My story... Advicee? Suggestions? My reasons
Hello everybody guess should introduce my self first my names Joseph im 20 years old male whos got a major life problem i have to deal with the rest of my life.
at 16 ive been diagnosed with low t which led to too multiple doctor visits and blood work to figure out why at such a young age my levels are so low. So its 3 am as im writing this and i usually don't talk to anyone about my problems not even my own parents figure might as well talk to someone ya know..ive been working out since i was 14 but i never gained muscle not even a pound i didnt know why... doctor wanted to put me on TRT but with the gel i was open to it but for three years i didn't have insurance so that was out the door...came one day i get a phone call from my doctor saying its urgent to come see him... and then that day came where everything came to an end after 2 years of blood work i was diagnosed with a rare genetic disorder called xxy syndrome basically have two female chromosones instead of one when the doctor told my i couldn't live my life the way a normal person would everything changed...suicidal thoughts deep depression just didn't care for anything else the only time i would be happy and not depressed was when i was workin gout even tho i knew i couldn't gain muscle i gained strength other than that i was always angry pissed off i would rage out alot... always getting into fights drinking i just wasn't my self 19 years old i was put on androgel 1.62 6 months passed my levels went from 150 to 130 something wasnt right then switched to testim went down even more... i talked to alot of people i know especially my brother in law since hes a body builder and everyone of his bodybuilder friends said i should be on injections i agree but when i told my doctors he said no because my age kept forcing me to take gels.. screw him i went to a total of 15 different doctors all them make excuses.... my parents go t fed up so they went with me even with my parents okay still wouldn't give it to me its like doctors just didnt want to help me.. suicidal thoughts got more intense depression was the worst never went out never left my room so much anger i just lost who i was...even tho i was working out i lost alot of weight i went from 160 to right now im 145 6ft tall not healthy at all... then my brother in law came over with his friends and discussed something with me that i already knew but didnt know how to say it.... do my own TRT for once in my life parents agreed with me.. i also mention before i start my trt i wanted to do a cycle gain some muscle and strength everyone agreed... ive done my research of cycles and aas for two years i know what im getting my self into... it wouldnt be my only cycle, my cycle would be test enthanate 500mg/weekly for 12 weeks followed by pct and while i come off my cycle id start my trt right away as suggested by family doctor... my trt would consist of test e 250mg weekly trt is permanent i know that and if injections would work for me i have nothing against doing them for rest of my life.
i know guys gonna say 20 years old too young for ass i would agree with u if i was a healthy young man with high test levels where they should be but as my doctors said my levels are lower then tha of a 60 year old man...guess just wrote this post too see what you guy think and if u had any advice of my problems my cycle or whatever you wanna say im open for advice im not some stubborn guy who thinks he knowsit all...i would also be under brother in law supervision at the beginning as he wants to observe how i react to the extra test in my body..just wanted to give my story before you go and judge and like i said any suggestion or advice im al ears.