Diary of a madman.....

Pitboss · 07-31-2003, 11:39 AM

I'm trying to help my Mom out a little. She makes these pretty awesome candle holders. Really glow up in the dark rather nicely. She sells maybe 3 or 4 a month at $50 each. Rather pricey I guess but hey they are hand made with love

The rose not the cage!!

butterfly · 07-31-2003, 11:42 AM

What is the rose made of?

Pitboss · 08-01-2003, 08:39 PM

Quote:

Originally posted by butterfly
What is the rose made of?

Not sure. Some kind of clay?? I'll ask.

Pitboss · 08-01-2003, 09:05 PM

Yep clay..

Pitboss · 08-01-2003, 09:27 PM

I'm a bit concerened about something... I had sex last night with someone other than Amanda and well I really didn't enjoy it too much. Actually the whole night out and having sex kind of turned me off entirely to he idea of dating or just even having sex again. It was too much work to begin with just to get this girl to go out with me and then spending have the evening trying to explain why I am not interested in a realationship and why did I have to tell her that as soon as the night started... blah, blah, blah. When we ame back to my place to get her keys I had no intentions of her staying the night. In fact when she asked if she could I said "nope, don't want you to think I think you are just another piece of meat".. hey she said it early in the night so I was just repeating what she said. Then we had sex. Hum drum sex. I mean she was good and all but I just wasn't into it. It was like going through the motions. I tried different things to keep me in the mood. I tried to be passionate... nope. I tried to be a little rough.. nope. I gave up eventually and let her ride it out.. LOL

Well I have a different date Saturday night.. maybe it will be different tomorrow. Btter be or I'm just gonna give up women and sex entirely. No, no.. not replacing them with men. That can not be done. Men are hairy, and fart, and smell and sweat... ick.

Hope you all have a great weekend!!!!!!

buff_tat2d_chic · 08-02-2003, 01:19 AM

Saturday will be better! Don't give up dude!! LMFAO @ the men comment!!

J'Bo · 08-02-2003, 07:44 AM

PB.

I think you brought up the averages in the "how many people have you slept with" thread. Do you ever know a women's first name before you BOINK her? do you think that perhaps you should emotionally connect with someone before physically connecting? i dont think your a sexoholic like you may protest to be...i think that your a lonely man trying to find someone and is going about the wrong way of getting it. Sorry if i sound judgemental here...its cause i am judging you, cause your my friend and i think that what your doing is bad FOR YOU. Sounds like your spinning your wheels in the mud. JMHO

katie64 · 08-03-2003, 07:06 PM

Hey honey, just stopped in to see how you are, I see your doing the same thing to yourself with Amanda, hmmmmmmmmm, not good, well I have stayed away from my X and intend to, plus I hate being used and abused, know what I mean, see ya later sweetie

Hi J'bo, Butterfly and Buff, I like your journal too, PB, if they don't like all the sex talk then why are they in here to begin with,

butterfly · 08-05-2003, 11:20 AM

Hey Katie!!! Good to hear from you!!! Hope all is well!!!

Hi PB

Pitboss · 08-06-2003, 09:49 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by J'Bo
PB.

I think you brought up the averages in the "how many people have you slept with" thread. Do you ever know a women's first name before you BOINK her? do you think that perhaps you should emotionally connect with someone before physically connecting? i dont think your a sexoholic like you may protest to be...i think that your a lonely man trying to find someone and is going about the wrong way of getting it. Sorry if i sound judgemental here...its cause i am judging you, cause your my friend and i think that what your doing is bad FOR YOU. Sounds like your spinning your wheels in the mud. JMHO

I always know their first name.. maybe not their last name .. he he

Actually I don't think I have every slept with someone that I didn't know.. you know a real one night stand. I will admit this last one was pretty damn close to that though. I thought I had an idea of what she was like but after a few hours of being one on one I realized I was way off. She was no where near what I thought or who I thought she was.

J'bo I know you are trying to help and are being a really great supportive friend.. thank you!!!!!

and you are right.

Ever see the movie American Beauty? There are two movies that I hate.. that one and the other is "What Dreams May Come" with Robin Williams. I actualy love both of these movies but hate them for different reasons. The Robin Williams movie seriously depressed me and in a strange way had an effect on my marriage. It confused me on what I thought "In love" was. It made me question how much I actually loved my wife. I know stupid huh? But in reality or at least in my reality I didn't truly love her. I knew that then and I know that now.

The movie American Beauty is .. well my life. Not quite the age bracket for mid life crisis but I'm there. As I questioned my marriage I questioned my age. I started working out again. I didn't have some 16 year old Cheerleader I was chasing, but I was flirting and probably looking. I left my good job, forced out by my own hand really. I had a house, the family, the new cars. I had it all really. Heck I was getting ready to put up the white picket fence in the spring. In the movie he loses his job and works at a fast food resturaunt, I lost mine and work at a strip club... much better than serving burgers

. He bought his 78 Trans Am.. I bought a Harley. He was looking for his youth and so am I. I'm pretty much at the end of the movie now. The only difference is I don't expect the neighbor to come blow my brains out...

So where do that leave me??? I'm trying to enjoy life but fall into these little loop holes. What it's gonna take to really enjoy it? Love. True love. I want that someone to love. Someone who I would be willing to spend the rest of eternity with in hell if needed.

Now finding that person...

Enough for today. I'm in a great mood and no way am I going to ruin it today!!!!

I almost got a dog... almost. I really want a Golden Retriever though. I just picture Carter having so much for with her... yes her. Hmmm maybe that's my love of my life.. LOL But I'll wait. Not ready nor do I have the time to give the love a dog needs. Heck can't even give a woman the love she needs. Ah that's the problem.. not enought time!!! The lottery is over 66 million... tickets to and from, rooms and everything is on me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Later all!!! Miss ya

and thank you so much for hearing my crap

XXXOOO

Roger

J'Bo · 08-06-2003, 09:51 AM

can you get me a ticket too?

i hear you pb.....you will find her i promise.

Pitboss · 08-06-2003, 09:54 AM

Quote:

Originally posted by J'Bo
can you get me a ticket too?

i hear you pb.....you will find her i promise.

Well I thought "she" was coming out to California in August. Then she declined. Then I thought I might meet her in Vegas... and again she had to back out.

naturaltan · 08-06-2003, 10:07 AM

J'Bo · 08-06-2003, 12:55 PM

not funny. the reason i was coming in August was to drive with a friend of mine...he turned out to be a physco...you still want me to travel with him

and i cant go to Vegas cause i would have no job....and you wont buy me a lottery ticket so i have to work

Pitboss · 08-12-2003, 09:13 PM

Well I'd buy you a lottery ticket but it may not be the winning ticket....

Life's been life lately. Work, sleep, work, sleep.... but I'm content with that. Nothing new to post really. Well except Amanda went psycho on me. I should have known. That's definately over now.

Some bad news I guess. I won't be making the Vegas trip. I'm barley making ends meet right now with business being so slow and it's not likely I will be able to save 1/4 of what I need for the trip. Sorry

Well that's about it I guess.

Take care.. chat soon

naturaltan · 08-13-2003, 08:00 AM

no Vegas?

WTF is up with life throwing wrenches into the plans

Pitboss · 04-29-2004, 03:01 PM

I do believe this diary is officially closed!!!!!!!!!!!!! The past is the past and I am so looking forward to the future!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

**Jodi** · 04-29-2004, 03:17 PM

PB

I'm glad to see you back

Would you like me to close this for you?

Pitboss · 04-29-2004, 03:51 PM

Quote:

Originally posted by Jodi

PB

I'm glad to see you back

Would you like me to close this for you?

Yes please do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

**Jodi** · 04-29-2004, 03:57 PM

Done

07-31-2003, 11:39 AM	#751
Pitboss User title goes here Elite Member Join Date: Aug 2001 Location: In my own world Posts: 3,114 Photos: 6	BODYBUILDING SUPPLEMENTS High Quality Supplements For Bodybuilders and Athletes. www.ironmaglabs.com I'm trying to help my Mom out a little. She makes these pretty awesome candle holders. Really glow up in the dark rather nicely. She sells maybe 3 or 4 a month at $50 each. Rather pricey I guess but hey they are hand made with love The rose not the cage!!
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07-31-2003, 11:42 AM	#752
butterfly Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Houston, TX Posts: 11,526 Photos: 11	What is the rose made of?
	~Ann We must teach our children to dream with their eyes open. -Harry Edwards

08-01-2003, 09:05 PM	#754
Pitboss User title goes here Elite Member Join Date: Aug 2001 Location: In my own world Posts: 3,114 Photos: 6	Yep clay..
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08-01-2003, 09:27 PM	#755
Pitboss User title goes here Elite Member Join Date: Aug 2001 Location: In my own world Posts: 3,114 Photos: 6	I'm a bit concerened about something... I had sex last night with someone other than Amanda and well I really didn't enjoy it too much. Actually the whole night out and having sex kind of turned me off entirely to he idea of dating or just even having sex again. It was too much work to begin with just to get this girl to go out with me and then spending have the evening trying to explain why I am not interested in a realationship and why did I have to tell her that as soon as the night started... blah, blah, blah. When we ame back to my place to get her keys I had no intentions of her staying the night. In fact when she asked if she could I said "nope, don't want you to think I think you are just another piece of meat".. hey she said it early in the night so I was just repeating what she said. Then we had sex. Hum drum sex. I mean she was good and all but I just wasn't into it. It was like going through the motions. I tried different things to keep me in the mood. I tried to be passionate... nope. I tried to be a little rough.. nope. I gave up eventually and let her ride it out.. LOL Well I have a different date Saturday night.. maybe it will be different tomorrow. Btter be or I'm just gonna give up women and sex entirely. No, no.. not replacing them with men. That can not be done. Men are hairy, and fart, and smell and sweat... ick. Hope you all have a great weekend!!!!!!
	167 170 175 180 185 190 195 196 197 198 199 200 \|- -\|----\|----\|----\|----\|----\|---\|---\|---\|---\|---\| **** ^^^^^^^^^^^^^Progress^^^^^^^^^^^^^ 2/22- ?? my gym membership expired!! 2/11- 170lbs 2/4 - 167lbs

08-02-2003, 01:19 AM	#756
buff_tat2d_chic Tat2d Freak Elite Member Join Date: May 2002 Location: Central Texas Posts: 2,176 Photos: 12	Saturday will be better! Don't give up dude!! LMFAO @ the men comment!!
	~health and fitness are a lifestyle~

08-02-2003, 07:44 AM	#757
J'Bo Cuddle Slut Join Date: May 2002 Location: Back in Canada Posts: 9,753 Photos: 6	PB. I think you brought up the averages in the "how many people have you slept with" thread. Do you ever know a women's first name before you BOINK her? do you think that perhaps you should emotionally connect with someone before physically connecting? i dont think your a sexoholic like you may protest to be...i think that your a lonely man trying to find someone and is going about the wrong way of getting it. Sorry if i sound judgemental here...its cause i am judging you, cause your my friend and i think that what your doing is bad FOR YOU. Sounds like your spinning your wheels in the mud. JMHO
	....and thats my $.02

08-03-2003, 07:06 PM	#758
katie64 Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: ME, USA Posts: 2,295	Hey honey, just stopped in to see how you are, I see your doing the same thing to yourself with Amanda, hmmmmmmmmm, not good, well I have stayed away from my X and intend to, plus I hate being used and abused, know what I mean, see ya later sweetie Hi J'bo, Butterfly and Buff, I like your journal too, PB, if they don't like all the sex talk then why are they in here to begin with,
	*Each of us conceals an abyss, though few of us are aware of its existence, and even fewer dare to explore its vastness.* Katie [color="Green"]My Journal...[/COLOR

08-05-2003, 11:20 AM	#759
butterfly Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: Houston, TX Posts: 11,526 Photos: 11	Hey Katie!!! Good to hear from you!!! Hope all is well!!! Hi PB
	~Ann We must teach our children to dream with their eyes open. -Harry Edwards

08-06-2003, 09:51 AM	#761
J'Bo Cuddle Slut Join Date: May 2002 Location: Back in Canada Posts: 9,753 Photos: 6	can you get me a ticket too? i hear you pb.....you will find her i promise.
	....and thats my $.02

08-06-2003, 10:07 AM	#763
naturaltan Going nowhere fast! Elite Member Join Date: Jul 2001 Posts: 9,900 Photos: 7
	just kick'in it in the ole Charger

08-06-2003, 12:55 PM	#764
J'Bo Cuddle Slut Join Date: May 2002 Location: Back in Canada Posts: 9,753 Photos: 6	not funny. the reason i was coming in August was to drive with a friend of mine...he turned out to be a physco...you still want me to travel with him and i cant go to Vegas cause i would have no job....and you wont buy me a lottery ticket so i have to work
	....and thats my $.02

08-12-2003, 09:13 PM	#765
Pitboss User title goes here Elite Member Join Date: Aug 2001 Location: In my own world Posts: 3,114 Photos: 6	Well I'd buy you a lottery ticket but it may not be the winning ticket.... Life's been life lately. Work, sleep, work, sleep.... but I'm content with that. Nothing new to post really. Well except Amanda went psycho on me. I should have known. That's definately over now. Some bad news I guess. I won't be making the Vegas trip. I'm barley making ends meet right now with business being so slow and it's not likely I will be able to save 1/4 of what I need for the trip. Sorry Well that's about it I guess. Take care.. chat soon
	167 170 175 180 185 190 195 196 197 198 199 200 \|- -\|----\|----\|----\|----\|----\|---\|---\|---\|---\|---\| **** ^^^^^^^^^^^^^Progress^^^^^^^^^^^^^ 2/22- ?? my gym membership expired!! 2/11- 170lbs 2/4 - 167lbs

08-13-2003, 08:00 AM	#766
naturaltan Going nowhere fast! Elite Member Join Date: Jul 2001 Posts: 9,900 Photos: 7	no Vegas? WTF is up with life throwing wrenches into the plans
	just kick'in it in the ole Charger

04-29-2004, 03:01 PM	#767
Pitboss User title goes here Elite Member Join Date: Aug 2001 Location: In my own world Posts: 3,114 Photos: 6	I do believe this diary is officially closed!!!!!!!!!!!!! The past is the past and I am so looking forward to the future!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

04-29-2004, 03:17 PM	#768
Jodi Super Moderator Super Moderator Join Date: Apr 2002 Posts: 22,126 Photos: 1	PB I'm glad to see you back Would you like me to close this for you?
	Essence EFA

04-29-2004, 03:57 PM	#770
Jodi Super Moderator Super Moderator Join Date: Apr 2002 Posts: 22,126 Photos: 1	Done
	Essence EFA

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