Thread: Suicide

Not many people are gonna want to hire a racist biggot like you.
Might as well go through with the Seppuku.

Originally Posted by myCATpowerlifts

Not many people are gonna want to hire a racist biggot like you.
Might as well go through with the Seppuku.

This seems kinda random. Let's adlib this.

Not many _____ are gonna want to _____ a racist _____ like you.
Might as well go through with the _____.

Not many ardvarks are gonna want to hump a racist mailman like you.
Might as well go through with the sky diving.

uhh wow

Don't feel bad I just lost my night job....

Originally Posted by bigedawg23

No matter what,suicide is not the answer. It may seem like it at the time but it's not....things will always get better but at the time when you feel like your such a failure and that your family would be better off financially without you(insurance check)please seek help. I didn't.thank god it wasn't my time. Yeah you may be losing your home,lost your car but you still have your family....if anyone in the nc area has any job openings,shoveling shit or whatever,let me know.thank you to my family of brothers and sisters here at im....

Are you OK?

Yea man, you doing okay there???

Originally Posted by min0 lee

Are you OK?

Yeah to the ones of you that are serious enough to give a fuck about real stuff that affect people rather than come up with some bs because they have nothing better to do...I appreciate it..mino & dig my friends........I know this is not the place for pity parties but it is a place to get stuff off your mind to help release anger,depression or whatever.this recent shit just started a couple weeks ago when my sister was killed and since my mother passed away last Oct it was left up to me & my wife to decide if we raise her 2 kids or let them go into foster care....So even tho we do good to get by we took them in......talk about pressure.......once you hit that point that you feel like you failed your family by judging your current living situation then it's time to look into getting some help....but anyways,thanks again guys & gals,lol....to the other dickhead you can go fuck yourself......have a nice day

also, I wanted to add,I didn't lose my home or ob I was just throwing examples in there.....my sister just passed away a few weeks ago and she was a single mother,no ideal what state the dad is in but when she was killed it was either send them to foster care or raise them with my 5 year old so I took them in...Only thing is, we were already living from paycheck to paycheck so adding 2 more just put these thoughts in my head about what a fucking failure I am in life and what kind of provider am I and just any negative thing I could think of was there Basically a pity party I guess but after losing my mom unexpectedly in oct(she was only 53) now my sister the main thought was the insurance check would solve alot of problems financially for my wife and these kids......nut it wasn't my time(thank god) because I never thought about the impact it would have on my daughter's life...How fucking stinggie I was being....

I honestly didn't know of you were serious or not in this thread. I am sorry for all of your troubles and hope things can get a little bit better for you each day.

Hey I have been in your shoes. All I can say truly is that God had more plans for me... I have really changed my life around in the last two years since my salvation.

I know I will probably get beat up here talking about God. but If ANY of you knew me 2 years ago you could tell that I am a different person now. I have been to the bottom of the barrel 3 times in the last 5 years. Now I am crawling up and out!

Best wishes Bigdawg23.

James 5:11 indeed we count them blessed who ENDURE ..

hang in there!

Jag

Sorry to hear about your loss.
My sister passed away a few years ago leaving behind 4 kids, everyone in the family took one.

My sister lived a tough life and these kids came to us all fucked up, we tried our best to raise them....they did so-so.

Most foster parents do it for the money.

Originally Posted by min0 lee

Sorry to hear about your loss.
My sister passed away a few years ago leaving behind 4 kids, everyone in the family took one.

My sister lived a tough life and these kids came to us all fucked up, we tried our best to raise them....they did so-so.

Most foster parents do it for the money.

Got to give you credit for doing that. It is hard to change kids!

Dude for. Rea..I don't know you at all but at one point in my life I felt the way u feel right now..hang in there..if u believe in god he does have a plan for you and at the risk of sounding cheesey things in life good or not happen for a reason though we may not see them ...the only thing that helped me was church and I thank god that I found a good church because it changed my life forever..if you ever have an interest check it out. journey church / | Home | click the media icon and click vimeo you can watch it

I would, too, take my sibling's children in, in a heart beat. Family is my most valuable treasure.

Oh and pleas don't flame me for my beliefs...I never talk about church bc its a touchy subject and I don't try to push anything on anyone but I just wanted to let someone know what helped me through ruff times..oh if u dogo to the site on the home page is the easter service spend the 45 min because it really is talking about ur situation

I, too, am sorry for your losses, and my heartfelt condolences & best wishes go out to you, and yours. It's a good man to do what you've done and take in her two kids, rather than let them be taken into foster care. They'll have a much better chance at succeeding in life. And that is something you and your wife can take solace in, knowing in your heart, you did a good thing.

Don't be afraid to get some support from food stamps, situations like these are why it exists... So many people make the mistake of being to proud to get relief, when in reality anyone would rather see a case like yours get the benefits over some lazy baby factory who was too stupid to make her fuck partners wear condoms the 6 times she got knocked up....

And I can imagine the pain you are going through, I have had my favorite step-mother die from cancer, my very loving step-father was murdered which turned my Mom suicidal for a while, and then my natural father died in a work accident. Then my step-brother was gunned down by cops after he got heavily into drugs after his fathers murder and tried to rob a bank...I am manic-depressive to a degree and it took all my energy to keep from bottoming out, I think the reason was because I had 2 uncles and a grandfather who decided to take their own lives and I saw how hard it hit everyone else in their lives.

Hang in there, I know for me translating the grief and suffering into my workouts and into my art form of writing really helped me overcome the mountains of sorrow....even at times I had to eat my way through the mountains and use it as fuel to push through those last few reps or puke them onto a dozen pages of raw emotions it really helped....

Finding a constructive way to release all the negative bile of emotions building up in your mind and your heart is the most important....cause you gotta be strong for those kids who just lost there mother, and your wife who just gained triple her load and your daughter who suddenly isn't your center of attention.

Good example is The Bernie Mac Show, he had to take on 3 of his sisters kids...it was a trial at first, but they soon melded into the whole family as one....

Originally Posted by mazdarx7

Oh and pleas don't flame me for my beliefs...I never talk about church bc its a touchy subject and I don't try to push anything on anyone but I just wanted to let someone know what helped me through ruff times..oh if u dogo to the site on the home page is the easter service spend the 45 min because it really is talking about ur situation

If its too help out then it's pretty cool.

Originally Posted by maniclion

Good example is The Bernie Mac Show, he had to take on 3 of his sisters kids...it was a trial at first, but they soon melded into the whole family as one....

Bad example. Those kids killed him.

In all honesety, I found this forum when I was going through some very tough times in my life. Which is why as soon as i figured out the free therapy I was getting here I paid for elite membership (no plug here) because I can't get this laying on a couch in some wacko's office.

My brother took himself out 15 years ago and I can still see the pain in my parents face. Especially like last sunday at Easter dinner when that chair is still empty. The damage to the people left behind never heals. So I hope you're doing better dealing with your issues. And like Manic said, theres no shame in getting help when you need it. Thats what its there for. Good luck and I really hope things work out for you.

i hope things get easier from here on out. it wouldn't hurt to find out if you qualify for any benefits in this situation.

Originally Posted by Little Wing

i hope things get easier from here on out. it wouldn't hurt to find out if you qualify for any benefits in this situation.

Will this benefit you?




Will you accept these flowers Little Wing?

Hang in there bigedawg...things will get better and you are not alone!! Your daughter would be devastated if you were gone...remember that! Losing your mom was hard and you are grown, just imagine what that would do to a little girl. Be strong and think positive!!!

Originally Posted by myCATpowerlifts

Not many people are gonna want to hire a racist biggot like you.
Might as well go through with the Seppuku.

wow,a big thank you to all the members for your support here..it was(is) tough dealing with all this shit at once. It's like the things I had planned for myself & my family are now that much harder to achieve.We were doing ok financially at the time, I mean our bills are paid,food in the fridge,usually if it's anything new then it's for my 5 year old daughter,like clothes & stuff but I always struggled with the fact that I'm not providing for my family the way I feel they should be taken care of..You know..like why can't my wife just be a stay at home mother who don't have to worry about working,or why do we have these old beaters of cars when we get them instead of driving something newer..I'm in no way wanting sypmathy from you guys by sharing all this. Just trying to let you see things thru my eyes. My wife & I run a home/vacation rental cleaning business which is a pretty good business in this area.but it means sometimes we may go a week with no work then we'll be booked up the whole next week with sometimes 2 cleanings in 1 day...I know I could get out and find another job that would maybe provide better than what we are doing now but if I do that we will have to hire someone to help my wife to the cleaning & probably an additional person for the maint. on the homes...I do all the maint,inside & outside,and when i'm finished with that I help her finish cleaning...I'm not scared of hard work at all,I spent 10 years in the Army but this situation is like a catch 22...now I've added 2 more mouths to fees & cloth and so the utilities will also rise some but I could not turn my back on them. Maybe the state will help so i'm going to look into the foodstamp thing. I just thought that the 200,000 my wife would get from the insurance policy would solve things for them rather than have to keep struggling thru day 2 day with me. Like I said,looking back now I know it was selfish & would've damaged those closest to me but at the time it just felt like they'd be better off without me than with me....and about religion,I try to be a christian but fail miserably but I do believe he has a plan and know that there's a reason behind all of this....sometimes it's just hard to understand....thank each & every 1 of you & i'm doing better each day..........

Why kill yourself?
You're gonna die eventually anyway.

Life is short.
Get some perspective.

Read.
Explore.

Originally Posted by bigedawg23

...and about religion,I try to be a christian but fail miserably but I do believe he has a plan and know that there's a reason behind all of this....sometimes it's just hard to understand....thank each & every 1 of you & i'm doing better each day..........

Religion and being a Christian are two different thinks Religion tells you "you" have to do works and do certian things to get to Heaven. When you realize that you cannot change yourself and take Jesus as your savior, the Holy Ghost indwells in you. That is what changes you. Your trusting in the Lord and listening to the Holy Spirit, Christianity is not a "thing" it is a Journey from dark to light. Admitting your sins and "trying" to get rid of sin in your life. NOBODY is without sin and no one is perfect. God is forgiving as you would forgive your child for doing something wrong.
I am a Christian I still sin, but a lot less. I was given a second chance at life through Christ. I don't try and push my faith on anyone here. But if you have any questions I would be gald to try and help you understand what salvation is all about.
God does have a plan for you, cause you are still here on Earth. Maybe posting this message on this board was part of it? Be open to suggestions from God.

God Bless you and your Family

Jag

Originally Posted by bigedawg23

wow,a big thank you to all the members for your support here..it was(is) tough dealing with all this shit at once. It's like the things I had planned for myself & my family are now that much harder to achieve.We were doing ok financially at the time, I mean our bills are paid,food in the fridge,usually if it's anything new then it's for my 5 year old daughter,like clothes & stuff but I always struggled with the fact that I'm not providing for my family the way I feel they should be taken care of..You know..like why can't my wife just be a stay at home mother who don't have to worry about working,or why do we have these old beaters of cars when we get them instead of driving something newer..I'm in no way wanting sypmathy from you guys by sharing all this. Just trying to let you see things thru my eyes. My wife & I run a home/vacation rental cleaning business which is a pretty good business in this area.but it means sometimes we may go a week with no work then we'll be booked up the whole next week with sometimes 2 cleanings in 1 day...I know I could get out and find another job that would maybe provide better than what we are doing now but if I do that we will have to hire someone to help my wife to the cleaning & probably an additional person for the maint. on the homes...I do all the maint,inside & outside,and when i'm finished with that I help her finish cleaning...I'm not scared of hard work at all,I spent 10 years in the Army but this situation is like a catch 22...now I've added 2 more mouths to fees & cloth and so the utilities will also rise some but I could not turn my back on them. Maybe the state will help so i'm going to look into the foodstamp thing. I just thought that the 200,000 my wife would get from the insurance policy would solve things for them rather than have to keep struggling thru day 2 day with me. Like I said,looking back now I know it was selfish & would've damaged those closest to me but at the time it just felt like they'd be better off without me than with me....and about religion,I try to be a christian but fail miserably but I do believe he has a plan and know that there's a reason behind all of this....sometimes it's just hard to understand....thank each & every 1 of you & i'm doing better each day..........

Did your sister not have any life insurance? Her kids should be able to collect her Social Security....