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chiquita6683 · 01-01-2005, 08:37 PM

Im not sure what forumn/thread thing to post this under, but here goes.

So I have 2 Traumatic Brain Injuries, been through alot, but bodybuilding is my way of dealing with it. It has really helped me. I couldn't do any of it without my family, my motivation, or my God.

So here's my story............
This group is going to give me, Maria Andreu, encouragement and support..... 12/28/00, at the age of 17, in the middle of my senior year of high school, I was hit on the passenger side @50mph (my ex-boyfriend was driving,there was no drinking, we were actually going into a Bailey's gym.) He only had a concusion, I however was left w several broken bones. I was in a coma over a month, and had numerous other injuries, but the worst of the injuries was a Traumatic Brain Injury, which I'll have the rest of my life. I went through 2 years of therapy of all kinds. I walked in graduation, and got a standing ovation.

Then on 9/13/02, my mother was driving me to college and was hit on her side, she passed away a week later, but of other health complications. I sustained a 2nd brain injury, both TBIs were on the frontal lobe of my brain. I was put back into therapy, still going through some. The right side of my body is weaker/slower and I have MANY cognitive deficiets and my speech is greatly affected. Thats why this goal will be such a challenge.

My new goal is to compete in a bodybuilding competition, naturally, not to win, but to come back from this and be the best I can be. I see the patients(that have similar injuries) when I go to therapy, and I realize how lucky I am. That is 1 of my reasons I want to compete. All of your support is greatly appreciated

.................heres my problem/question

So tonight I was working arms, a long sleeved-shirt and a t-shirt over it, with sweatpants, everything covered. I had done some tricep excercises, I had a feeling of rage come over me .......... Theres a 1/2dummy-thing filled with water in the areobics room so I went there, on the way there I started making noises like I was going to cry (but I can't). I took out all my rage, screaming and punching the dummy. I finnally knocked the dummy over. That felt good. I curled up in a ball breathing heavily on floor. The aerobics room is open and wide like its missing a wall so guys kept going to the water foutain and looking atme. I finally calmed down, came out, walked around. Started freaking out, like oh god what do they think of me? So I tried to tell all the muscle guys that I been through something. They were like yeah okay im workng out. I mean thats not what they said. So I just went along with my workout.............I didnt even get to do a 3rd excersice for biceps bc 1 of the staff had to come repremand me.
I was cool about it..... She said I had made a member feel uncomfortable, and they said I had turned over a trash can........Right, well you know this is a gym, I need to vent somewhere, I can't act this way out in public. I take medication, I've in an Institution! I said that loud n clear. She said okay lets goin the office. Where she had take deep breaths and try to calm me down

When I came out, the member who I think it was, was doing cardio. He was some skinny really pale guy w a black sleevless shirt on w a bible verse on it, had glasses, goyte, sorta cut. Would be intimidated by me, thrashing around, and my muscles. I dont know if hes ever seen me before. I went to his treadmill, I looked at him, I said "There wasn't any trash can over there" He goes I dont know what your talking about. I go " whatever"

flex(jr) · 01-01-2005, 09:02 PM

I Am Wit U All The Way! Always Ur Buddie, Gihan!

G-man · 01-01-2005, 09:35 PM

Dont apologize for feeling rage during a workout, most people want that feeling to intensify and focus their workout. And god knows after what you'v been through your going to have some emotional swings. Just remember its better to take that rage out on a punching bag or barbell than some whiney ass, just not as satisfying.

MTN WARRIOR · 01-02-2005, 08:28 AM

Good luck in your recovery. Highly suggest Lance Armstrong's book "Its Not About the Bike". May help you as he has been through a simliar experience.

01-01-2005, 08:37 PM	#1
chiquita6683 Senior Member Elite Member Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Florida Posts: 814 Photos: 1	Appropriate? Im not sure what forumn/thread thing to post this under, but here goes. So I have 2 Traumatic Brain Injuries, been through alot, but bodybuilding is my way of dealing with it. It has really helped me. I couldn't do any of it without my family, my motivation, or my God. So here's my story............ This group is going to give me, Maria Andreu, encouragement and support..... 12/28/00, at the age of 17, in the middle of my senior year of high school, I was hit on the passenger side @50mph (my ex-boyfriend was driving,there was no drinking, we were actually going into a Bailey's gym.) He only had a concusion, I however was left w several broken bones. I was in a coma over a month, and had numerous other injuries, but the worst of the injuries was a Traumatic Brain Injury, which I'll have the rest of my life. I went through 2 years of therapy of all kinds. I walked in graduation, and got a standing ovation. Then on 9/13/02, my mother was driving me to college and was hit on her side, she passed away a week later, but of other health complications. I sustained a 2nd brain injury, both TBIs were on the frontal lobe of my brain. I was put back into therapy, still going through some. The right side of my body is weaker/slower and I have MANY cognitive deficiets and my speech is greatly affected. Thats why this goal will be such a challenge. My new goal is to compete in a bodybuilding competition, naturally, not to win, but to come back from this and be the best I can be. I see the patients(that have similar injuries) when I go to therapy, and I realize how lucky I am. That is 1 of my reasons I want to compete. All of your support is greatly appreciated .................heres my problem/question So tonight I was working arms, a long sleeved-shirt and a t-shirt over it, with sweatpants, everything covered. I had done some tricep excercises, I had a feeling of rage come over me .......... Theres a 1/2dummy-thing filled with water in the areobics room so I went there, on the way there I started making noises like I was going to cry (but I can't). I took out all my rage, screaming and punching the dummy. I finnally knocked the dummy over. That felt good. I curled up in a ball breathing heavily on floor. The aerobics room is open and wide like its missing a wall so guys kept going to the water foutain and looking atme. I finally calmed down, came out, walked around. Started freaking out, like oh god what do they think of me? So I tried to tell all the muscle guys that I been through something. They were like yeah okay im workng out. I mean thats not what they said. So I just went along with my workout.............I didnt even get to do a 3rd excersice for biceps bc 1 of the staff had to come repremand me. I was cool about it..... She said I had made a member feel uncomfortable, and they said I had turned over a trash can........Right, well you know this is a gym, I need to vent somewhere, I can't act this way out in public. I take medication, I've in an Institution! I said that loud n clear. She said okay lets goin the office. Where she had take deep breaths and try to calm me down When I came out, the member who I think it was, was doing cardio. He was some skinny really pale guy w a black sleevless shirt on w a bible verse on it, had glasses, goyte, sorta cut. Would be intimidated by me, thrashing around, and my muscles. I dont know if hes ever seen me before. I went to his treadmill, I looked at him, I said "There wasn't any trash can over there" He goes I dont know what your talking about. I go " whatever"
	In my opinion, it looks like you want your outside to look the way you feel deep inside. You know how hard you've worked to get where you are, and the physical expression of the internal strength is why you like the idea of muscle -Kane

01-02-2005, 08:28 AM	#4
MTN WARRIOR HOOAH!!! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: HOOAHVILLE Posts: 604	Good luck in your recovery. Highly suggest Lance Armstrong's book "Its Not About the Bike". May help you as he has been through a simliar experience.
	THAT WHICH DOES NOT KILL ME, CERTAINLY MUST MAKE ME STRONGER

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01-01-2005, 09:02 PM	#2
flex(jr) ::: UNDER CONTRUCTION ::: Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Sri Lanka Posts: 10 Photos: 7	I Am Wit U All The Way! Always Ur Buddie, Gihan!

01-01-2005, 09:35 PM	#3
G-man Rehabing to the Max Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Buffalo, NY Posts: 100	Dont apologize for feeling rage during a workout, most people want that feeling to intensify and focus their workout. And god knows after what you'v been through your going to have some emotional swings. Just remember its better to take that rage out on a punching bag or barbell than some whiney ass, just not as satisfying.