I'm not going to go into detail about the situation, but I was wondering if anybody had any advice as far as getting over this horrible feeling.
We broke up last Wednesday night/Thursday morning. I went out with my friends and was pretty much drunk from Thursday night to Sunday morning. While I had a great time, deep down I was only masking the pain I felt. On Sunday, when I was back in reality, I was still incredibly hurt, as I was when we first had our talk the previous Thursday.
On Sunday, I worked and although sad, was keeping busy and doing a good job of not thinking about her/it. Then I got off work and talked to her for the last time. When I got off the phone, I felt a panic attack coming on so I went over to my friends house and again was partially distracted.
When I got home later that night, I laid in bed, tearful, sad and completely unable to sleep. When the next morning came I around, I was miserable until class. Class kept me distracted. Then 7PM came and I went home to watch the Patriots game and that same panicked feeling came over me.
I don't know if it's an actual panic attack, but I found myself in excruciating pain struggling to breath and crying profusely. The Patriots romp of the Jets didn't have the same meaning that it usually does. I haven't worked out since last Wendesnday. I haven't eaten really anything since last wednesday either...
So I'm starting to feel better.. Sunday I was distracted but when I was alone I felt immense pain.. Monday I was distracted but when alone felt even worse pain..
Tuesday I went to one of the therapists here on campus that are free and got everything out in the open. While my friends gave me the response of "fuck her," "she's a stupid bitch," "she's a dumb cunt," or what not, that wasn't good advice in the least because that's obviously not how I feel about her. So the therapist definitely helped in that regard because I was able to explain to somebody how I actually felt without leaving out details or twisting in a way that didn't make me come off like an emotional faggot.
So then last night, I went over to my friends and we drank. I didn't want to get excessive, so I just brought over a small bottle of red wine. It helped alleviate the pain and allowed me to sleep like a normal person for the first time in a week.
Today, I'm feeling much better. I feel as if I'm finally beginning to move on but am currently in the computer lab working on a ton of shit, so I don't know how I'll feel tonight.
Basically put, and yes, you can rip on me for being heartbroken if you'd like, but I was wondering if anybody had any advice for helping me kick this trance I'm in.
I want to workout, I want to eat, I want to watch the Celtics tonight and feel like myself.
I actually did have sex with a girl over the weekend. I was really drunk but was so into it while doing it, then I came and something came over me (no pun intended). My buzz was lessened and I felt tears coming on and didn't want to look like a pussy, so I got up and immediately left. Only to call my Mom crying on my walk home.
Dude, only time can heal that wound. And that can last up to six months or more. Getting loaded only prolongs the agoney and makes you feel worse after. And also when your drunk, the chances of doing something real stupid increases. Its a one day at a time thing, it will go away but its hell in the mean time. I hope you see your way through this. Family and friends are your best support right now. Good Luck!!!
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Sorry to hear you are going through a tough time. Hopefully things will get better sooner than later. I do think it takes guts to come on here and be so honest about it. I'd guess that kind of honesty will help you recover from the pain of the breakup quicker. Good luck.