Thread: Suicide. Anyone thought about it?

"Depression is just anger without enthusiasm."

No I haven't thought about it.

If I make it to old age and am in pain of severe kind, I'll do the potassium cyanide cocktail.

1 tb. spoon of potassium cyanide
8 oz. glass of tap water (not mineral)

Stir it up. Wait 4 minutes.

Drink it.

You'll be unconscious in about 1 minute and dead within a couple depending on your vitality, strength and age.

Painless, and simple.

I considered it a few years ago when i was having panic attacks.
I made it through.

Thought about it when I was a teen due to too much social discrimination back at home country during those time.

Yeah.
Not about killing myself.
But thinking about the people who have.

You need to talk just send me a pm.

Not lately...nah

I didn't really get there...I think, all the chemicals and the party animals made me get through it

I saw a film called, "The Bridge" and being I am from San Francisco, CA and having that to cross over from time to time, it was a very sad and moving movie. The girl that made multiple attempts was the one that I really wished to talk to, and see what and why her need to leave so sudden was upon her.

Trust you'd re-think this process of elimination and seek out a yoda sort...one you can call "friend"

Suicide is something people consider when they think that life is more powerful than they are. So long as you're alive, there are always incredible possibilities.

Maybe wealth is your goal. There are also those that have nothing, in the worldly sense, but live very enriched lifestyles.

Ultimately, no matter how bad life gets, you can still succeed on your terms.

Two great books to read to change your attitude:

Who moved my cheese.
Rich Dad, Poor Dad (Don't read anything else by him. This is his only good book).

You should make it a habit to constantly read or watch empowering and uplifting things. Right now I'm just starting Wherever You Go There You Are, by Jon Kabat-Zinn.

In any case, I've found that the best way to work my way out of a low emotional place is to help others. Go help someone else and you'll be amazed at home much it helps yourself.

Originally Posted by TJTJ

"Depression is just anger without enthusiasm."

it is also a permanent solution to a temporary problem...


my sister specializes in gerontology so I have studied it a little but not thought about it myself.

I think about nearly everyday. So is the nature of manic depression. I either think about how much I want a long awaited rest, or I think about how crazy I must have been to depressed in the first place since life is so great. Happiness comes and goes like seasons of the year, and I am fucking tired.

Originally Posted by KelJu

I think about nearly everyday. So is the nature of manic depression. I either think about how much I want a long awaited rest, or I think about how crazy I must have been to depressed in the first place since life is so great. Happiness comes and goes like seasons of the year, and I am fucking tired.

I've found that intelligent people are more prone to depression.
I think it's because they are more realistic, and truthful to themselves.

Originally Posted by myCATpowerlifts

I've found that intelligent people are more prone to depression.
I think it's because they are more realistic, and truthful to themselves.

yep....the analytical mind causes problems with the inner dialogue and creates conflict. it's kind of like an autoimmune disorder of the brain and depression is the end result.

Originally Posted by myCATpowerlifts

I've found that intelligent people are more prone to depression.
I think it's because they are more realistic, and truthful to themselves.

There was a study on this a couple of months back, depression being the world's most frequently diagnosed mental disorder. Research in the Journal of Psychology provides evidence that depression has a positive side effect.

The study showed, depressed individuals perform better than their non-depressed peers in sequential decision tasks.

Originally Posted by IronAddict

There was a study on this a couple of months back, depression being the world's most frequently diagnosed mental disorder. Research in the Journal of Psychology provides evidence that depression has a positive side effect.

The study showed, depressed individuals perform better than their non-depressed peers in sequential decision tasks.

People trying to control themselves, creates depression it seems.

Originally Posted by TJTJ

Why? Insanity leads to depression which leads to suicide.
World is better off without those wastes of oxygen.

Often enough to realize that I will never go through with it, but at least I consider all the options.... When you feel so alone in the world, and it seems like all the doors are closed and locked and your only way out is death...then I look around and see my dogs and realize how awful it would be to leave them alone the way I feel and I am suddenly happy....thats why I have so many dogs I think, and why I write all the time when I am lonely to keep my mind off of my mind.....

i took wellbutrin xl for depression and it made me think of suicide. i never had before and when i'd go off it i'd stop feeling that way. be fucking careful with meds. and for fucks sake talk to someone if your thinking of that. it will devastate your loved ones and you cannot undo that.

I have thought about it. There are times where, as Kelju said, you just feel so tired, you need that rest. I have also thought about getting old and full of pain, or pissing/shitting myself, I really don't want to live that long.

Most of my thoughts do surround my loved ones, and the fact that I can only imagine how hard it would be on them if I were to take a drastic step like commiting suicide.

Yea, I think about it... would I ever do it, probably not. If I had no loved ones left, maybe I would consider it more seriously.

You all hit on many points i can associate with. Since I dont know how to "multi-quote" Ill just go one by one. blazeftp ty.

DOMS I read "The art of happiness" by the dalai lama written and interviewed by a psychologist so it was in tune with my western scientific mind. I hate writing. I cant get the words on the paper fast enough. Thought about doing a blog or something like that. plus being dyslexic I cant click spell check on tree pulp.

myCATpowerlifts and LAM I think thats just it. intelligent people are more prone to depression.and truthful to themselves. analytical mind causes problems.
I have extreme introspection abilities so when I do wrong I really beat myself up over it.. Also in psychology there is this thing called "Shoulding on myself/ourself"(look it up) its almost a pun. because how it sounds is just like how it sounds. you shit on yourself.

maniclion I have two dogs of my own and they are my best friends and the best listeners. but they arent people.

Big Smoothy do you think youll be senile enough at that age to be ready to have your death drink?

I come from a very interesting background. My introspection has helped me though. Its okay to make mistakes, as long as you learn from them. But my main issue is my pathological critic(another one to look up) is constantly shoulding on me. I fucking hate that guy! I have also redirected, or tried to, my life towards more free will and inner locus of control(look it up) approach.

This is just a thread to see who has thought of it because I have. Sometimes daily on the hour, every hour. Others not so bad. Im no harm to myself(atm), but more so to others. I mean for real. I hate myself but I really hate other people. I want to keep hearing from you all and new people about this topic. Its a sensitive topic and who knows, it could be an outlet to future members.

Originally Posted by Muscle_Girl

Yea, I think about it... would I ever do it, probably not. If I had no loved ones left, maybe I would consider it more seriously.

Thats the main reason I dont. I only have my mother and sister left in my family. And we live long, except my dad. he died when i was 25 at 54 from liver cancer. i really miss my dad. He was never part of my life until I was around 18 and he could talk to me as a man. He was this tough guy from the Bronx and shit so, you know, but He and I were on point with each other. I mean, no words needed. Just a look and "yeah I know"

but if I didnt have any family members, for sure.

Originally Posted by TJTJ

I hate myself but I really hate other people.

This gave me a good laugh. I often have the same outlook.

In my opinion suicide is a bitch way to go out. If life gives you shit then make a shit sandwich. Suck it up and move forward. I don't sympathize with weak minded people. There are always people in worse situations that make the best of it.

Originally Posted by Work IN Progress

In my opinion suicide is a bitch way to go out....There are always people in worse situations that make the best of it.

I agree. Its a pussy way out and there are always others in worst situations.

Originally Posted by TJTJ

I agree. Its a pussy way out and there are always others in worst situations.

Reps

Originally Posted by DOMS

Suicide is something people consider when they think that life is more powerful than they are. So long as you're alive, there are always incredible possibilities.

Maybe wealth is your goal. There are also those that have nothing, in the worldly sense, but live very enriched lifestyles.

Ultimately, no matter how bad life gets, you can still succeed on your terms.

Two great books to read to change your attitude:

Who moved my cheese.
Rich Dad, Poor Dad (Don't read anything else by him. This is his only good book).

You should make it a habit to constantly read or watch empowering and uplifting things. Right now I'm just starting Wherever You Go There You Are, by Jon Kabat-Zinn.

In any case, I've found that the best way to work my way out of a low emotional place is to help others. Go help someone else and you'll be amazed at home much it helps yourself.

So tell me what happend to the real Doms?

Originally Posted by TJTJ

I agree. Its a pussy way out and there are always others in worst situations.

the exception being the terminal ill, I think they should be allowed to check-out early. being kept alive with new medical procedures/treatments, etc. with a low quality of life isn't living.

Originally Posted by Little Wing

i took wellbutrin xl for depression and it made me think of suicide. i never had before and when i'd go off it i'd stop feeling that way. be fucking careful with meds. and for fucks sake talk to someone if your thinking of that. it will devastate your loved ones and you cannot undo that.

Meds don't help me either and I think I know why. For me its not as much a chemical disorder as it is from damage to my frontal lobes on 3 different occasions as a child. My mom can attest to the changes between at least 2 of the incidents.

Before the first my mom said I was outgoing and not shy at all, I would make anyone laugh with my silliness, very charismatic, then I fell at the Zoo while being giddy and silly(my favorite shirt back then was the Mr. Silly shirt like in my avatar) I tripped and hit my forehead on the concrete and a huge knot formed like an egg was embedded under the skin...she said after that I would spend more time alone than usual, but around people I was still goofy and silly.

Then a couple years later I was outside playing with the neighborhood kids when lightning struck nearby and everyone took off running in panic and I was running to my house when the kid behind me kicked my foot and I went head first into a curb for another egg sized knot on my forehead. Slightly more withdrawn, less charismatic....

Then when I was 10 I had a bike accident, same knot on my forehead the gave me a concussion so bad I was puking. I became the slightly manic-depressive I am today, also somedays I feel very empathetic and somedays I feel very apathetic....Also since that day I get migraines so bad if I have minor hallucinations in patterns and if I don't lie down I will end up puking and then the pain just overwhelms my mind and I end up just wanting to sleep for a day....after this the manic episodes will start for a few months sometimes.....

Originally Posted by HialeahChico305

So tell me what happend to the real Doms?

This is in line with everything else I've said.

Nope, not really. That's unfortunate for you.