^LOL, I look like total shit right now. Long story short, I have not lifted and not been on anything in 3+ months because of trying to have a child(been trying for 7 years) and getting the news that my wife has ovarian issues and we will not be able to have another child(Thank God we have one) sent me into a depression. I over ate and drank...ALOT. I am probably somewhere in the deep 20% bf(don't even ask my stomach measurement, its insane) category and have been the heaviest since my football playing days at a BEER GUT 290pds. If you remember the member Rednack's old beer belly pic, well that is what I have become. I do not want any pity as I have vowed never to let myself get this way again the rest of my life(minus health issues, God forbid). I wish I had the courage to post pics, but I don't think I could bring myself to it. I did not mean to go on a rant, but damn that felt good getting that shit off my chest. I've kept that bottled up to long. If in 4-6 months I look like my old self again...I did take starting photos(hidden deep within my phone), I promise I will post up before and after shots.