7/31/04
Hi everyone! Welcome to my journal
I have missed this board, and everyone here! Not much has been going on since I have left. (well that isn't true - i will get into that later!)
On the diet/training front I started getting really bored with recording my workouts and food intake. Not too mention I was having problems with bingeing. Since I decided to stop recording everything I - surprisingly - stopped all bingeing! My diet was pretty clean and healthy for the average person, but not really helping me get lean enough to compete. I tend to hover around 15-16% these days without a real game plan. In order for me to get to where I need to be for a show, I need to get more serious. I mean I was eating bread like it was going out of style - bread & ff cheese sandwiches - ha - that was not good!
This whole summer I have been going out a lot more than usual. You see my boyfriend - ex-boyfriend now that is - broke up with me a few months ago after 5 yrs together. He was very mean and nasty about it too and I felt absolutely crushed to say the least. Having him break up with me like that & being rejected over, and over and over and over again on job interviews...my self-esteem was at an all time low. It would have been very easy for me to turn to food for comfort but since I stopped being so anal about food it just didn't appeal to me the way it used to anymore.
Instead I began going out all the time with my friends - which is great. It really helped my mood. I even talked to other guys - something I haven't done at all in 5 yrs - so that helped give my self-esteem a boost too. The only problem with going out all the time is being tempted by crap food and alcohol. Actually, I usually do well with the food, I know how to order, but still you never know how much oil, etc. or whatever is in your meal. I normally never drink but the past few weeks I have been having 1-2 Smirnoff ices when I go out. Now I realize I can't do that anymore~ but at the time I needed it
I felt I was getting too far away from feeling like a health-conscious person, let alone a figure competitor! So I decided that I should get back to it and begin using my anger, sadness, frustration, etc. in a more positive manner. I started hanging out with my fitness/figure friends and hearing about their plans, and upcoming shows. It really made me miss competing and I decided I am going to compete at least once during the upcoming fall season! (There are 5 shows in my area this fall - starting the last week in Sept - all the way through the month of October!)
I'm not sure which show(s) I will do yet but I am gonna start training my heart out - TODAY!!!
Hi everyone! Welcome to my journal

On the diet/training front I started getting really bored with recording my workouts and food intake. Not too mention I was having problems with bingeing. Since I decided to stop recording everything I - surprisingly - stopped all bingeing! My diet was pretty clean and healthy for the average person, but not really helping me get lean enough to compete. I tend to hover around 15-16% these days without a real game plan. In order for me to get to where I need to be for a show, I need to get more serious. I mean I was eating bread like it was going out of style - bread & ff cheese sandwiches - ha - that was not good!
This whole summer I have been going out a lot more than usual. You see my boyfriend - ex-boyfriend now that is - broke up with me a few months ago after 5 yrs together. He was very mean and nasty about it too and I felt absolutely crushed to say the least. Having him break up with me like that & being rejected over, and over and over and over again on job interviews...my self-esteem was at an all time low. It would have been very easy for me to turn to food for comfort but since I stopped being so anal about food it just didn't appeal to me the way it used to anymore.
Instead I began going out all the time with my friends - which is great. It really helped my mood. I even talked to other guys - something I haven't done at all in 5 yrs - so that helped give my self-esteem a boost too. The only problem with going out all the time is being tempted by crap food and alcohol. Actually, I usually do well with the food, I know how to order, but still you never know how much oil, etc. or whatever is in your meal. I normally never drink but the past few weeks I have been having 1-2 Smirnoff ices when I go out. Now I realize I can't do that anymore~ but at the time I needed it

I felt I was getting too far away from feeling like a health-conscious person, let alone a figure competitor! So I decided that I should get back to it and begin using my anger, sadness, frustration, etc. in a more positive manner. I started hanging out with my fitness/figure friends and hearing about their plans, and upcoming shows. It really made me miss competing and I decided I am going to compete at least once during the upcoming fall season! (There are 5 shows in my area this fall - starting the last week in Sept - all the way through the month of October!)
I'm not sure which show(s) I will do yet but I am gonna start training my heart out - TODAY!!!