Pitboss

Since I really don't care what people think about me... but yet i like to hear what people have to say I figured I start a diary. Just a diary of my thoughts, things that happen throughout the day that might be of some interest to more than just me and that bum I keep buying hot dogs for at 7-11.

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I care that so many care about me here, work, and in life in general..

I just don't care what people think about me.. their opinions, etc. That's a good thing people. If I cared what everyone thought then I'd be paranoid that I'm always not doing what others think I should be doing or saying.



Sunday June 16, 2002

I'll start with good.. I spent a couple of hours with Carter he was pretty tired when I picked him up but he was a tropper and hung in there while we played at the park. Although he did fall asleep on the swing and on the see-saw.. LOL

His Mom called me this morning at 6:45 to let him wish me a Happy Father's day. Boy that kid sure does have a lot to say that early in the morning. Not a clue what he said but I just agreed and said thank you.

Amanda... girl I have been seeing for 2.5 months or so. Off/on, hot/cold.. that pretty much explains my feelings. We basically called it quits Friday night. Then last night she called and asked if she could come over for one last night together. Last night? Well in her mind my decision is made up. I'm not sure yet.

I'll get more into this later. For now it's nap time... have to work tonight.

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esmerelda

I care!!!!!

Smile at your enemies, it'll drive them crazy.........'cos that twinkle in your eye means your up to something!!!!

Stacey

Hey Pitboss~ I'm glad you have a journal..and we all do care LOTS about ya!!
Glad you got to spend time with Carter!! Hope you had a good Fathers day yesterday! SMILE!

I Believe in the Impossible!!!

Pitboss

Gee thanks I know a lot of people care about me here and that's why I come here and why I'm so open about things that I say. But I didn't mean "care" like that.. I meant I'm going to type whatever I feel like typing and not care what people think about what I have to say or do type typing thing... LOL

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J'Bo

I care too

Glad someone is willing to share there bad diet days too. Cause next week after my comp. my diary will look like a bad food guide.

As for your lady (ex-lady) that little "last night together" shit is a good tactic sometimes but it rarely works in our favor.

The womans thoughts:
You go over for the "last night" and you show up looking awesome, and act nicer than you ever have. Then you have a great conversation and then comes the moves. You pull out some new sex moves that wow the hell out of the man, and hope that the next morning when you wake up (if you even went to sleep) that you are as giddy and as happy as the first day you met. Then its not the last night anymore.



Woman and their fun lovin games. Ahhh.
Maybe men love them so much that they often try to break it off with the woman to get the "last night treatment".

....and thats my $.02

Pitboss

Thanks J'Bo I hope that she wasn't thinking that. I mean from my point of view it becomes on a guilt for me, having a hard enough time with enough guilt in my life. Speaking of which....

Sunday Part II
4 beers last night I said no more than 2 week and I doubled it... blah.

I'll still get the Amanda issues later.

I had to work last night and left at midnight..way too slow for two bounces. When I got to work one Erin was there and gettting ready to leave. Erin and I were buddies for about 2 months.. freinds you don't sleep with, buddies you fuq.. as she would say.
She asked if I had company later and I said nope... so we made plans to hook up after I got off. She was pulling a double and was heading to our other bar. Call me when you leave she said...

So I left at 12 and headed to another bar I sometimes hang out at. I know a lot of people there, and a lot of the girls.. it's called a bikini bar, no nudity. So I get there have a Bass Ale. Relaxing. Then comes Karen. Karen tried many times to get me in bed but when I gave in.. like that was hard work for her LOL she would back down because she knew Erin was keeping me busy. Didn't care if we or weren't dating just that fact that she knew her and wouldn't sleep with me because of that.... So here I am seeing Erin tonight and Karen again guessed passed by.

Then there was Stephanie... pretty hot red hard... great legs, etc. Anyhow we have always been friendly to each other. But last night she was way past friendly... just down right horny as hell and made sure I understood her intentions..... and then again Erin was already in my plans...

I go to my other club and find out it was even slower there than the other club and Erin took off around 12:30. I call her cell... I wait and and have another 2 beers. We close I call again and say goodnight. Head home with the cell phone between my legs.. it's on vibrate as that's the only way I "hear" it when I've got radio cranked.

No calls.. Go to bed alone.. thinking of one of the advantages of having a steady relationship... I got pitched 2 balls and 1 strike and somehow the Umpire called me out????

Oh well.... it just wouldn't be life if these stupid things like this didn't happen.

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lina

Hey PB!

I like to read your stories because your life seems like a lot of fun filled with wild stories! To me it's like reading a comic novel! But rough on the outside I bet softie on the inside? Maybe, maybe not.....

I love the pix of you and your son! He's a cutie pie!!!

Pitboss

Hi Lina... I sometimes go back and read some of the things i post just to remind me that my life really isn't that boring.

Yes I am softie... Huh Sossuni, Lorraine, Shape8... they have met me and can verify this. What they saw is what they got... oh wait I'm not saying anything more than we just met for lunch or dinner type things!!! No rumors from that.

I have few more pics of Carter I'll post here tonight. Not sure if we got any with me...

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esmerelda

Hey babe`.....did you ever catch up with Albob??????

Smile at your enemies, it'll drive them crazy.........'cos that twinkle in your eye means your up to something!!!!

J'Bo

PB you sure make my life look boring.

You sure have the ladies banging on your door.

Doesn't sound like you are too concerned over your split though.

....and thats my $.02

Pitboss

For th most part my life is fairly boring, at least day to day. I do have some strange things pop up out of no where which add a little excitement.

Ladies banging on my door?? I wish... I am far, far from a ladies man, player, or any resemblance of either of those.

I am concerned about my split with Amanda.. I hurt her, hurt her pretty bad and that was something I told myself I would never do again... I fell out of the pan and right back into the fire as they say.

Guess it's time to put things together..

August 2001: Wife and I decide to file for divorce. My idea. Why? Well all that will come out little by little.

August 2001-Jan 2002, lived in same house with soon to be ex.. tough emotional times for both of us. Hadn't had sex since May, not that matters so much but th fact that in my mind I'm seprated, single but living under the same roof. Met a lot of women but couldn't move on it

January 2002.. she moves out, house sold, new place bought, paperwork, loans, escrow, etc, etc.... a month of a lot of misc crap.

Febuary 2002.. moving. Met a girl, took her home, helped me pack my boxs and I helped pack hers.
.... my first rule was "be open and honest" Tell someone exactly what you are looking for, or in this case not looking for. I told Erin I am not interested in a GF, dating, or anything that resembles that in any way. Cool... so we had sex. I was her booty call actually.

March hooked up with a few other girls, same thing as above.

March 17.. St. Patricks, met a very nice woman at a plcae I frequent for dinner. Her roomate happens to be a bartender there. That was it.
Later that week she leaves her phone number with one of the bartenders. Sweet.

We talk on the phone the next day, a Monday. Tuesday we meet breifly for drinks before I have to go to work. At 2:30am I'm on the phone with her until 3:30. At 4:30 I'm at her place. By 5:00am were are in bed.

My mistake... I didn't tell her my rules. I didn't apply them after that either. I just spent 11 years with the same woman and now I'm finding myself uncontrollably attracted to this new woman in my life, Amanda. The first 3 weeks were awesome and I knew I was putting myself in a very bad position. I had chances to walk but I didn't .. not sure why. Maybe because it was still so good. The sex was the best I have ever had.. and she had the stamina and labido to keep up with me. It was wild. Her kiss.. oh she can kiss. We can sit there in bed and just kiss for an hour.. I swear the shivers she sends through my body just make it that much worse for me.

As time goes by we find some personality conflicts.. I have to always be right, only because she refuses to be wrong.. go figure. We have a simple conversation and it turns into a debate.
After some time it worries me and gets on my nerves. I'm not used to this type of conversations.

Okay that's a lot of typing.... time for a break.

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Miss LeDix

PB, you really do have a way with words. I am enjoying reading your journal. But tell me, do you ever worry that one of these ladies will read this?

My little man!
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Pitboss

Hmm my ex already knows abotu Amanda and thinks I need to be honest with her and just get out there and play.. Erin doesn't have a PC. Amanda know that I "hang out" at fitness related sites but that's about it.

But I guess if she did search through my posts she might leave me which would make things a lot easier for me from my standpoint...

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lina

I don't think they can find out unless they know you by "Pitboss" and do a search on that?

Very interesting story PB...

Pitboss

Uhm well my license plates are "PIT BOSS" he he



You think that's intersting... wait till you read this.

Okay I really am beginning to think my life really is ruled by sex..

This friend just stop by my work. She and I talk about pretty much everything. One big problem is that we flirt back and forth a lot... too much. She is spoken for and I won't cross that line.. well I'll put a foot over it but that's about it. We've kissed, we have groped a little... but I, yes I always stop before it gets out of hand.. or in her hand.. LOL

She comes by during her lunch to say hi, to tell me about her trip to Vegas for work. We chat about stuff. Then she gets ready to go. She normally wears nice dresses for work, sometimes a little too short, but has stocking on. Today she had a long green dress on and noticed no stockings so I comment.. she looks at me and gives me this really evil grin and then pulls her dress up and say nope, no stocking.. no anything!!!

You don't want to know what I did next. But I didn't get carried away.. at least not as much as I really wanted to.

damn.

So Monday through Saturday is about sex and relationships or lack of, and Sunday is about my kid.... who came from sex.

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naturaltan

Excellent!!!

we've batted this back and forth ... just once I want to be a fly on your wall.

Although Mrs.NT was practicing for her Hedo appearance. Quite a show!

just kick'in it in the ole Charger

lina

OMG!!!! !! You do attract those women by the bus load!!!! Well if that wasn't a hint then I don't know what is!!! Don't you get tired of the instability and all those relationships??? I guess that's one way to get the sex without strings attached...

Another regular workday for PB

naturaltan

maybe I need to apply at your second place of work ... he he

just kick'in it in the ole Charger

Pitboss

This was the second tiem today that I heard this... too weird.

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butterfly

hehehe

~Ann
We must teach our children to dream with their eyes open.
-Harry Edwards

Pitboss

Okay I just got flashed by some 18-20 year old with huge teets. This has been one weird day....... and it ain't over yet

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Pitboss

I'm a smoker. For 21 years now. I have tried and tried to quit but no go.

Do you have any idea what it's like to let a substance control you? Yes I and all smokers know the health risks associated with smoking. But does anyone ever consider asking a herion addict if they know? Of courser they know. Do they care, probably. can they stop their addiction? No.

I had a smoke at 5:05pm. I bought no more on my way home. I did a couple of things while home and then straight to bed, it wasn't even 8:00pm yet. I stayed in bed all night, tossing and turning. When I woke the first thing I wanted was a smoke. None in the house so tough go back to sleep. I think I was online at least 3 times between midnight and 5:00am.

When I left the house what was the first thing I did... gee go buy smokes.

I have tried the patch.. works but can't cure the boredom associated with not smoking. When you spend so many years doing the same thing so many times a day it's even harder to find something to replace it.

I guess the only thing to do is just keep trying... I figure I'll eventually quit or die.....

I hate smoking and I hate that I let it control me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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2/22- ?? my gym membership expired!!
2/11- 170lbs
2/4 - 167lbs

naturaltan

where and why??

just kick'in it in the ole Charger

J'Bo

Yes i would like to know where you live too.
Sounds like a pumpin ville.

About the smoking, try to stick a sucker in your mouth when you get an urge. You may get a little heavier by resorting to food, but in the long run you can lose the weight but wont be able to take back the smoking damage. We will help you get through this, you just need to want it bad enough.

....and thats my $.02

naturaltan

I've needed help from the wife to get a flash ... she would flash, then they would flash.

just kick'in it in the ole Charger

Pitboss

On the way home. I kept passing these two girls and they would pass me. Not something I was trying to do on purpose. So they pass me by and the passenger sticks her tongue out at me. I started laughing. Then when they passed me again she sat up pulled her shirt and bra up and let them big ole boys out!!!

Gee twice I got flashed.. on down below and one on top.... sigh.

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2/11- 170lbs
2/4 - 167lbs

Pitboss