned over and whispered in her ear.. "I'm not a boy!" Funny how I say I don't want to be in a relationship, but with Ashley I seriously would. I have not found one thing about this girl that bothers me or I dislike about her. I can say that I have never dated anyone that belongs to AA and NA... addictive personality ya think???? So I got my plates ..hmm plate for my bike. I think they are rather fitting considering my perverted personality
	167 170 175 180 185 190 195 196 197 198 199 200 \|- -\|----\|----\|----\|----\|----\|---\|---\|---\|---\|---\| **** ^^^^^^^^^^^^^Progress^^^^^^^^^^^^^ 2/22- ?? my gym membership expired!! 2/11- 170lbs 2/4 - 167lbs

07-30-2003, 11:20 AM	#742
butterfly Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Houston, TX Posts: 11,526 Photos: 11	Hi PB Glad to hear from you!!! ...and stay away from Amanda!!!
	~Ann We must teach our children to dream with their eyes open. -Harry Edwards

07-30-2003, 11:21 AM	#743
Burner02 Super Hero in Training Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Tip of the spear! Posts: 28,300	that's funny, PB- I thought they screened for things like that.... good job! sounds like Amanda is head trippin ya...just tell you are now involved w/ someone else..she might leave you alone? ANd you can move on...
	Success leaves clues. People who produce outstanding results do specific things to create those results Nobody cares what you did yesterday or what you are going to do tomorrow. What is important is what you are doing NOW to solve our problem THERE IS NO TOMORROW! - Appollo Creed

07-30-2003, 11:25 AM	#745
J'Bo Cuddle Slut Join Date: May 2002 Location: Back in Canada Posts: 9,753 Photos: 6	babe i missed you. i get no email or nothing your gonna get it bend over NOW!
	....and thats my $.02