AS sick as it sounds I was Sitting in the ER last night thinking about my next cycle and when getting back on track and getting back with Gopro and coming back even stronger bigger, harder and leaner. Why i got in to working out was for self protection and to give create such a strong exterior to hind the internal pain for no one to see. After the years it started to become obseesive and wanting more and more and here I am ...and will i do it again yes you bet..If I am going to die donig what i love and i will be damned if I am not going to die by sitting in a chair or being a vegetable. I told my parents if I ever become unable to function on my own SHOOT ME pull he plug and let me die with dignity.