dreamer144

Hi everyone...

If anyone here knows anything about eating disorders, or if someone from the forum has recovered from one, can you please get in touch with me.

I've suffered from bulimia and binge eating since childhood and am pretty much alone to deal with this, as my family and friends pretty much shut out the subject when I try to talk to them because they don't want to acknowlegde that something is 'wrong' with me. I'm frustrated, sad and feeling extremely alone and would just like some support and maybe even make a new friend to help me get better.

Thanks
Andrea

ALBOB

Well, my only eating disorder is that I pretty much eat everything I can get my hands on that isn't nailed down so, I can't really help you with your specific condition. But I can tell you, you've come to the right place. Families can be a pain when it comes to support, but not here. Lot's of great people here that will help you in any way they can. Good luck, hope everything works out.

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Does your family even recognize it as an emotional/mental issue?
(not just physical)

How many times has it been deeply addressed?

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god hand

Our u overweight?

LAM

honestly the best thing to do is to talk to a professional about this. if you have full medical benefits from your job take advantage of that and seek treatment. you can really mess up your body permanately from ED's

good luck Andrea

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sorry to hear baby doll, you gotta go get some help and talk to someone about it, this stuff tends to run pretty deep, as I am sure you know.. good luck sweetie

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Most of us here are not experts on the subject, but we are definitely here for support. Glad you came along

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dreamer144

Hi again everyone! Thanks for all the responses & support...I'm definately in need of some. I hope that over time, and perhaps with your help, I will finally be able to overcome this. I've been struggling with this for way too many years and am so desparate to just have a 'normal' life.

No, God Hand, I am not overweight.... why such a question? It's kind of irrelevant.

I have actuallly gotten 'help' many times. I've been to numerous councellors, doctors, even a psychiatrist and they haven't been much help. Honestly though, I would really like to go back to a councellor, just to be able to have someone to talk to, but there is still a lot of fear of going back to one. I almost feel like I will be admitting defeat and that I am a 'failure' if I do, because somehow I wish I can just beat this on my own. I know it's not good for my body and I'm also more worried about my mind and my life. It is so emotionally tiring and draining to live like this. I just want to be able to love who I am and enjoy my life. I cannot express to you all, or even begin to explain how this eating disorder takes over my life and I'm in a constant battle with myself every waking moment. I'm so beyond stressed and drained that it makes me cry.

If any of you have stories or more thoughts please share them with me. Thanks again to you all for your support & hope you'll be with me in my road to recovery...

Andrea

aggies1ut

How about maybe researching group therapy? A local support group consisting of those who have currently suffer from, or are recovering from eating disorders, where you all could meet one a week or something. A lot of time it's good just to be able to talk to others who have experienced the same things. Best of luck to you Andrea.

The Monkey Man

that's what she's trying now, I think

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busyLivin

There's no failure in asking for help. None at all. It's very brave, actually. It sounds as if you may need (and want) professional help, so go for it! You sound determined to beat it, and have no doubt you will.

As was said, this is a very supportive board. People up at all times ready to talk. Best of luck with your treatment & recovery.

Welcome to IM

The Monkey Man

Hey, I have a better idea...

Let's start with a journal...
Have you started one yet???

Are you working out currently?

You need to tell us about that!?

Are you ready to log your daily exercise and diet,
and let this bunch of hooligans (some very knowledgable)
scrutinize every calorie???

You "CAN" get help here...
Alot of your issues, are health and fitness related...
There are certainly people here who can help in these areas...

Personal Note... After over a year of downhill diet disaster, I just began to clean up my act this week...

4 days - I feel better already, and going to feel even better to come!

Move at your own pace, steady improvements will happen!

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busyLivin

We can be there for support, but this isn't really something any of us are trained to handle.

goandykid

Might as well try though. My sisters been through anarexia and bulimia before. As you prolly know its all mental, maybe if you were raised for perfection or you have OCD or something. All in all, my sister ended up going through rehab for that and a few other things... you definately need to seek help, and this for sure is a good start. Go see some specialists, but w/e it is, try and find out what teh actual REASON it is you do this. Maybe a past memory, low self esteem, trauma etc. There som self esteem things you can do like leave notes on your mirror saying " I look GOOD!" or seomthing like that.

On a lighter note, I'm gonna assume the "yo mama so fat" thread right above this didn't help much.

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Leave my mama so fat outta this!

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goandykid

hahah im loving that thread

dreamer144

Hello again!

It's great to know that there is so much support out there, especially from people I've never even met! I enjoy reading your comments & I feel a bit stronger already just knowing I can come here and 'talk' and there are people who will 'listen'. Thank you!

goandykid Quote:

Yes, this 'disease' is all mental and thats the hardest part about beating it. There is no 'magic pill' or cure, only a struggle against yourself to try and beat it. I can't say I was specifically raised for perfection, but I am definately a perfectionist now and that carries over in how I look at myself. What I see when I look in the mirror is, to me, not 'perfect' and I try so hard for that every day. It is really exhausting. But what is 'perfect'? Honestly, I don't think that even exists, yet the part of my bulimic mind says there is, and wants me to achieve that.

I've tried hard to find the acutal reason I do this...I can't pinpoint exactly, but can narrow it down to a couple of tramatic events in my life. The death of my father at age 16, and the abusive relationship I had with a guy at age 17. Think it all started downward from there. Not to mention the struggle with self esteem and body issues I've had since about grade 5 (that was my first time ever going to see a councellor). How sad is that!


I have not yet started a journal on this fourm. Perhaps in time I will (or perhaps this will turn into one!?!) I used to just journal on my own, but haven't done that in years.
Yes I am currently working out, I'm a regular gym rat. I've been working out for over 5 years and even though over the years I have developed an intense passion for fitness, I've also become more and more 'obsessed' with it and again, try to strive for perfection.
A few months ago I was training for a figure competition, but had to pull out just months before, as my bulimia and my issues with food was just too much for me for to handle and I couldn't diet down.
Also, I thought long and hard about the after 'effects' of competition, the changes that your body goes through etc, and I just couldn't imagine mentally & emotionally handling that. I think I would have been worse off then, as I am now.
So in the best interest of my health I stopped specifically training for that, but just living that life style for all those months have taken a toll. My trainer had me on a very strict off season diet - it might as well have been a cutting diet, the calories I was taking in was only at my BMR, and I know that isn't enough for me to eat right now with the exercise I do, so I've struggled to try to get my eating back to a somewhat 'normal' diet and have upped my cals over the past little while, which has been extremely hard and I already feel so fat (which I know I'm not).

I get so frustrated because I workout regularly, lift hard, do cardio (but not over do), eat 6 meals a day, watch my calorie intake... , and still I feel as though I get no where. It's hard when you feel like you're doing everything right and feel like you have nothing to show for it...then again, maybe I do have something to show for it, but in my eyes I'm not this perfect person, with this perfect body that I think I should have, and that haunts me and makes me feel like I'm not good enough.

..... Ahh okay, well this post is already getting way too long, so I think I'll end it. Sorry for talking your 'eyes' off! lol
I'm sure I'll be back to 'vent' and yap some more...

bye for now
Thanks again all!
Drea

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dreamer144

Thanks Vieope... glad you came by to say 'hi'!

The Monkey Man

FIRST OF ALL... NOBODY IS PERFECT...
(And if they are, point them out, and I will kill them)


Do you log your WO's? (in general)... Or does your trainer?

Log the next ones here

let's see what you are up to, maybe your trainer is a quack?

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