I have found the link I have been looking for in my problem NOW what can I do about it. After the contest my test levels crashed and that is when we started increasing caloires and when all problems started to happen. Now the reason is that if my test levels that were in the 700-800 range are now in the 200 range could not handle the protein i was consuming and was causing un wanted stress on my digestive track. I have found several coresponding articles that support this. that deficency in test levels effect the bodys ability to assimulate proteins. And the side effect of this was terrbile strain on my digestion track and the protein that were unable to be breaken down resulted in toxins being released into my body causing me to become cloudy headed and un clear. plus lower of testosterone sent me in to depression big time and why i lost all my gains i would have had from the contest. Now I have talked to alot of people and I know I am shut down and the results show my LH levels are incredible low and clomid wasn;t doing anything becuase I needed HCG to start the igintion then nolvadex can do it job. It just dawned on me the other day about ever thing was connected once i get my test levels back up my body will assimulate protein at a much higher rate and all my digestion problems will be corrected as well. I stopped the paxil because it was only realiveing the side effect of all the protein I was consumming which was the major cause of the stress and not my job, but being around the holidays did not help matters any way. So goal right now is to get some HCG and some nolvadex and do that for a month and from all the people I talked to they said I should befine and back to my old self again.