Anyone not sure what they want to do?

[AKIRA]

My job and training has always been good, but theres a time when a person feels a need for self-improvement. This has made me feel down and Ive been experiencing a lot of anxiety lately because of it. Lots of negative thoughts, "nevers, all or nothings," slippery slopes, I hate it.

I am the kind of person that sees every negative thing down the line, that I cant stay focused on what could be positive. I fucking hate feeling like this. I have an ok life, a lot better than others, so why do I feel like this? I should be grateful for everyday I can get up and live.

For instance, I have an audition in Feb 10 that may enable me to get into Univeristy of Florida. Ive been worried about actually moving there to a school, not knowing anyone, having to find work, and hoping that my money going to classes is going to net me a future.

I know there are some college kids in here, so I know you guys have experienced this shit, but I am 26 years old turning 27 in Feb.. I am going to feel really fucking ODD...and I am going to feel ODD alone.

 

[ALBOB]

I know exactly what I want to do. I want to go back to bed and get rid of this damn headache.

 

[zombul]

I know what your saying man I have jumped all over the board.It seems like my best forms of income are all exercise related.I manage a gym and do alot of exercise demo's for places but as much as I like it I don't know if it's for sure what I always want to do.I perform in a large show and play lead characters but havn't made up my mind whether to pursue that any further.Play to your talents; or what you want them to be,it's frustrating.I can't decide what to commit to.

 

[Doublebase]

Be thankful for what you have. Atleast your not over in Iraq, away from your family and friends. I feel bad for those guys. It must be so scary and hard. What did you do in your early 20's?

 

[zombul]

Be thankful for what you have. Atleast your not over in Iraq, away from your family and friends. I feel bad for those guys. It must be so scary and hard. What did you do in your early 20's?

I'm 23.

 

[AKIRA]

Be thankful for what you have. Atleast your not over in Iraq, away from your family and friends. I feel bad for those guys. It must be so scary and hard. What did you do in your early 20's?

Thats the kind of mentality that I try to keep. "It could be worse..." However, it just doesnt work outside the box. It should, but it just doesnt.

Zombul, are you the actor on this site?

 

[Doublebase]

Thats the kind of mentality that I try to keep. "It could be worse..." However, it just doesnt work outside the box. It should, but it just doesnt.

Zombul, are you the actor on this site?

Yes he is. I was asking you what you did in your early 20's. Did you go to college? Did something fall through?

 

[americanwit]

I am turning 30 in a few months and am going through the exact same stuff. I totally don't know what I want to do. I feel like a failure, and to top it off I'm getting married and I have no idea how I'm going to pay for it. Anyway, you are not alone.

 

[KelJu]

I have made good decisions that have put me in the driver's seat of life. I will soon graduate with a degree in a hard science. I know exactly what I want to do, and I have a set plan for how I plan to do it. I wish every aspect of my life was this good.

 

[zombul]

I started performing when I was about 18 so I had no college.I have been raised around a weight room and boxed as a kid growing up.I have taught myself about everything.

 

[Doublebase]

I will soon graduate with a degree in a hard science.

What is that?

 

[Doublebase]

I am turning 30 in a few months and am going through the exact same stuff. I totally don't know what I want to do. I feel like a failure, and to top it off I'm getting married and I have no idea how I'm going to pay for it. Anyway, you are not alone.

So you lie about your age.

 

[MCx2]

I guess I'm doing what I'm going to do. I sure as hell didn't have this planned for myself, but like the others said, it could be a lot worse. I know where you're coming from though, I get the feeling sometime that "This is it huh?" This is what I can expect from the rest of my life? But it never seems to be enough panic to do something about it. So I keep going, scrimping and saving, making sure that I have the ways and the means to do what I want to whenever that "whatever" presents itself. All you can do is fill the days with things you enjoy doing and hope for the best. I've got my bases covered. I like my job, I like to workout, and I like to smoke weed. You guys hear from me a few times a month to hang out, and I enjoy that as well. We've got it pretty good actually.

 

[Doublebase]

Maybe you and FatCat need girlfriends.

 

[zombul]

Don't know who your talking to DB but I have a beautiful gf.

 

[fufu]

I am turning 30 in a few months and am going through the exact same stuff. I totally don't know what I want to do. I feel like a failure, and to top it off I'm getting married and I have no idea how I'm going to pay for it. Anyway, you are not alone.

Your profile says your age is 23.

 

[Doublebase]

Don't know who your talking to DB but I have a beautiful gf.

I haven't asked you a question or referred to you at all during this thread.

 

[AKIRA]

Yes he is. I was asking you what you did in your early 20's. Did you go to college? Did something fall through?

From 19-23 I took classes at a community college. I never took a full schedule, so thats why my AA degree seems like a full term. Anyway, this is why I asked about zombul....I got an AA in fucking Acting. Haha, YEAH.

In any case, thats where my panic comes from. I thought that once you get an AA, any school within the state will accept me. Well, thats true, but you have to declare a major at the end of the '2 year' term. Mine was acting. However, getting older and growing up, I wanted to change that, but I still wanted to move to a college. Well, since I have hardly ANY prerequisites for other alternatives other than ACTING, no one will touch me. Its like I have to go back to community college and take courses HERE. Angry, I never went. Honestly, not going to school invokes panic attacks. But theres more to it than just school....its a biggie though.

 

[largepkg]

My job and training has always been good, but theres a time when a person feels a need for self-improvement. This has made me feel down and Ive been experiencing a lot of anxiety lately because of it. Lots of negative thoughts, "nevers, all or nothings," slippery slopes, I hate it.

I am the kind of person that sees every negative thing down the line, that I cant stay focused on what could be positive. I fucking hate feeling like this. I have an ok life, a lot better than others, so why do I feel like this? I should be grateful for everyday I can get up and live.

For instance, I have an audition in Feb 10 that may enable me to get into Univeristy of Florida. Ive been worried about actually moving there to a school, not knowing anyone, having to find work, and hoping that my money going to classes is going to net me a future.

I know there are some college kids in here, so I know you guys have experienced this shit, but I am 26 years old turning 27 in Feb.. I am going to feel really fucking ODD...and I am going to feel ODD alone.

Prepare for the worst, but don't dwell on it. Remember that you make a conscious effort everyday to be pessimistic. This is a choice.

Akira, always keep your head up and your eyes open. You never know when your break will come. If you work hard, you will get your chance, you just need to recognize it.

 

[largepkg]

I was in your shoes partner, as were/are the majority of us here.

 

[AKIRA]

Prepare for the worst, but don't dwell on it. Remember that you make a conscious effort everyday to be pessimistic. This is a choice.
Akira, always keep your head up and your eyes open. You never know when your break will come. If you work hard, you will get your chance, you just need to recognize it.

Good advice. And this was a New years Resolution...."go easier on myself, lighten up, be more optimistic."

 

[MCx2]

Maybe you and FatCat need girlfriends.

When I find a woman that I can tolerate for more than 15 minutes at a time, I will.

That being said, I'm a loner, and I'm fairly sure I am incapable of love. I can write people off, and forget about them without one ounce of remorse. I rarely leave the house, and rarely care to. I have accepted the fact that I will grow old alone, but I'm not worried about the future. I'm very content doing what I do and living where I live, and just being me.

 

[Squaggleboggin]

What's even worse is that, at the age of 17, I feel really insecure about my future because I don't know what I want to do yet. High schools and colleges put so much pressure on you to choose something, and I think it's way too early in life to choose what you're going to do. I mean, you're choosing something that will last 2-3 times as long as you've been alive at this point. That's ridiculous, I think.

Be glad you didn't go to college. You might've ended up with a degree in something you hate, and stuck somewhere you'd rather not be. Better to find late what you love than to stick early to what you hate.

 

[Doublebase]

What's even worse is that, at the age of 17, I feel really insecure about my future because I don't know what I want to do yet.

I think you'll do fine in life Squag. You are intelligent for your age and have better grammar and spelling then 99% of the people on this board. Pick something that you enjoy and stick with it.

 

[viet_jon]

My job and training has always been good, but theres a time when a person feels a need for self-improvement. This has made me feel down and Ive been experiencing a lot of anxiety lately because of it. Lots of negative thoughts, "nevers, all or nothings," slippery slopes, I hate it.

I am the kind of person that sees every negative thing down the line, that I cant stay focused on what could be positive. .................................................................

Good Thread Akira.

I think being anxious about the future is natural for everyone. It's like a built in mechanism for people to strive for the best. In a way, you have to think about all the negatives, so you can best prepare for them. Without this anxiety, you would be busy celebrating your past accomplishments, which really, do no good for your future anyhow.

Have you heard of Kierkegaard? His philosophy on this subject is very inspiring.

Anxiety leads to action: "Kierkegaard wrote that the most common form of despair occurs when one does not choose or 'will' to be oneself -- when a person is 'another than himself.' The opposite of despair is 'to will to be that self which one truly is.' That's the experience of anxiety.It is choosing life in the face of death; it is the experience of thought becoming action, reflection becoming behavior, and theory becoming practice. Anxiety is pure energy."


Anxiety makes you a grown-up: "Anxiety is the experience of growth itself. In any endeavor, how do you feel when you go from one stage to the next? The answer: You feel anxious. Anxiety that is denied makes us ill; anxiety that is fully confronted and fully lived through converts itself into joy, security, strength, centeredness, and character. The practical formula: Go where the pain is."

 

[goob]

Good advice. And this was a New years Resolution...."go easier on myself, lighten up, be more optimistic."

Prozac???

 

[Double D]

I thought I had everything figured out. I had a job paid decent and I got a memo the other day that said they were going to do away with my position in 3 months! So needless to say i am fucked!

My personal life is great. Wife, 2 kids and 1 on the way! Cant ask for more than that. But yeah the job thing will get ya down for sure.

 

[goob]

I thought I had everything figured out. I had a job paid decent and I got a memo the other day that said they were going to do away with my position in 3 months! So needless to say i am fucked!

My personal life is great. Wife, 2 kids and 1 on the way! Cant ask for more than that. But yeah the job thing will get ya down for sure.

A memo??? A fucking memo??!!!! That sums up what's wrong with corporate America. They not have the guts to tell you in person???? Scummy.
Sorry to hear that.

 

[Double D]

Yeah no kidding. So they say we have 3 months and I say I am not doing a damn thing for 3 months just keep the money coming.

 

[goob]

Yeah no kidding. So they say we have 3 months and I say I am not doing a damn thing for 3 months just keep the money coming.

3 months to get a new job s'pose. What do you do? Is there any scope for similar positions elsewhere in your area?