Thread: RANT: Am i depressed???

Thanks Mayo......

God is a good choice to turn to. I pray every night, but barely go to church anymore. Perhaps i should start....

i just want to find a woman that likes soft spoken, nice, cuddle-aholic and sex-aholic meatheads who like Pantera, Metallica, eating, the Red Sox and the Pats. is that too much to ask?

Originally posted by greekblondechic
I think its better to take 1-2 yrs off and then go back to grad school if you so desire

Its not good to go to grad school unless you know exactly what ur goin for, and plus if you get a job they might pay for it or half at least

I say take a break but not like too long of a break cuz like Prince said, then tryin to have a family and all gets in the way

I agree, but most people never go back.

Pantera

yes pantera is great!!!

Originally posted by gr81
this is exactly why I am always saying that we are too young for seriously relationships at our age my man. Fuck that shit. Now is your time to have fun dude, not be stressing over some chick. I know what you are going through man, believe me. It took me a long time to get over my most serious GF, but once I did and I spent some time alone, it was the best thing that ever happened to me. I got to realize who I was without someone else there all the time. You get to do your thing without someone holding you back alot of the time. Most importantly you learn things about people. As long as you take something from this relatationship then it was a good thing. Never let a women string you along like that. they will take advantage of your lingering feelings and keep you in the "bullpen" man. Once you break up with someone, you gotta just give it time and move on, otherwise you will never get over that person. As for the game, dont' even worry bout that bro. Think of it this way. You don't need game, just keep it real and be yourself and the true women will see that you are good peoples, and the ones that don't are dumb hoes anyways. anyways man, you are a great person with a true heart, I know that b/c I don't associate with clowns, ya dig. haha. You got alot to be poud about dude, don't let some woman get you down. It looks like I am gonna have to teach you a thing or to about how scandalous these women can be, but we will work on that later. I will get back to you in your PM but I just wanted to give you love in public, cuz you are my man. Stay up dude, keep your head in the game and do your thing. Much love brotha.

Gawd I hate to say this, but...

Good post man.

Seriously, good post man.

Flax, you ain't depressed man, you are just needing a life. Big difference. I went through the same thing in college. One things I've always said and will always stand behind...

"all graduates are at the peak of their ignorance on graduation day". You are not alone. This is totally normal.

Originally posted by Flex
i just want to find a woman that likes soft spoken, nice, cuddle-aholic and sex-aholic meatheads who like Pantera, Metallica, eating, the Red Sox and the Pats.

honestly, is this too much to ask?

another thing is i'm kinda afraid to give my heart to another chick. it hurts so fuckin bad to go out with a girl, show her the world, then find out its not good enough.....

B.O.-thanks bro...

Again, the WORST thing is, is that i know i'm a sucker for talking to her again....and letting her string me along.

yet, i still cant help myself. like i said before, you can't control your feelings, ya know?

Originally posted by BUSTINOUT
Gawd I hate to say this, but...

Good post man.

Seriously, good post man.

ha ha, got ya!! lol j/k

seriously thou man, check it out. Just b/c you are down doesn't necessarily mean you are suffering from depression. Everyone goes throu things, down times. Plus it is totally normal to experience feelings like this post cycle so keep that in mind! Shit you know what I am going throu right now from our talks so you know you ain't alone brotha. But depression is on a much bigger scale. Try to take comfort in teh things that make you happy, like your BB, run with that at the moment and don't look back. Check this thou, I have heard so many stats talking about how college students are THE MOST suicidal and depressed people, its true. Its not just you. This is probably the most stressful time of your life and its normal to be stressed out. If you seriously think you have underlying issues, then I would advise to go talk to someone man. going to therapy doesn't mean you are crazy, it only serves helps you understand some of the issues you may have, that is if you feel things are serious enough. Otherwise, take comfort in your good friends and keep using IM here as a bit of group therapy and don't hold it in. Remember, all of these feelings are normal bro, you are not alone. As for love, thats the price you pay for letting someone that close to you, you also give them that much power over you and they can hurt you more than anyone else. That is just kindof the price of doing business when it comes to that. Lots of women have labeled me as bitter after I went through a similar situation, but it si a defense mechanism. The bottom line is that, something like that is going to happen sooner or later. You just have to heal your wounds, be cautious with who you get close to, and move on. Like they say, 'Tis better to have loved and lost, then to never have loved at all.. that shit is too true. Take this as a life lesson and move forward, ya know. Remember the good times and take what you can from the bad. Most importantly, time heals all bro. remember that shit...and keep that head up.

Originally posted by gr81
going to therapy doesn't mean you are crazy, it only serves helps you understand some of the issues you may have.

Like they say, 'Tis better to have loved and lost, then to never have loved at all..

Damn bro, you got everything figured out.

as far as being crazy, i believe everyone is a little crazy, me more than others. who knows whats wrong with me.

i hear exactly what you're saying, but unfortunately its easier said than done. in my case i dont think its better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all, cuz i mean it just hurts.

i know time will heal all, but i guess i'm just stuck in the moment. I try to live moment to moment, not worrying about the future. by doing that, i find myself not being able to let it go......

anyways, i appreciate your support my man, you're truly a good guy.

FLEX

Man... didnt read all the posts, but a few. Atleast you werent like me and P-funk watching the lion king on saturday night...
I also dont like to drink, and all my friends go out to the bar. It kinda sucks, need to find some people that are into the stuff I like. Well, I have here at IM, but real people too! lol

You'll always have Captain Fagmerica to keep you strong Premier!!!

Muahahaha

Damn Mayo... *shakes fist*

Watch it Mayo, or Cpt. America and Superman will bust your ass

BTW, is Oceanside the REAL O.C.? or is it Orange County?

either way, you should say you're from the "O.C." hahaha

O.C. is Oceanside..HoldDaMayo is da real deal.

man, school sucks. too much pressure on me to do good. and football just makes it 5x harder. i don't think i'm don't think i'm depressed but i am very stressful. runs in the family i think. my dad is always stressed out too but i don't show it as much as him.

Orange County is the real OC... Oceanside isn't bad... it's close to Carlsbad and Encinitas and PB... Orange County has some really nice areas, around Newport Beach, which is where the show on TV is based... Orange County also has the crappiest areas too... just like every other county has its bad parts...

Originally posted by gr81
This is probably the most stressful time of your life and its normal to be stressed out. If you seriously think you have underlying issues, then I would advise to go talk to someone man. going to therapy doesn't mean you are crazy, it only serves helps you understand some of the issues you may have, that is if you feel things are serious enough.

I never thought I'd hear Mr. Gangsta rapper say this You are so right gr8, I'm impressed

Flex, you'll come to the point when you have to move and let her go. Maybe you're not there yet, but the time will come. Don't be afraid to let other people in, it's the only way you can find happiness.

i just want to find a woman that likes soft spoken, nice, cuddle-aholic and sex-aholic meatheads who like Pantera, Metallica, eating, the Red Sox and the Pats. is that too much to ask?

No, it's not too much to ask for. But you will never find that woman until you're able to let go of your past and be ready to let someone new in. If you're too afraid to love again, love won't find you.

We're all behind you, I feel a group hug coming

thanks Jenny.

its just i dont know if i should let her go...

who knows, maybe she's the "one" for me, ya know? i guess when i can't take it any longer and i grow to hate her, then thats the time to get rid of her.

but i mean, itsjust i'm in love. STUPID love. and i dont wanna let her go if she's "it".....

Would she really be treating you this way if she was "the one"?

Well maybe she is the one.. Tell her how you feel and see how she responds to that If she keeps treating you bad, you need to let her go..

Good luck!

Originally posted by Jenny
I never thought I'd hear Mr. Gangsta rapper say this You are so right gr8, I'm impressed

ha ha. thats funny. I am telling you people have me all wrong. I am actually a very down to earth articulate person, I just have a few different sides to me is all. I definately know whats going on, believe that. I am a great person to talk to when it comes to things like this. its all good.

Originally posted by greekblondechic
Would she really be treating you this way if she was "the one"?

Perfectly said greek . Flex,.. dawg, listen to this. This is probably a time when you don't want to listen to your heart. Its very hard ot step out and look at the situation objectively, but your thinking is clouded with feelings. Time to move on and she probably thinks the same thing from teh looks of it. Listen to the women, they know.

the best way i can put it is like she's heroin and i'm an addict. I know its bad for me, yet i can't help myself. Just when i start getting over it, i get a little "fix", and bam, i have a relapse. Its just so hard to walk away from.

Its prob. b/c she was my 1st love. it sucks that i had to wait til college to fall in love with a chick. too bad i didnt get it outta the way in h.s., then i think i'd already have moved on......