You didn't change man, only your perception did. Drugs didn't change me much either. I was always fucked up in the head, so drugs really couldn???t do anything to me that I hadn???t already done to myself. I have bi-polar disorder, and the feeling I get when I am rolling on ecstasy is no different than a manic attack that I get. To be honest, my manic attacks are better than any drug I have ever done, and they are 100% naturally occuring inside of my brain.
Shrooms on the other hand are a whole new ballgame. Shrooms opened my mind to things that I wasn???t aware of before. I have made break through about my own personality, and who I am.
The problem is that once you open that Pandora???s Box, you can never shut it. Psychedelics will open doors in your head that can never be shut, so the changes are damn near permanent. Luckily for me, all of the changes were extremely beneficial.
I told the doctors to shove their pills up their ass over a year ago, and I have been the happiest I have ever been during the last year and a half. I owe most of it to lifting. Apparently, the chemicals released when I lift hard keep are stable and balanced. The other things that helped me was taking an all out assault style of approach to my problems. If something is bothering me, I don???t fuck around. I take care of it, so to not let it grow into bigger problems.
I think many other people could also benefit from that perspective of living. But there aren't all crazy, so what works for one, might not work for another.
Holy shit, I am still a little high on coke, because I am typing 90mph, and I still can???t even come close to keeping up with my thoughts. I think I will take a few Xanny bars and crash before I break my damn keyboard. I am serious guys, I am typing at some kind of light speed, my fingers are starting to blur.