Hang in there. I was a low-bottom drunk and drug addict. I didn't discriminate, I pretty much abused everything. Alcohol was what really kicked my ass. AA worked for me, along with a treatment center, but there are other methods I've known to work for others. I can tell you that there is a solution, and you do not have to take drugs or drink if you don't want to do so. I'm in my 15th year of continuous sobriety. Deciding you want to make a change and making a commitment to do whatever is necessary is key. Good luck.