Rock's Pity Thread

[Rocco32]

Alright, just like the title says this is my pity thread. My 27th B-day is coming up and I'm freaking out again like I do every year. What have I done with my life? What have I accomplished? NOTHING!! I used to be a missionary for 5 years right after high school but that doesn't even feel like that was me anymore. Now I work 2 jobs with no future and still don't even have my associates degree. I live in an area that I hate but Lisa likes. It's the same thing day in and day out. Usually I get a tattoo for my birthday, makes me feel a little better doing something different but Lisa says no more tats

I just had an interview with Lockheed and Martin and this is supposed to be my ticket. But I'm afraid my credit is going to hold me back from getting my clearance When I was a missionary I was hospitalised a few times and of course didn't have money for the bills. The organization was supposed to take care of it but of course they didn't so that looks bad on me.

So I don't think I'll get the job and I have no idea what to do with my life now. I have no other interests really and I can't keep going the direction I'm headed now because that's nowhere! And the worst part is I feel I can't talk to anybody about this because I know it would make Lisa unhappy and worried and I don't want to needlessly do that. So I'm venting here and this is solely a pity party Everyone is invited since you're all my friends.

[P-funk]

My 27th B-day is coming up and I'm freaking out again like I do every year. What have I done with my life? What have I accomplished? NOTHING!!

I turned 25 on may 4th and every year I feel the exact same way. I feel like I have just wasted time.

I think that most people feel this way. I think that most people feel that they have no idea what to do with their lives or were they are going. I just keep plugging away hoping that it will all make sense in the end. If it doesn't, oh well, then it doesn't! At least I know that it sucked from the begining all the way to the end.

Hang in there Rock! When is the big day?

[Jenny]

David, I'm sorry you feel this way What are you passionate about? What's close to your heart?
I think you in fact should talk to Lisa about this, that is what marriage is all about

I will bring you some Räkost when I come over to help cheer you up

[Crono1000]

I'm here for ya buddy. I doubt you want advice from someone younger than yourself, but I'll listen to all you have to say.

vent away
no shame in asking for a little help
I don't think it's wise to keep this from your wife though, who knows you better inside and out than her? Besides, your problems are her problems and maybe she can help?

[bulletproof1]

at least you are still in ur 20's. its never too late to accomplish anything.

1 of my favorite quotes ..."do not resent growing older, many are denied the priviledge."

anyways, this post probably didnt help much so ill just go back to my corner.

[Var]

I feel like this all the time, Rock. I turned 27 in April, hate my job, have no $, and no interest in advancing in my current company. I'm feeling a little better now because I got my PT certification and am going to work for a fitness studio. Sounds like you need to (as mentioned already by someone) find out what you're passionate about and go after it.

My mother told me recently about an article she read about this. Apparently, its a problem our entire generation is having. Feeling like we have no future, havent accomplished anything, cant seem to find happiness. I have friends who went to college for 6 years thinking they'd find their place in the world...now they're making good $ and still hate their lives. You're not alone here for sure.

[bludevil]

I'm 30 and used to feel the same way until my wife and I had a child. Now everday when I come home and my 2 year old daughter runs to me and gives me a hug, I know I have a purpose in life. No way to describe the emotions you feel when you have a kid but it definately gives you direction. Not saying to have a kid, but I've been in your shoes and this is when I felt my life had direction.

[naturaltan]

... Now everday when I come home and my 2 year old daughter runs to me and gives me a hug, I know I have a purpose in life. No way to describe the emotions you feel when you have a kid

so very true!

[P-funk]

I'm 30 and used to feel the same way until my wife and I had a child. Now everday when I come home and my 2 year old daughter runs to me and gives me a hug, I know I have a purpose in life. No way to describe the emotions you feel when you have a kid but it definately gives you direction. Not saying to have a kid, but I've been in your shoes and this is when I felt my life had direction.

that is wonderful. I wish I felt that way....maybe someday.

[PreMier]

I really dont know what to say, because I am in the same boat.

I hope that Lockheed understands the situation, and you get the position.

[Rocco32]

I turned 25 on may 4th and every year I feel the exact same way. I feel like I have just wasted time.

I think that most people feel this way. I think that most people feel that they have no idea what to do with their lives or were they are going. I just keep plugging away hoping that it will all make sense in the end. If it doesn't, oh well, then it doesn't! At least I know that it sucked from the begining all the way to the end.

Hang in there Rock! When is the big day?

Thanks Patrick. The big day is July 9. I guess I look at you and I see so much potential and that's great! You hang in there too

[Rocco32]

David, I'm sorry you feel this way What are you passionate about? What's close to your heart?
I think you in fact should talk to Lisa about this, that is what marriage is all about

I will bring you some Räkost when I come over to help cheer you up

I look forward to the Rakost, and I'm excited for you and Justin to be coming back soon! I'm passionate about lifting weights, writing, watching movies. But I feel like I kick my butt constantly lifting weights and go nowhere because my body is so screwed up and something is always hurting to the point I can't exercise. I used to write alot but I feel like I dried up. There's stuff there inside me but I feel like that part of me is dead and I can't or don't want to connect with it if that makes sense. And I can't make a living watching movies, LOL I just feel I want purpose in my life and it's just not there and I don't see it in the future if you knwo what I mean.

As far as telling Lisa, it's not like she doesn't know some of this but I don't think it's fair to overwhelm her with something she can do nothing about. I won't bring her down where I am and that's what would happen and for no reason IMO.

[Rocco32]

I'm here for ya buddy. I doubt you want advice from someone younger than yourself, but I'll listen to all you have to say.

vent away
no shame in asking for a little help
I don't think it's wise to keep this from your wife though, who knows you better inside and out than her? Besides, your problems are her problems and maybe she can help?

Hey Buddy!! I'll take advice from anyone, I really don't think age matters. Maybe this is not the way it should be, but Lisa does not know me inside and out. I don't think anyone does. How sad is that, I still have trouble trusting my own wife, LOL. Maybe my problem is all those Drizzt and fantasy books I've read. I love the purpose in their lives and what they stand for but I have none of that in my life even though I desire it soo bad.

[Rocco32]

at least you are still in ur 20's. its never too late to accomplish anything.

1 of my favorite quotes ..."do not resent growing older, many are denied the priviledge."

anyways, this post probably didnt help much so ill just go back to my corner.

Haha, nice quote. But would you rather have quality of life or quantity? Obviously both but if you could only have one or the other of course you would go for quality and I feel that's what I'm missing and I don't see it on the horizon anywhere. I'm still in my 20's, but that's LATE 20's, LOL.

[Rocco32]

I feel like this all the time, Rock. I turned 27 in April, hate my job, have no $, and no interest in advancing in my current company. I'm feeling a little better now because I got my PT certification and am going to work for a fitness studio. Sounds like you need to (as mentioned already by someone) find out what you're passionate about and go after it.

My mother told me recently about an article she read about this. Apparently, its a problem our entire generation is having. Feeling like we have no future, havent accomplished anything, cant seem to find happiness. I have friends who went to college for 6 years thinking they'd find their place in the world...now they're making good $ and still hate their lives. You're not alone here for sure.

Sorry you feel this way too Var, but it's cool you got the job at a fitness studio, you'll be great at that! Again, it's the little things that makes your life worth it and keeps you going and again I just don't see it right now. And bear in mind everyone this is probably just a couple week depression I'm going through. It happens I feel like the things I'm passionate about are out of my reach.

[Rocco32]

I'm 30 and used to feel the same way until my wife and I had a child. Now everday when I come home and my 2 year old daughter runs to me and gives me a hug, I know I have a purpose in life. No way to describe the emotions you feel when you have a kid but it definately gives you direction. Not saying to have a kid, but I've been in your shoes and this is when I felt my life had direction.

I'm sure that's great Bludevil and part of me wants that. But there is no way I could support a family with my income and again I just don't see that happening anytime soon. If I had a child now I'd never see him because I'd be working 4 jobs just to keep above water

[Rocco32]

I really dont know what to say, because I am in the same boat.

I hope that Lockheed understands the situation, and you get the position.

Sorry your in the same boat Jake. I really hope I get the job with Lockheed. If I don't I don't know what'll I do (job wise) because I can't stay where I am. I just wish they would call me already and let me know! I'm going crazy here, LOL

[Rocco32]

And thanks everyone for taking the time to post in here, it means alot to me. I don't have alot of friends outside of IM so I count on you all quite a bit