As many of you guys know, I'm suffering from severe back issues. Back issues that can really cause me some permanent damage if I'm not careful. As most of us know, if you can't squat or dead lift....you really are not going to grow that much. I know this from personal experience and it's a fact. I can not put pressure on my back, and that limits me on what I can and can not do in the gym. In a nut shell....I can no longer do half the shit I used to be able to do in the gym without insane pain and the use of strong pain killers. I'm more or less fucked.
I worked almost 20 years to get the body I have, and as each week passes, I see all those years of hard gains starting to disappear. And it breaks my heart. Running cycles with 2-3gr of oil is now just a waste. I've been trying for the past 8 months or so to try different methods/programs to keep my gains...but without the proper training, it can't happen. I am going to lose what I gained no matter what. Sure, I could take the risk of squatting, dead lifting, leg pressing, etc....but in doing so, I could very well end up in a wheel chair for the rest of my life. There are some risky surgeries that I can try, but even the doctors told me they are all risky and NONE of them are 100%. I hit a max of 278 in my life, now I'm floating in the 230 region and my bf% is climbing.
In short, I will be cruising on a low dose of test and about 250mg of deca every week, just to help with my joints and my bones. And I will still be taking GH, I just won't be using slin and IGF in conjunction with it. I am going to have to lead a completely different lifestyle from here on in.
Fuck...I, I don't even know what I'm going to do with my arsenal of gear, AI, SERMS, etc. I just picked up a couple hundred hits of proviron because I run that shit at 150mg ED. I finally made the decision to do all that I can to keep my gains to the best of my ability with LIGHT workouts. I will continue to go hard where my back is not effected....but most every movement puts stress on my back.
All my problems aside, I will still be here and I will still do my best to help out the community to the best of my ability. I'm ever so sad I have to make this call....but I don't want to risk not being able to walk for the rest of my life. I want to start a family one day, my wife and I want to have kids soon.....and if my back snaps.....well, what the fuck kind of father will I be sitting from a wheelchair? So, all I will be doing is GH, test, and deca. And as for all my gear, I don't know what I'm going to do with it all. Maybe give some away to my boys on their birthdays or give some to my clients. Later guys.....
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