Alright, alright... a few of you have suggested I start a journal on here. I keep one on my computer anyway, so I figure, might as well just cut n paste my workouts and meals into this, and pepper it with the rants, comments, and more rants, with which I pepper everyone else's threads. Though, why anyone would subject themselves to my ramblings is beyond me!
So here goes, a quick reintroduction, I guess:
While I am impressed by and admire those of you who compete, that's not really a goal of mine. As I mentioned to someone who asked, I'm much to shy for that sort of thing, and just want to be happy with myself, inside and out. I won't say "never" because, as the past few months have proven, it's silly to say. For example, up until July, I'd said, "I'll never eat broccoli. It's disgusting. I'd rather starve." Now I eat broccoli at least twice a day. Exactly. So while I'm not ruling it out, I'm not training with competition in mind.
- 28 years old
- Miami, Florida
- Aesthetic Goals:
- BF Current: 15% / BR Goal: 12-10% (pretty reasonable, eh?)
- Weight Current: 109 / Goal: Whatever it comes out to, so long as it's mostly muscle! RAWR!
- Look good in a bikini (or hell, look good naked!)
- Overall goal -- Make a permanent lifestyle change by
- Improving and cleaning up my diet
- Exercising regularly
- Improving my self-esteem and self-confidence
- Learning to deal with my body image issues
- Appreciating the positives in my life
- Acknowledging the negatives and dealing with them constructively
- Helping others do the same for all of the aforementioned
This whole thing started because I wanted to look good in a bikini -- and believe me I still want that. But it has become something bigger. I already know I will look good in a bikini, so I almost consider that goal achieved. But the overall goal, that takes a lifetime to maintain, and that's what I'm striving for.
I should note: In July, I took a personal trainer certification course and am now certified. That means shit since I'm not really working as a trainer (yet). It something I did for myself. I wanted to "know" what the trainers know. The class was pretty hard, it was two months long, but it wasn't anything I hadn't already read before. And anatomy. Lots and lots of anatomy. Turns out I remember a surprising amount of information I'd considered "useless" back in college when I took Human Biology.
As for what I 'learned" in this PT cert course, I guess just that I paid $400 and sat in a class made it "legit" to me. But nothing teaches me more than putting it all into practice, so I'm doing just that, with myself first.I have learned a lot since I started this little journey, but every day I realize how much more I have yet to learn.
In the future, I plan to help others learn about healthy living, and help them achieve their health and fitness goals. It's become something I'm passionate about. Prior to this I can honestly say that besides just living and waking up in the morning, I had no passion for anything. I envied my friends who knew exactly what they wanted to do with their lives. I wanted to have a hobby or a pastime I felt strongly about. Something that made me tick.
I've dabbled in fitness here and there - martial arts, running groups, aerobics classes, gymnastics, ballroom dancing (yes, it can be a hell of a workout). Bah, I was even a cheerleader in high school (shhh. Don't tell anyone hahaha!). But it was always just something I did because I had spare time or wanted to try but never stuck to.
"Who has time for that stuff... I have to work, and Scrubs is on. And the Law & Order marathon, and hey let's order pizza..."
You know, life happens. Well, no more. I happen now.