Who's afraid of death?

**evanps** · 05-28-2011, 08:50 PM

Two part post here. First a quick lil story.

Just got back from the beach. Rented a kayak, love to kayak especially in the ocean. Had my younger brother out, strong winds and a pretty good northerly current. Ridin some pretty nice waves and of course tipped her over. We flipped the kayak but my lil bro pushed a lil too hard and pushed it away from us. He drops the paddle and swims to the kayak. I'm stuck there with two paddles 200+ yards from shore and the currents already pushed him way outta reach lol. So I swim back to shore, totally gassed at this point. Walk north up the beach as he floats further and further upshore. lol I recruit our neighbor as he and his kayak are being spilled onto the beach by the surf and we carry his kayak another .5 miles or so, paddle out well past the pier's end where everyone's watching lol and get my bro a paddle and we go back in....

we get ourselves into situations like this all the time, sometimes I wonder if we don't subconsciously do it on purpose. Anyway Later we're talking about how a lot of ppl woulda lost it bein that far out and having to swim back in with the current that day and we get on the subject of death. I say that I'm in no way afraid of death other than it depresses the hell out of me that I'll miss something.... Like if there is an after life I NEED to be able to watch the world and see what happens to man.... The ONLY thing about death that bothers me is that it's liking losing the last copy of the greatest book ever written when you're right in the middle of it..... Everyone acted like I was crazy but to me that's always how I've thought.... So whats up? How does everyone else feel about meeting their end?

**feinburgrl** · 05-28-2011, 08:52 PM

I'm afraid of dying but I will deal with it.

**Big Pimpin** · 05-28-2011, 09:59 PM

I could give a shit less about dying or tough situations. Case in point...Thursday afternoon while driving, I encountered baseball and grapefruit sized hail.

Shattered/blew out my sunroof, put holes in my back glass and my windshield was cashed all while I was talking to my dad and laughing (he wasn't laughing LOL).

I hope my car is totaled ($200 deductible).

I do feel bad for the guy and his 7yo kid on the Harley next to me..........

**x~factor** · 05-28-2011, 10:08 PM

I'm not afraid of death, but I am afraid of the thought of leaving behind love ones.

**BillHicksFan** · 05-28-2011, 10:15 PM

Many people worry about dying but nobody worries about being dead.

**Curt James** · 05-28-2011, 11:06 PM

If I make it to September I'll be more than 49 years old. I've known people a LOT younger than that who have punched out. While I'm not looking forward to death I'm very grateful for the time I've had and don't expect a day more. Everyone believes they'll make it to 100 but that's just not realistic, imo.

Pianos still fall from the skies!

Well, and safes, too.

**cg89** · 05-28-2011, 11:51 PM

how i am going to die is what i am afraid of not the principal of dieing...i wish i was taking hgh from day 1 because they say if you take hgh from day 1 you can live to see 140

**BillHicksFan** · 05-28-2011, 11:55 PM

I find this to be a moving and realistic view on life and death. To truly understand this manages to take the pain away from death by celebrating life.
We really are fortunate to have witnessed this existence to begin with.

**SFW** · 05-29-2011, 12:09 AM

I just think about the billions of people who died before me and it makes it kind of comforting and less anxious for me.

**Deity** · 05-29-2011, 01:11 AM

Originally Posted by SFW

I just think about the billions of people who died before me and it makes it kind of comforting and less anxious for me.

I was actualy going to say that aswell. And besides reguardless if there is or isn't a hereafter, everyone is going in the ground someday.

**soxmuscle** · 05-29-2011, 01:44 AM

Originally Posted by SFW

I just think about the billions of people who died before me and it makes it kind of comforting and less anxious for me.

Great thought.

If an estimated 99,000,000,000 have died, surely I'll be fine in death as well.

But yea, honestly... I don't want to go out in any other way but old age. Unfortunately, there are no guarantees.

**ovr40** · 05-29-2011, 05:32 AM

bet there's gonna be alot of ROOFING going on YEAH!! love me some hail storms!

Originally Posted by Big Pimpin

I could give a shit less about dying or tough situations. Case in point...Thursday afternoon while driving, I encountered baseball and grapefruit sized hail.

Shattered/blew out my sunroof, put holes in my back glass and my windshield was cashed all while I was talking to my dad and laughing (he wasn't laughing LOL).

I hope my car is totaled ($200 deductible).

I do feel bad for the guy and his 7yo kid on the Harley next to me..........

**KelJu** · 05-29-2011, 06:11 AM

I am not even remotely afraid of death. I'm not suicidal, I just don't think it is a big deal in the grand scheme of things. However, I'm afraid of not fulfilling my responsibilities to the people I care about. If it weren't for that I would have bought a one way ticket to the next plane of existence via a bullet to the brain a long time ago.

**minimal** · 05-29-2011, 06:40 AM

Originally Posted by BillHicksFan

I find this to be a moving and realistic view on life and death. To truly understand this manages to take the pain away from death by celebrating life.
We really are fortunate to have witnessed this existence to begin with.

**BillHicksFan** · 05-29-2011, 06:54 AM

Originally Posted by KelJu

I am not even remotely afraid of death. I'm not suicidal, I just don't think it is a big deal in the grand scheme of things. However, I'm afraid of not fulfilling my responsibilities to the people I care about. If it weren't for that I would have bought a one way ticket to the next plane of existence via a bullet to the brain a long time ago.

That's sad because I find you to be an exceptionally complex and interesting individual. I hope you are able to find some happiness before all of this ends and that you can be satisfied with the hand you were dealt however don't get me wrong, I can relate to what you are saying entirely.

**evanps** · 05-29-2011, 07:32 AM

Originally Posted by BillHicksFan

That's sad because I find you to be an exceptionally complex and interesting individual. I hope you are able to find some happiness before all of this ends and that you can be satisfied with the hand you were dealt however don't get me wrong, I can relate to what you are saying entirely.

I won't say sad, and please no one take this out of contest, because even at my age I've experienced periods of stress and thought to myself just how much longer I had to go. But I agree with BHF I've been prowling the forum for yrs off and on and I've always thought you (Kelju) and ManicLion were pretty interesting ppl.

That being said I have had my share of depression and anxiety like any man (and I believe to a point every person's emotions/experiences are valid because its all perspective) but I always find that once its over I feel so much more alive. We wouldn't appreciate the summers as much if we never had winter.... I really truly believe all any one person has is whats left in that final minute. Its just you and ur experiences in the end, no one else can be there. It's that idea that makes me regret that my time to "experience" is so limited.

**KelJu** · 05-29-2011, 08:27 AM

Originally Posted by BillHicksFan

That's sad because I find you to be an exceptionally complex and interesting individual. I hope you are able to find some happiness before all of this ends and that you can be satisfied with the hand you were dealt however don't get me wrong, I can relate to what you are saying entirely.

I really appreciate the kind words. I didn't mean to sound so doom and gloom, though. I just mean that I have had my share of incredible ups and downs, and it was obligation that always gets me through the downs. I just couldn't do that to my mom. I might as well just stab her in the heart.

It is a hell of a thing to go long periods of time feeling like life is a prison sentence, the walls and bars are made from the love you have for your family, and an honest death is the only way out. You fantasize about getting cancer and how that would be parole for good behavior and time served. You become warped, but you also gain a perspective on life that few can ever know.

Then you just snap out of it to spend the next nine months to a year living it up just trying not to sink back into the shit again.

**DOMS** · 05-29-2011, 08:34 PM

I'm not afraid of dying.

Hell, I've come so close so many times that I think the part of my brain that controls self-preservation is severely broken.

**irish_2003** · 05-29-2011, 09:35 PM

am i afraid of death? not in comparison with being afraid of life.......i've lived a good life and experienced highs and lows and maybe i should have died in combat instead of someone else......i'm not gonna seek out death, but if happens it happens......worm food

**ovr40** · 05-30-2011, 05:11 AM

how?TRULY CLOSE? please elaborate

Originally Posted by DOMS

I'm not afraid of dying.

Hell, I've come so close so many times that I think the part of my brain that controls self-preservation is severely broken.

**2tomlinson** · 05-30-2011, 08:05 AM

Originally Posted by BillHicksFan

I find this to be a moving and realistic view on life and death. To truly understand this manages to take the pain away from death by celebrating life.
We really are fortunate to have witnessed this existence to begin with.

Thank you very much for this, very powerful

**DOMS** · 05-30-2011, 09:40 AM

Originally Posted by ovr40

how?TRULY CLOSE? please elaborate

I've been in a coma (fractured skull, wasn't supposed to recover), hit by two cars (on foot and on bike), been caught in a rock avalanche, face climbed 300 feet with a broken leg (had to jump at one point), almost drove off a cliff (stopped with 1 tire over, after an accident), almost drowned (took in water) in front of a life guard at Venice beach, and fell over a cliff and only stopped because I grabbed a dead plant (was save by friend).

I'm sure there are more, but they're just not coming to mind.

**2tomlinson** · 05-30-2011, 10:09 AM

Originally Posted by DOMS

I've been in a coma (fractured skull, wasn't supposed to recover), hit by two cars (on foot and on bike), been caught in a rock avalanche, face climbed 300 feet with a broken leg (had to jump at one point), almost drove off a cliff (stopped with 1 tire over, after an accident), almost drowned (took in water) in front of a life guard at Venice beach, and fell over a cliff and only stopped because I grabbed a dead plant (was save by friend).

I'm sure there are more, but they're just not coming to mind.

Hey wait a minute, pal -- is your name really Wile E. Coyote? I've always suspected, damn it, because of your obsessive (sometimes irrational) fixations. If so, please contact my friend The Roadrunner at his office at Acme Instant Roadblocks LLC. He'd like to take you sky diving.

**DOMS** · 05-30-2011, 10:37 AM

Originally Posted by 2tomlinson

Hey wait a minute, pal -- is your name really Wile E. Coyote? I've always suspected, damn it, because of your obsessive (sometimes irrational) fixations. If so, please contact my friend The Roadrunner at his office at Acme Instant Roadblocks LLC. He'd like to take you sky diving.

**2tomlinson** · 05-30-2011, 11:14 AM

Originally Posted by DOMS

Shit-the-fucking-bed, I KNEW it!

**DOMS** · 05-30-2011, 12:10 PM

Originally Posted by 2tomlinson

Shit-the-fucking-bed, I KNEW it!

**Digitalash** · 05-30-2011, 08:51 PM

All my life I've thought I wasn't, but I guess it's different when you think you might be lol. Thinking about it now it's just an unavoidable thing that if you worry too much about you're just missing out on life. But the one time I legitimately thought I was dying I was pretty fucking scared lol. Still have no idea why, but I thought I had a stroke or something one time. Sitting at the computer, perfectly normal day and started getting really light headed, ringing in the ears, "tunnel vision" etc. Weirded me out because I didn't know what could be causing it. Stood up thinking it would help it pass, blacked out immediately and I guess didn't wake up for a while. Woke up to my dog licking my face whining, stood up, blacked out again.... Wake up, feel normal, never happens again? I thought I had a stroke and had brain damage or something, very scary

**evanps** · 05-30-2011, 08:51 PM

Originally Posted by DOMS

I've been in a coma (fractured skull, wasn't supposed to recover), hit by two cars (on foot and on bike), been caught in a rock avalanche, face climbed 300 feet with a broken leg (had to jump at one point), almost drove off a cliff (stopped with 1 tire over, after an accident), almost drowned (took in water) in front of a life guard at Venice beach, and fell over a cliff and only stopped because I grabbed a dead plant (was save by friend).

I'm sure there are more, but they're just not coming to mind.

Bahaha how many of those "Most extreme..." shows/vids have you been in? do you get royalties?

**Chubby** · 05-30-2011, 09:32 PM

"When we leave this world, how much we have loved will be our true legacy. It is the only thing we will leave behind and carry with us."
~Anne Siloy

**Chubby** · 05-30-2011, 10:00 PM

"You can shed tears that she is gone
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

~David Howkins

I posted it here because I think it is a beautiful poem about death.

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