I guess I had to look for a catchy name for my journal. This is the most true to form journal that I will have. The others I will keep for my own benefit of what to do and not to do.
I have made a very important promise to myself. NO MORE EXCUSES. If I get sick, something happens in the family, I hurt myself, etc., then I have to suck it up, and get back on. No more whining and crying "Why?". That sickens me. I have successfully made myself sick with, well, myself.
I am not going to be making diaries at the drop of a hat, nope...I am making this diary because my last "failed" diary was too negative. Too much whining and crying from my part. What I need is positive energy. I feed from it.
Why do I call it demolition and reconstruction? Simple, imagine an old hotel that's on prime land in front of the beach. Put a couple of charges in the foundations of the building, and it'll crumble. Then you put in a brand new and more attractive luxury hotel in its place. Well, that's me, with the help of HIT and a balanced diet, I will demolish my old hag of a body and reconstruct it into a luxury body. Or at least as close to it as I can.
For that reason, I am re-entering the IM competition (whether there is one or not) not to win, but to give me a target and see where I am at when the competition actually takes place.
I am 5 ft 9"
I weigh 275.5 pounds
My immediate goals: Do I have to say them? To cut. I want to go down to my more natural weight of 190-200 pounds (I was wearing size 31 pants then). I want to replace the fat with pure muscle. No, I don't want to be huge, I just want to be large enough to be happy with myself. I will give myself a monthly goal of no more than 10 pounds per month. I want to be able to get to summer with a better outlook, but I really want to make it a full year project, and a long term plan...
My long term goals: Ya'll know them, to live longer than I am projecting myself to live if I continue with this nonsense.
I have put on 25 pounds since I hurt my shoulder, that's pretty freaking embarrassing. What did I do instead of working hard to get better? I ate and sat, and did nothing. No more excuses.
To attain my goals I will follow Dr. Darden's New HIT lifestyle. I will follow a very strict diet as it has been laid out in his new book and will try to exactly follow his training plan. I will work out 3 times a week. This workout will be a full body workout. If I see that I can't do a full body at first, I will break it up into body parts, but I will not give up, I continue trying to attach my body, fully. I understand that this is not a routine for the meek and weak. You have to have brass ones to do this. I have no choice, I will go for it and succeed, no excuses, no questions....
Now, to begin....again....