Three years ago my Aunt enrolled me into Weight Watchers with her, and I had never thought I had a problem with my weight (at my first weigh in I was 18, 143 pounds and 5'4).
Since then, I had stopped going to Weight Watchers, it triggered binge eating because I always felt deprived (they had me eating 18 points a day, which is the equivalent of 900 calories a day, they have since changed it, but now someone at my height and weight would be eating 1000, which is still too low), and the gains that I gained from the binge would just add up on the scales, and then it turned into a vicious cycle that lasted up until a little while, when I decided, hey, maybe the way to losing the weight and feeling good, getting over my fear of food,calories and binge eating would stop if I up my calories.
So far, from two years of restricting to 900 calories a day, I have gotten myself to 1200. I would like to go higher, but I am afraid that if I up my calories too fast I will gain the weight back that I have lost (I currently weigh 133 pounds, and I was previously about 147 at my highest).
But all this thinking of food is really starting to get to me mentally.. And I was wondering if any of you guys had any suggestions for me. I would like to be strong and fit, but not over the top, I want something I can maintain that I could benefit from for life.
Since then, I had stopped going to Weight Watchers, it triggered binge eating because I always felt deprived (they had me eating 18 points a day, which is the equivalent of 900 calories a day, they have since changed it, but now someone at my height and weight would be eating 1000, which is still too low), and the gains that I gained from the binge would just add up on the scales, and then it turned into a vicious cycle that lasted up until a little while, when I decided, hey, maybe the way to losing the weight and feeling good, getting over my fear of food,calories and binge eating would stop if I up my calories.
So far, from two years of restricting to 900 calories a day, I have gotten myself to 1200. I would like to go higher, but I am afraid that if I up my calories too fast I will gain the weight back that I have lost (I currently weigh 133 pounds, and I was previously about 147 at my highest).
But all this thinking of food is really starting to get to me mentally.. And I was wondering if any of you guys had any suggestions for me. I would like to be strong and fit, but not over the top, I want something I can maintain that I could benefit from for life.